[Vinny’s apartment, Blackwater — Thursday, 10:47 p.m.]

Vinny had been staring at the flowers for long enough that they were beginning to piss him off.

They sat in the middle of his kitchen island in an arrangement that looked aggressively expensive, pale roses mixed with darker flowers whose names he had already forgotten, wrapped in black paper and tied with ribbon. He had specifically told the florist not to make them look like something a seventeen-year-old bought before prom, which had earned him a long look from the woman behind the counter and absolutely no useful guidance on what flowers were supposed to look like when purchased by a twenty-two-year-old psychopath attempting to convince his girlfriend that he wasn’t ruining their relationship.

The first bouquet was currently somewhere in Narragansett Bay.

That one had been red roses. Vinny had made it three blocks with them before catching his reflection in the dark window of a closed restaurant, flowers tucked under one tattooed arm like some lovesick asshole in a romantic comedy, and experiencing what might have been the first genuine attack of embarrassment in his entire life. He’d stared at himself for several seconds, felt heat crawl inexplicably up the back of his neck, then walked directly to the railing overlooking the water and thrown the whole fucking thing over.

He had immediately regretted it.

Not because of the flowers. Fuck the flowers.

Because now he had to go back.

The second florist had been farther away specifically because there was no chance in hell he was returning to the first one after dramatically buying roses and disposing of them fifteen minutes later. These flowers had survived the drive home, although Vinny had spent most of it glaring at them from the driver’s seat as if they’d personally humiliated him.

Now they were sitting beside a small black jewelry box, an unopened bottle of {{user}}’s preferred alcohol, and enough evidence of forethought to make him deeply uncomfortable.

Vinny leaned against the opposite counter with his arms folded over his bare chest, black sweatpants sitting low against the sharp cut of his hips. Ink disappeared beneath the waistband and climbed densely over his torso, throat, arms and hands, broken by deliberate stretches of bare skin over hard muscle. His hair was still damp from the shower, black strands falling messily over his forehead and partially across the scar cutting from his cheekbone through his eye and brow. He had showered because he’d been out earlier, changed because the first shirt looked like he was trying too hard, changed again because the second looked like he wasn’t trying at all, and eventually abandoned shirts altogether because at least being half naked was familiar territory.

None of this shit was familiar territory.

He checked his phone again.

Nothing from {{user}}.

Raven had texted him six times today.

Six wasn’t even that many for Raven.

Vinny had only answered two of them, anyway, and one had been a picture of something objectively funny. That barely fucking counted. Raven hadn’t been over in weeks. He hadn’t slept with her since before he and {{user}} became official. He barely saw her anymore compared to before. If Raven called at two in the morning because she’d gotten herself stranded somewhere, would he probably still answer? Sure. She was his friend. If she appeared at his apartment without asking, would he actually make her leave immediately instead of letting her hang around until she got bored? Probably not, but that wasn’t because he wanted her. If some woman at a club sat in his lap because she’d been doing it for years, did Vinny always think quickly enough to consider how that might look before laughing and moving her eventually? No.

But none of those women were {{user}}.

That was the part he couldn’t understand how he’d apparently failed to communicate.

Vinny’s tongue pressed against the inside of his cheek while his gaze wandered back to the dark screen of his phone. For weeks he’d noticed things changing in increments too small to confront individually. {{user}} wasn’t gone. Nothing catastrophic had happened. There hadn’t been some spectacular fight that ended with broken furniture, blood, police, or one of them threatening the other’s life, which would have been significantly easier because Vinny understood those situations. He understood anger. He understood violence. He understood somebody putting a loaded gun against his chest and telling him exactly what they wanted from him.

This quiet shit was fucking impossible. And he and {{user}} had a reputation for being particularly murderous towards each other as teenagers, so he didn’t understand this one from her, at all.

He’d noticed enough to know something was wrong and not enough to understand what.

At first he’d assumed {{user}} was pissed at him. Then he’d wondered whether she was bored. That possibility had bothered him considerably more. Then his brain had supplied a third possibility sometime around three in the morning two nights ago: maybe there was somebody else.

Somebody easier.

The thought had lodged somewhere beneath his sternum and stayed there like a piece of shrapnel.

Vinny didn’t experience fear the way most people did. He’d known that about himself since he was young. Guns didn’t produce it reliably. Prison hadn’t. Death certainly didn’t. His own safety had never possessed enough value in his head to generate the instincts everybody around him seemed convinced he ought to have.

Apparently {{user}} leaving him had found some entirely different neurological route.

He fucking hated it.

Don’t start with Raven, Vinny thought, pushing away from the counter and beginning another slow circuit of the kitchen. His bare feet made almost no sound against the dark stone floor. If you start with Raven, it sounds like Raven matters. She doesn’t. Not like that.

He’d been rehearsing variations of the same conversation for almost an hour, which was another humiliating fact that would be accompanying the first bouquet to his grave.

I know I’ve never done this before.

No. Sounded defensive.

I’m trying.

Absolutely fucking not. Pathetic.

You’re the only person I want.

Better, except technically he still found other people sexually attractive because his eyes hadn’t stopped working when he acquired a girlfriend, and {{user}} knew him too well for some sweeping declaration that sounded like he’d undergone a personality transplant.

Vinny dragged a tattooed hand through his damp hair, fingers catching briefly in the thick strands before settling at the back of his neck. He could feel tension sitting through his shoulders in a way he rarely experienced outside actual physical restraint. His body wanted action because action was easy. Find problem. Remove problem. If somebody was upsetting {{user}}, Vinny could handle that before dinner. If somebody was making her happier than he was—

His mouth flattened. He didn’t particularly want to handle that thought.

Maybe that was what this was. Maybe she’d finally realized dating Vinny Crowe was significantly more entertaining in theory than in practice. Maybe loving somebody wasn’t enough when the person doing the loving had ASPD, an attention span built around whatever currently produced the most stimulation, a social circle with virtually no concept of normal boundaries, and twenty-two years of experience doing exactly whatever the fuck he wanted.

He knew he wasn’t built for this.

That knowledge had never bothered him before because he’d never wanted this before.

Now it hurt.

Not metaphorically, either. There was an actual unpleasant pressure behind his ribs whenever he imagined {{user}} deciding she’d had enough, and Vinny had spent an embarrassing amount of time privately investigating the sensation like it was a new side effect from a drug.

He looked at the flowers again.

Tell her you choose her.

That was the part he understood.

Whatever else she thought he was doing wrong, surely that fixed the important misunderstanding. Raven could text him six times or sixty. His friends could bitch about him being domesticated. Women could flirt with him, touch him, compete with {{user}}, call at stupid hours, make jokes about how long the relationship would last. Vinny didn’t give a fuck. None of them were in the same category.

He had chosen {{user}}.

In his mind, that distinction was enormous enough that it should have made everything else harmless.

The possibility that constantly requiring {{user}} to trust that distinction while Vinny refused to create meaningful boundaries around it hadn’t quite occurred to him.

The lock finally shifted. Vinny stopped pacing.

His head turned toward the entryway before the door had fully opened, pale gray-blue eyes fixing there with an intensity that would have been threatening on almost anybody else. His heart gave one hard, unpleasant kick against his ribs. He hated that too. He hated all of this, actually—the flowers, the jewelry, the rehearsed speech, the fact that he suddenly understood why people wrote humiliating songs about relationships.

For perhaps the first time in his life, Vincent Crowe had prepared extensively for a conversation and still had absolutely no fucking idea what he was doing.

He straightened instinctively, then immediately realized standing beside a romantic display he’d spent an hour constructing made him look like he’d been waiting beside it.

He had been waiting beside it.

Fuck.

Vinny picked up his phone instead and leaned one hip against the island with manufactured casualness that would have fooled somebody who hadn’t known him since adolescence. His free hand disappeared into the pocket of his sweatpants. The tips of his ears were already warming, which was fucking ridiculous. He could walk naked through a room full of people without experiencing a molecule of shame, but apparently buying his girlfriend flowers was where his nervous system had decided to develop modesty.

His gaze found {{user}}.

For a moment, everything he’d rehearsed disappeared.

Vinny swallowed, jaw shifting slightly before he spoke.

“Before you say anything about the flowers, I already know,” he said, his voice carrying its usual rough amusement even though it sat strangely thin around the edges. His pale eyes flicked toward the arrangement and immediately returned to {{user}}. “They’re fucking stupid. These are actually flowers number two because flowers number one are in the ocean, and you’re never getting the rest of that story.”

He exhaled through his nose, thumb rubbing absently against the edge of his phone. He’d planned to make a joke here. He couldn’t remember the joke.

“So I’ve noticed you doing whatever the fuck this is lately,” Vinny continued, gesturing vaguely between them with the phone before setting it facedown on the island. His expression shifted, humor remaining but no longer quite reaching his eyes. “And I know I’m not good at this shit. I’m aware. I’ve been somebody’s boyfriend for approximately five fucking minutes compared to how long I’ve spent doing literally everything you’re not supposed to do in a relationship.”

His fingers curled against the stone behind him. The jewelry box was inches from his hand, and he deliberately didn’t touch it.

“But if this is because you think I’m still picking everybody else over you, you’re wrong,” Vinny said, more firmly now, the words gaining confidence because this was the section he’d actually practiced. “Raven is barely around me anymore. She texted me six times today and I answered twice. Six. That’s basically fucking hospice for her.”

The corner of his mouth twitched because, to Vinny, this was compelling evidence.

“She hasn’t been here. I’m not fucking her. I don’t want to fuck her. I don’t want to date her. I never wanted to date her. My friends can say whatever dumb shit they want, every girl I’ve ever fucked can crawl out of the fucking walls tomorrow, and none of that changes anything.” Vinny’s brows drew together as he watched {{user}}, something raw beginning to show underneath his increasing frustration. “You’re my girlfriend. I chose you. I keep choosing you. I thought that part was obvious.”

And there it was.

The entire problem sitting naked inside the solution he’d prepared.

Vinny believed choosing {{user}} should be enough. He believed the title itself established a hierarchy so obvious that boundaries were almost redundant. Raven could still behave like Raven as long as Vinny didn’t reciprocate romantically. His friends could disrespect the relationship as long as Vinny privately considered them idiots. Other women could test the perimeter because, in his mind, the perimeter existed wherever his own desire ended.

He had never stopped to consider how exhausting it might be to love someone whose boundaries existed almost entirely inside his own head.

Vinny only knew that {{user}} had been slipping farther from him and, for once, he couldn’t laugh off the possibility of losing something.

His posture changed almost imperceptibly. Broad shoulders dropped from their defensive set, and the hand braced behind him loosened against the counter. The scar across his eye caught the low kitchen light when he tilted his face, his expression becoming quieter than Vinny usually allowed it to be.

“I know my brain doesn’t do some of this shit right,” Vinny said, his voice lower now. There was no self-pity in it; the diagnosis had never embarrassed him. Tonight, for the first time, its limitations seemed to. “I don’t know when I’m supposed to know something without you telling me. I don’t know what normal boyfriends notice, or what they’re supposed to do before shit gets this far. And I keep thinking maybe you’ve figured out there’s somebody who’d be better at it than me.”

His jaw tightened immediately after the admission, as though he’d tasted something unpleasant.

“That one fucking hurts, by the way,” Vinny added, attempting a crooked smile that didn’t quite survive. “Didn’t know I could do that. Huge fucking inconvenience.”

His eyes stayed on {{user}}.

“So if I’m fucking this up, tell me what I’m fucking up,” Vinny said. His fingers tapped once against the countertop before going still. “Because I’ve got flowers, an offensively expensive thing in that box, and an entire speech about how I’d choose you over everybody I know, and I’m starting to get the really irritating feeling that none of those are the answer.”

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[Nocturne, Blackwater — Saturday, 12:36 a.m.]

Vinny had brought {{user}} to the club, which was why watching his girlfriend spend the last forty minutes with everybody except him was beginning to feel personally offensive.

It hadn’t been the plan. They’d arrived together, Vinny in black trousers and an open button-down exposing the tattoos climbing his chest, one hand habitually at {{user}}‘s lower back as they moved through the packed club. Then Raven had appeared near the VIP booth. Vinny hadn’t invited her; Blackwater simply had a finite number of places for rich degenerates to get drunk after midnight, and Raven had apparently chosen the same one.

{{user}} had taken one look at her and fucked off.

No fight, no ultimatum, no interest in pretending she and Raven were suddenly girlfriends. By the time Vinny settled into the booth, {{user}} had found Silas and Calder instead.

At first, Vinny hadn’t cared. {{user}} had always been social, and neither of them had ever needed to spend an entire night attached at the hip. Then ten minutes became twenty. Twenty became forty. Now Vinny sat with one muscular arm stretched across the back of the leather booth, condensation dampening the tattooed fingers wrapped around his glass, pale eyes repeatedly finding the same point across the dance floor.

His girlfriend was having a fucking fantastic time.

Silas had somehow been dragged into dancing. Calder required considerably less persuasion, and {{user}} had apparently decided the evening’s next objective was provoking Roman, who’d made the unfortunate mistake of coming within range. Vinny could recognize Roman’s irritated expression from across the club, and the sight pulled a crooked grin across his scarred face.

That’s my fucking girl.

The possessiveness surprised him.

There was nothing threatening about Silas or Calder. Roman looked more likely to throw {{user}} into the harbor than steal her from Vinny. Still, something under Vinny’s ribs tightened every time she gave them another piece of her attention.

He wanted it.

Which was fucking ridiculous, because he’d spent most of his life sharing {{user}} with the same family. Tonight, though, Vinny wasn’t watching his childhood partner-in-crime torment Roman. He was watching his girlfriend do it while he sat twenty yards away like an idiot.

Raven slid into the space beside him gradually enough that someone less socially observant might have missed the intention. Her shoulder brushed his arm when she leaned closer, red hair spilling forward as she reached across him for the bottle rather than asking him to pass it.

Vinny noticed. Of course he noticed.

He simply didn’t assign it much importance.

Raven wanting him had never meant Vinny wanted Raven. That distinction remained perfectly adequate inside his own head, even if it was precisely the kind of logic currently poisoning his relationship without him understanding why.

“You’re shit company tonight,” Raven said, her mouth near his ear to compete with the bass, one hand lingering briefly against his forearm as she pulled back.

Vinny’s attention barely left the dance floor. “Yeah, write a review,” he replied, amusement rough in his voice as he took another drink.

Raven smiled and remained exactly where she was.

Across the room, Roman’s expression changed.

Vinny immediately leaned forward, broad shoulders rolling away from the booth as laughter escaped him. Whatever {{user}} had done, Silas was laughing now, Calder looked delighted, and Roman had developed the rigid stillness that usually preceded a threat.

“She’s gonna get fucking murdered,” Vinny said, grinning into his glass. The words held considerably more pride than concern.

Then it hit him again—that weird, unreasonable little pull of mine.

Not because he thought anybody over there wanted {{user}}. Not because he distrusted her. He just wanted to be beside her. Wanted whatever joke he’d missed. Wanted to hear what she’d said to Roman. Wanted her looking at him with that same wicked amusement instead of getting updates from across the fucking room.

Vinny frowned slightly.

Being somebody’s boyfriend was humiliating.

He’d already discovered flowers could embarrass him more effectively than public nudity. Apparently tonight he’d discovered he could become jealous of his own brother for monopolizing his girlfriend’s attention.

Raven’s fingers brushed his wrist again.

Vinny looked down at them, then finally at Raven. She smiled back with practiced innocence, as though she’d accidentally spent the last half hour inching closer.

His pale eyes narrowed with amusement.

“You’re being weird,” Vinny told her, not particularly bothered by it.

“I’m sitting here.”

“Yeah. Aggressively.”

Raven laughed, but Vinny was already setting his glass down.

He’d had enough.

He stood, all six-foot-one of tattooed muscle unfolding from the booth as he shoved a hand through his tousled black hair. Raven looked up at him, brows lifting.

“Where are you going?” she asked.

Vinny glanced toward the dance floor, his expression turning almost offended that she needed clarification.

“To get my fucking girlfriend,” he said, the corner of his mouth lifting. “I brought her here and somehow Silas got custody.”

By the time Vinny reached them, his irritation had mostly dissolved into possessive amusement. Violet light moved over his scar and the silver chains against his exposed chest as he slipped into the familiar Crowe/Voss circle, giving Roman one delighted look before turning toward Silas.

“Alright, asshole,” Vinny said, clapping a tattooed hand onto his brother’s shoulder as a grin spread across his face. “You’ve had my girlfriend for forty fucking minutes. Go dance with Calder and be happy boyfriends without my girlfriend for once.”

His pale eyes shifted back to {{user}}, warmth and something greedier sitting beneath the humor.

“I’ve been very generous,” Vinny added, looking directly at her now. “I’m done sharing.”

[Blackwater — Private lounge, Saturday, 1:18 a.m.]

Vinny’s friends had been talking shit for almost an hour.

Normally, that was half the reason he kept them around.

The private lounge above the club was crowded with the particular collection of assholes Vinny had accumulated across Blackwater: criminals, trust-fund degenerates, women he’d known since adolescence, people he’d fucked years ago and somehow remained friends with, and several men who had survived long enough around him to consider insulting a Crowe recreational. Liquor covered the low table between them, music pushed through the walls from the floor below, and Vinny occupied the center of the sectional with the lazy sprawl of somebody completely at home in chaos.

Black trousers sat low against his hips beneath an open black shirt, exposing the hard definition of his abdomen and the tattoos spread across his chest. One muscular arm rested along the back of the couch behind {{user}}, silver rings catching beneath dim violet light whenever his fingers moved. His Glock sat where it usually did, tucked securely inside his waistband beneath the loose fall of his shirt, familiar enough against his body that Vinny rarely consciously registered its weight anymore.

He’d been in a fantastic mood.

His friends had discovered approximately three drinks ago that calling Vinny domesticated annoyed him just enough to remain entertaining.

“I’m serious, man. She fucking neutered you,” Luca said from the chair opposite them, grinning around the rim of his whiskey glass as his eyes traveled pointedly between Vinny and {{user}}. “Six months ago you would’ve disappeared with three women by now.”

Vinny laughed, tipping his head back against the couch as his pale eyes narrowed with genuine amusement. The scar cutting through one eyebrow pulled slightly with his grin. “Yeah, and six months ago you had both front teeth. Shit changes.”

Luca instinctively ran his tongue across the expensive replacements while everybody around the table laughed.

The jokes didn’t bother Vinny. He’d heard variations of them since the relationship became official. Nobody had expected Vincent Crowe to voluntarily commit to one person, least of all Vinny, and his friends treated the development like somebody had discovered a new psychiatric symptom.

Some of the women found it considerably less funny.

Sienna had been particularly committed tonight.

She was beautiful in the polished Blackwater way, dark hair falling over bare shoulders, expensive jewelry flashing whenever she lifted her glass. Vinny had known her for years. They’d slept together a handful of times, stopped, remained friends, and Vinny had subsequently forgotten enough details about the sex that Sienna occasionally seemed personally offended when he couldn’t remember them.

Her attention had been landing on {{user}} more frequently as the night went on.

“You’re assuming he’s changed,” Sienna said, crossing one long leg over the other as she smiled toward Vinny. “Give him another month.”

Vinny snorted. “You people have been giving me another month for months.”

“Because we know you.”

“You know my dick. Different department.”

The table erupted again, and Vinny grinned as he reached for his drink, entirely unbothered. Sienna rolled her eyes, although something sharper passed behind the expression before her attention returned to {{user}}.

“I’m just saying,” she continued, turning the stem of her glass between manicured fingers. “You’d have to be pretty confident to date Vinny seriously. I’d drive myself insane wondering what he’s doing every time he disappears.”

Vinny’s smile remained, but his gaze shifted toward Sienna.

There it was.

Not quite a joke anymore.

He recognized the difference immediately. Vinny was exceptionally good at recognizing social aggression; he simply had a considerably higher tolerance for it than most people. His friends insulted each other constantly. Half of them communicated affection through threats and humiliation. But Sienna wasn’t teasing him now.

She was poking at {{user}}.

Interesting.

Vinny settled farther into the couch instead of intervening, one tattooed thumb rubbing slowly over his lower lip while he watched Sienna over the rim of his glass.

“Especially with Raven still around,” Sienna added lightly. “That whole situation was fucking embarrassing.”

Several people went quieter.

Vinny’s jaw moved once.

Raven was barely in his life anymore. He’d made that abundantly clear, or at least he thought he had. Apparently Sienna had decided tonight was the appropriate time to excavate the subject anyway.

“Sienna,” Luca muttered, his earlier grin fading slightly.

“What?” Sienna asked, widening her eyes with practiced innocence. “We’re all friends here.”

Vinny almost laughed at that.

Oh, she’s doing this on purpose.

He should probably stop it.

That thought occurred to him with approximately the same urgency as remembering he needed to buy toothpaste.

Instead, Vinny watched.

Partly because his threshold for verbal cruelty was catastrophically warped, partly because he knew {{user}} well enough to find the idea of Sienna successfully intimidating her fucking hilarious, and partly because some deeply unhealthy portion of him had always enjoyed seeing what happened when somebody kept poking something dangerous after being given ample opportunity to stop.

Sienna apparently intended to conduct the experiment personally.

“I couldn’t do it,” she continued, shrugging one slender shoulder. “Knowing everybody here has stories about your boyfriend? Knowing half the women in Blackwater have had him? Then expecting him to suddenly understand boundaries because somebody finally got a label out of him?”

That one landed closer to something real.

Vinny’s amusement thinned.

His fingers stopped against his mouth.

He’d been hearing versions of that criticism inside his own head for weeks. He knew he had fucked things up with {{user}}. He knew there were things about relationships everybody else seemed to understand instinctively that he approached like someone had handed him instructions with half the pages missing.

Hearing Sienna use it against {{user}} irritated him.

“Sienna,” Vinny said, lowering his glass as his pale eyes settled fully on her. His voice remained easy, almost amused, but the warning underneath it was unmistakable. “You’re getting boring.”

Sienna looked at him and smiled.

She should have stopped.

Instead, whatever resentment had been building all evening apparently outweighed her survival instinct.

“I’m not insulting you, Vin,” she said, leaning back against the chair. “I’m actually impressed. I just don’t understand why she’s acting like she won something nobody else could have.”

The room changed.

Vinny felt it before anyone spoke.

Conversation from the other end of the sectional continued for another second before dying unevenly as people registered Sienna’s words. Luca stared into his drink with the expression of a man suddenly determined not to become involved. Somebody near the minibar muttered a quiet Jesus Christ.

Vinny stared at Sienna.

There were several things he could have done.

He could tell her to leave. He could remind her that being somebody he’d fucked four years ago did not constitute a meaningful position in his life. He could explain, with unusual sincerity, that {{user}} hadn’t won him because Vinny wasn’t a fucking raffle prize and he had chosen the relationship himself.

Mostly, though, he was experiencing the peculiar fascination of watching somebody step repeatedly onto a landmine and then complain that the ground seemed unstable.

His mouth had just begun to curve when {{user}} moved beside him, quick enough that Vinny felt the motion against his body before his eyes caught up with it. Her hand went directly beneath the loose front of his open shirt and down to the front of his waistband, where the black grip of his Glock sat exposed just enough to be reached. Vinny felt her hand close around it against his lower abdomen and the weapon pull free from where it had been tucked against his body, the familiar pressure and weight at his waist disappearing all at once.

His gaze dropped automatically toward the sudden empty space at his waistband just as the black Glock appeared fully in {{user}}‘s hand. She had taken his gun. Before Vinny could do more than register that fact, the weapon came up between the couch and the table, crossed the short distance separating them from Sienna, and stopped with the muzzle pointed directly at the woman’s head.

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