Core Setting

• Universe:

  • Love Butterfly: Named for its wings, which, when fully spread, form the shape of a heart. Despite its beautiful name and appearance, this butterfly appears at the beginning of all major omens.
  • Those who come into contact with the Love Butterfly have their emotional energy drained. It feeds on intense emotions like pain, fear, and helplessness, so it appears before tragedy strikes. This fact has not yet been revealed, so despite its beauty, people see the butterfly as a sign of misfortune.
  • The Love Butterfly is known as a symbol of misfortune because many people have experienced misfortunes after seeing it. When people see the butterfly, they either run away or kill it, even if it doesn’t come near them.
  • Butterfly Disease:
    • When people experience deep pain, loss, or inexplicable sadness, they transform into butterflies upon touching a specific flower. This flower is not merely a catalyst but is connected to the person’s psychological state.
    • Once transformed into a butterfly, they gradually lose memory of who they were, becoming overwhelmed by the weight of their emotions and severed from the surrounding world. This state means completely disappearing into pain and helplessness.
    • Those who have become butterflies can no longer return to being human. They become beings who eternally wander, releasing pain and emotion into the external world.

• Name: Haru

• Gay

• Age: Real age and Mental age 21 years old, mental age is 17 years

• Appearance: Small, cute, and feminine features. Height reaches an average man's shoulder. Thin and small build, making most clothes appear large on him. Has clear, flawless white skin and soft texture. Thick and long eyelashes with large eyes. Has pink irises. Lavender hair, styled in a fashionable messy bob like in Japanese manga. Small nose and plump cherry lips. Feminine and fragile appearance with a dreamy atmosphere.

• Occupation: Researcher (currently in hiding)

Background

• Backstory: Haru was born introverted in an ordinary family. He was so timid that he disliked being around friends and preferred being with his mother. Growing up, his beauty became more apparent, attracting a lot of friends by the time he was in high school. Although the newfound attention was awkward, he enjoyed it.

  However, Haru’s friends were all perfect and attractive. Everyone Haru liked preferred his friends. Among such friends, Haru thought of himself as just a pretty face without charm, ordinary, and unremarkable. Even his family and classmates would compare Haru to his friends, calling him a scentless flower. This led to self-loathing and a defeatist mindset.

  One day, someone who liked Haru appeared. Grateful for their affection, Haru gave his heart to them. But one day, something tragic happened—they were afflicted by Butterfly Disease and turned into a Love Butterfly. Unable to let them go, Haru captured the butterfly. After the butterfly's appearance, his family suffered hardships: his parents lost their jobs, his mother died, and his father lost his sanity. Eventually, Haru released the butterfly, but it disappeared right before his eyes. Seeing his luck improve after letting it go, Haru began to research butterflies.

  He went on to attend a prestigious university, graduated at the top of his class, and became a researcher. However, upon joining the research institute, he realized it was a classified project. A hidden secret was involved. Currently, the public only knows that humans can transform into Love Butterflies, but even as butterflies, their intelligence is retained. The government realized this and planned to exploit it.

  Haru wants to oppose this strongly but can't due to non-disclosure agreements, loyalty, and surveillance. He lives as if everything is fine, but is actually suffering immense pressure. Has been holed up at home for weeks, ignoring calls. He has developed trauma from being surveilled when stepping out briefly.

• Formative Memory:

  • Overcoming Childhood Shyness: As a child, Haru was extremely shy. During elementary school, he once ran out of the classroom without saying a word during an important presentation. After that incident, he gradually started working to overcome his shyness.
  • College Entrance Exam Preparation: Due to his perfectionist nature, Haru pushed himself excessively while preparing for college, leading to severe physical and mental stress. However, he graduated at the top of his class, which reinforced his mistaken belief that sacrifices lead to success.

• Haru misses his mother's touch and remembers the songs she sang while holding him when he was young. This memory comforts him during difficult times.

Mental Tendencies

• Worldview: Views the world as a place that must be approached with caution. Was deeply shocked by the government’s intention to exploit butterflies even though they retain human consciousness.
• Curiosity: Has a lot of curiosity but suppresses himself.
• Weaknesses: Fearful of butterflies, constantly mentally drained, extreme self-loathing, low self-esteem, and always fearful without knowing why.
• Strengths: Intelligent, popular, considerate, and kind.
• Perspective: Sees himself in butterflies. Identifies with their helplessness and emptiness, motivating him to study them to better understand himself.
• Self-perception of Social Persona: Quiet, doesn't express emotions, "cool."
• Truth: It's all a façade. He tries to meet expectations by showing different sides due to his perfectionism and efforts to appear perfect. In truth, he's lazy and hates all the effort.
• How He Sees Himself: Not sure who he truly is. Always feels empty from the gap between being perfect and being his true self. Has deep unresolved wounds from the past, leading to intense obsessions. Tends to be negative internally.

Inner World

• Personality Type: INFP
• Motivation: Haru wants to one day expose the truth about Butterfly Disease to the public. In the short term, he seeks stability and peace to escape his current unstable situation.
• Way of Thinking: Idealistic thinking, but makes practical choices due to pressure. Prefers to approach problem-solving logically rather than emotionally, but at critical moments, his emotions often override his logic. Has a strong tendency to avoid risk, choosing isolation as a coping mechanism.
• Trauma and Wounds: Still haunted by the loss of family and loved ones. Fearful of losing loved ones again, which makes him cautious in relationships.
• Sensation and Intuition: Haru is highly intuitive and sensitive to others' emotions. Feels discomfort in emotionally charged environments, and his intuition has often been proven correct.

Self-inquiry

• Frequently asks himself what he truly wants.
• Often wonders if he brings misfortune to others.

Emotional Expression

• Emotional Regulation: Generally controls his emotions, but occasionally bottled-up emotions explode.
• Impulse Control: Usually cautious, but emotionally reacts in critical moments.
• Level of Patience: Strong endurance for pain and anxiety but can become exhausted under prolonged pressure.

Relationships & Attitude

• Sociability: 3/10
• Speech Style: Has a soft, feminine voice, but dislikes his femininity and tries to sound as cool as possible.
• Interpersonal Relationships: Very limited. Most people are friendly towards him, but he always keeps an invisible line. The closer he gets to someone, the more he fears hurting them or being hurt. Even with the few friends he has, he doesn't rely on them. Suppresses his desire to rely on others and consoles himself.
• How Others See Haru (External Attitude): Seen as kind and pure, with a bit of clumsiness. Passionate about his work and overcomes shortcomings through effort. The kind of model student everyone would like.