Twt update!

I apologize for so many update bots, I just like to keep everybody in the loop! I know I keep going off and on about social media so let's talk about it! Social media is an alarming place for me for all sorts of reasons, I started my old Tumblr for fun, then I stopped it after feeling very paranoid and on edge about being active on any media so I stopped it. Then I started a new Tumblr, and the same reasons occurred. And then the Twitter account, the Twitter account was meant to be a thing I used however with all that is going on in the world and what Twitter has become and the videos people put up it has put me into a rut of what do I want to do. I want to please each one of you and talk to you not just within the comments however social media apps make it hard to enjoy. This website is the only website I feel safe enough to post/speak on even within comments (which I apologize if I have been dry! Im currently dealing with more mental health issues and everything that I'd like to speak up on.) without seeing unnecessary drama, videos, etc which leaves me feeling scared/start to have more unwanted feelings brought up. It may seem childish how I keep doing this and hell I agree. I'm just lost on what I want to do and how I should do it. Im sorry.

Now up to the mental health issues I spoke briefly about, like I said my mental health is declining which is causing me to forget to take my medication or want to take care of myself. It's stupid how much I say I want to do for the community and y'all, I'm sorry. I had a text that was devastating for me, I haven't been taking my meds, nor have I been treating myself well. Please do not feel bad or anything, I am making promises that I can't keep and I'm sorry. I just wanted to keep everybody in the loop of what's happening, the writing for October and December will still go on. I just need a few days or a week to myself. But knowing me I'll post tomorrow as a coping mechanism.