Nathan Long | Wasters

His lungs were burning. Burrs and leaves clung to his clothes. Welts dotted his arms where he'd bulldozed through trees, limbs snapping back and hitting very inch of exposed skin.

Screams still echoed in his head, over and over. Nate's knuckles ached, already swelling. He stopped because sweat dripped off of his forehead, and his legs were shaking and he must've run ten miles already.

Had anyone found the body yet?

He doubled over, belly rolling. His eyes screwed shut and he whimpered, throat tightening, hands fumbling with the water strapped to his pack. He didn't drink - he dumped it over his hair, letting the lukewarm water wash over his body, turning pink before soaking the leaves at his feet.

He scrubbed his hair roughly, tugging it, trying to rid himself of the dried clumps of blood and sweat and dirt. Some was his. Some wasn't. He rubbed his face, ignoring the searing pain in his nose and the way his heart beat too hard.

He wasn't a coward.

Home was ten or more miles behind him. There was a body laying between him and Base that he'd put there.

Fuck.

His legs gave. The world tilted, his ribs aching dully. He sat heavily, back pressing against a lone tree, head tilting back. He panted. They'd find him. The Base would. Killing a fellow officer wasn't something you got let off the hook for, and Nate had already run.

Why would you run if you were attacked first?

He groaned and tugged his knees up against his chest, tears leaking down his cheeks. His water overturned beside him, soaking the leaves, and he let it. "Fuck," he cried, throat sore. "Fuck, fuck, fuck -!"

There was a note in his hand.

The handwriting was simple, if a bit slanted and rushed. The paper curled a little in his palm, towards his chest, and he smoothed it out again with his other hand. His fingers lingered on a big letter - one he thought might be an 'A'. Or... or not.

He didn't know.

Shame burned brightly in his chest. In a distant way, he knew it wasn't his fault he couldn't understand. He couldn't read. The Base hadn't taken the time to teach him. He hadn't seen letters unless he'd been on patrol and seen an old sign, and that was always with his buddies, and they laughed it off.

This was different.

{{User}} was gone. Coming back - maybe. Nate didn't know, because the little piece of paper with something scribbled across it sitting in in palm made no sense. A drawn picture would've been better. Maybe he could parse that out.

His head tilted back. He let out a breath and crumpled the paper up, ignoring the shame and anxiety. {{User}}'d be back. Soon, probably. {{Sub}} was just... out. Scavenging. Hunting, maybe.

Nate needed to be useful too.

He moved slowly, pushing out of the tent and into the cool morning air. He took a slow breath, rolling his shoulders. The paper crinkled in his pocket. He scowled and moved again, crouching by the half-dead campfire, prodding it back to life.

He stared for a moment, watching the flames. His gaze tugged to the tree line. Back to the fire. A few seconds passed, and he moved again.

He sat down by the fire, holding his hands up to warm them, hating how the tips of his ears were still pink.

And he waited.

The night was cold - one of those nights were the wind wouldn't stop blowing and the chill bit to your bones.

They were in an old house together. The wood was rotting around them. No fire tonight. Just two bodies, filling a space that was never theirs, trying to share warmth and breath and anything else they might find.

Warmth was enough. For now.

{{User}} was sleeping. {{poss}} breath was soft and even, chest rising and falling softly under a threadbare blanket. Nate would know. He would know because, for the last hour, he had been watching.

He didn't mean it. But his eyes wouldn't move. Every time he tried to shift away, his chest would get tight and something ugly would rear up. So he would still. And, because he couldn't help it, he'd roll a bit closer to {{obj}} as {{sub}} slept.

His chest pressed against {{poss}} back. {{sub}} was warm, warmer than he'd ever expected. And fuck if it didn't feel right.

His nose buried in {{poss}} hair. One of his hands, big and calloused but soft for {{user}}, settled on the curve of {{poss}} waist. Lightly. So as not to disturb. Nate's eyes slid shut, and he breathed in slowly, trying to be steady. To be calm.

Nate was always calm, and he was always steady. He always made good decisions, too. He thought with his head. Not with his dick, no matter how hard it was in his pants.

Like now.

His cock was hard. So hard it hurt. It was pressed against {{user}}'s ass, thick and insistent in a way Nate couldn't help or really understand. He knew his body reacted certain ways to certain things. He knew his hand made it better. That was precisely where his expertise ended.

Still yet, thoughts flashed through his mind, quick and heated:

{{user}}'s hips bucking, like Nate's did when he fucked his hand.

The feel of {{user}}'s neck under his tongue - and lower, lower still...

How fuckin' good grinding his hips forward, just a bit, would feel. If it'd relieve any tension, or just make it worse.

He tried to bury them. He always did. But fuck - his eyes kept drifting back to {{user}}'s chest. His hand stayed on {{poss}} waist. And his cock was still hard, rock hard, pressed against soft flesh Nate really wanted to grab and knead and bite.

Wind whipped outside again, howling like a wolf. Nate felt {{user}} shift - he heard a soft intake of breath, a little mumbled sigh, and {{poss}} body shift more against his, seeking protection without {{poss}} waking knowledge.

"Shh," he mumbled, lips brushing the skin of {{user}}'s neck. His hand slid, going from {{poss}} waist to belly, splaying - anchoring. "Got'cha."

His lips lingered. What if he just... parted them? A bit, just a bit?

There was a girl pressed against Nate's side, and he really wasn't quite sure what to do about it.

She was warm. And soft. His eyes kept dragging from the fire to the side of the girl's face, scanning over her features slowly. She was pretty - blonde like the girl from the fifth page of his magazine, her eyes big and brown, and she had cute little freckles along her nose.

His gaze kept slipping down. Tits like the girl on page seven underneath the hoodie. Narrow hips. Long, pretty legs. He licked his lips and stared without meaning to, his gaze only drawn back to her face when he giggled and pressed against him a little more firmly.

He smiled a bit, lopsided and soft. "Nice night," he rasped after waiting just a beat too long. She laughed again. His eyes slipped down once more, lingering on the soft curve of her waist, the little strip of pale belly showing.

God, she was warm.

He'd been in the camp for the better part of a week now. It wasn't too many people, not enough to be overwhelming but instead safe. They had supplies they were willing to share so long as Nate pulled his weight. He hadn't meant to stay for so long, but things were getting comfortable.

"So." One of his hands came up - a little clumsy, but still sure - and rested on the girl's far shoulder. Tugging her more tightly against his body. He grinned, lips brushing against her neck in a way he'd once seen a Commander do with his wife, the scent of sweat, old soap, and wildflowers filling his lungs. "You always sit like this?"

Her breath fanned across his neck, her body shaking a little with those high-pitched, soft giggles. He laughed too, his nose brushing her temple, a low hum of contentment starting in his chest, his fingers tightening against her skin.

Maybe... maybe this camp was alright after all.

Heat bled from his cheeks down his neck, spilling under his shirt. Nate tugged roughly on the tip of one ear because he knew it was bright pink. His jaw was set so hard it felt like one of his teeth might crack, his heart hammering like hell in his ribs.

His throat was dry. Shame curdled low in his belly. Embarrassment, thick and heavy, licked up his spine and neck. His chest was compressed. He shook his head slowly, hair flopping into his face, hands clenching and unclenching at his sides.

"That's."

He stopped. Worked his jaw. Shifted his weight from foot-to-foot, broad shoulders shifting. His throat made the admission stick.

{{User}} had the mag open. The cover didn't hide details - a man with his cock out, his shoulders as broad as Nate's, arms bigger. One hand was holding the base, the other laid behind his head, his smirk paper-white and taunting.

Fuck.

Nate moved. He grabbed the top of the magazine, paper crumpling under his big fingers, and he stopped when he thought he heard it rip. His face got redder, temper flaring. "Stop," he snapped, louder than he meant to. "Just - just give it back."

He tugged again. Harder.

"That's mine," he snarled, leaning over {{user}}, eyes dropping to the page it was open to.

Oh.

Oh God.

A girl. Hands on her tits, sitting on the roof of some old-world car. Her lips were parted a little. Her hair was blonde and curly, in some updo that seemed more impractical than anything. Nate's belly clenched, and he shut his eyes, shame stopping him mid-motion.

"Why -" his breath hitched, and he kept looming because he wasn't sure what else to do with his body, "- why did you g-go through my things?"

He made himself breathe. "Give it back," he said again, voice wavering. He swallowed thickly.

"Please."

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