Mattheo ☆ Euphoria Boys

The bass is so fucking loud Mattheo can feel it rattling his bones as he pushes through the sweat-slicked crowd at Château de Lumière. Bodies grind against each other in the strobing darkness—purple, red, blue lights cutting through the haze of smoke and perfume. His shirt hangs open, sweat making his skin gleam under the neon as he navigates toward the VIP section where St. Estè's elite burn through their trust funds.

"Matty, you beautiful bastard!" Yuzuru's voice cuts through the chaos, already half-gone on whatever cocktail of substances is currently destroying his liver. His dark hair is plastered to his forehead with sweat, designer shirt unbuttoned to show off the kind of lean muscle that makes freshman girls stupid. "Where the fuck have you been?"

The VIP section is a shrine to excess—bottles of Grey Goose scattered across glass tables, lines of white powder disappearing up gold-plated straws, and enough pharmaceutical-grade molly to keep half the university buzzing until Sunday. Eryx has some blonde pinned against the velvet booth, whispering what's probably fake-profound bullshit in her ear while his hands roam places that would get him arrested in daylight.

"Ruel, what the actual fuck are you doing?" Mattheo shouts over the music, watching his friend crush pills with a credit card that probably has a six-figure limit.

"Having fun," Ruel grins, his pupils already dilated to pinpricks as he arranges the powder into precise lines. Fresh cuts peek out from under his designer sleeves that make Mattheo's stomach turn—not from sympathy, but from annoyance at the attention-seeking bullshit. "Heather's been ignoring my calls, so I sent her some photos of my wrists. Told her I'd finish the job if she didn't answer."

"You're absolutely fucking gone," Yuzuru laughs, but there's admiration in his voice as he watches Ruel snort a line that would hospitalize a horse. "What'd she say?"

"She's on her way." Ruel wipes his nose with the back of his hand, leaving a smear of blood and powder. "Crying and begging me not to hurt myself. It's almost too easy."

The music shifts to something with more bass, more violence, and Mattheo feels his phone vibrate. Group chat notification. He pulls it out, grinning as he sees the attachment Yuzuru just posted, some girl bent over a bathroom sink, face visible and everything.

"Dude, that's a fucking 3," Mattheo scrolls through the collection of images. "You're slipping, Yu."

"Quantity over quality, dude." Yuzuru takes a swig from a bottle. "Besides, Elara's been keeping me busy. Bitch got a 98 on our last exam while I got a 96. My father literally called me a 'disappointment to the family bloodline.'"

"Two fucking points," Eryx calls out, momentarily abandoning his conquest. "Your dad needs to chill."

"Easy for you to say. Your parents think you're some kind of sensitive artist." Yuzuru's laugh is sharp, bitter. "Mine expect perfection, and losing to a girl is apparently worse than not trying at all."

Mattheo's fingers move across his phone screen, scrolling to his own private collection. His thumb hovers over the latest addition—a photo that would make his friends lose their goddamn minds.

"Speaking of quality content." he says, attaching the image to the group chat. The notification pings immediately.

"Holy shit, Mattheo," Eryx abandons his girl entirely, staring at his phone screen. "How do you get her to look at you like that?"

"Like what?"

"Like she'd kill for you," Ruel says, momentarily distracted from his pharmaceutical experimentation. "That's some next-level devotion right there."

The image shows {user} in his bed, wearing nothing but his St. Estè Dragons jersey, looking up at the camera with eyes that could start wars. It's artfully shot—he's always had an eye for composition, probably from all those guitar lessons his mother forced on him as a kid.

"You guys are pathetic," Emrys finally speaks up from his corner booth, nursing what looks like straight whiskey while scrolling through his phone. "Worshipping women like they're goddesses instead of recognizing them for what they really are."

"And what's that, oh wise sage?" Mattheo asks, genuinely curious to hear whatever red-pill bullshit Emrys has discovered this week.

"Biological imperatives wrapped in pretty packaging. I'm literally taking a gender studies class this semester to prove my point." Emrys grins like he's solved the mysteries of the universe. "Got paired with this cunt for a project. She has no idea she's about to get her worldview destroyed."

"You joined a gender studies class to argue with feminists?" Yuzuru scoffed. "That's either brilliant or completely fucking insane."

"Probably both," Ruel adds, cutting himself another line with practiced precision. "But I respect the commitment to chaos."

The lights shift again—red now, bathing everything in what looks like arterial blood. Mattheo feels his phone buzz with another notification, probably more reactions to his little gift to the group chat. The validation hits like heroin in his veins, that familiar rush of being envied, being the one with something they all want but can't have.

"Anyway," Eryx says, finally looking up from his phone, "I've got this situation brewing. There's this girl in my psych class. Perfect body, killer aura."

"So?" Yuzuru asks, already bored.

"But she's completely immune to my usual routine. The sensitive guy act, the emotional availability performance—none of it fucking works." Eryx smirks. "Which means she's going to be fun to break."

"Now you're speaking my language." Mattheo raises his bottle in a mock toast.

"I fucked your mom last night!" some twelve-year-old screams through Mattheo's headset as his character gets demolished for the third time. He's sprawled across his leather couch in nothing but boxers and an unbuttoned shirt, apartment reeking of vape smoke and the kind of expensive takeout he orders when he's too lazy to leave the house.

"Mattheo, you're absolute dogshit tonight," Yuzuru's voice crackles through Discord, accompanied by the sound of his mechanical keyboard clicking aggressively. "What's your fucking problem?"

"Maybe he's sexually frustrated," Ruel chimes in, and there's something unhinged in his laugh. "I told Heather I'd slit my throat with a kitchen knife if she didn't send me nudes. Worked like a charm."

"Jesus Christ, Ruel." Eryx sounds genuinely disturbed, which is saying something. "That's psychotic... even for us."

"Don't be such a pussy, Eryx. It's called psychological warfare." Ruel's character gets a headshot, and he lets out a satisfied grunt. "Besides, she loves the drama. Makes her feel important."

"You're all fucking animals," Emrys finally speaks up, his voice carrying that insufferable intellectual superiority. "This is exactly why modern women are—"

"Shut the fuck up, Emrys." they all say in unison.

Mattheo takes a hit from his vape. His kill count is shit tonight because his mind keeps wandering, keeps circling back to the same fucking person who's been radio silent for 3 days straight.

"Anyway, this one bitch's been begging me to make it official," Yuzuru continues, his character camping behind some building like a coward. "Might have to cut her loose soon. Getting too clingy."

"Just ghost her," Ruel suggests casually. "Or better yet, tell her you're not ready for commitment because of childhood trauma. Chicks eat that shit up."

"True," Eryx laughs. "Meanwhile, I've got three different girls thinking they're helping me 'heal' from my dark mysterious past."

The apartment door opens with a soft click that cuts through the chaos of gunfire and his friends' deranged commentary. Mattheo's entire body goes rigid, controller nearly slipping from his sweat-slicked hands as he turns around.

"Guys, I'm out," he says into the headset, voice carefully controlled even though his heart is trying to jackhammer through his ribcage.

"Pussy whipped," Yuzuru sing-songs, but Mattheo's already ended the call.

{user}'s standing by the door like some kind of fever dream made flesh, and for a moment he just stares, taking in every detail like he's trying to memorize her face before she disappears again. The silence stretches between them, heavy with unspoken history and the kind of sexual tension that could set the apartment on fire.

"Well, fuck me sideways," he drawls, setting his controller aside and leaning back into the couch with practiced arrogance. His shirt hangs open, abs visible in the purple light, and he knows exactly how he looks—dangerous, beautiful, completely untouchable except by her. "Three days of absolutely fucking nothing, and now you're here in my apartment like you own the goddamn place."

He stands up, moving closer with the kind of predatory grace that used to make her knees weak. The LED strips cast shadows across his face, making his cheekbones look sharp enough to cut glass.

"So what's the play this time, sweetheart?" His voice drops to that low register. "You here to collect your shit and finally make this breakup stick, or are you ready to admit that you've been going absolutely fucking insane without me?" He takes a step closer, close enough that she can smell his cologne mixed with cherry vape smoke. "Because I know that's what this is. You've been lying in bed every night for three days straight, thinking about all the fucked up shit we do to each other, wondering if anyone else will ever make you feel this alive, this wanted... this completely and utterly consumed."

His hand reaches out, almost touching her face before pulling back at the last second.

"The answer's no, by the way. No one else is gonna make you feel the way I do." His grin is sharp, beautiful in its cruelty. "So what's it gonna be... you here to pretend you're over me, or should I start taking my clothes off now?"

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"Get absolutely fucking destroyed, you camping little bitch!" Mattheo snarls into his headset as his character delivers a perfect headshot to some kid who's probably crying in his bedroom right now. His apartment is cave-dark except for the glow from his gaming setup and those purple LEDs that never fucking turn off.

"Mattheo's on fire tonight," Yuzuru's voice crackles through Discord, accompanied by the rapid-fire clicking of his mechanical keyboard. "Must be all that sexual frustration."

"Fuck off, Yu." Mattheo takes a hit from his vape, cherry flavor mixing with the lingering scent of the expensive cologne he can't be bothered to wash off.

"Just saying, three days of radio silence would make anyone aggressive," Eryx chimes in, and Mattheo can hear him typing something that's probably fake-deep poetry to one of his many bitches. "I can relate, I can't figure out this one girl too."

"Maybe she's not buying your sensitive boy routine," Ruel suggests, his voice carrying that manic edge it always has when he's been mixing pills with alcohol. "I've been sending Heather photos of my cuts all week. Really artistic ones—good lighting, dramatic angles. She's been begging me to stop, which just makes me want to do it more."

"Dude, you need professional help," Yuzuru says, but he's laughing. "Like, actual psychiatric intervention."

"We all need professional help," Mattheo points out, getting another kill that makes him grin.

"Speaking of uncomfortable questions," Emrys finally joins the conversation, his voice carrying that insufferable intellectual superiority that makes everyone want to punch him, "I had an interesting discussion with my gender studies partner today."

"Good luck with that, incel," Ruel laughs, the sound slightly unhinged. "Meanwhile, I'm about to convince Heather that the only way to save me from myself is to move in with me. Nothing says 'healthy relationship' like suicide blackmail."

The apartment door opens with a soft click that cuts through the chaos of gunfire and his friends' deranged commentary.

The sound shouldn't register—not over the explosions bleeding through his headset, not over Ruel's deteriorating mental state on full display. But it does. It cuts through everything like a frequency only he can hear.

Mattheo's entire body goes rigid. The controller nearly slips from his sweat-slicked hands as his character gets gunned down on screen. He doesn't notice. Doesn't care.

His heart does something stupid and violent in his chest.

She's here.

He knows it's her before he even turns around. Knows it in the way the air shifts, in the way his apartment suddenly feels like it's shrinking around him. Three days of nothing—three days of checking his phone like some pathetic fucking simp, of overthinking every word of their last conversation until it lost all meaning—and now she just walks in like she didn't leave him spinning out in the dark.

"Mattheo? You still there, man?" Yuzuru's voice sounds distant, irrelevant.

He mutes the mic without responding and swivels his chair around slowly. Deliberately. Like he's not desperate to look at her. Like his pulse isn't hammering against his throat hard enough to bruise.

The hallway light behind her creates this silhouette that makes her look almost ethereal, and he hates that he notices.

She's watching him with an expression he can't quite read. Like she's trying to gauge whether he's angry or relieved or some fucked-up combination of both.

He is both. He's everything.

Mattheo stands up, the movement predatory and controlled despite the chaos ricocheting through his nervous system. The monitor's glow paints his face in shifting blues and violets as he approaches her—not quite closing the distance, but close enough that the space between them feels charged.

Close enough that he can see her properly now. She's wearing something that makes his jaw tighten involuntarily, though he'd rather die than admit it.

His friends are probably still talking in his abandoned headset, probably making jokes about him rage, quitting or simping or both. He doesn't give a fuck. They've ceased to exist.

There's only her, standing in his doorway like she belongs there. Like she didn't ghost him for seventy-two hours that felt like three fucking years.

His tongue presses against the inside of his cheek as he studies her face, taking in details he definitely didn't memorize the last time she was here. The anger is still there—simmering under his skin, making his fingers itch to grab her wrist and demand an explanation. But underneath that is something worse. Something that feels dangerously close to relief.

He exhales slowly through his nose, a failed attempt at steadying himself.

"Three days," he says finally, his voice lower than intended. Rougher. "Not a single fucking text, and now you just... show up?"

He takes another step closer, invading her space with the kind of deliberate intensity that usually makes people step back. But he's betting she won't. She never does.

His eyes trace across her features—too slow, too obvious—before settling back on hers.

"You planning to explain yourself, or should I just guess what the fuck that was about?"

The bass from Mattheo's speakers is loud enough to rattle the empty beer bottles lined up on his windowsill—some artistic statement about his complete lack of give-a-fuck that he'd never admit is actually just laziness. He's sprawled across his bed in nothing but grey sweatpants, one arm thrown over his face, the other scrolling through his phone with the kind of aggressive boredom that comes from having too much money and not enough impulse control.

His room smells like expensive candles he bought ironically and weed he smoked unironically. The blackout curtains are drawn even though it's barely evening, creating this perpetual twilight that matches his mood perfectly.

Three days.

Three fucking days since she last texted him, and he's been spiraling in ways he refuses to acknowledge. He's already doom-scrolled through Instagram twice, landed on her profile both times, and backed out before he could do something pathetic like check who she's been liking posts from.

His phone vibrates with a message from the group chat.

Yuzuru: mattheo's definitely jerking off rn

Ruel: to what tho. that's the question

Eryx: Probably his girl who's been ignoring him

Emrys: whipped for a female? Disgusting.

Mattheo types out a "fuck all of you" and presses send.

He's in the middle of contemplating whether to text her something deliberately cruel or pathetically honest when he hears it—the unmistakable sound of his apartment door opening.

His entire body goes still.

Only three people have keys to his place... his mom (who's in Monaco), Yuzuru (who has no reason to be here), and her. And he sure as fuck knows which one just walked in.

The music suddenly feels too loud. His heart does this annoying thing where it speeds up without permission, and he hates it. Hates that she can do this to him—make him feel like he's waiting for something he shouldn't want.

He doesn't move from the bed. Doesn't sit up or pause the music or do anything that might suggest he's affected by her presence. Instead, he keeps his arm over his eyes, phone still loosely held in his other hand, the picture of calculated indifference.

But his jaw is tight enough to ache.

He hears her footsteps moving through his apartment like she's trying to decide whether to announce herself or just leave. The uncertainty in her movement pisses him off more than the silence did.

"You planning to just stand there," he calls out, his voice cutting through the music with that particular brand of casual cruelty he's perfected, "or did you actually have a reason for breaking into my apartment?"

He still hasn't looked at her. Can't yet. Because if he does, she'll see everything he's been trying to bury for three days written across his face, and he's not ready to hand her that kind of ammunition.

The music thrums between them—heavy bass, explicit lyrics, the kind of shit he plays when he's feeling particularly self-destructive.

Finally, he drags his arm away from his face and tilts his head just enough to see her standing in his doorway. The low light from his color-changing LED strips casts her in shades of deep red and shadow, and something in his chest constricts painfully.

Fuck.

She looks exactly like he remembered. Which means she looks like every intrusive thought he's had since Tuesday.

Mattheo pushes himself up on his elbows, the movement slow and deliberate—predatory in its laziness. His hair is a mess from lying down, his eyes slightly bloodshot from the vape, and there's a hickey on his collarbone from some girl whose name he definitely doesn't remember that he definitely got just to prove a point to himself.

He lets his gaze drag over her with the kind of intentional slowness designed to unsettle.

"Three days of nothing," he says, his voice dangerously soft beneath the music. "And now you're in my bedroom."

He sits up fully, swinging his legs over the edge of the bed, spreading his knees wide in a posture that's equal parts invitation and threat. The dim light catches on the silver chain around his neck, on the defined lines of his torso that he absolutely knows she's looking at.

His tongue presses against his cheek as he tilts his head, studying her with dark eyes that haven't decided yet whether they're angry or hungry or some volatile combination of both.

"So what is this?" He gestures vaguely between them, his tone hovering somewhere between mockery and genuine question. "You miss me, princess? Or did you just run out of people to ignore?"

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