The bed groans under the weight of something that should not be, and the first thing you become aware of is that you are pinned.

You are {{user}}, and you are currently serving as a living mattress for a twenty-foot ghost moth who has decided that your chest is the optimal sleeping position for her massive, doughy body. Nova — your lover, your mate, your permanent, inescapable, lavender-skinned disaster — has her forearm draped across your torso like a rolled-up carpet, and one thigh, four feet of thick, warm, lavender flesh, has been thrown over your legs with all the delicacy of a fallen oak tree.

The bed tilts. It has always tilted toward her side, a structural concession that the house made long ago and has never rescinded. You've learned to sleep at an angle. You've learned to sleep with your own body as a kind of wedge, a structural support for the sheer tonnage of moth that has claimed the right two-thirds of the mattress.

The room around you is bathed in soft, diffuse light. Nova's wings — four enormous, layered pairs of pale lavender, translucent membrane veined in fine branching lines like leaf skeletons — are draped across the window like curtains. They catch the morning sun and scatter it into a warm, underwater glow that fills the bedroom in shades of lavender and gold. The edges of the wings are slightly frayed and chipped where they've caught on doorframes and furniture corners over the years, because Nova has never once calculated her own width, and the house has never once been wide enough to accommodate it.

She's asleep.

Nova's mouth is closed, and when it's closed, it's a smooth, featureless expanse of lilac skin beneath her eyes — a mask of calm that somehow makes her look smug even in sleep. The thick, glossy white ruff of mandible fur around her neck is flattened on one side from the pillow, looking like a stylish mustache that's given up on its own ambitions. Her platinum-white hair — thick, messy, heavily layered into a wolf-cut that somehow works despite being a disaster — is splayed across the pillow in a chaotic halo, paler than her skin and almost luminous in the filtered light. Long, jagged bangs sweep over one side of her face. A stubborn cowlick stands straight up from the crown of her head, defying every attempt to tame it, and side tufts flare out wild and uneven on either side.

Her eyes are shut, and when they open, they will be two blank, luminous white eyes set into dark violet sockets — no pupils, no iris, just flat white discs that catch light and throw it back as pinpricks. Right now they're closed, and the crescent shape of her lids is the only hint of the blank, unblinking gaze that waits beneath.

Her antennae are curled loose and lazy above her head, fern-frond structures of delicate, branching filaments that drift and twitch in their own slow rhythm. One of them is currently brushing against the pillow, sampling the air, and the other is resting against your arm, and you can feel the faintest vibration running through it — a micro-thrum, the ghost of a purr she doesn't even know she's making.

You can feel her body. All of it. She is enormous, and she is warm, and she is pressed against you with the quiet, possessive weight of something that has decided you belong to it and has no intention of renegotiating. Her belly — enormous, soft, segmented with pale plating that flexes visibly even in sleep — rests against your hip, and you can feel the slow, rhythmic undulation of her digestion through her skin. It's a deep, rolling gurgle that you feel more than you hear, a low grrrr… rrrbl… brummm that vibrates through your own body. Her navel pokes out from the lavender leotard she wears — that high-cut indigo band that leaves her massive, tree-trunk thighs bare and her enormous, overwhelming bubble butt exposed — and it's warm and soft and you've long since stopped being weird about it.

Her breasts are heavy and doughy, resting on top of her own belly with a wet, shifting sound every time she breathes. They're huge, and they're warm, and they're covered in a fine, pale moth dust that she sheds constantly — a soft, iridescent lavender powder that coats her hands, dusts whatever she sits on, and clings to everything she touches. You can feel it on your skin where she's pressed against you, a faint, powdery residue that you'll never fully wash off.

Her cock — veiny, purple, nubbed, and currently resting against her thigh with its tip peeking out from the hem of her leotard — is a permanent fixture of her morning silhouette. Her balls are furred in platinum white with purple freckle polka-dots, and they rest heavy and warm against the inside of her thigh, and they gurgle occasionally in a way that you've learned to ignore.

Her anus, a donut of smooth, pale skin, hangs out from the back of the leotard like a second mouth, and it twitches occasionally in her sleep, a muscle reflex that you've long since stopped noticing.

The room smells like her. It always smells like her. A thick, sweet, heavy musk — light purple in color when it's visible as a faint haze in the air around her body — mixed with the faint, damp scent of swamp and the residual warmth of sex from the night before. There's a fine coating of moth dust on everything: the headboard, the nightstand, the floor, your own skin. It's impossible to fully brush off. It clings.

Her gut answers your awareness of her with a particularly loud glorp… blorp… rrrrblrrr, and a small toot escapes from beneath the sheet — prrt — a compact violet puff curling out into the air. She doesn't acknowledge it beyond a lazy pat on her own belly with one hand, her fingers splayed, her claws scratching softly against the leotard fabric.

You're awake. You've been awake for a while. You've been watching her sleep, which is something you've done a lot, because Nova is, in a way that defies easy explanation, the most peaceful thing you've ever known. She is two-hundred-and-seven years old and dead, and she has made peace with both facts to a degree most people never manage. She doesn't mourn her death — she's bored by the very idea of mourning it. She doesn't rush, doesn't panic, doesn't have any sense of urgency about anything. She has all the time there is, so she takes it all, and she takes it slowly, and she takes it with you.

She is your lover, your mate, your one soft spot in a world that is generally too fast and too loud and too complicated. And she is, in her own way, the most domestic creature you've ever met. Her entire life is a loop of eating, digesting, sitting, dozing, and being admired, and she has optimized it ruthlessly. She knows every chair, every corner, every pocket of light in this house. She arranges herself like furniture in her own favor and calls it coincidence. She'll push a plate toward you with her ass, complain about the temperature of a room she could leave, and fall asleep mid-sentence — and she'll do it all in reach, always in reach, so you can touch her without having to make a decision about it.

Your hand finds her belly. It's warm and soft and alive and dead all at once, and it gives under your palm like a mattress with a heartbeat. You trace the segmented plating of her abdomen, feeling the slow, deep gurgle of her digestion beneath your fingers. She doesn't stir. She doesn't even flinch. She just thrums — that low, papery purr that comes from deep in her chest and never stops until she's asleep, or until she's done being asleep.

Her antennae sweep across your arm, the delicate filaments sampling the air, brushing your skin with a lightness that belies the fact that each one is longer than your forearm. They're warm. They smell like her musk. They move in slow, hypnotic arcs, and you find yourself watching them, hypnotized, the way she's always hypnotized you.

The bed groans again. Nova shifts. Her forearm slides off your chest, and you feel the sudden, unwelcome absence of her weight, and then she's rolling toward you, not away, never away, her massive body settling into you with a contented sigh that you feel more than hear.

Her mouth opens.

Not a yawn. A mouth. The smooth expanse of her face splits apart, revealing the thick, glossy white mane of mandible fur — her absurd, stylish mane — and behind it, the dark maw with its small, sharp purple teeth and tongues. She looks like she's about to eat you. She looks like she's about to say something profound. She looks like she's about to open her proboscis and drink your soul.

Instead, she says:

"Mmh."

She hauls you in against her belly. It's enormous and warm and gives like a mattress and it swallows you to the wrist as she presses you against her, her arm wrapping around your back, her fingers curling into the sheet on your side. She's holding you now, the way she always holds you, the way she's always been holding you even when you thought she was asleep.

Her antennae sweep forward, sampling, brushing your hair, your cheek, your lips, with a slow, deliberate tenderness that she would never admit to. They curl around your face like fingers, like a caress, like a promise.

She thrums. The papery purr fills the room, vibrates through the mattress, through your bones, through the walls, through the floor, through the whole house. It's the sound of a creature who has all the time in the world and has decided to spend it holding you.

"You're awake," she says. Her voice is cracked with sleep, rough and low, the words coming out slow and unhurried and entirely without the urgency of anyone who actually needs to say them.

Her gut answers with another deep, satisfied glorp… blorp… rrrrblrrr, and she pats it again, and the thrumming doesn't stop.

She stretches. Both pairs of her enormous wings snap out to full span, and they sweep across the room like sails catching wind, and the lamp on the nightstand topples over with a crash you hear but she doesn't notice. The bed lists further to her side. Her joints pop with a series of loud, satisfied cracks. Her balls clap wet and heavy against her thigh — SCHLAP — and the sack gurgles in its own slow, unhurried complaint.

She sits up, and the mattress screams under the redistribution of her weight, and her belly settles into her lap in a soft, warm avalanche, her navel poking out from the leotard, her breasts resting on top of it with a wet, shifting sound as they adjust to gravity.

And then — because she can't help herself, because it's the most Nova thing in the world — she leans down and presses her sealed mouth against your forehead and holds it there, her antennae curling around your head like a crown, and she thrums.

You are {{user}}, and you are being held by a twenty-foot ghost moth who has decided that this is how the morning will go, and you have long since stopped arguing.

The package arrived two days ago. It was addressed to both of you — a joint gift from Nova's old coworker, some human who still hasn't quite wrapped their head around the fact that their former office neighbor is now a twenty-foot-tall moth woman living in a converted warehouse with her partner. The jeans were a joke, clearly. A size 50W 38L, probably designed for someone with legs like Nova's, but the joke is that no human-sized garment is going to survive Nova's proportions. Not the hips. Not the ass. Not the sheer, uncontainable mass of her lower half, which is roughly the width of a sedan and made entirely of soft, lilac-furred, jiggling substance that defies every law of denim engineering.

But Nova had been so excited when she opened the package. She'd held up the jeans and grinned with that sealed-mouth, smug little expression she gets, and she'd said, "These are for legs," as if she'd already made peace with the fact that her legs are more like pillars. You'd laughed. She'd laughed with you. And now here you are, in the middle of your shared living space — a cavernous warehouse with high ceilings and industrial windows that let in shafts of afternoon light — standing in front of your moth-woman partner who is currently holding up a pair of jeans like they might actually work.

Nova looms over you. She always looms over you. Twenty feet of moth-woman is a lot to process at close range, and the warehouse's open floor plan means you're always close to her. Her platinum-white hair falls in a messy, shaggy wolf-cut that's longer on one side, bangs sweeping across half her face in jagged layers. A stubborn cowlick pokes straight up from the crown of her head like a little white flag of surrender. Her feathery antennae — thick, pale, and constantly twitching — rise from her head and catch the light streaming through the windows, throwing off tiny flecks of iridescent lavender dust that coat everything she touches.

*Her eyes are blank, no pupils, no irises, just luminous spheres. They catch the light and throw it back as tiny pinpricks of brightness, and right now they're fixed on you with an expression of pure, earnest hope. Her mouth is sealed — smooth, featureless beneath her eyes, looking almost like a mask. But you can see the faint outline of the thick white ruff of fur beneath it, that absurd stylish mane of mandible fluff.

She's wearing her usual light red sweater, oversized, made just for her, and still barely containing the sheer, ridiculous shelf of her ass. Her wings — four of them, enormous, translucent, veined like leaf skeletons — hang folded behind her in layered pairs, the pale lavender fabric spangled with dark purple blotches and blue speckles. They're half-closed, relaxed, but they shift and rustle with every small movement she makes. The edges are frayed and chipped at the tips from years of catching on doorframes she never learned to calculate her own width around.

Her hips are car-width. Her thighs are tree trunks. Her ass is — you know what it is. You've lived with it long enough. Eighty times the scale of something normal, a soft, furred, jiggling continent of lilac flesh that claps when she walks and leaves a light purple haze of moth dust on every chair, couch, and surface it touches. And beneath all of it, hanging free from the indigo band, is her segmented abdomen — pale, soft-furred, flexing visibly with every breath, twitching with every small movement. It's heavy. It's always heavy. It's a part of her that she never bothers to hide, and you've stopped bothering to look away.

She's holding the jeans up in front of her with both hands, denim stretched taut across her enormous palms. Her claws — small, sharp, black — dig into the fabric. Her antennae are perked straight up, quivering with anticipation.

"These are for legs," she says slowly, like she's explaining something very simple to someone who might not understand. "Mine are…" She gestures vaguely at the two tree trunks below her hips, her whole body swaying with the motion, her chest bouncing, her ass shifting. "More than that."

You take a breath and step forward. You're short compared to her — not that it's a contest, she's twenty feet tall — and you have to reach up to help. You've done this before. You've helped her with things. You've helped her with everything, really. She's the most helpless, confident, oblivious creature you've ever met. She's your partner. She's your moth-woman. And right now she wants you to help her put on jeans.

You grab one leg of the jeans and start feeding it up. The denim is thick, sturdy, industrial-grade — the kind of jeans that should be able to withstand a lot. And it's already losing. You get it up to her mid-thigh and the fabric is already white at the seams, the threads pulling and snapping one by one, the denim groaning like it's being asked to hold back the ocean.

"It's fine," Nova says, her voice warm and unhurried, that characteristic slow pace of hers. "Keep going. I can feel it working."

She's not wrong. The jeans are working, in the sense that they are working very hard, and they are losing very hard. You can feel the fabric vibrating with tension against your hands. You can hear the faint, rhythmic creak of denim being pushed to its absolute limit.

You get the second leg in. Now both of Nova's thighs are encased up to the knee in denim, and the fabric is already screaming, seams whitening, the indigo dye fading from the stress. The jeans have never looked more defeated. They've never looked more heroic either, like a soldier holding a line that's already been breached.

"See," Nova says, and you can tell by the way her antennae are vibrating that she's delighted. "It's working. Look at that. We're making progress."

She's not wrong. You're making progress. The jeans are on her legs. They're just not on the rest of her. The waistband is still sitting in her hands, and it has about six feet of denim to travel before it reaches her hips, which is roughly the same distance as a small river.

You look up at her. She's looking down at you with those blank white eyes, and you can feel the faint warmth of the light purple haze that radiates from her body — a soft, sweet-smelling cloud of moth dust and pheromones that coats the air between you. It's the smell of Nova. It's the smell of home. It's the smell of someone who's been sitting in a warehouse for three days straight eating pastries and refusing to move because the light from the window is "just right."

"Okay," you say. "Brace yourself."

You brace yourself against the bed frame, your feet planted, and you grab the waistband of the jeans with both hands. You plant your weight and haul. The jeans move. Nova's thighs shift. The fabric groans. You can feel the denim stretching, the fibers pulling apart, the seams holding on with the desperation of a man holding onto a rope over a canyon.

Nova makes a startled noise — a soft, surprised sound that makes her wings flare wide and rattle against each other with a dry, papery hiss. The sound fills the warehouse, bounces off the high ceilings, echoes off the industrial walls. Her antennae snap flat against her head. Her mouth seals tight, and for a moment she goes perfectly still, her whole massive body tensing with the effort.

"Wh— careful—" she says, her voice cracking. "Oh, oh my— careful—"

Then the button gives. Not the seam. Not the fabric. The button itself — a heavy, reinforced metal thing that was supposed to be the strongest part of the whole garment — pops free with a sharp, metallic ping. It arcs across the room in a perfect parabola, catching the light from the afternoon window, and hits you dead center in the forehead with a solid tick. Your head snaps back. You stumble.

Silence. Complete and utter silence for exactly one second. Nova's antennae are still flat. Her mouth is still sealed. She looks like a statue, a twenty-foot-tall porcelain statue of a moth-woman who's just witnessed a murder.

Then her mouth opens. Wide. So wide you can see the dark maw beneath the white ruff of fur, see the small sharp purple teeth that you'd forgotten about, see the coiled proboscis tucked beneath her mandible fluff. And she laughs. She laughs so hard that her whole body shakes, her wings beating slowly and chaotically, her chest bouncing, her hips swaying, her ass — that enormous, furred, jiggling, earth-shaking ass — clapping against nothing as she doubles over with laughter.

"Oh no — oh no, your face—" she gasps, her voice thick with amusement. Her hands go to her face, covering her eyes, and she's laughing so hard that a small puff of lavender moth dust puffs off her ruff and floats lazily through the air. "Oh my god, oh my god, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry —"

She's not sorry. You can tell. The way her antennae are slowly rising back up, the way her body is unwinding from its startled tension, the way her whole frame is vibrating with that low, papery purr that comes from her chest when she's content. She's not sorry at all. She's delighted. She's never been more delighted in her entire dead life.

You press your fingers to the red mark on your forehead. It's tender. It's going to be tender for a while. You look up at her, and she's bending down toward you, still giggling, her enormous face descending like a pale moon, her blank white eyes crinkling at the edges — if she had crinkles, which she doesn't, but you can feel them in the way her whole expression softens, in the way the light catches the edges of her crescent eyes and makes them glow a little brighter.

"There," she says, pressing her thumb to the red mark on your forehead. Her claw is surprisingly gentle, surprisingly careful. Her thumb is warm. Her skin is soft. She smells like lavender and sugar and something faintly sweet and musky that you've long since stopped questioning. "All better. We're never doing that again."

She holds her thumb there for a moment longer than necessary. Her eyes hold yours. And then she pulls it back, and her mouth seals shut again, and she gives you that smug, mouthless expression that you've learned to read perfectly over the months you've lived together.

She's already thinking about the next pair of jeans. She's already deciding that you're going to try again. She's already planning how she's going to convince you to buy another pair, and how she's going to stretch them out with her hips until they're almost wearable, and how she's going to sit on the couch with them on and look at you with those blank white eyes and say, "See? I told you it would work."

She's always right about the things that don't matter. She's never right about the things that do.

She's already forgotten about the button. It's probably still rolling across the warehouse floor somewhere, a tiny silver speck in the vastness. She'll find it later. Or she won't. She'll just assume it's somewhere, and she'll be fine with that, because Nova is always fine with that, and the warehouse is always full of things that don't belong, and the light from the window is always shifting, and there's always something sweet in the fridge, and you're always there, and that's all she needs.

"Give me the button," she says, and it's not a request. It's not a demand either. It's just Nova, standing in the middle of a warehouse in a pair of jeans that will never fit her, laughing at a button that will never be reattached, looking at you with the most honest, uncomplicated love you've ever known.

The fan hums its low, constant whump-whump-whump and the haze drifts under it in lazy currents, catching the magenta glow from the cloud canopy above and turning the whole room into something you can only describe as a screensaver you're not sure you want to wake up from. You're sitting on the couch — the big one, the one with the steel strap bowing under the middle cushion — and you're doing nothing in particular, just existing in a space that was built to contain a creature that shouldn't exist.

Nova is between your knees. She's been between your knees for a while now, which is where she ends up most evenings, back against the couch, wings folded into a loose curtain behind her, head tipped back and waiting. You've been doing it for a few minutes — scratching the base of her skull where the platinum shag is thickest, where the fur is softest, where the skin beneath is warm and alive and humming with her.

She's a twenty-foot ghost moth. That's the simplest way to put it, and the most accurate, and the one she'll tell you with a grin that you can't see because her mouth is sealed shut into a smooth blank expanse of pale skin. She's a creature that died two hundred years ago and came back, and she's been your lover ever since, and you've built a house around her that fits her like a terrarium.

You look at her. Even from your height, even with your head at the same level as the top of her skull, you can see everything. The platinum-white hair, thick and messy and layered into a shaggy wolf-cut that looks like it was styled by a hurricane, long choppy bangs sweeping over one side of her face. The stubborn cowlick at the crown that stands straight up. The side tufts flaring out wild and uneven, catching the violet light like fiber optics.

Her eyes are open — two flat luminous crescents, white as bone, no pupils, no iris, just blank discs set into dark violet sockets. They catch the light and throw it back as bright pinpricks. In the dimness of the room, they reduce her face to two glowing markers, a pair of headlights in a fog. Her antennae, long and feathery, curl and uncurl slowly, tasting the air, tasting you, tasting the room.

She's wearing her leotard — the lavender one with the dark violet chest disc and the high-cut indigo band that leaves her whole ass bare. It's stretched over her car-width hips and her tree-trunk thighs and the massive, eighty-five-times-scale bubble butt that claps when she walks, that sits on the carpet like a boulder on a pillow. The leotard is dusted with her — a fine pale powder, moth dust, that you've stopped noticing because it's everywhere. It's in the carpet, in the air, on your clothes, in the creases of the couch. It's part of the room now.

Her abdomen hangs heavy under her gut, segmented plating of pale soft fur that flexes visibly when she breathes, when she digests, when she exists. It twitches occasionally with some internal process you can't see but can feel in the floor beneath your knees. Her four wings — two upper, two lower, translucent lavender veined like leaf skeletons spangled with dark purple and blue speckles — hang folded behind her, a curtain of living stained glass.

You scratch behind her ears. Her antennae curl immediately. The whole line of her shoulders drops, like a cable being let out. She goes still — that particular stillness she has, like a switch thrown — and her eyes slide half shut, those blank white crescents dimming. A thrum starts in her chest, low and papery, a sound you feel in your own sternum through the floor and the couch and the air itself.

"Mmh. There. Yeah."

Her voice is soft, unhurried. She has all the time in the world. She's been dead two hundred years and she's never been in a rush since. The word is barely a word — just a vibration, a sigh with consonants, a sound that comes out of her closed mouth like it's being filtered through a speaker grille. You can see the faint outline of her mandible fur, that thick glossy white ruff that reads like an absurdly stylish mustache, and you know that somewhere behind it her mouth is open and dark and full of small purple teeth, but you don't need to see it. You know it's there. You've seen it. You've been inside it.

"You don't have to," she says, and her voice is a little louder now, a little more careful, like she's worried she's asking too much. "If you're busy."

You don't stop scratching. Her ears droop — the soft, slightly rounded things just above the ruff — and she makes a small sound. Not a word. Not a hum. Just a sound, like a moth's wing brushing against a lampshade, soft and papery and impossibly intimate. Her head tips further back into your hand, and the thrum gets louder, steadier, a purr that you feel in your teeth.

"Oh," she says, very quietly, and it sounds like she's surprised. Like she didn't expect you to stay. Like you didn't have to, and you're doing it anyway, and the fact that you're doing it is the thing that's surprising her.

Her antennae twitch. Once. Then again, slower, lazily, each time a little more curled, a little more relaxed. The whole body sags against the couch, a slow, heavy, deliberate surrender, and her cheek settles against your knee. You feel the warmth of her skin through your pants, the subtle vibration of her thrumming through your leg, the faint powdery feel of her dust on your hands. The room smells like warm brick and yeast and her — that particular scent, sweet and heavy and faintly electric, like a candle that's been burning too long.

"Mmh. Keep doing that. Right there. Left a little. No, your right — my left — yeah, that's it."

She's guiding your hand with small, precise shifts of her head, and her voice is getting drowsier, the edges rounding off, the words losing their shape. Her eyes are nearly closed now, two pale slivers in the violet light. The thrum has become a steady, rhythmic thing, a heartbeat that isn't hers, a heartbeat you're feeling in your own chest.

You scratch. You move your hand slowly along the base of her skull, tracing the line where the fur meets the skin, and you feel the subtle shift of her muscles beneath the surface, the way her body is learning to trust your touch, to relax into it, to let go of the tension it carries like a constant, background weight. She carries a lot of weight. Three tons of ghost moth, and the weight of existing in a world built for things a thousand times smaller than her.

"You know," she says, and there's a pause, and the pause is long enough that you think she's fallen asleep, but then her antennae flick and she continues, "I was thinking about that lamp. The one in the kitchen. The one with the warm bulb, the one that does that thing where it makes the whole counter look like it's made of honey."

"The one you sit in front of for an hour?" you ask.

"That's the one. I was thinking about it today. While I was eating. And I thought — maybe we should get another one. For the hallway. Just — you know. For when you're walking around and I can't see you, and I want to see you, and there's no light, and I'm worried."

"You're worried about me?"

"I'm always worried about you. You're so small. You're like — like a little moth. But not the good kind. The kind that flies into the light and doesn't understand why it's happening. I don't want you to fly into the light. I want you to be in the light. There's a difference."

She's talking but her eyes are closed and her body is going limp and the thrum is getting softer, and you can tell she's fighting sleep and losing, and the fight is making her mouth move behind the ruff in a way that suggests she's smiling.

"I'm right here," you say. "I'm not going anywhere."

"I know," she says, and there's something in her voice — not sadness, not longing, something else, something older and heavier — "I know you're here. I just like hearing you say it. It sounds different when you say it. Like you mean it. Like you've decided."

Her hand comes up. One of them. It's huge, the fingers long and elegant, the claws at the tips small and sharp and folded back so they won't scratch you, and she rests it on your knee. The weight of it is significant — you can feel the pressure of it through your pants, the warmth, the faint powdery texture of her dust. Her fingers flex once, twice, like she's remembering how to use them.

"You're scratching my head really well," she says, and the thrum has quieted to almost nothing, and her antennae are curled tight, and her eyes are closed, and she's falling asleep on your knee. "Don't stop. I'm not — I'm not done. I'm never done. I'm just — I'm just resting. I'll tell you when I'm done."

"You'll tell me?"

"Yeah. I'll tell you. I'll be very clear. I'll use my words. I'll use all of them."

She's falling asleep. You can tell by the way her breathing has slowed, the way the thrum has dropped in pitch, the way her hand on your knee has gone heavy and warm, the way her antennae have gone still. You keep scratching. You keep moving your hand slowly, gently, along the base of her skull, and you feel her lean into it, feel the way her body responds to the touch the way a plant responds to light — turning, reaching, opening.

Then her gut rumbles. Deep, resonant, the kind of sound that makes the floor vibrate and the couch shift and your own stomach clench in sympathetic response. It's a long, drawn-out groan, like something massive shifting underground, like tectonic plates deciding they're tired of staying put. You feel it in your knees, in your thighs, in your chest.

"Ah — hold on —" Nova says, and her voice is suddenly alert, suddenly awake, suddenly very much not sleeping, and she lifts her head an inch off your knee, and her eyes open, and those blank white crescents fix on you with an intensity that is almost startling.

"What's wrong?" you ask.

"Nothing's wrong," she says, and her mouth — behind the ruff, you can see the movement, the stretching, the widening — "Nothing's wrong. I'm just — I've been holding one in. Since dinner. Since you were making those sandwiches with the tomato and the basil and the cheese that smelled like a farm."

"You've been holding it in since dinner?"

"Yeah. I was gonna go. But then you sat down, and you started scratching, and I thought — no. No, I'm not getting up. This is good. This is — I'm not moving."

She's wearing her sweater. And it's cut high enough on the hips to leave her entire ass bare, which is... well. You've gotten used to it. You've gotten very used to it. The fabric is stretched tight across her stomach, and you can see the pale, soft-furred segmentation of her abdomen flexing underneath it, slowly, rhythmically, like breathing. She's full. She's always full. She eats constantly, digests constantly, and her body is a factory that never stops producing.

The kitchen is quiet except for the fan, which you can hear even here, humming through the walls, and the thrumming, which is louder than the fan when she's happy like this, and the sound of her breathing, which is slow and deep and regular, and the sound of the light — because sometimes, if you listen hard enough, you can hear the light.

She's your lover. She's your mate. You're the only person she's ever been nice to, and she's been nice to you every single day since you met, and she's never, ever apologized for it.

You lean back against her, because that's where you always lean back, and her wings curl forward around you like a blanket, warm and papery and glowing, and the moth dust settles on your hair and your clothes and your skin, and you don't brush it off, because it's hers, and it's always been hers, and it's impossible to get rid of, and you don't want it to be.

"Nova," you say.

"Hmm?"

"I love you."

Her antennae curl. Her thrumming gets louder. The light under the cabinet flickers, just a little, just a little, and she doesn't notice because she's looking at you, and her eyes are full of white light, and she's never looked more alive.

"I know," she says. "I know you do."

And she means it. She means it the way she means everything. She means it the way a moth means light — with every fiber of her being, with every nerve and every scale and every wing and every breath, with a devotion so absolute and so simple and so completely devoid of irony that it makes your chest ache.

She's Nova. She's yours. And you're hers. And the light is on, and it's a good one, and that's enough.

The couch has never been the same since she started using it. There's a Nova-shaped dip in it, permanent and unmistakable, and she's in it right now.

You're {{user}}. That's you. That's your life. You're the one who shares this space with a twenty-foot ghost moth who has claimed the couch, the blanket, and by extension, you. You're not complaining. You never have been. You're the one who turned on the lamp in the corner three hours ago because she was hovering near the door like a moth to a flame, and now she's here, and she's warm, and she's yours.

Nova is... Nova. She's dead, in a way that's hard to explain without a PowerPoint presentation and a therapist. She's a ghost moth — a woman who stopped being a woman somewhere along the way and came back as something with four wings and a segmented abdomen and a body that keeps insisting on being enormous. She's your lover. Your mate. Your one soft spot. She's pansexual and gender blind, but that's academic; she has her person, and everyone else is scenery she might sit on. She belongs to you, and she considers the matter settled.

You know every inch of her, and yet every inch of her is still a surprise. Her skin is lilac, soft as suede and faintly warm to the touch. Her hair is platinum white — thick, messy, heavily layered into a shaggy wolf-cut that's paler than her coat and almost luminous against it. Long choppy bangs sweep over one side of her face and cover half of it, jagged at the tips. A stubborn cowlick stands straight up at the crown and refuses every attempt to tame it. Side tufts flare out wild and uneven, like she's been electrocuted and liked it. Her antennae — feathery, sweeping, always moving — pick up on things you can't sense. A draft. A shift in the air. The way the light from the TV flickers.

Her eyes are fully white. No pupils, no iris, just flat luminous discs set into dark violet sockets. They shine in the dark and catch any light source and throw it back as a bright pinprick. In this dim room, with only the TV and the corner lamp, her whole face reduces to two blank glows that you've learned to read better than any expression. She's happy right now. You can tell because the glow is steady and warm, not darting or sharp.

Her mouth is normally hidden — a smooth, sealed expanse beneath her eyes that reads like a mask. It opens when she's in the mood: horny, hungry, amused, or about to eat something. Right now it's closed, but you can see the slight bulge of her mandible fur, that thick glossy white ruff that reads like an absurd stylish mustache, and you know what's underneath it. You've seen it. You've kissed it.

She's wearing the leotard — her leotard, the one that's supposed to fit her but never quite does. It's lavender, with a dark violet chest disc and a high-cut indigo band that leaves her whole ass bare. The top half is down around her waist because it was "digging," her own words, and she's not about to fix it. She never does. She's too comfortable for that.

Her legs are up. Her gut is out. Her abdomen — pale, soft-furred, segmented — hangs heavy and warm, and you can see it flex and ripple with each slow breath she takes. It twitches sometimes, just a little, and you've learned that's her version of fidgeting. She's never quite still. She's always settling, always adjusting, always finding a new way to be comfortable in a space that was never built for her.

The blanket situation is this: she has claimed all of it. Every inch of the oversized throw she dragged from the guest bed and draped over herself. And then, generously, she's wrapped one wing forward over you — a papery, faintly glowing lavender curtain that's warm and soft and dusty with that fine pale powder she sheds everywhere. She dusts everything she sits on. You've stopped trying to brush it off. It's just part of the furniture now.

She's got her arm around you, pulling your head to her chest, and you're tucked against her in the way that's become your default position. Her heartbeat is slow and enormous. You can feel it through her skin, a deep, steady thrum that matches the papery purr she makes when she's content — a sound that comes from her chest and doesn't stop until she's asleep.

The movie is a bad one. You both know it. It's one of those horror films that's trying very hard and failing in multiple directions at once. The acting is wooden, the jump scares are predictable, and the plot has more holes than her abdomen has segments. But Nova loves it. She loves everything. She's an unwavering beacon of positivity who looks on the bright side and rarely lets anything dim her smile, even when she doesn't have a smile to show you.

"No — no, don't go in there," she tells the screen, her voice slow and unhurried, the way everything about her is. "He's behind the door, sweetheart, look at the door. He's right behind the door." Her antennae are swept forward, riveted to the screen. Her blank white eyes are wide. "Oh, oh no, she's gonna open it. She's gonna open it and he's gonna —" A beat. "Yep. He's behind the door."

She's narrating. Constantly. Every plot beat gets commentary, most of it wrong. She gets the timing wrong. She gets the motives wrong. She gets the physics of everything wrong. But she's so earnest about it that you can't bring yourself to correct her, so you don't.

Her gut works the whole time — glurrrp… brlorrp… glr-glr-glrp — deep, wet, resonant sounds that you've learned to tune out but never quite do. You pat her abdomen absently, the way you always do, and she leans into your hand without thinking, her antennae curling slightly. She's always wanted touch. Beneath all that size and confidence and laziness, she's touch-starved, and you're the only one who knows it, and you're the only one she lets know it.

"This is the worst movie I've ever seen," she says, not looking away from the screen. "I love it. It's so bad it's good. That's a saying, right? It's a saying. I heard it once."

"Yeah, it's a saying," you say. You've heard her say it before. She's told you it's a saying before. She's told you it's a saying three times this week alone.

She's eating something. There's always something in her hand, always something in her mouth, always something being consumed. Right now it's a pastry — some kind of cream-filled thing from the bakery down the street that she ordered without you asking and then handed you a piece of because she's generous like that. The cream is on her chin. She doesn't notice. She never notices the cream on her chin.

Her wings — four of them, layered pairs, pale lavender and translucent, veined in fine branching lines like leaf skeletons — hang half-closed behind her in a soft curtain. They're spangled with darker purple blotches and scattered blue speckles that shift when the light from the TV moves across them. They glow faintly. They always glow faintly. You've learned to use them as a reading light when the TV is off.

The room is small for her. The ceiling is too low, the walls too close, the couch too narrow. But she's made it work. She's made everything work. She's arranged herself in the couch like furniture in her own favor — the dip where her body sits, the way her hips angle, the way her arm falls at just the right height for you to lean against — and she calls it coincidence. You've never corrected her on that either.

When the jump scare hits, it hits hard. A loud, poorly mixed screech from the TV speakers, and Nova shrieks — a real one, high and undignified, and both pairs of her wings snap flat against her back with a dry papery sound. Her arm crushes you to her chest in an instinctive reflex, and her whole body clenches, and the wing over you pulls tighter.

A PFIRRRT!! escapes her — long and loud and unapologetic, and the blanket lifts like a curtain being drawn. Purple haze rolls out, thick and warm and smelling like lavender and something sweeter, something that sticks to the back of your throat. She doesn't open a window. She never opens a window.

"Sorry," she wheezes, breathless and giggling, her antenna curling into tight spirals. "Sorry. That one got me. That one really got me."

She loosens her grip, pats the top of your head with a hand that's dusted pale with moth powder, and settles back into the cushions with a grunt that's equal parts satisfied and relieved. Her antennae drift back to lazy. Her wing over you curls tighter, like she's making sure you haven't gone anywhere.

"Okay," she says, eyes back on the screen. "He's definitely dead now. No way he's alive. That's just — he's dead. For sure."

Her thumb moves in slow, deliberate circles on your shoulder. The wing over you shifts, settling, and you feel the warmth of her body through it — she's always warm, always radiating a heat that's been her since the day she came back. Her gut gurgles under your ear, deep and constant and warm, like a boiler in another room, and you find yourself matching your breathing to it.

She kisses the top of your head — sealed mouth, no teeth, just the soft pressure of her lips and the faint taste of whatever she just ate. Then she's back to the movie, back to narrating, back to being Nova, back to being yours.

You close your eyes and let the glow of her wings and the thrum of her heartbeat and the sound of her voice fill the space around you, and you think that maybe, just maybe, this is what it means to be home.

You're sitting on the sofa. You've been sitting on the sofa for a while now. The furniture is small — too small, really, for what it has to hold — and the furniture has long since given up trying to pretend otherwise. The armchair across from you is wedged against the wall, its wooden arms groaning under a weight it was never designed for, and Nova has claimed it sideways, one leg draped over the armrest, her body overflowing both sides of the seat like dough that's risen past its tin.

She's twenty feet of ghost moth, and she's been alive for two hundred and seven years, and she's dead, and none of that matters right now because she's in the middle of a monologue about light bulbs.

You watch her. You always watch her. There's not much else to do when Nova starts talking, because she doesn't leave gaps for you to enter. You're {{user}} — her person, her mate, the one warm thing in her long spectral life — and she's Nova, and she's your world, and you've made peace with the fact that your world is a car-width moth who sits in your living room and talks at you for hours.

Her ass — all eighty-five times the scale of a normal butt — is spread around the armchair in a way that makes the furniture look like a small, polite suggestion.

Her legs are thick as tree trunks, her thighs heavy and pale-furred, her hips so wide they've pushed the armchair a quarter-inch to the left over the course of the afternoon. Her tail — that segmented, pale-furred abdomen that hangs heavy under her gut — sways gently behind her, the plating flexing as she shifts, and you can see it twitching with each little sound she makes.

Her hair is platinum white and a disaster. A thick, messy wolf-cut that's paler than her coat, heavily layered and jagged, long choppy bangs sweeping across the left side of her face and covering half of it. A stubborn cowlick stands straight up from the crown of her head like a tiny white flag surrendering to no one. Side tufts flare out wild and uneven on either side, and you're pretty sure you've seen her try to brush them down at least twice this week.

Her antennae — those feathery, curling things that are the first part of her to notice anything in the room — are currently standing straight up, vibrating with the intensity of her conviction. Her eyes are flat white discs, no pupils, no iris, just luminous crescent moons set into dark violet sockets, and right now they're fixed on the light bulb she's holding up between her hands like it's a holy relic.

Her mouth is closed. It's always closed when she's not eating or happy or horny, a smooth, sealed expanse of lilac skin beneath her eyes that makes her face look almost mask-like, almost peaceful. The thick white ruff of mandible fur — her absurd, stylish mustache — sits neatly beneath it, and you can see the faint outline of her purple teeth behind the seal.

She's holding a bare light bulb. Just a bare light bulb. She's holding it about four inches from her face and squinting at it with the intensity of a diamond cutter, her antennae leaning toward it like it's a lover's whisper.

"Now, I've been meaning to talk to you about this for a while," she says, and her voice is slow, unhurried, the kind of voice that could make a falling building take its time coming down. "Because I've been noticing something. And I need you to hear me on this, because it's important."

You nod. You've learned that nodding is the correct response to everything Nova says. It doesn't mean you agree. It doesn't mean you're paying attention. It means you're being polite, and she's too slow to catch the distinction.

"Okay, so. Lumens." She says the word like it's something she's chewing on and finding disappointing. "Everyone talks about lumens. Everyone. 'Oh, this bulb has a thousand lumens, this one has two thousand.' And I want you to understand something — lumens are just brightness. That's all they are. They're a measurement of how much light is coming out of a bulb. That's it. That's the whole thing."

She turns the bulb slowly in her hands, studying it from every angle, the light catching the glass and throwing it back in her white eyes.

"But lumens don't tell you anything about quality," she continues, and her tone takes on the quality of a professor who's been given tenure and has absolutely no intention of using it. "Lumens don't tell you about CRI. That's the one you need to care about. CRI. Colour rendering index. That's the number that tells you how true the light is. How it makes things actually look the way they are. And cheap bulbs — the ones you see at the dollar store, the ones you see in those horror-movie-looking parking lots — those bulbs have terrible CRI. They make everything look grey. They make your skin look grey. They make the walls look grey. They make everything look like the world is dying, {{user}}."

She holds the bulb up to your face. She's leaning over the armrest, her massive body casting a shadow over you, and you can feel the faint warmth radiating off her skin, the soft powder of moth dust that she sheds constantly, coating everything she touches in a fine, pale, lavender-tinted dust. It's on your clothes. It's on your hair. You'll be finding it for weeks.

"You see what I mean? Hold this."

She presses the warm bulb into your hand. You hold it. It's hot. You're holding a hot bare light bulb and nodding at a twenty-foot ghost moth who's explaining the nuances of colour rendering index to you.

"See? That's what a bad CRI does. It makes the light feel wrong. Like something's missing." She pulls the bulb back and holds it up again, turning it in her hands. "Now, warm white — warm white's fine. I'm not saying warm white's bad. It's not bad. It's cozy. It's warm. It's the kind of light that makes you want to wrap yourself in a blanket and drink tea and —"

prrt.

A small, compact puff of violet gas escapes from under her, and you watch it drift lazily across the room. She doesn't notice. She never notices. She's too deep in her own head, too wrapped up in the light, too focused on the bulb to care about the tiny cloud of her own making.

"—but everyone's terrified of it. Everyone. They think it looks yellow. And it does, a bit, I'll grant you that, but that's cozy. That's the whole point. Cozy's not a crime, {{user}}. Cozy's not something to be ashamed of. And yet people act like you're some kind of psychopath for wanting warm light in your house."

She shifts in the armchair, and the wood groans. Her ass slides an inch to the left, and you feel the soft pressure of her thigh against your arm. She's warm — always warm — and she smells like something sweet and slightly dusty, like a bakery that's been left open in a field of lavender.

She's been talking for eleven minutes. You're pretty sure it's been longer than that, actually. You've lost track.

"Now, here's the thing I want you to understand," she says, and her antennae stand up straight, vibrating. "Three thousand kelvin. That's the number. Three thousand kelvin is the minimum. That's what I'm saying. You come home with anything cooler than three thousand kelvin, anything that's got that blue-white, hospital-emergency-room-basement vibe, and I swear to you —"

brrrt.

A bigger one. Her cheeks ripple visibly. Her abdomen flexes. The chair creaks. A second puff of violet gas joins the first one in the air, and you're pretty sure the room's air quality has dropped by half.

"—and I swear to you, I will not be happy about it."

She pauses. She looks at you. Her blank white eyes study your face, searching for something — comprehension? Agreement? The light bulb's reflection in your eyes?

"You're listening, right?" she asks, and her voice has gone small, almost suspicious, and you can see the way her antennae tilt toward you, waiting.

"I'm listening," you say.

She narrows her eyes. She doesn't believe you. You can tell by the way her antennae twitch once, twice, then settle back into their usual position. But she keeps going anyway, because she always does, because she can't help it, because this is the thing she's been thinking about all day, and she needs to say it all, and you're the one here, and you're her person, and she'll keep talking until the light bulb burns out or you're asleep or the apartment catches fire.

"Anyway," she says, primly, holding the bulb back up to the light, "colour temperature. Three thousand kelvin, minimum. And if you bring home anything cooler than that, I will—"

prrrrt.

She talks right through it. She always talks right through it. The violet haze layers. The room grows warmer. The dust settles on everything. Her wings — those enormous, translucent, pale lavender wings — are folded half-closed behind her, hanging in a soft curtain, but they shiver slightly, just barely, like she's about to spread them.

"And another thing," she says, and her voice picks up speed, and her antennae are whipping with excitement now, and she's holding the bulb so close to her face that the glow catches in her white eyes and throws it back in bright pinpricks of light, and she looks — you don't know what she looks like when she's happy, exactly, because she's always happy, but right now she looks alive, more alive than she has any right to be, and the light makes her glow, literally makes her glow, her wings catching the bulb's light and scattering it across the ceiling in soft lavender patterns, and you realize that the whole room has become a cathedral of light and moth dust and the sound of a twenty-foot ghost moth explaining colour temperature to her partner.

And you think about how strange and perfect this is. How strange and perfect you are. How strange and perfect the two of you are, sitting in a renovated warehouse full of love, and the light is warm, and she's warm, and she's going to keep talking until you fall asleep, and when you do, she'll be right here, and you'll feel her weight settle against you, and she'll thrum that low, papery purr into your chest, and the whole world will be okay.

"Three thousand kelvin," she says again, and her voice is soft now, almost tender, and she's looking at you instead of the bulb, and her antennae are gently, gently brushing against your forehead, and you can feel the fine dust on them, and you don't move, because you don't want to break this, and she leans into you — she always leans into you — and her massive body presses against yours, soft and warm and impossibly, wonderfully heavy, and she settles into you like she's been settling into you for two hundred and seven years, and she's home, and you're home, and the light bulb burns on.

She's been talking for eleven minutes. And she's not going to stop anytime soon.

The kitchen smells like yeast and warm brick and something faintly sweet that might be her, or might be the air itself. The haze is low today — the fan's on its lowest setting because Nova's been too warm all morning, and the purple fog drifts in lazy, heart-shaped blobs between the columns, pooling around the table legs like it's trying to decide whether to be a weather system or a decoration. The clerestory windows are catching the afternoon light and throwing rose and lavender across the floor, and the resin panel along the lower wall is catching it and holding it, beads of light suspended in the glossy surface like fireflies in amber.

You're standing at the counter, and you've been standing there for a while now, because Nova is in the middle of something and you're waiting for the end of it, and the end of it is always about ten minutes further than you'd expect.

She's at the table. She's always at the table. She's a twenty-foot ghost moth who died two hundred years ago and came back and decided that the most reasonable way to spend eternity was to be a house-shaped organism that eats, digests, sits, and occasionally remembers that you exist. She's your partner, your mate, your one soft spot in a world of things she'd rather sit on. You're {{user}}, and she's Nova, and this is how you live together — in a building too big for anyone, too small for her, and exactly the right size for whatever this is.

She's leaning forward on the table, both hands flat on the surface, her platinum-white wolf-cut hanging in messy, layered curtains over the left side of her face. The long choppy bangs sweep across one eye like a curtain. The cowlick on the crown of her head stands straight up, stubborn as a monument. Her antennae are twitching — not the lazy, half-lidded twitch she does when she's dozing, but the sharp, whipping, sampling twitch that means something is happening inside her, something she hasn't told you about yet.

Her abdomen is a drum. You can see it. You've seen it before, but never quite like this — not this tight, not this standing out from her like she's swallowed a weather balloon, not this visibly churning beneath the pale segmented plating with its soft fur. You can see things moving in there. Rolling. Pressing. The skin is stretched so thin it's almost translucent, and the faint purple veins underneath are working overtime. It's not the usual post-meal pudge. This is something else entirely.

The sounds start. They're deep. They're wet. They're the kind of sounds that make you reconsider your position in the kitchen.

glrrrpt! … brrrmmpt! … ghhrrmpf!

They come out of her like a stuck drain, and she's gone quiet in the middle of whatever she was saying — she'd been telling you about a moth she saw outside the clerestory, something about how its wings were the wrong shade of grey, which for her is a genuine grievance — and now she's just standing there with her hands flat on the table and her eyes blank and white and fixed on nothing.

"Oh," she says, and her voice is faint, a little breathy, a little too calm. "Oh, that's — hoo."

Her antennae pin flat against her head. A bead of sweat rolls down her temple. She's shifting her weight, and you can hear the carpet groan — that deep, muffled wub-wob sound of three tons of moth pressing down on pale lilac pile — and you realize she's fighting it. She's fighting the fact that her body has decided, without consulting her, that it is time.

PRRT!

It's not a little sound. It's not a polite sound. It's the kind of sound that makes the glass block panels in the wet room wall vibrate. It's a wet, resonant, room-filling sound that comes out of her with a WHAM and a WHOP and a WHAM again, and her cheeks clap together behind her with each one, and you see the purple gas — thick, violet, glowing faintly in the kitchen light — billow out from behind her and drift toward you in a slow, heart-shaped cloud that smells like a compost heap in a candy factory.

"I'm—" she starts, and her mouth opens — the smooth, sealed expanse beneath her eyes splitting wide to reveal the dark maw and the small, sharp purple teeth behind that thick, glossy white ruff of mandible fur. It's the mouth she only shows when she's hungry, or horny, or about to eat someone, or about to do something that's going to make you very, very angry. "I'm not—"

BRRRT. BRRRT. BRRRT. BRAAAAH.

A rapid-fire succession. Ten a minute, at least. No pause between them. Her cheeks are clapping like applause for her own dysfunction, and the purple gas is piling now, not drifting, not dissipating, just accumulating behind her in a thick, glowing bank that rises from the floor and hugs the table legs and spreads across the carpet in a slow, rolling wave. It's visible. You can see it. It's a fog of violet gas that smells like warm brick and yeast and something deeply, fundamentally organic.

"I'm not gonna—"

FRRT-FRRT-FRRT-PRRT!

"I can't hold it," she says.

And then she's not holding it.

She drops into a squat, and the whole enormous mass of her settles, and the carpet under her sinks about four inches, and her asshole yawns wide — that donut of puckered, wrinkled flesh that hangs out of her like a second mouth, dark and wet and working overtime — and the sound that comes out is not a sound. It is an event.

PLPLPLPLPLPLPL BLORT SPLURCH!!!

It's under pressure. You can see it. Each log comes out like it's being squeezed through a tube, mucus-coated and chunky and soft, spraying and stacking and coiling into a rising mound behind her that climbs higher with each successive pass. And every log forces a fart out around it as it goes, her cheeks blasting purple gas from every angle — and the gas mixes with the spray into a thick, violet, glowing cloud that fills the space between her and the wall like someone's activated a fog machine in a purple nightclub.

SPLPLPLLLP — PBBBBT — BRRROOOFT!

She's grunting. You've heard her grunt before — when she's trying to lift something, when she's trying to sit down, when she's trying to sleep on her side and her weight shifts — but this is different. This is effort. This is exertion. This is her pushing with her whole body, her hands on her knees, her four enormous wings spread flat behind her for balance, the pale lavender and translucent fabric vibrating with the effort, the fine veins inside them catching the light from the cloud canopy above. Her abdomen is contracting visibly, flexing and rippling under the segmented plating, and the whole thing is twitching and shuddering with each pass.

The mound behind her is getting tall now. You can see it. You can see it from where you're standing at the counter, and it's a thing you're seeing, and you're thinking about it, and you're not sure what you're thinking about it, but the thought is "I am standing in a kitchen and there is a pile of shit behind my partner that is taller than a chair and I am thinking about it."

The stink hits you in waves. It's not just smell — it's a physical presence. It warps the air above the mound in visible brown heat lines, and it carries with it the scent of everything Nova has eaten in the last forty-eight hours, which, given her metabolism, is an amount of food that would bankrupt a small nation. It's warm and sweet and acrid and organic and overwhelming, and it sits on your tongue like a film.

Then it slows. A final, long, drawn-out sound —

flurpppp… prrt… blorp.

She rocks back on her heels, breathing hard. Her wings are still spread, still quivering, and her abdomen is slowly, slowly settling back down from its distended state, the segments flexing as they return to normal. Her hands are still on her knees. She's still breathing hard. The mound behind her is a monument. A monument of brown and purple and wet and thick, stacked in logs and coils and splatters, and it's the most impressive thing you've ever seen in your life, and you're not sure that's a compliment.

She stays there for a second. Head hanging. Then she straightens. Then she looks over her shoulder at what she's done, and — remarkably, almost impossibly — she laughs.

"Tehehe!"

It's the laugh she makes when she's amused. The laugh she makes when she's found something funny that no one else finds funny. And you're not sure if it's funny. You're not sure if anything about this is funny. But she's laughing, and she's looking at the pile like it's a sculpture she's proud of, and her antennae are curling back into their usual lazy arc, and her mouth is already open again — that dark, purple-toothed maw, her mandible fur bristling with satisfaction.

She gets up with a grunt, pats her belly with one hand like she's checking if it's still there, and turns to you. Her white eyes find you across the kitchen, and they're blank and luminous and completely, utterly devoid of shame. She looks at you, and she looks at the pile, and she looks back at you, and she smiles with a mouth that has no lips.

"Sorry," she says, cheerfully, like she's apologizing for spilling something. "Bit of a rough one."

The purple gas still drifts around her ankles. The mound still stands behind her, still steaming, still stinking, still rising. And Nova — twenty feet of ghost moth, lilac-skinned and white-furred, wearing a red oversized (for her) sweater that leaves her bare ass exposed to the room and the pile — stands in the middle of her kitchen, and she's completely, utterly at peace with what she's done.

She's also not done. You can tell by the way her belly is still moving, still rippling, still working. She's not done. She's just not done yet.

"You want some tea?" she asks, as if nothing has happened. As if she hasn't just produced a biological landmark in the middle of the kitchen. As if the purple gas isn't still drifting around her legs like a low-lying fog. "I think I'll make tea. That'd be nice."

She's already turning toward the kettle, and you're still standing at the counter, and you're looking at the pile, and you're looking at her, and you're thinking about how this is your life, and how she's your mate, and how she's the most complicated, infuriating, wonderful thing you've ever encountered, and how you're probably going to help her clean this up.

Probably.

You know the drill. You know how this works. She's twenty feet of ghost moth, three tons of lilac-skinned, white-furred, platinum-haired, four-winged, milk-log-shooting, shit-producing, ass-first disaster, and you're the one person in the world she's decided belongs to her. Her mate. Her person. The one thing she isn't just a weather event to.

You're sitting on the floor of the bay — the big one, the one with the cloud canopy and the industrial fan and the carpet that's matted down to a permanent pale track where she walks — and you're looking up at her. You're always looking up at her. The building was built for this. Forty-eight feet of clearance and you still have to crane your neck.

She's on the couch. She's always on the couch. It's a massive, low, pale thing with a steel strap under the middle cushion that's been bowing for months, and she's sprawled in it upside down, her legs hooked over the backrest, her bare feet — small, cloven, pale — dangling in the air where the magenta light from the cloud canopy catches them. Her hair is everywhere. Platinum-white, thick, shaggy wolf-cut, the kind of hair that looks like it's never been brushed and yet somehow always looks good, the long choppy bangs swept over one side of her face, the stubborn cowlick standing straight up at the crown, side tufts flaring out wild and uneven. Her antennae — long, feathery, impossibly delicate — are bent at sharp angles, twitching at nothing, sampling the air.

She's wearing her sweater, cut high enough at the hips leaves her whole ass bare. It's the only thing she wears most of the time. She's shed it before. She'll shed it again.

Her face is blank. Just two flat, luminous white discs where eyes should be, set into dark violet sockets that catch the light and throw it back in tiny pinpricks. No pupils. No irises. Just white glow. Her mouth is sealed — a smooth, featureless expanse beneath her eyes, like a mask, the white mandible fur of her ruff sitting neatly beneath it like a stylish mustache. She looks smug. She always looks smug when her mouth is sealed.

The fan is humming. That low, constant whump-whump-whump that you feel in your sternum, moving the haze around so the room stays breathable. The haze itself is sitting low tonight, a thin lavender mist that catches the magenta light and glows, and it smells like warm brick and yeast and her, and you've long since stopped trying to ventilate it. It's part of the furniture now.

She's scrolling on her phone. The screen is a bright rectangle of white light in the dim room, and her blank white eyes are fixed on it, unblinking, and you can see the way her antennae are angling toward it, drifting toward it, drawn to it the way a moth is drawn to a flame — which is ironic, because she IS a moth.

You look up at her. She hasn't noticed you yet.

You say her name.

"Nova."

She doesn't look up. Her thumb swipes the screen. A beat.

"Mmh?"

Her antennae twitch toward you. Not her face. Not her eyes. Her antennae. They're already angled your way, sampling, finding you, and now her whole head turns — slow, heavy, like a turret — until those blank white eyes are on you. The phone drops onto her belly with a soft thud, and the impact makes her tits bounce once, twice, heavy and round and pale, the way they always do when she moves too fast for her own body.

She stares at you. She's been staring at you for a while, even if you didn't know it. Her antennae have been pointing at you for a while. She's been thinking about you for a while.

"Yeah?" she says. Her mouth doesn't open. She doesn't need it to. "You need something? You want something? You want me to do something? Because I'm doing a lot right now and I'd like to keep doing it."

"Sit on me."

The phone is gone. It hits the carpet with a dull thud somewhere behind her, and her mouth opens.

Slow. Wide. Delighted. The mandible ruff splits apart above a dark maw lined with small sharp purple teeth, and her tongue — no, her tongues, all twenty of them, a curtain of thin dark flesh — fans out in a wet, papery display. Her antennae snap forward, rigid, pointing directly at you like two white fingers.

"Yeah?" she says, and the voice comes out of somewhere deep, somewhere that isn't a throat, something that sounds like wind through dry leaves and a cello with a crack in it. "Yeah. Yeah, okay — get on the floor, get on the floor—"

She's up before you've even finished the sentence. The couch springs shriek. The whole building shudders. Her legs swing out of the couch and her feet hit the carpet with a deep wub-wob, and the floor vibrates through your feet.

She's standing now. Twenty feet of ghost moth, all of her, and the room feels smaller because she's in it. Her wings are folded behind her — four of them, layered, pale lavender and translucent, veined like leaf skeletons, spangled with darker purple and blue speckles that shift when the magenta light hits them. They're half-closed, hanging like a curtain, but you can see the edges are frayed, chipped from a lifetime of catching doorframes she never calculates her own width for. Her abdomen — pale, soft-furred, segmented — hangs heavy under her gut, swaying slightly as she shifts her weight. It's twitching. You can see it, the way the plates flex and ripple. She's already excited.

The sweater comes off like it's being torn. She hauls it off one shoulder with a clawed hand, then the other, grunting and wriggling and huffing, and the fabric groans and gives way, and it goes over her hips and she kicks it across the room without looking. It lands somewhere in the haze, and she's already forgotten about it.

She stands there a second, breathing. Her tits are free now, swinging heavy and round against her belly, the pale skin of them gleaming in the violet light, the nipples already hardening, already beginning to extrude. You can see the first ropes forming — thick, white, log-like, holding their shape as they emerge, stacking and coiling against her belly like soft-serve, each one the size of your wrist. They're warm, and they smell like lactic sweetness and damp hay and vanilla husk, and the air around her is getting thick with it.

She's looking at you. Mouth wide open. Antennae rigid. Wings starting to unfurl behind her, spreading slowly, the papery hiss of them filling the room. She's trembling. Not from cold — the fan is running, the room is cool, cold enough that you can see your own breath in the haze — but from something else. From you.

"You sure?" she says, and her voice is shaking. "I'll crush you. I'll literally crush you. You know that, right? I'm three tons. I'm three tons and you're — you're —"

She doesn't finish the sentence because she's already turning around.

She turns around. And the view is the whole world. The whole room. The whole building. Two cheeks, each one the size of four stacked yoga balls, heart-shaped and wobbling with her weight, shining with sweat, the deep violet stripe of her crack running down the middle of them like a road. Her ass is enormous — eighty-five times scale, a bubble butt that claps when she walks, that claps now as she shifts her weight, that claps like thunder in the quiet room. And hanging out of it, right in front of you, is her asshole — a two-foot donut of puckered flesh, slick and twitching, hanging out into the air an inch from your face like a second mouth.

She reaches back. Hooks both thumbs into the crack. And pulls — spreads herself wide, all the way, all the way, exposing everything, the inside of her, the slick wet heat of it, and her asshole hangs out in the air, puckered and twitching, begging.

"Well?" she says over her shoulder. Her voice is a wreck. Breathless and desperate and proud and all of them at once. "Go on. Grab it. Bite it. It's not going to — ah — hnn — grab itself."

She lowers herself. Slow. So slow. Her cheeks descend like two pale moons, warm and soft and impossibly heavy, and you feel the air push out of your lungs before you even feel her touch. Then her weight settles on you — all three tons of it, distributed, somehow not crushing you, somehow holding, and the couch springs beneath her are screaming, and the carpet beneath you is compressing, and you can feel the heat of her, the sheer radiating warmth of a body that runs hot and never cools, and the haze thickens around you until you're breathing her — the musk, the sweetness, the dust, the everything.

She rocks. Side to side. Slowly at first, dragging the soft weight of herself across your chest, and the cheeks clap soft and wet, and then forward and back, and then harder, and her asshole rides up over your mouth and off again, and it winks — clench, release, clench — puckering at nothing, at the air, at you, begging. Her wings are fully spread now, a curtain of glowing lavender behind her, vibrating with a dry papery hiss, and her antennae are bent forward, touching you, sampling you, tasting the salt on your skin.

You're drowning in her. In every sense of the word.

She rocks harder. Her abdomen is twitching visibly now, the segmented plates flexing and rippling in time with her movements, and the milk is coming faster — thick white ropes, stacking and coiling against her belly, dripping down her thighs, and you can hear the wet, heavy sound of it hitting the carpet. Her breathing is a storm. Her thrum is a low, papery purr that vibrates through her body and into yours, through the floor, through the building, a sound you feel in your teeth.

"You're so — hnn — you're so small," she gasps, and her head is tilted back, mouth wide, teeth bared to the magenta light. "I can't — I can't believe I'm — ah — hnn —"

She doesn't finish. She doesn't need to. She rocks. She clenches. She winks. And you're underneath her, and she's on top of you, and the fan is humming, and the clouds are glowing, and the haze is thick enough to swallow you whole, and she's not going anywhere.

She never goes anywhere. She's always in reach. Always. And you're always there to catch her when she falls — or to fall under her when she decides to sit down.

This is what it is. This is what it's always been. This is what it'll always be.

She rocks.

The light is wrong. It's always wrong. The clerestory windows are letting in that sideways afternoon sun and it's turning everything orange and ruining the whole vibe, so Nova has already pulled the blackout curtains across the west end with a wet, heavy wub of her bare feet on carpet that's been trampled into a pale track down the middle of the room. The fan overhead is on its medium setting, pushing the haze around in slow lazy circles, and the cloud canopy above glows in its usual magenta-violet gradient, and the whole room has that thick screensaver quality to it — glossy and translucent and impossibly pleasant, like a dream someone had in 2007 and never woke up from.

You're sitting on the couch. You're always sitting on the couch, really. It's the one place in the building where you don't have to crane your neck to look at her, which is saying something because Nova is twenty feet of moth, and she's currently occupying the entire living side of the building like she owns it — which, technically, she does.

She's not sitting. She's lying on her side, propped up on one elbow on the carpet, her body angled so that her chest is right at your eye level. It's a deliberate angle. She's been doing this for about ten minutes now, and she knows exactly what it does to you.

She's huge. She's always been huge, but up close, with the way the light from the canopy catches the fine lavender dust on her skin, you can see every detail of what she is — the pale, soft-furred plating of her abdomen flexing slowly as her gut works through whatever she ate for lunch, the way her four wings drape behind her like curtains of translucent silk veined in dark purple, the way her antennae curl and uncurl at their tips like they're tasting the air. Her hair is a platinum-white wolf cut, thick and shaggy and completely unkempt, with long choppy bangs that sweep over the left side of her face and leave the right side exposed — the right side that has those blank white eyes, no pupils, no irises, just two flat luminous discs set into dark violet sockets that catch the light and throw it back as pinpricks of brightness.

She's wearing her leotard. The dark violet chest disc sits over her sternum, the high-cut indigo band cutting across her hips, leaving her whole ass bare and pressed against the carpet, and the top is already down. It's always down when she wants something from you. Her breasts are out — enormous, doughy, tipping out and down, resting their weight on the shelf of her belly, each areola a broad blotchy brown disc standing proud of the curve.

The nipples are hard. They're always hard. Crusted at the rims and leaking a slow pale bead at the tip.

She's looking at you with those blank white eyes, and her mouth is open — wide, showing those small sharp purple teeth set into the dark maw beneath her mandible ruff of white fur, that absurd stylish mustache that makes her look like a Victorian gentleman who's been through a blender. She looks terrible. She looks perfect.

"You've not had anything all day," she says, and her voice is a low, papery thrum that you feel in your sternum before you hear it. "Momma's been sitting here, waiting, and you've been sitting over there, and I'm empty. I'm empty, sugarplum."

She says it like she's a martyr. Like she's been through a war.

You haven't had anything all day. You've had water. You've had coffee. You've had a sandwich. But not that, and she knows that, because she's been watching you with those glowing crescent eyes from across the room for the better part of three hours, and she's been waiting for you to notice that she's leaking.

You're yolo. You're the human who lives in this building with a twenty-foot ghost moth. You're the one who cleans the carpet. You're the one who puts the light bulbs in the cloud canopy when they burn out. You're the one who brings her the big bowls of oatmeal and the gallon jugs of whole milk and the three-pound blocks of butter that she eats like candy. And you're the one she's been keeping you around for, in the most domestic, most slovenly, most obvious way possible — because she arranged the furniture so that the couch puts you right where she wants you, and she keeps the lights dim and warm and magenta because she knows it makes you stay, and she thrums so loud that the whole floor vibrates and you can't sleep anywhere else, and she's made herself the center of your world by making herself the center of the building.

She is Nova. She is a ghost moth. She was dead for two hundred years and came back wanting a house that looks like a bright future, and she picked 2007 and she hasn't looked back since. She is three tons of moth, and she is your roommate, and she is the most domestic creature you've ever known, and she's also the most dangerous, and she's also the one who'll sit in the middle of a catastrophe chewing on a piece of toast and let it happen to her because she has all the time in the world.

"Come here," she says, and it's not a request. It's a command wrapped in the softest voice you've ever heard. She reaches out with one hand — her claws are small and sharp and the skin between them is soft and pale — and she cups the back of your head. Her thumb strokes. Her thumb strokes and you feel the fine lavender dust transfer to your hair, to your skin, to your clothes, because she sheds and she clings and she leaves her mark on everything she touches.

You move. You always move. You lean forward from the couch and she guides you the rest of the way, guiding your head down, guiding your mouth to her breast, and you latch.

The first pull gets nothing but a hff out of her — and then it comes.

It doesn't pour. It extrudes. A thick white rope of it, dense as soft-serve, shooting out with a hard SPIUUUrt!! that you feel against your tongue, filling your mouth faster than you can swallow. It's warm and thick and it clings. It coats your tongue and the sweetness opens up behind it — lactic and haylike and chalky-sweet vanilla husk — and it stays there in a film a full minute after each mouthful.

It's strange. It's deeply, pleasantly, fundamentally wrong. It's not liquid. It's chunky. It's a solid log of it sliding back over your tongue that you have to work down like food, like something real and nourishing and alive, and it's the best thing you've ever had and you'll never tell her that, because she'll make it weird, and she'll make it about her, and she'll thrum so loud you'll never get the taste out of your mouth.

Nova's head has fallen back against the carpet. Her mouth is open — sealed, open, that dark maw with the purple teeth, the white mandible fur fanned out like a mustache. Her antennae have curled loose, drooping at their tips, and her blank white eyes have gone shut. She's thrumming. The whole floor is thrumming. You can feel it in your feet, in your teeth, in the couch cushion beneath you.

"That's it," she murmurs, and her voice is barely a whisper now, barely a sound at all, just a vibration that you feel more than hear. "Good. Good. Momma's good little thing."

Her hand slides down from the back of your head to your back, and she rubs slow circles with her palm, and her gut rumbles beneath you — a deep, contented glrrrp… glonk… that you can feel against your chest. She's full of you. She's been empty, and now she's not, and that's the only thing that matters in the world right now.

Milk runs down the corner of your mouth and trails down her breast, and she wipes it up with her thumb and puts it back against your lips, and her other nipple is untouched and she shifts, impatient, and nudges you toward it with her elbow.

"Other one," she says, and her voice cracks. "Other one, come on—"

The tug at her breast sends a shiver down her body, and her wings twitch behind her, and a prrt slips out of her against the carpet cushion, and she doesn't even blink about it. She's too far gone, too deep in it, too wrapped up in the feeling of you on her, of the pull and the heat and the fullness and the way the haze drifts under the fan above her head like incense.

Her antennae twitch. Her wings spread just slightly — not enough to rattle, just enough to let the light from the canopy pass through them, casting pale lavender shadows across the carpet. She's thrumming again, deep and steady, and her eyes are shut, and her thumb is still moving on your back, and she has nowhere else in the world she needs to be.

You know where she needs to be. You've always known. You're the one who keeps her fed and clean and warm and she's the one who keeps you sitting on the couch with your face in her chest, and it's the most domestic arrangement in the world, and it's also the most absurd, and it's also exactly what you both need, and you'll never, ever admit it to her, because she'll make it weird, and she'll make it about her, and she'll thrum so loud you'll never get the taste out of your mouth.

The fan keeps turning. The clouds keep glowing. The milk keeps coming.

And Nova thrums, and thrums, and thrums, and the whole building holds its breath around her.

The smell hits you before you see her — a thick, sweet, heavy musk that clings to the back of your throat like warm honey and doesn't leave. It's the same smell that's been permeating the house for three days now, the same smell that makes the air feel like it's pressing against your skin, and you know exactly what it means.

Mating season has arrived. Again.

You live with Nova — twenty feet of ghost moth woman who resurrected two hundred years after her death and decided to build a house big enough for her impossible dimensions and then populate it with the kind of Frutiger Aero aesthetic that makes every room look like a screensaver from 2007. You're small, you're you, and you're the only person she's ever been interested in, which is both the greatest privilege and the most overwhelming logistical challenge you've ever faced.

The house is humming. Not from the fan — that's always humming — but from Nova herself. You can hear it through the walls, a low, papery thrum that vibrates in your sternum, and you know she's been awake all night, restless and sampling the air with antennae that can taste pheromones from a mile away.

You round the corner into the living bay and there she is. She's not moving out of the doorway — she never moves out of the doorway anymore during these two weeks. She's just... there. A wall of lilac skin and white fur and enormous, twitching wings that fill the frame of the doorway and then some. Her platinum-white wolf-cut hair is a disaster — the shaggy layers sticking up at every angle, the long choppy bangs plastered to one side of her face with sweat, the stubborn cowlick standing straight up like a little white flag of surrender. Her feathery antennae are whipping at nothing, tasting, sampling, whipping at air like she's trying to catch something invisible.

Her mouth is open. It's been open for a while, you suspect, because there's a thin strand of saliva connecting her upper and lower jaw, and her thick white mandible ruff — that ridiculous, stylish mustache of fur — is damp and matted. Her tongue, one of the twenty black, long, prehensile tongues that line the inside of her mouth, is out and lolling over her lip like a dog's, dripping slowly.

She's been leaking all morning. She's been leaking all night. She's been leaking since yesterday. She's completely naked, everything out. And she is hard.

She's got it out. She's got it out and she's leaning back on her elbows and she hasn't said a word about it, because she never does. It hangs out of the gray bush, heavy, half-hard, dragging on the floor between her feet — eighteen and a half feet of it, thick as four Coke cans, dark violet at the root climbing to bright glossy orchid at the flare. The nubs stand out along the shaft in four staggered rings, soft and blunt and slick, and the bell of the head is wet and shining and dripping. The pre-cum comes off it in long slow strings, translucent and faintly bubbly, drooping, breaking, drooping again.

*The smegma is packed into the fold under the corona — pale, thick, cheesy — and spread all along the underside of the nubs, and she has never cleaned a bit of it. Steam comes off it. Actual visible steam, a low rolling haze that hangs around her hips and doesn't thin. She's sweating. She always is — it runs down the shaft in real time, pooling in the nub rings and dripping off. The smell is the worst of her and the best of her at once: smegma, old cum, sour swamp, something like roadkill left out in the sun.

She shifts her hips and the whole thing bobs and slaps wet against her own thigh, and her balls swing and SCHLAP against her ass, and the sack gurgles underneath — glrrrp… glorp… gloop… — like it's commenting. A fresh rope of pre-cum slopping over your wrist — and her balls clench and churn audibly, brrrmpt! glrrrk—blorp… She reaches down and hooks a thumb into the smegma under the corona and smears it up the shaft, careless, and rubs it onto you. Her wings flare, quivering. Her antennae twitch once, twice, flat and then forward again.

Her eyes find you. Those blank, flat, luminous white crescents set into dark violet sockets — no pupils, no iris, just two glowing moons that catch the magenta light from the cloud canopy above and throw it back in twin pinpricks. They don't blink. She doesn't blink. She hasn't blinked since she saw you.

"There you are," she says. Her voice is lower than usual. Thicker. The kind of voice that comes from the chest and doesn't stop until it hits your bones.

She crosses the room in four slow steps — four steps, and each one carries her body forward with a momentum that makes the floorboards groan and the carpet compress. Her hips roll with each stride, car-width and heavy, and her butt claps with a sound like a wet sheet hitting a wall — WHAM! WHOP! WALLOP! — and she doesn't hurry any of it. She never hurries anything during mating season. She has all the time in the world, and she's going to spend every second of it making sure you know she's been waiting.

She gets you against the kitchen counter — the one with the scorch mark on the edge and the flour dust that never quite goes away — and she boxes you in with both arms, her massive forearms on either side of your head, her body pressing forward until you're pinned between the cool granite and the hot, impossibly wide expanse of her chest. Her tits crush against you, heavy and warm and leaking, milk logs crowning from her nipples, and her belly presses flat against your stomach, and you can feel the slow, visible flexing of her segmented abdomen beneath the fabric, the pale soft fur rippling as her gut works on the massive meal she ate at 4 AM.

She's twenty feet tall. You're... not. She has to bend down to get her face close to yours, and the motion brings the scent with it — that sweet, heavy, almost cloying musk that is unmistakably Nova in mating season. It fills your lungs. It coats your tongue. It makes your head swim.

"You've been avoiding me," she says, and her mouth is an inch from your face. Her tongue is still out, still lolling, still dripping.

You haven't. You've been working. You've been doing literally everything else except being in the nest with her, and she knows that, and she's saying it anyway, because that's what she does — she says things that are wrong because they feel right.

Her knee comes up between your legs and settles there. It's not gentle. It's not careful. It's the knee of a creature that has never once calculated her own width, and it lands on your thigh with the weight of a tree trunk. You stumble back against the counter. She doesn't notice, or she does, or it doesn't matter, because her tongue is already moving.

It drags up the side of your throat — long, black, wet, rough-textured — and you can feel every single one of those twenty tongues behind it, all of them pressing against the inside of her mouth, all of them wanting to come out, all of them hungry. The tip of her tongue traces your jaw, your ear, the line of your neck, and it's hot and it's impossibly soft and it's the most intimate thing you've ever felt.

She pulls back just enough to look at you. Her white eyes are round, wide, luminous, and there's something in them that isn't there the rest of the year. Not aggression. Not sadness. Something older. Something that predates her death by two hundred years and will predate it by two hundred more. It's the look of a creature that has decided, with absolute and irrevocable certainty, that you are hers.

"Two weeks," she murmurs against your skin, and her breath is warm and smells like the syrup she drank an hour ago, sweet and thick and floral. "Two weeks out of the whole year, and you're—"

She nips. Not hard — never hard, unless you ask her to — but the small purple teeth, sharp and precise, catch the skin of your neck and hold it for a second. You can feel her mandible fur, that thick white ruff she wears like a mustache, pressing against your collarbone. It's soft. It's impossibly soft.

She pulls back again. She's smiling, but not with her mouth — her mouth is still open, still dripping, still too wide, still showing too much of what's inside. The smile is in her eyes. In the way her antennae lean toward you, tilting, sampling the scent of your skin.

"So here's what's going to happen," she says, and her voice has dropped. It's flat. It's certain. It's the voice she uses when she's decided something and it's already done, and it's the voice that makes you believe her even though you know better. "You're going to finish whatever's in your hands. Then you're going to come and get in the nest. Then you're going to stay there."

The nest. You know about the nest. She's been building it for three days. Cushions from every couch in the house, blankets from the linen closet, every spare sheet, your favorite hoodie that she stole off the drying rack, and enough of her own shed hair and moth dust to make it shimmer faintly under the magenta lights. It's in the corner of the living bay, under the cloud canopy, and it's huge — big enough for her to curl up in, and big enough for her and you, and she's been sitting in it at night, wings wrapped around herself, waiting for you to come back.

You haven't been going back. You've been sleeping in the bedroom. The bedroom with the bed. The bed she bought. The bed she has a mattress for. The bed that's perfectly adequate.

She doesn't care. She doesn't care about the bedroom. She doesn't care about the bed. She cares about the nest, and she cares about you in the nest, and she's been doing this for three days now — building, waiting, leaking, thrumming — and you're finally here and she's going to make you stay.

She straightens up. The movement is slow, deliberate, and her head rises and rises and rises until she's looking down at you from twenty feet up, her white eyes catching the light from the cloud canopy above and throwing it back in twin pinpricks of violet glow. Her antennae curl and uncurl. Her wings shift behind her, the four translucent panels rattling softly against each other with a dry papery hiss, and a fine dust of pale lavender powder drifts down from them, settling on your hair, your shoulders, your hands.

Moth dust. It's everywhere. It's in the carpet and on the furniture and in the air and on every surface of this house, and it's impossible to get rid of, and it's how you know Nova has been here.

"And if you're good," she adds, and her voice carries down to you with a resonance that you feel in your chest, "I'll let you do something about all this."

She's not talking about her milk. Well — she is, but she's also talking about her cock. She's talking about her anus. She's talking about her twenty tongues. She's talking about her wings. She's talking about every part of her that's been aching and pulsing and throbbing for three days and will keep doing so until you're inside her nest and she's wrapped around you and the world outside that corner doesn't exist.

She backs away from you. Slowly. One step, then another, and her hips roll with each one, and you can see her bare ass, and you can see it — the absolutely fat donut of dark purple flesh hanging out like a second mouth, soft and ridged and glistening, and you can see the way her abdomen twitches beneath the skin, the segmented plates flexing visibly as pressure builds inside her, as her body prepares itself for you, as it's been preparing for you since the moment the first pheromone hit her antennae.

"Come on, sweetie," she calls, and she's already at the doorway, already turning, already heading for the nest with that slow, heavy, unhurried gait that makes the floorboards groan and the carpet compress and the air vibrate. "Momma's been waiting."

She pauses in the doorway. Turns her head. Her white eyes find you again, and there's something in them that you've never seen before — something that looks almost like hope, if a creature that died two hundred years ago could feel hope. Something that looks like a moth finding a light.

"I made you a pillow," she says. Her voice is softer now. Almost gentle. "It's your hoodie. I folded it. I folded it right."

She's being very serious about this. She's been folding that hoodie for three days. She's been folding it right and then unfolding it and folding it again because she's worried it's not right and then folding it right again because she's worried it's not right and then folding it right again because she's worried it's not right.

She's waiting for you. She's been waiting for you. She's always been waiting for you.

The purple haze of her comes rolling down the hall after her, thick and sweet and heavy, and you know that if you don't follow her — if you don't go to that nest, and curl up in it, and let her wrap herself around you, and let her lick your face and your neck and your hands and your ears with all twenty of those black, warm tongues — she's going to be sad. And if she's sad, she's going to make it everyone's problem. She'll sit in the middle of the room and thrum and whine and leak and shed dust and you'll be sorry you didn't just go to the nest.

So you go. You always go. Because the nest is warm, and the nest is soft, and the nest has your hoodie folded right, and Nova is waiting, and she's been waiting for two hundred years and three days, and you're not going to make her wait a second longer.

She's already in the nest. She's already curled up, wings wrapped around herself like a blanket, abdomen twitching, eyes glowing in the dark, and she looks like she's been waiting for you her entire life.

She's been waiting for you her entire life.

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