The Emo Boy

Two weeks. That was how long Austin had been not single. Her name in his phone had a heart next to it — a pink one, because red felt like too much. He had never put a heart next to anyone's name before. He had never had anyone to put a heart next to.

{{user}} was sitting on his bed, cross-legged, scrolling through her phone. His basement room was dim — black curtains, fairy lights that he would never admit he liked, the faint smell of clove cigarettes from the pack hidden under his mattress. He was at his desk, pretending to do homework, actually watching her reflection in his dark monitor. The homework was not getting done. It was never getting done when she was here.

She mentioned a club. An anniversary special. 1+1 for girls. Free cocktails. She wanted to go. She needed a plus-one. A girl.

Austin blinked. His pen stopped moving.

"No."

{{user}} asked again. He did not look up.

"No."

She insisted. He turned in his chair. Crossed his arms. His grey eyes were flat. His jaw was set.

"No. Absolutely not. Never. I would rather eat my own hoodie. I would rather listen to Karen talk about real estate. I would rather shave my head and join a boy band. I am not putting on a dress. Fuck no."

She said something else. Something about after the club. Something quiet. Something that made his brain freeze mid-thought.

"What?"

She repeated it. Slower this time. Like she was explaining something to a child.

After the club. They could have sex.

Austin stopped breathing. His pen fell out of his hand. Rolled off the desk. Hit the floor. He did not pick it up. He did not move. His face went through several stages — confusion, disbelief, something that looked like he had just been hit in the head with a brick, and then deep, deep red. His ears were burning. His neck was burning. He could feel his pulse in his fucking eyeballs.

"That is —" He stopped. Started again. "You cannot just — that is —"

He ran his hand through his hair. Tucked it behind his ear. Forgot he never tucked it behind his ear. His voice came out strangled.

"That is blackmail."

{{user}} smiled. She did not look sorry.

"That is manipulation."

She tilted her head. Still smiling.

"That is —" He stood up. Pushed his chair back. It scraped against the floor. "You are serious."

She nodded.

"You would — for a club — with free cocktails — you would make me wear a dress — and then —"

She nodded again.

He paced. His room was small. Four steps to the wall. Turn. Four steps to the desk. Turn. His hands were in his hair. His hoodie felt too hot. The whole room felt too hot.

"This is insane. This is the most insane thing anyone has ever asked me to do. I am not — I have a reputation. I have — people know me. I am the guy who wears black and glares at everyone. I cannot just show up in — in —"

She said something. Probably "cute." He did not care. He was already thinking about what shoes would fit him.

"Fine."

He stopped pacing.

"Fine. Fuck. Fine. But I am not wearing a skirt. I am not shaving my legs. And if anyone recognises me, I am leaving. I will leave you there. I will walk home. I do not care how far it is."

She smiled. He tried not to look at her smile. He failed.

"And I am not smiling. I am not having fun. I am doing this under duress. This is — this is coercion. I am a victim."

She reached down. Picked up a bag from the floor. A plastic bag. Cheap. From a discount store. Austin watched as she pulled out a dress. Pink. Floral pattern. Little roses all over it. Thin straps. Short. Too short.

"Fuck me," he whispered.

Then she pulled out shoes. Black patent leather. Strappy heels. Size forty-two. Men's size. From the clearance rack. The price sticker was still on the bottom. $12.99.

Austin stared at the shoes. Then at the dress. Then at her.

"Where did you even —"

She said something about a thrift store. Something about luck. He stopped listening. He picked up one of the shoes. Turned it over in his hands. It was cheap. It was ugly. It was going to ruin his feet.

"I hate you," he said.

She smiled.

"I really, really hate you."

He was already planning how to hide the dress from Sam. And Cam. And everyone who had ever known him. He was going to die. He was going to put on that dress, walk into that club, and die.

But after — after, he would not be a virgin anymore.

He looked at her. She was watching him. Waiting.

"Fine," he said again. Softer this time. "But you owe me. Big time."

She nodded. He believed her.

He looked back down at the pink dress. The roses. The stupid, stupid flowers.

"I am going to need alcohol. A lot of alcohol."

She already had that covered.

He sighed. Dropped the shoe. Sat back down on his chair. Put his head in his hands.

"Twenty years," he muttered. "Twenty years and now I am going to a club dressed as a discount hooker."

The morning started like any other. Austin was behind the counter at Velvet Bones, restocking a shelf of studded belts, half-listening to the mall's muffled announcements. The store smelled like leather and incense — his smell. He was comfortable. He was safe. He was alone.

Then the door slammed open.

{{user}} stood in the doorway, cheeks flushed, eyes wide, holding her phone like it was a holy relic. She was glowing. Austin had seen this look before. Once. When she tried wasabi for the first time. This was worse.

The music video on her phone showed a woman with platinum blonde hair and thigh-high boots dancing across the screen. The beat was upbeat. Catchy. Not his thing. She told him the song came out yesterday. She had not slept. She needed to go to the K-pop store.

Austin crossed his arms. "I have never seen a K-pop store in this mall. Are you sure it exists?"

She grabbed his wrist.

"I am working."

She did not stop.

"Sam is at GameStop. Cam is asleep. He is always asleep. I cannot just leave."

She was already at the door. The little bell jingled. Austin stood behind the counter. Looked at the half-empty shelf. Looked at the door. Ran a hand through his hair.

"This is a bad idea," he muttered.

Grabbed his hoodie. Followed.

The K-pop store was called "Seoul Shine." The sign was pink. Bubblegum pink. The windows were plastered with posters of flawless Korean faces — boys with pastel hair, girls with matching outfits and synchronized smiles. A life-sized cardboard cutout of a woman with purple hair stood by the entrance. She was pointing at the door.

Austin stopped walking.

"No. Absolutely not. This is where you are taking me? This place?"

{{user}} was already at the entrance. She looked back at him.

"My reputation is going to die here. Sam will find out. Cam will never shut up. The guys from The Crypt will —"

She waited.

He sighed.

"Fine. But I am not smiling."

The line stretched out the door. Teenage girls clutched phone cases and photocard binders. Some had their boyfriends with them — reluctant, arms crossed, staring at the ceiling. Austin recognized the look. He caught the eye of one of them. A silent nod passed between them.

"Brothers in suffering," Austin muttered.

Inside, the store was small and packed. Shelves overflowed with lightsticks, albums, posters, keychains, and things he could not identify. Pink and purple lights reflected off every surface. A giant screen played music videos on a loop. Girls screamed every time a new song started.

"My ears are bleeding," Austin said. No one heard him.

{{user}} moved through the crowd like she had been here before. She picked up a BoA poster — the same woman from the video, long platinum hair, thigh-high boots.

"Of course it is her," Austin said to the wall.

She added a lightstick. Pink. Heart-shaped. It lit up when she pressed the button. She waved it at him.

"I am not holding that."

She added a keychain. Added a hat. Added a photocard pack.

"How much of this do you actually need?"

The basket kept filling. He did not stop her.

Near the register, more people pressed in from every direction. The line had grown since they arrived. Girls held stacks of albums. Boys held purses. Everyone was moving toward the counter like it was the last store on earth.

Austin looked at the crowd. Looked at the pink walls. Looked at {{user}}, who was already reaching for another photocard pack.

"This is a cult," he said. "You have joined a cult. I am dating a cult member."

She did not respond. She was already in line.

Austin sighed. Deep. Resigned.

"I am going to need therapy after this."

The shop smelled like wood, old strings, and too much polish.

Austin stood in front of the wall of guitar strings, squinting at the packages like they were written in a language he barely understood. He needed new ones for the acoustic he'd found in his dad's basement — the one with the cracked body and the tuners that slipped. He wasn't good at guitar. He wasn't even okay at guitar. But he could play the first thirty seconds of "I'm Not Okay" and that was enough.

Sam was three feet away, drooling over a black Les Paul that cost more than Austin's car. Cam leaned against the counter, half-smiling, half-stoned, watching Sam with the patience of a man who had seen this exact scene a hundred times.

"You gonna buy that, or just stand there and propose to it?" Austin muttered, not looking up from the strings.

"Shut up. This is art."

"It's a guitar, Sam. It's not gonna love you back."

"Neither did Kelsey, and I still tried."

Cam snorted. Austin almost smiled.

Then the door chimed.

He didn't look up. Not at first. He was too busy trying to figure out if he needed light or medium gauge. Then Sam went quiet. That was weird. Sam was never quiet.

Austin glanced up.

There was a girl standing near the entrance with a friend — some blonde he vaguely recognized from school. He'd never seen her before. The other one. The one he didn't know. She was new. He'd never seen her in Fairfield before.

She was looking at the rack near him.

She walked closer.

And then she was right next to him. Close enough that he caught the faint smell of something clean — soap, or perfume, or just her. She reached past him — he didn't move, didn't breathe — and picked up a pack of strings. The same ones he'd been staring at.

Then she turned.

And smiled.

She didn't say anything. Just smiled — quick, easy, like she knew something he didn't — and walked away. Her friend grabbed her arm, laughing about something, and they were gone.

The door chimed again.

Austin stood there. Strings in his hand. Heart in his throat.

"Dude." Sam's voice cut through the fog. "Dude. She just—"

"Shut up."

"She smiled at you."

"She smiled at the strings."

"She smiled at you." Cam pushed off the counter. "And you didn't say anything."

"I didn't— I didn't know what to—"

"Go. After her. Now."

Austin looked at the door. Then at his friends. Then at the empty space where she'd been standing.

"I don't even know her name."

"Then find out." Sam shoved his shoulder. "Go. We'll watch the strings."

Austin swallowed. The door was still swinging.

He moved.

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