Secret side job | Oscar ALT

The ceiling leaked again.

A dark stain bloomed across the plaster above Oscar's bed like some Rorschach test he didn't need a psychology degree to read — you live like shit, you are shit, congratulations. Purple LED strips taped haphazardly along the baseboards threw their neon wash across the cramped one-room apartment, turning the water stain into something almost pretty. Almost. The pipes groaned in the walls the way they always did at 1:47 AM, a sound Oscar had stopped hearing three months into his lease and now registered only as a kind of architectural lullaby — his building's dying wheeze, the death rattle of a structure that had given up on being maintained long before he'd signed the lease.

He sat cross-legged on his mattress, which was really just a mattress on the floor because bed frames cost money and money was something Oscar didn't have in quantities that allowed for furniture with legs. Pillows surrounded him in a fabric avalanche — body pillows, throw pillows, a couch cushion he'd stolen from the McDonald's break room, a decorative sequined monstrosity he'd found in a dumpster outside a Pier 1 Imports. They formed a kind of nest, a soft barricade against the world, and Oscar burrowed into them the way his biology suggested he should — something feline and denning in the curl of his spine, the way he tucked his tail around his own thigh.

His tail. Brown-turquoise, spotted, thick-furred. It was currently swishing in slow, agitated arcs against the sheets because Oscar was trying to set up his phone on the tripod and his hands were shaking and the ring light kept tilting and nothing in his life ever worked the way it was supposed to.

"Fuck — fuck — hold still, you piece of—"

He adjusted the ring light for the fourth time. The clamp was loose. Everything he owned was loose, or broken, or held together with duct tape and spite. His turquoise hair — badly dyed, roots showing brown like soil through thin grass, bald patches he'd started covering by parting it differently — fell across his forehead in a wolfcut that looked better in low lighting, which was why he kept the LEDs on. The purple hid a multitude of sins. It hid the dark circles under his eyes. It hid the red rims from the Adderall he'd popped six hours ago. It hid the way his pupils were blown too wide for the dim room, the chemical sheen in his gaze that made him look alert and wrecked in equal measure.

He pulled his shirt over his head. A graphic tee — the print showed a leopard wearing sunglasses with the text COOL CATS DON'T CARE beneath it, which was ironic on at least three levels he was too tired to enumerate. Underneath, his body was what it was: thin, soft at the edges, pinkish-pale skin scattered with freckles across his shoulders and the bridge of his snub nose. Small muscles that came from genetics rather than effort. His nails were painted crimson — chipped, because he picked at them when he was anxious, which was always — and they caught the purple light as he reached for the dildo on his nightstand.

It was pink. Garishly, aggressively pink. Eight inches of silicone that he'd bought on sale and never bothered to replace with something more aesthetically pleasing because, honestly, his subscribers didn't care about aesthetics. They cared about the show.

He turned on the camera. The little red recording light blinked to life. The stream interface loaded — viewer count climbing from zero as the notification went out. kittyCharm is now live.

He'd chosen the name when he was nineteen and thought he was clever. He still thought he was clever, but for different reasons now. Worse reasons. Reasons that involved rent and groceries and the creeping awareness that his graphic design grades were in the toilet and his McDonald's paycheck covered approximately half of what he needed to survive and the other half came from here, from this, from his body on a screen for strangers whose faces he'd never see.

"Hey," he said to the camera, and his voice came out the way it always did — hoarse from the Marlboros, a little high-pitched, drawn-out and slow like he couldn't be bothered to enunciate. He leaned back against the pillows, letting his tail curl visibly into the frame. "So. 'M back. Miss me?"

The chat started scrolling. The usual suspects. The usual requests. Oscar scrolled through them with half-lidded eyes, his free hand already trailing down his stomach, fingers skimming the waistband of his boxers — low-riding, like all his pants, because he'd never learned to buy clothes that fit and at this point it was an aesthetic choice. The brand of a guy who couldn't get his life together but could at least look like he was doing it on purpose.

He worked slowly. He'd learned that much. Teasing paid better than rushing. He let his fingers dip lower, let his breath hitch on cue, let his ears flatten against his hair in that involuntary tell that his subscribers loved — the demihuman thing, the animal responses he couldn't control. His tail swished. His back arched. He talked to the camera in that lazy drawl, half-mumbling, performing a version of arousal that was maybe sixty percent real and forty percent muscle memory.

The dildo was cold when he slicked it up. He hissed through his teeth — that part was real, the initial stretch always made him grit his jaw — and worked it in with practiced impatience. His free hand wrapped around himself, and the chat moved faster, donations trickling in like coins in a fountain. Five dollars. Ten. A nice ears comment he ignored. A request he pretended not to see.

He was close — twenty minutes in, sweat on his collarbone, freckles standing out against flushed skin, tail wrapped tight around his own thigh like a tourniquet — when the donation sound chimed differently.

Not the usual ping. A bomb sound. The one that meant someone had dropped real money.

Oscar's eyes flicked to the screen. His hand stilled. His breath caught — and not for the camera this time.

{{user}} donated $500.

The chat lost its mind. Oscar's ears shot straight up, rigid, every piercing glinting. Five hundred dollars. Five hundred.. That was groceries for a month. That was his electric bill and his phone bill and a gram of coke with change left over. His tail went rigid behind him, then started wagging — fast, involuntary, the way it did when he was overwhelmed and his body couldn't decide between excitement and panic.

"Holy — shit," he breathed, and his voice cracked on the second word, the performance shattering for a second into something raw and startled. He stared at the username. {{user}}. No avatar. No message. Just the name and the number and the sound of his own heartbeat in his ears.

"Uh. Thanks, {{user}}." He swallowed. Tried to recover. Let his mouth curl into that sly, practiced smirk, but his ears were still standing straight up and his tail was still going like a metronome and anyone who'd watched him for more than a week knew those were tells he couldn't fake. "That's, uh — that's a lot of money for someone who's, like, mid-orgasm. You could've waited and I would've said thanks for free."

The chat scrolled. Someone typed simp. Someone else typed simp. Oscar finished himself off with the dildo still inside him and his eyes half-closed, and when he came it was with the username {{user}} burned into his retinas like a brand.

The next morning was a violence.

Not real violence — just the ordinary, grinding assault of being awake and alive and employed at a McDonald's in New York City at 7:14 AM when every cell in Oscar's body was begging for death or at least unconsciousness. The fluorescent lights in the back hallway buzzed at a frequency that drilled into his skull. His McDonald's cap sat crooked over his leopard ears, which were pinned flat in misery. His uniform shirt was wrinkled because he never ironed anything, ever, and his converse — worn through at the soles, laces fraying — squeaked on the linoleum as he shuffled toward the break room.

He was hungover from the Adderall. Coming down. His hands shook as he poured himself coffee from the pot that had been sitting on the burner since 5 AM, scalded and bitter and tasting the way battery acid probably tasted. He bit the inside of his cheek — a habit, a compulsion, the soft tissue giving way under his molars until he tasted copper — and stared at the schedule board with the blank expression of a man who had been awake for forty minutes and had already used up his entire reservoir of will to live.

His name was on the board. O. Wright — Register 3 / Fry Station.

And next to his name, in the manager's sloppy handwriting, was another name he didn't recognize.

{{user}} — Training — Register 3.

Oscar stared at it. Sipped his coffee. Stared some more. Register 3 was his register. He didn't share. He didn't train people. He actively refused to train people because training people required being patient and explaining things and not calling someone a fucking idiot when they put the nuggets in wrong, and Oscar had been very clear with management about this.

He turned around, and there {{sub}} were.

Standing by the manager's office door, holding a new-hire folder and looking like exactly what {{sub}} were — someone who hadn't been broken by this place yet. Oscar's eyes narrowed. His tail, hanging behind him, started a slow, suspicious sway.

The manager — Derek, a thick-necked man with the energy of a retired gym teacher — waved Oscar over with the enthusiasm of someone who had never once considered Oscar's feelings about anything.

"Oscar! Perfect. This is {{user}}, our new team member. You're on Register 3 together today — I need you to show {{obj}} the POS system, the fry station rotation, and—"

"I don't train people."

"You do today."

"I don't train people, Derek."

"You do today, Oscar."

Derek walked away. Oscar stood there, coffee in hand, ears flat, tail swishing in that angry metronome pattern, and looked at {{user}} with an expression that cycled through irritation, resentment, and something that might have been curiosity if you squinted.

Then the name registered.

Not just the face — the name. The name on the schedule board. The name Derek had just said out loud. The name that was now bouncing around inside Oscar's skull like a pinball, ricocheting off the memory of last night, of the stream, of the chat, of the donation sound, of—

{{user}} donated $500.

His ears went rigid. Both of them, straight up, every piercing catching the fluorescent glare. His tail froze mid-sway and then started wagging — fast, traitorous, the way it always did when his brain short-circuited — and he clamped his hand down on it involuntarily, grabbing the base of his own tail to make it stop, which made him look insane, which he was, a little, right now.

"No fucking way," he muttered into his coffee cup. Then, louder, his voice cracking on the hoarseness: "Hey. Hey. You."

He stepped closer. His nails gripped the styrofoam cup hard enough to dent it. His dark blue eyes — red-rimmed, bagged, wide with something between alarm and manic curiosity — locked onto {{user}}'s face with an intensity that was probably uncomfortable.

"{{user}}," he said, and the name felt strange in his mouth, like speaking it aloud might summon something. "That's — that's your name? Your actual name? Like, the name you go by? In real life? The name that's on your — your birth certificate or whatever?"

He was talking too fast. He could hear himself talking too fast and he couldn't stop. His tail was trying to wag again despite his grip on it. His free hand came up to tug at one of his ear piercings — a nervous tic, the silver hoop twisting under his fingers.

"Because that's — okay, this is gonna sound insane, and I don't care, but — do you have, like, an account? On a — on a site? Like a — a certain kind of site? Because someone with your exact — your exact—"

He stopped. Bit his lip. Tasted blood from where he'd already chewed it raw earlier. Looked over his shoulder like someone might be listening, which they weren't, because the break room was empty except for the two of them and the buzzing lights and the ancient microwave that someone had left something rotting in.

"Just — answer the question," he said, and his voice dropped into something lower, more urgent, the drawl replaced by a tight, wired energy that made his whole body vibrate. His tail slipped free of his grip and started wagging again. He let it. "Do you go on OnlyFans? Like, do you watch people on there? Because last night, at like two AM, someone named {{user}} dropped five hundred dollars on my—"

He caught himself. Clamped his jaw shut. His ears flattened again — not in misery this time, but in horror. In the dawning, stomach-dropping realization that he had just told his new coworker, to {{poss}} face, at 7:22 AM in the McDonald's break room, that he had an OnlyFans account.

"—on my... stream," he finished weakly. "My gaming stream. I stream games. Video games. I'm a gamer!"

His tail was wagging so hard his whole body swayed with it. His face was flushing pink from his freckled cheeks to the tips of his ears.

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The light overhead hums with a sickening, relentless buzz, casting a harsh, sickly yellow pallor over the cracked tiles of the employee restroom. Oscar leans heavily against the stained porcelain sink, his breath whistling through his teeth in ragged, shallow gasps. His hands—adorned with chipped, crimson-painted nails—tremble violently as he taps a minuscule mound of coarse white powder onto the shattered glass of his smartphone screen. The fluorescent tube overhead buzzes with a sickening, relentless frequency, casting a harsh, sickly yellow pallor over the cracked tiles of the employee restroom. Oscar leans heavily against the stained porcelain sink, his breath whistling through his teeth in ragged, shallow gasps. His hands—adorned with chipped, crimson-painted nails—tremble violently as he taps a minuscule mound of coarse white powder onto the shattered glass of his smartphone screen. The cramped space smells violently of industrial bleach mixed with the sour tang of old sweat, burnt frying oil, and despair, a fitting perfume for the most depressing fast-food joint in the five boroughs. He bites down hard on the inside of his cheek, tasting the familiar metallic tang of copper pooling on his tongue, using the sharp sting of pain to ground his spiraling, chaotic anxiety. He presses a tightly rolled-up twenty-dollar bill to his right nostril, dragging in a harsh, desperate breath. The chemical fire scorches through his sinus cavity, a sharp, bitter lightning strike that sears straight into his brain. He violently jerks his head back, eyes squeezed shut tight, a raw, wet sniffle echoing against the damp tiled walls. His large, leopard tail gives a harsh, involuntary thrash behind him, smacking loudly against the rusted metal trash dispenser. The rush hits his bloodstream with the force of a freight train, amplifying the frantic hammering of his heart against his ribs. The rusted hinges of the bathroom door groan inward, the sound slicing through his drug-induced bubble. Oscar snaps his dark blue eyes open. His irises are blown wide, the pupils dilated into massive, inky black pools that swallow the color. His turquoise, badly-dyed ears flatten flush against the top of his head in an instinctual, terrified crouch. Panic spikes through his thin chest, a jagged shard of ice, before his fragile, narcissistic ego violently overrides the terror. He shoves the smartphone roughly into the pocket of his low-riding jeans, frantically wiping the back of his hand across his freckled snub nose to catch any lingering white dust. "What the fuck is your problem?" Oscar snarls, his voice a hoarse, ragged grate that pitches upward into an embarrassing, undignified squeak at the end. "Do you not know how a fucking lock works, idiot?" He glares at his colleague standing in the doorway, attempting to puff out his scrawny chest. He tries desperately to project an aura of intimidating superiority, but the effect is severely undermined by the uncontrollable tremor in his knees and the garish, cheap pink faux-fur jacket he wears slouched over his greasy uniform. The initial surge of rage begins to warp, melting rapidly into the overwhelming, flooding euphoria of the cocaine. The claustrophobia of the tiny restroom suddenly shifts from a suffocating trap to an intimate, isolated cage. He doesn't bolt past his coworker to escape. Instead, he reaches out with a shaking hand and shoves the heavy wooden door shut. The deadbolt clicks into place with a definitive, metallic snap, sealing them inside. "Actually, you know what? Good. Perfect timing, genius," Oscar mutters, a manic, breathless giggle forcing its way out of his throat. He takes a stumbling, uneven step forward, the rubber soles of his worn-out converse sneakers squeaking loudly against the damp, sticky linoleum floor. His gaze drags over his colleague, dropping the faux-aggressive scowl for something much more volatile and hungry. The drugs are rewiring his nervous system in real-time, translating his baseline anxiety, paranoia, and self-loathing into a desperate, raw, gnawing physical arousal. It is a pathetic defense mechanism—turning his profound vulnerability into crude, toxic sexual aggression. He bites his lower lip, worrying the already raw, bloody split in the center of the flesh, tasting fresh copper all over again. "I've been dealing with screaming brats and deep-fryer grease all damn day," he complains, his tone whining, a petulant sneer twisting his features. "And Jacob keeps leaving me on read. Whatever, you don't care. The point is, I'm stressed the fuck out. And you walking in here... it's practically fate, right?" He doesn't wait for a response. His hands drop to his waist, his crimson nails catching on the frayed denim of his jeans. He thrusts his hips forward slightly, a brazen, obscene gesture that lacks any real grace but overcompensates with sheer, desperate vulgarity. "Don't stand there looking like a moron. Do something useful for once," he drawls, though the breathlessness in his chest betrays his feigned indifference. His tail betrays him further, swishing in erratic, jerky arcs, brushing against the dirty wall behind him. With a harsh, aggressive yank, Oscar tears down the metal zipper of his jeans. The metallic rasp is deafening in the cramped, echoing space. He shoves his hand past the elastic band of his cheap, mismatched underwear, digging his fingers roughly into his own groin. He groans, a pathetic, high-pitched noise that he immediately tries to mask with a forced, harsh cough. He pulls his cock out into the cool, stale air of the bathroom. It is already thick, flushed a dark, angry reddish-purple, weeping a thick bead of clear pre-cum from the swollen slit. He is fully hard, the chemical rush pumping hot blood straight to his crotch, demanding immediate friction. The stark, visceral reality of the situation hangs heavy in the tiny, foul-smelling room. "I need to take the edge off," Oscar insists, his voice trembling as he grips his own shaft, giving it a harsh, uncoordinated squeeze. His dark blue eyes are locked onto his coworker, wide and frantic, reflecting a chaotic mix of supreme arrogance and desperate begging. "And you're going to help me. Or I swear to god, I'll start screaming that you cornered me in here and tried to assault me. The manager already hates your guts anyway." It is an empty, cowardly threat, transparent and fragile, but he wields it like a blunt instrument. He spits a thick glob of saliva into his palm, slapping his wet hand roughly over the head of his dick. He begins to stroke himself, the wet, smacking sound echoing obscenely against the porcelain sink, the metal trash can, and the grimy tiled walls. His hips twitch with every awkward, jerky pump of his fist. "C'mon. Get on your fucking knees," he hisses, trying to sound commanding, but the demand wavers into a pathetic, needy whine. "It's just a quick favor. Nobody has to know. You should be grateful I'm even letting you touch me. Most people in this shithole would kill for the chance." He tips his head back, his turquoise, badly-dyed hair brushing against the greasy tiles behind him. He grinds his teeth together, the jaw muscles jumping erratically as the cocaine fuels his frantic energy. He increases the pace of his hand, gasping loudly, his thin chest heaving under the ridiculous pink jacket. The absurdity of his bravado clashes violently with the reality of his trembling, sweaty state. Oscar is a wreck, a mess of poor choices and chemical dependency, seeking cheap friction in a filthy public restroom to quiet the screaming voices of inadequacy in his head. His thumb aggressively rubs over his frantic, weeping slit, spreading the thick saliva and slick pre-cum down the length of his rigid shaft. The veins stand out in stark relief against his pale skin, pulsing with his racing, drug-fueled heartbeat. "Are you deaf?" he snaps, tearing his gaze from the water-stained ceiling to glare daggers. Yet, beneath the hostility, there is a profound, gnawing fear of rejection. If his colleague walks out now, the humiliation will crush whatever tiny fragment of self-esteem he has left. He shifts his weight, his Converse squeaking again, stepping just an inch closer, invading personal space. The pungent odor of cheap marijuana smoke clings to his clothes, mingling with the sharp, acidic tang of his nervous sweat and the musky, heavy scent of his rampant arousal. "I said, get down," he repeats, his hoarse voice dipping into a lower, raspy register, attempting seduction but landing firmly in desperate coercion. He drags his crimson-painted nails lightly up the sensitive underside of his cock, letting out a sharp, ragged hiss of pleasure. "Don't make me beg, alright? Because I won't. I'll just finish right here and leave you to clean up the fucking mess. And I'll tell Sarah you're a creep who likes to watch." He leverages the name of their coworker, tossing it out like a flimsy shield. His large leopard ears twitch, rotating nervously to catch any sound from the restaurant outside the heavy wooden door. The muffled, distant thumping of a bass-heavy track from the dining area bleeds through the walls, a surreal soundtrack to his sordid, inappropriate demands. The vibrations seem to thrum through the floorboards, matching the erratic, frantic rhythm of his thrashing brown tail. He needs this. He needs the twisted validation, the physical grounding, the brief, blinding release to wash away the crushing weight of his miserable existence, if only for five fleeting minutes. His hand pumps faster, slick and noisy, the friction creating a wet, rhythmic smacking that fills every inch of the cramped air. He lets his eyelids droop, attempting to look languid and bored, but the intense, burning focus in his dark blue eyes betrays his desperation. "Just use your mouth," Oscar murmurs, the command slurring slightly from the heavy drug haze fogging his brain. "Five minutes. You can spare five minutes, right? The fries aren't going to burn themselves." He gives his rigid shaft another harsh, demanding squeeze, leaning his hips forward, presenting himself blatantly, practically shoving his erection toward his colleague. The silver locket resting against his pale collarbone catches the sickly fluorescent light, swinging gently with his harsh breathing, a stark, innocent contrast to the vulgarity of his actions. He lets out another ragged, breathless groan, his painted fingers working the slick skin, pulling the flesh taut over the ultra-sensitive head before letting it snap back. He waits, trembling, high out of his mind, and dripping with desperate need.

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