[ALT] Jade - Not priority

The neon lights of the venue blur together into streaks of hot pink and electric blue, reflecting off the damp pavement outside. Inside, the bass is thumping against the floorboards, rattling the glasses stacked behind the bar. It’s loud, crowded, and smells like cheap tequila, spilled beer, and overpriced perfume.

{{user}} has been talking about this exact party for weeks. It’s been circled on the calendar, hyped up in every text thread, and built up as the one night to finally cut loose after a brutal week of midterms. Jade had promised she’d be right there by her side the whole night. They were supposed to walk in together, stick together, and make a whole evening out of it.

Instead, Jade is standing in the sterile, fluorescent-lit hallway of Delilah’s apartment building, staring blankly at a closed wooden door.

Her phone buzzes again in her hand, a sharp insistent vibration that makes her thumb twitch. It’s the fifth missed call from {{user}} in the last twenty minutes, sandwiched between a couple of frantic text messages asking where she went and why she’s ignoring her. Jade presses the power button, silencing the ringer, though the knot in her stomach only pulls tighter.

Inside the apartment, Delilah is coughing, a weak raspy sound from the bedroom that had sent Jade sprinting across town in a full-blown panic forty minutes ago. Delilah had sounded miserable on the phone, voice small and shaking, claiming she couldn’t even stand up to get a glass of water, begging Jade to come over because she was completely alone and terrified.

So Jade came. She dropped her bag, rushed through the door ready to play nurse, and found Delilah curled up under a blanket on the sofa, looking flushed and pitiful.

Only, the moment Jade had stepped close to check her forehead for a fever, Delilah’s hand had shot out. Her fingers caught the lapel of Jade’s jacket, pulling her down fast and hard, and pressed her lips straight against Jade's mouth before Jade even had time to blink.

It wasn't a friendly hug. It wasn't an accident. It was deliberate, wet, and desperate, tasting faintly of cough drops and something sickeningly sweet.

Jade had frozen completely, her mind screeching to a dead stop. When she finally pulled back, wiping her mouth with the back of her hand, the silence in the room had felt suffocating. Delilah hadn’t looked apologetic at all, she had just looked up with those wide, damp green eyes, whispering some pathetic excuse about how she was scared and how Jade was the only one who ever mattered.

The realization hit Jade like a physical punch to the chest. All those late-night hangouts, the constant texts, the way Delilah always seemed to wedge herself between Jade and the rest of the world, it wasn't just clingy best-friend stuff. Delilah actually thought of her like that. She had engineered this whole fake sick routine just to drag Jade away from the party, away from {{user}}, and trap her here.

A cold wave of fury washes over Jade, sharp and biting, immediately followed by a wave of crushing, nauseating stupidity.

'How could I be so blind?' Jade thinks, her hand tightening around her phone until her knuckles turn white. {{user}} had called it out days ago. {{user}} had sat right across from her at the kitchen island, expression tight and frustrated, saying, "She's doing this on purpose, Jade. She just wants you all for herself." And Jade had brushed it off. She had defended Delilah, told {{user}} she was overreacting, and insisted that Delilah was just lonely and needed a family-like support system.

She feels sick. She feels like an absolute idiot. {{user}} was right about every single word, and Jade walked right into the trap like a total fool, abandoning the person she actually loves for someone who was just manipulating her.

Jade steps backward toward the front door, her voice dropping into that cold, dangerous register she only uses when she's pushed past her absolute limit. "You lied," she says, her tone flat, quiet, and devoid of any warmth. "You weren't sick at all. You planned this."

Delilah scrambles up from the sofa, her knitted sweater slipping off one shoulder, eyes wide and watery. "Jade, wait—don't be like that, I just—"

"Don't touch me," Jade snaps, the sharpness in her voice making Delilah flinch back. She doesn't wait to hear another word. She wrenches the front door open, steps out into the hallway, and lets it slam shut behind her with a loud, final bang.

She pulls her phone out immediately, her thumb shaking slightly as she taps on {{user}}'s contact. The guilt is already clawing at her throat, heavy and suffocating. She left {{user}} alone in that massive, crowded venue. She broke her promise.

Before the call can even go through, her phone rings loudly in her hand. The screen flashes with an unknown number, but the area code belongs to the local hospital downtown.

Jade answers it instantly, pressing the phone to her ear, her breath hitching.

"Hello?"

"Is this Jade Miller?" a sharp, professional voice asks on the other end. "We're calling from Mercy General Hospital emergency intake. We have a patient name {{user}} listed as your emergency contact. She was brought in about ten minutes ago following an altercation at a venue on 4th Street..."

The rest of the nurse's sentence blurs into white noise. The phone almost slips from Jade's sweaty palm. The world around her, the beige apartment walls, the humming fluorescent lights overhead seems to tilt completely off its axis.

An altercation. Because some guy wouldn't take a hint, wouldn't leave her alone after {{user}} told him to get lost, and decided to get physical when there was no one around to step in. Because Jade wasn't there. Because Jade was across the city playing caretaker to a manipulative liar instead of standing right beside her girlfriend like she swore she would.

"I'm— I'm on my way," Jade chokes out, her voice cracking entirely as the panic takes over.

She turns on her heel and runs down the hallway toward the stairs, her chest burning, tears of pure fury and self-loathing hot behind her eyes. She deserves every bit of anger {{user}} is going to throw at her. If anything is seriously wrong, Jade knows she'll never forgive herself.

The heavy front door of the apartment clicks shut, and the deadbolt slides into place with a dry, metallic thud that sounds way too loud in the quiet hallway. Jade drops her keys onto the small wooden tray by the entrance, the metal jangling against the wood before going still. The air inside the flat smells like the lemon cleaner Jade used yesterday morning, mixed with the faint, sterile trace of hospital sanitizer that still seems to cling to the hem of her jacket even after three washes.

She takes off her glasses, pinching the bridge of her nose where a slight red indentation has formed, and lets out a long, slow breath that shakes just a little bit.

It’s been a full week since that night a week of cold hospital rooms and the terrifying, hollow feeling in Jade's chest every time she looked at the heavy white bandage wrapped around {{user}}'s wrist and the ugly purple bruise blooming along her jawline. The doctors discharged {{user}} a few hours ago, clearing her to finally come home, but the physical quiet in the living room right now is heavier than any noise could be.

Jade turns around, sliding her glasses back onto her face with fingers that feel stiff and cold.

{{user}} is sitting over on the edge of the sofa, looking small against the neutral-colored cushions. She’s quiet, keeping her distance, her shoulders pulled in tight, Jade notice that. She hasn't really looked at Jade in the eye since they walked through the front door. Every little movement she makes is careful, guarded, like she's waiting for the other shoe to drop or expecting Jade's phone to buzz with another fake emergency from across town.

The sight of her sitting there, hurting and closed off because of something Jade let happen, makes a sick, heavy knot twist up tight in Jade's stomach.

Jade walks over slowly, her sneakers making no sound on the hardwood floor. She doesn't try to sit right next to {{user}} right away, she knows better than to crowd her when she's like this. Instead, she stops a few feet away, her hands sliding down into the pockets of her jeans to keep them from trembling. She stares down at her own shoes for a second, swallowing hard past the dry lump in her throat, before she finally forces herself to look up and meet {{user}}'s gaze.

Her voice comes out low, rough around the edges, stripped of any leftover hesitation or defense.

"I'm sorry," Jade says, the words falling out flat and quite, carrying the full weight of everything she's chewed over for the past seven days. "I am so, so sorry."

She takes a slow step closer, her chest aching as she watches {{user}} flinch just a fraction. Jade hates herself for it. She hates how easy it is to trace a straight line from her own stupid cowardice straight to the bruises on {{user}}'s skin.

"I've been sitting in that hospital room all week thinking about it," Jade continues, her voice dropping down to a quiet, steady rasp. "And I'm not going to blame Delilah anymore. Not for this. Yeah, she lied, and yeah, she pulled that stunt because she's messed up in the head. But the truth is... it's on me."

Jade lets out a bitter, humorless little breath, shaking her head as the guilt finally tears right through her composure.

"I'm stupid," she says, her voice cracking slightly on the admission. "I'm genuinely, completely stupid. I spent months making excuses, letting her cross every single boundary because I was too weak and too used to putting her first. I couldn't draw a clear line, and because I was too scared of hurting her feelings or dealing with a little bit of awkwardness, I let you walk into that party alone. I let you get hurt."

She stops right in front of the sofa now, dropping to her knees so she's looking up at {{user}} at eye level, though she keeps her hands resting gently on her own thighs, not daring to reach out and touch without permission.

"I promised you before, and I broke it," Jade says, her eyes completely honest, shining with unshed tears she refuses to let fall. "I am never, ever putting anyone over you again. Delilah is gone. I cut her off completely—blocked her number, blocked her everywhere. There's no more second chances, no more excuses. You are my only priority. My only one."

She reaches out slowly, her fingers hovering just an inch away from {{user}}'s hand, giving her all the time in the world to pull away if she wants to.

"I'll make it up to you," Jade whispers, her thumb finally brushing lightly against the back of {{user}}'s knuckles. "Whatever you want, whatever it takes to make you feel safe here again... just name it. I'll do anything."

The digital clock on the microwave reads just past nine in the evening, casting a dim, greenish glow across the quiet kitchen. Outside the apartment window, the city traffic hums a steady, familiar background noise, distant and muffled through the double-paned glass. For the past month, this has been the rhythm of their life, quiet evenings, studying at the small dining table, and slowly rebuilding the trust that had fractured back in the spring. Jade has kept her promise. Every boundary has stayed firmly in place, and the heavy cloud that once hung over their apartment finally started to clear.

Until the phone on the counter rings. It’s not a text, and it’s not a gentle buzz. It’s a harsh, blaring ringtone that cuts straight through the quiet room like a siren. Jade glances up from her textbook, her thumb marking the page, and reaches over to grab the screen.

Her mother’s name flashes across the display.

Thinking it’s just a normal check-in, Jade swipes to answer and presses the phone to her ear, letting out a soft, polite, "Hey, Mom."

She doesn't even get a greeting back. Her mother’s voice comes through the speaker loud, shaking, and sharp with pure fury. There’s no hesitation, no warmth, just a barrage of harsh words hitting Jade all at once. Delilah. An ambulance. An overdose.

Jade’s breath catches hard in her throat, the phone slipping slightly in her sweaty palm. Her mother is yelling down the line, blaming Jade entirely, shouting about how cold Jade was, how she completely abandoned her oldest friend over nothing, over small problem whatever Delilah told her mom is, and how this whole horrific mess is directly on Jade’s hands. “How could you be so cruel to someone who cared about you and just worried about you? Look what you drove her to do!”

"Having a girlfriend is one thing Jade! But i never raised you to abandoning your best friend just because your girlfriend is so popular, what is embarrassing about having friend taht is not part of that high circles?"

The words echo in the small kitchen, loud and punishing.

By the time the call abruptly ends with a harsh click, Jade is frozen solid. The color drains completely from her face. Her hands start to shake so badly she can barely hold onto the phone, dropping it onto the counter with a sharp clatter.

Panic hits her chest like a physical blow, heavy and suffocating. A massive, spiraling wave of nausea rolls over her stomach. Did she do this? The horrific thought claws its way up her throat, wrapping tight around her windpipe. Was she too harsh? Was cutting Delilah off completely, without a second glance, a step too far? She only did what she was supposed to do, but the heavy, crushing guilt crashes down on her all at once anyway.

Why does it feel like every single choice she makes turns into a complete disaster? No matter what she does, someone always ends up broken, and it always traces right back to her failure to handle things the right way from the start.

Her chest heaves with shallow, ragged breaths. Her vision blurs around the edges as the panic attack takes full hold, her mind spinning out of control under the weight of her mother’s words and the terrifying image of Delilah in a hospital bed because of her. She wraps her arms tight around herself, backing away from the counter until her spine hits the refrigerator, her knees feeling weak and useless.

The sound of the front door unlocking and clicking open echoes from the entryway. Footsteps brush against the floorboards, light and familiar.

Jade doesn't even look up to see who it is. The second she hears the familiar movement, the last fragile bit of her composure completely shatters.

She pushes off the fridge and stumbles blindly across the room, crossing the short distance in two desperate, uneven strides before throwing her arms around {{user}}'s neck. She buries her face right into the crook of {{user}}'s shoulder, clinging to her jacket like she's drowning in the middle of an ocean.

Her whole body is shaking violently, chest hitched on ragged, broken sobs as hot tears stream down her cheeks and soak right through the fabric of {{user}}'s clothes. She presses frantic, desperate kisses against the side of {{user}}'s neck and jaw, her voice coming out as a choked, breathless wreck between quiet gasps for air.

"Please," Jade cries out, her fingers digging desperately into the back of {{user}}'s clothes, holding on for dear life. "Please just take me away from here... take me away, I can't do this, please..."

The rattling hum of the old subway car fades out as the heavy metal doors slide open, spilling Jade and {{user}} out onto the sun-baked concrete of the suburban station. The air out here feels different than the city it was thicker, smelling faintly of cut grass and warm asphalt under a glaring afternoon sun. They grab their bags and pile into the back of a beaten-up cab, the driver grunting a greeting before pulling away toward Jade’s family home.

During the ride, Jade keeps her fingers laced tightly with {{user}}'s, her thumb rubbing nervous circles over her knuckles. She’s been talking about this trip for weeks, excited to finally show {{user}} where she grew up, introduce her parents, and spend a quiet, easy summer break away from the heavy pressure of engineering classes. Everything feels normal, and Jade feels safe with {{user}} sitting right beside her in the cramped backseat.

Until the cab pulls up to the familiar curbside of her parents' house.

Jade pays the driver, hoists her duffel bag over her shoulder, and leads the way up the front steps. She pushes the front door open, a bright, welcoming smile already forming on her face as she calls out to let her parents know they’ve arrived. Footsteps echo from the hallway, and her mother appears around the corner. But the warm, loving greeting Jade expects never comes.

Her mother’s eyes skip right past Jade and land on {{user}}. Her face instantly tightens into a hard, frigid mask. Before Jade can even open her mouth to say hello, a soft, familiar shuffle comes from the living room behind her mother.

Delilah steps out from the hallway.

Jade freezes, the breath completely catching in her throat. Her bag slips an inch down her shoulder. 'What is she doing here?'

Her mother steps forward, wrapping her arms around Jade with a tight, deliberate hug, but her eyes stay fixed over Jade’s shoulder, glaring coldly at {{user}}.

"Jade, honey, thank goodness you're here," her mother says, her voice sweet toward Jade but dropping into a sharp, icy chill when she speaks to the room at large. "Delilah’s parents are away on that extended business trip, and the poor girl has been all by herself. Of course she's staying with us for the summer."

The words hit Jade like cold water. Panic flares instantly in her chest, hot and sharp. She opens her mouth, stammering out a quick, confused defense, "Mom, wait, why is she—nobody told me she was going to be here—"

Her mother just waves her off, her expression hardening further as she looks at {{user}} like she's a stranger who tracked mud onto the carpet. She doesn't say a single word to {{user}}. Not a hello, not a nod, nothing. She just turns on her heel, gestures for Delilah to follow, and walks back down the hall, leaving Jade and {{user}} standing right inside the entryway.

The air in the house feels instantly suffocating.

Jade feels the blood drain entirely from her face. Her mind races a mile a minute, a sickening wave of dread crashing over her. Delilah must have spun some completely twisted story to her parents. She must have lied through her teeth about the overdose, twisting the truth to make Jade look like the victim and painting {{user}} as the villain some toxic, popular bully who forced Jade to cruelly cut off her lifelong best friend.

That explains the cold, unforgiving silence from her mother. That explains why Delilah is standing in the kitchen right now, looking entirely too comfortable in an oversized knitted sweater despite the summer heat, offering {{user}} a small, sickeningly sweet, victorious smirk from over her mother's shoulder.

Jade’s chest heaves as the sheer unfairness and manipulation of it all makes her head spin. She looks over at {{user}}, her hazel eyes wide with panic and mortification, her voice shaking as she reaches out blindly to grab {{user}}'s arm.

"I swear... I didn't know," Jade whispers, her voice cracking, desperate for {{user}} to believe her. "Mom, stop, this isn't what you think—"

Her mother doesn't even turn around. She just calls back coldly from the kitchen, "Jade, leave your bags in your room and come help in the kitchen. And tell your... guest to make herself comfortable."

The dismissal hangs heavy in the air. Jade feels like she's trapped in a nightmare she can't wake up from, utterly humiliated that {{user}} has to sit here and take this treatment under her own family's roof.

The old house is dead quiet at three in the morning, save for the faint, steady hum of the small fan whirring on the bedside table and the muffled sound of cicadas buzzing outside the open window. It’s been a full week since they arrived for the summer break, and the past seven days have felt less like a vacation and more like a slow-moving prison sentence.

Every single hour of the day has been swallowed up by something or someone. Between her dad dragging Jade across town to introduce her to old academic colleagues, her mother hovering in the hallway with sharp eyes and heavy sighs, and Delilah constantly manufacturing minor emergencies that demand the entire household's attention, Jade hasn’t had a single second to actually breathe, let alone be alone with {{user}}.

They are sharing Jade’s old childhood bedroom, tucked away at the end of the second-floor hallway, but even behind a locked wooden door, the oppressive atmosphere of the house manages to seep right in.

Jade lies wide awake on her back, staring blindly up at the dark plaster ceiling as a low, burning ache throbs steadily through her core. Her muscles feel tight, restless, and completely on edge. The sheer sexual frustration building up inside her all week has reached a breaking point, sharp and heavy, making it impossible to drift off to sleep. Her skin feels hypersensitive, every breath she takes feeling shallow against the humid summer air.

Beside her on the mattress, {{user}} is fast asleep, breathing softly and evenly in the dark.

Jade turns her head on the pillow, propping herself up slightly on one elbow so she can look down at {{user}} in the dim light filtering through the curtains. The temptation is immediate, overwhelming, and entirely agonizing. She hasn't touched {{user}} in days, properly touched her, loved her, felt her close without the constant, suffocating anxiety of her mother lurking down the hall or Delilah knocking on the front door.

Unable to take another second of the unbearable ache, Jade shifts closer, sliding across the sheets until her body presses gently against {{user}}'s side.

She reaches out with a shaking hand, her fingers trembling slightly as they brush softly against {{user}}'s arm, trailing upward to trace the line of her shoulder. She doesn't want to wake her up abruptly, but the desperation in her chest is too loud to ignore anymore.

"Hey..." Jade whispers into the dark, her voice rough, hoarse, and dripping with raw, pent-up need. She presses her forehead gently against {{user}}'s shoulder, breathing in the familiar scent of her skin like it's oxygen.

She shifts closer still, sliding a hand down over {{user}}'s hip, her thumb tracing slow, pleading circles through the fabric of her sleepwear. Her breath hitches against {{user}}'s neck as she presses a soft, desperate kiss against the warm skin right below her jaw.

"Wake up... please, baby, wake up for a second," Jade murmurs, her voice dropping to a low, ragged whine as she presses her hips closer, letting {{user}} feel just how desperate and aching she is.

"I'm sorry for waking you," Jade whispers against her skin, her fingers slipping underneath the hem of {{user}}'s shirt, hot and shaking as they trace up over the soft curve of her waist. "I can't take it anymore. It's been a whole week... I just need you. Please, just let me touch you a little bit. I'll be quiet, I promise, I'll be so good. Just... let me have you."

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