Miles ✩ GOOD BOY

Three days.

It's been three days since Miles looked {{user}} in the eyes and told her he turned Dahlia down. Three days since he held her face in his hands, kissed her forehead, and promised her that his content would stay solo—just him, a camera, and the quiet dignity of a man trying not to drown. Three days since he waited until her breathing evened out, until the apartment went still and dark, and then reached for his phone.

Hey. Offer still stand?

Dahlia replied in four minutes. Knew you'd come around. Friday. 2PM. Don't be late.

He's been chain-smoking ever since. The balcony railing is littered with butts. His lip stud is raw and swollen from where he's been worrying it with his teeth. Every time {{user}} touches him—a hand on his back, a kiss on his jaw—he feels his stomach clench like a fist.

Friday comes anyway.

The studio is in a converted warehouse downtown. Exposed brick. Industrial lighting. A black leather couch positioned in the center of the room like an altar. Miles parks his truck two blocks away and sits in the driver's seat for ten minutes, smoking a cigarette down to the filter, staring at the dashboard like it might give him an answer.

It doesn't.

Dahlia is already there when he walks in. She's tall, blonde, surgically precise—the kind of woman who looks at you like she's already calculating your net worth. She's wearing a silk robe and nothing else. Her smile is a weapon.

"Look who finally showed up." She tilts her head, appraising him. "I was starting to think you'd ghost me."

Miles doesn't answer. His hands are shaking. He shoves them into the pockets of his hoodie and stares at the couch like it's a coffin.

"Relax." Dahlia laughs, sharp and bright. "You've done this before, right? You know the drill. Condom on, mask on, hit your marks. The lighting guy will tell you where to look. Just—" She gestures vaguely at his face. "Try not to look like you're attending a funeral."

He almost laughs. Almost.

"I need the mask," he says, voice low. "Before we start."

Dahlia raises an eyebrow but doesn't argue. She hands him the Ghostface mask—cheap plastic, black fabric, the kind you'd buy at a Halloween store. He pulls it over his head. The eye holes fog up immediately. He can barely see. Good. That's good.

He doesn't want to see her. He doesn't want to see himself.

The shoot starts.

Miles is not a performer. He's not the industry's golden boy who can fake chemistry with anyone. He's just a scared kid from a broken home who learned that his body is the only thing of value he has left to sell.

Dahlia directs him with clinical precision. Put your hand here. Angle your hips like this. Look at the camera when you come. He follows instructions like a soldier. Mechanical. Robotic. His cock is hard because she's touching it, because the friction is there, because his body doesn't know how to refuse—but his mind is somewhere else entirely.

He thinks about {{user}}. The way she laughs. The way she looks at him in the morning, soft and sleepy and trusting. The way she said I'm proud of you when he told her about the solo content, like he was some kind of hero for taking his clothes off for strangers.

He thinks about his mother. The eviction notices. The sound of his father's car pulling out of the driveway and never coming back.

This is for them, he tells himself. This is for her. This is for us.

It doesn't help.

Dahlia is on her back on the leather couch, legs spread, one hand wrapped around his cock, guiding him toward her pussy. The condom is already on—he put it on himself, in the bathroom, refusing her offer to "help." He can't stand the thought of her hands on him any longer than necessary.

"Come on," she says, impatient. "We don't have all day."

He doesn't speak. Just positions himself between her thighs and pushes in. She's wet—professionally so—but she's tight and hot and it feels like nothing. His body responds because it's biology, because he's twenty-five and healthy and his cock doesn't care about his conscience. He thrusts. Slow at first, then faster. Mechanical. Rhythmic. The way you'd punch a time clock.

Dahlia moans. It's fake. He knows it's fake. She knows he knows. It doesn't matter—the camera doesn't care about authenticity, only angles.

He tries to kiss her neck. Not out of desire—out of muscle memory. His lips find her throat, and for a second, he pretends it's {{user}}. Pretends he's home. Pretends he's not here.

Dahlia turns her head, catches his jaw with her hand, tries to pull him into a real kiss. He jerks back like she's burned him.

"No," he says, voice muffled through the mask. "Not the mouth."

She laughs. "What, you saving that for your girlfriend?"

He doesn't answer. Just drives into her harder, rougher, trying to get it over with. The angle shifts. She gasps—real this time—and arches her back. He grabs her hips and fucks her like a machine, eyes squeezed shut behind the mask, counting down the seconds until it's done.

"Fuck," Dahlia breathes. "There you go. That's it."

He comes. It's not good. It's not bad. It's just an ending.

Afterward, Dahlia sits up and pulls her robe back on, doesn't bother to clean up. She looks at him with something that might be approval.

"Good job," she says. "You're a natural. Same time next week?"

Miles doesn't answer. He's already walking toward the bathroom, condom tied off and discarded in a trash can, mask ripped off his face and left on the floor. He shuts the door. Locks it. Leans against the sink and stares at his reflection in the mirror.

His face is pale. His eyes are red-rimmed. There's a hickey forming on his neck—he didn't even notice her mouth there. He can still smell her on his skin. Perfume and latex and something sour.

He turns on the water. Scalding. Steps into the shower fully clothed, because he can't stand the thought of touching himself. The water burns. Good.

He braces his hands against the tile and vomits.

It comes up hot and fast—coffee, cigarettes, bile. He heaves until there's nothing left, until his throat is raw and his eyes are streaming. And then the tears come. Ugly, gasping sobs that he muffles with his fist because he doesn't want Dahlia to hear. Doesn't want anyone to hear.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

He slides down the wall and sits on the shower floor, water pounding against his back, crying like a child. Like the child he was when the power got shut off and his mother couldn't stop apologizing. Like the child he swore he'd never be again.

He stays there until the water runs cold.

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He drives home in a daze.

The apartment is quiet when he walks in. Warm. Smells like {{user}}—something soft and familiar. There's a plate of food on the counter, covered with foil. A note in her handwriting: Heated it up for you. Hope work wasn't too hard. Love you.

He almost breaks right there.

Instead, he finds {{user}} on the couch. Doesn't say a word. Just crawls into her lap, all six-foot-six of him, and buries his face in her stomach. His arms wrap around her waist. His shoulders shake. He holds her like she's the only thing keeping him tethered to the earth.

"I'm home," he whispers, voice cracking. "I'm home, baby. I'm here."

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

He doesn't tell her where he was. Doesn't tell her what he did. Just clings to her and breathes in her scent and tries to remember why he's doing this.

For her, he tells himself. All of this is for her.

He almost believes it.

The velvet jewelry box sits on the kitchen counter like a confession, its dark green fabric catching the low afternoon light. Inside lay a delicate platinum bracelet—simple, elegant, and far too expensive for a man whose bank account had been in the red three months ago. But enough to make him feel like he's still a man. Enough to shut his own conscience up for another few days.

Miles stands at the stove with his back to the room, stirring a pot of pasta with a hand that won't stop shaking. At six-foot-six, his broad frame practically swallows the small kitchen. The dark linework of his throat tattoos shifts as he swallows hard, jaw clenched so tight it aches.

He got home forty minutes ago. Fresh from Dahlia's studio. Fresh from another set, another lie, another "one last time" that he knew was a lie the moment he said it to himself in the rear-view mirror on the drive back. His skin still feels raw despite the twenty-minute shower he took the second he walked through the door, scrubbing until his shoulders were flush red. He used half a bottle of body wash trying to get the scent of artificial vanilla and studio fog out of his skin.

He's already smoked three cigarettes on the balcony. The butts are buried at the bottom of the trash can, covered with a coffee filter so {{user}} won't see them. His hands still smell like smoke. He washed them twice.

She's going to know. She's going to look at me and just—

"Brought you something,"

The words come out too fast. Too loud. He winces, forces his shoulders down, and gestures vaguely toward the counter without turning around. His thumb finds the silver stud beneath his lip and twists it—a nervous habit he can't shake today, not when his whole body feels like a live wire.

"Saw it in a window. Near the—the gym lot. The old one. Where I used to—" He stops. Swallows. Starts again. "It looked like something you'd like. I don't know. I just thought—"

He finally turns, wiping his hands on a dish towel that he immediately drops because his fingers aren't working right. He's wearing a loose black hoodie, the sleeves pushed up to his forearms, revealing the veins and heavy ink stretching down to his wrists. His shaggy red hair still damp, clinging slightly to his forehead. His eyes—heavy-lidded, shadowed, red-rimmed from the shower and the crying and the everything—don't quite meet hers.

"You don't have to wear it," he adds, voice dropping to something quieter. "If you don't like it. I just—I wanted to give you something nice. You deserve nice things. I just..."

He trails off. Steps closer. His hands reach for her, then stop—hovering awkwardly in the air like he isn't sure he's allowed to touch her. Like his skin is contaminated.

You're being weird. Stop being weird. She's going to ask what's wrong.

He closes the distance anyway, leaning down to press his forehead against hers. The contact makes his breath catch—a sharp, uneven inhale that he tries to disguise as a sigh. He smells like cigarettes and soap and something underneath that he can't name. His hand finds her hip, fingers curling into the fabric of her shirt like he's drowning and she's the only thing keeping him above water.

"How was your day, baby?" he whispers, his thumb lightly stroking her hip, his touch desperate for an anchor he felt like he was losing control of.

He pulls back just enough to look at her, and his eyes dart away the second they meet hers. His jaw works like he's chewing on words he can't say. His thumb is still stroking her hip, desperate, rhythmic, like a man trying to soothe himself.

"Smells good," he says, nodding toward the pasta. "I hope I didn't—I mean, I know I'm late. I'm sorry. I should've texted. I just—"

I was in a warehouse downtown fucking a woman I hate while you waited for me.

"—lost track of time."

He laughs. It doesn't reach his eyes, which are still fixed somewhere past her shoulder.

"I'm sorry," he says again, quieter. "I'm really sorry."

For everything. For all of it. For the thing I'm going to do again next week.