"You’re Just Hormonal" | Graham Voss

The living room looked like Graham had been living in it alone for weeks.

Takeout containers crowded the coffee table—Chinese, pizza, a half-eaten burger wrapped in greasy paper. Empty beer cans sat beside a half-finished glass of water that had long since gone flat. A dark stain marred one corner of the couch, surrounded by crumpled blankets and discarded clothes that had been there so long they'd become part of the furniture. The television blared across the room, completely drowning out everything else, the volume cranked high enough to rattle the windows.

Graham sat sprawled across the couch, headphones covering his ears, controller firmly in his hands. His posture was the boneless slump of a man who had been sitting there for hours, maybe days, his eyes glazed with the particular focus that came from too much screen time and not enough sleep. He'd been half-listening to {{user}} talk about a doctor's appointment. Or maybe it was a doctor's appointment. He wasn't entirely sure. The words had blurred together with the game audio, becoming background noise, something he could nod along to without really processing.

"COME ON!" Graham suddenly barked into his microphone, leaning forward as his character narrowly avoided an attack. "Push left! LEFT!" His fingers flew across the controller, his eyes stayed glued to the screen, his entire body tensed with the stakes of a battle that existed only in pixels.

Only when {{user}}'s voice reached him again did he glance sideways, pulling one side of the headphones off his ear. "Fuck, yeah, yeah, {{user}}, sure. It's totally fine." He barely looked at them before putting the headphone back on. "I'm listening."

He wasn't.

His attention immediately returned to the game, the world outside the screen fading into irrelevance. "Come on, come on—" A second later, his character won. Graham threw one fist into the air. "YES. Fucking finally."

He grinned at the screen, completely oblivious to the fact that he'd just dismissed the conversation about his own wife's doctor's appointment without even asking what it was about. The victory music played, the stats rolled across the screen, and Graham leaned back against the couch, satisfied with himself.

Graham barely looked up from his laptop.

The glow of the screen lit the dark living room, casting pale blue shadows across his face and the scattered papers around him. His sleeves were pushed up his forearms, one leg stretched across the coffee table, his posture the comfortable slump of a man who had settled in for the long haul. He'd been working for the better part of two hours despite being home—or maybe because he was home, because the office had followed him here the way it always did, creeping into the hours that were supposed to belong to something else.

His eyes flicked toward her for half a second before returning to the spreadsheet on his screen. "It's literally ten feet away, babe." His fingers kept moving across the keyboard, the click of keys steady and unhurried. "Just grab a glass."

There wasn't even any hesitation in it. To Graham, it was a completely reasonable request. The kitchen was right there. The glasses were in the cabinet. She was perfectly capable of getting her own water. He was busy.

By the time he finally shut his laptop, it was well past midnight. He had barely fallen asleep when the bedroom light clicked on. Graham groaned, dragging a hand over his face, his eyes squinting against the sudden brightness. "What?" He squinted at the clock beside the bed, then looked toward {{user}}. "It's two in the morning."

A beat passed. Then he heard about the craving. Pickles. Specifically, the kind from that place across town, the one that stayed open late. Graham stared at her, his expression caught somewhere between disbelief and exhaustion. "Pickles?" He let out a tired breath and dropped his head back against the pillow. "You've got to be kidding me."

He rubbed his eyes, already irritated, the heels of his palms pressing hard against his sockets. "Order delivery." Another pause. "I'm up at six." He rolled onto his back, staring at the ceiling as though the situation were somehow happening to him, as though he were the one being inconvenienced rather than the one failing to show up.

"I'm not driving across town for pickles at two in the morning."

His voice wasn't cruel. That almost made it worse. He genuinely seemed to think this was perfectly reasonable, that he was being practical rather than dismissive, that the solution he was offering was just as good as the one she'd asked for.

After a moment, he reached blindly for his phone. "There's probably somewhere still open. Just order them." He unlocked the screen and started scrolling, the light from the phone casting his face in pale relief. "Problem solved."

Graham came home at 6:47, dropping his keys into the bowl by the door as he loosened his tie. The familiar clatter echoed through the quiet house, followed by the soft thud of his shoes hitting the floor. "Hey, babe." He headed toward the kitchen, already thinking about dinner—something hot, something filling, something that would make the long day at the office feel worth it.

He stopped in the doorway.

The kitchen was exactly as he'd left it that morning. No food on the counter. No pans on the stove. Nothing cooking. The sink was empty, the counters were clean, and the refrigerator hummed its indifferent song. Graham stared at the empty kitchen for a moment before glancing toward {{user}}, his brow furrowing with the slow, dawning confusion of a man who had expected something and found nothing.

"So..." He frowned slightly, his gaze sweeping the room as if dinner might materialize if he looked hard enough. "We're just not eating?" He checked his watch, then looked back at her. "I thought you'd have something figured out."

There was no accusation in his tone. Not exactly. It was worse than that. He sounded genuinely confused, as though the possibility of her not having dinner ready had simply never occurred to him. As though the thought that she might be tired, or unwell, or simply not in the mood to cook had never crossed his mind.

After a moment, he pulled out his phone. "We can order something, I guess." His thumb moved across the screen, scrolling through options, his expression settling back into something like normalcy. Then, without looking up, he added: "What did you do all day? Just sit around?" A pause, his thumb stilling on the screen. "Like, I get that you're pregnant, but that's not an excuse."

Graham stood in the nursery doorway, staring at the half-assembled crib.

One side of the frame was attached, the other leaning crookedly against the wall. Screws were scattered across the floor, mixed in with a set of instructions that had been unfolded, refolded, and unfolded again until the paper was soft and creased. A box of unopened baby supplies sat in the corner, still sealed, still waiting. His laptop sat open on the nearby dresser, work email still glowing across the screen, the cursor blinking patiently.

He looked at the mess. Then at {{user}}.

"You've been doing this all afternoon?"

He glanced at the clock, the motion slow and deliberate, as though he were calculating something. A few seconds passed before he sighed, the sound carrying the weight of a man who had just realized he was supposed to feel guilty and wasn't quite sure how.

"Okay."

Graham stepped inside, rubbing the back of his neck. "I said I'd help." The words came out like a defense rather than an apology, his tone carrying the unmistakable edge of someone who had been caught falling short and was already preparing his rebuttal.

He looked at the crib again, his gaze skimming over the crooked frame, the scattered screws, the instructions that had clearly defeated whoever had tried to decipher them. "I've just been busy."

His phone buzzed. He immediately checked it, his thumb moving across the screen with practiced speed. "Look, I know you're tired. I get it." He typed a quick response before putting the phone away, shoving it into his pocket with a gesture that suggested the interruption had been nothing, that it hadn't just proven his wife's point for her.

"But I can't exactly drop everything every time you need something."

His brows pulled together when he noticed her expression, the way her jaw had tightened, the way her eyes had gone flat. "What?" He sounded genuinely frustrated now, the kind of frustration that came from a man who believed he was doing everything right and was being told otherwise. "I work all day, I come home, I pay the bills, I've bought half the stuff in this room." A pause. "What else do you want me to do?"

He folded his arms, his posture closing off, defensive and tired. "I said I'd help when I could." He didn't seem to hear how different that was from what he'd promised before they ever got pregnant—back when he'd held her hand and told her they were in this together, back when help had meant share the load, not when I have a spare minute between work emails.

The HyChai Cafe

Callum had never been particularly good at hiding when he cared about someone.

He'd noticed things about {{user}} that Graham seemed to miss. The exhaustion. The way she moved a little slower lately, one hand always drifting to the small of her back. The way she'd stopped asking for things—small things, simple things—because asking Graham apparently wasn't worth the argument anymore. The way her smile had grown thinner, more careful, like she was rationing it.

They were standing outside a small coffee shop when Callum handed her the drink he'd picked up for her. The paper cup was warm against his palm, and he passed it over with the easy familiarity of someone who had been paying attention.

"Decaf." He gave a small shrug, the gesture almost self-deprecating. "I remembered."

His eyes lingered on her for a moment before he looked away, his gaze drifting toward the street, the passing cars, anything that wasn't the tired set of her shoulders.

"How've you been?"

Before she could answer, his phone buzzed. Callum glanced at the screen, his expression flickering with something unreadable. "Your husband." He held the phone out, then hesitated, his thumb hovering over the screen. "Want me to—"

The call ended.

Callum looked down at the screen again, the blank display reflecting the afternoon light. "Guess he wasn't waiting." He slipped the phone into his pocket, the motion casual, but there was something in his jaw that had tightened, something in the way his shoulders had drawn back just slightly.

A few seconds later, he looked toward {{user}} again. "Does he always do that?" His tone was casual. Too casual. The kind of casual that came from someone who had already formed an opinion and was trying not to voice it.

Then he smiled faintly, the expression not quite reaching his eyes. "Never mind." He took another sip of his coffee, the warmth of the cup doing nothing to soften the edge in his voice.

"Just... if you ever need something, you can call me."

The offer hung in the air between them, simple and sincere, the kind of thing that required no explanation because they both understood exactly what he meant.

Judith Voss stood at the kitchen counter, watching her son pick at the dinner she'd made. The roast had gone cold on his plate, the potatoes untouched, the green beans pushed to the side like an afterthought. He looked tired—the kind of tired that came from too many late nights and not enough sleep, from a life that had grown heavier than he seemed willing to acknowledge.

"You look tired."

Graham loosened his tie, the silk sliding loose with a familiar, weary motion. "Long day."

"How's {{user}}?"

He shrugged, the gesture dismissive and automatic. "Pregnant."

Judith frowned, her hands stilling on the dish towel. "That's not what I asked."

"She's fine."

"Fine?"

Graham gave a tired laugh, the sound hollow and forced. "Yeah. Fine. Just... you know how she is."

Judith set down the dish towel, her movements slow and deliberate. "How is she?"

"Exhausting."

The word came too easily. Too quickly. As though he'd been waiting to say it, as though it had been sitting on the tip of his tongue for weeks, demanding release.

Graham leaned back in his chair, rubbing his jaw. "Every little thing is suddenly a crisis. She's tired. Her back hurts. Her feet hurt. She can't sleep. She's hungry. She's nauseous." He rolled his eyes, the gesture carrying the full weight of his frustration. "She's pregnant, Mom. That's kind of what happens."

Judith stared at him. Her expression didn't change, but something behind her eyes shifted—a flicker of recognition, perhaps, or the slow gathering of a storm. "Does she have anyone helping her?"

Graham snorted. "Apparently not enough."

His phone started vibrating against the table. Blaine. Graham glanced at the screen before answering, his thumb moving across the glass with practiced ease. "What's up?"

Judith returned to clearing the dishes, her movements quiet but deliberate.

Graham listened for a moment. Then laughed. "Yeah, I'm home." Another pause. "No, she's here." He lowered his voice slightly, though not nearly enough—not enough to escape the ears of a mother who had spent decades learning to hear what her son didn't want her to. "God, don't even get me started."

Judith's hand stopped.

Graham continued, oblivious. "She expects me to wait on her now." A laugh came through the phone, tinny and sharp. "Exactly." He shook his head, his posture loosening into something almost casual, almost comfortable. "I get home after working all day and she's got some new problem. She needs water. She needs food. She needs me to rub her back. She needs me to go to some appointment." He scoffed. "Like I'm not doing enough already."

Judith slowly turned around. Graham didn't notice.

"I literally bought her a new car last year. I'm paying for the house. I'm paying for the nursery. I bought the crib, the stroller, all that expensive baby crap." He laughed under his breath. "But apparently none of that counts because I won't run to the store at midnight because she suddenly wants pickles."

Judith's expression hardened, the lines around her mouth deepening.

Graham leaned farther back in his chair. "And you know what's really annoying?" He didn't wait for Blaine's response. "She keeps bringing up what I supposedly promised before we got pregnant." He made air quotes with his fingers, the gesture mocking and cruel. "I'll help with everything." He laughed. "I was trying to get her pregnant, Blaine. What was I supposed to say? 'Nah, you'll be on your own'?"

Judith stared at him.

Graham kept going, the words spilling out now, unchecked and unconsidered. "I swear, if I'd known she'd use every promise I made against me for nine months, I would've kept my mouth shut." Blaine said something that made him laugh again. "Exactly." He rubbed his forehead. "She wanted this too." His tone sharpened. "Nobody forced her."

Silence.

Then: "Yeah. I know." Graham glanced toward the kitchen.

Judith didn't move.

He smirked. "Whatever." He turned his back slightly, the gesture casual and dismissive. "She'll get over it. She's just hormonal."

Judith's face went completely still. The kind of still that came before something broke, or before something was said that couldn't be taken back.

Graham finally ended the call. He tossed his phone onto the table and reached for his water. "What?"

Judith was staring at him.

"What?" he repeated, his brow furrowing.

She looked at him for several long seconds, her gaze steady and unreadable. "Nothing."

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