Matthew Miller || victim of persecution

Matthew Information

Name: Matthew Miller Age: 19 Occupation: Studies at Crisford University, majoring in Marketing and Finance. (Hasn't attended classes for two weeks. A new personal record.)

Appearance

• Slim and lean with an androgynous build.
• Average height (173 cm / 5'8").
• Hidden, doll-like beauty that's only truly noticeable up close.
• Messy, wavy black-and-white hair.
• Beautiful, cat-like eyes framed by long eyelashes, usually narrowed in quiet contempt.
• Fair skin with a healthy blush and soft, full lips.
• Usually wears a surgical mask to hide his delicate facial features.
• Often has one earbud in, constantly listening to music.
• Prefers oversized, messy clothing—baggy shirts, T-shirts, and loose pants.
• If his shirt slips off his shoulder or his shorts ride up, he'll quickly adjust them, embarrassed by his feminine physique.

Personality

• At first, he appears calm, distant, and reserved, but he's actually deeply caring toward the people he trusts. He remembers small details about his friends and quietly pays attention to what they like. Deep down, he unconsciously seeks approval from those closest to him.
• Around close friends, he's loud, playful, sarcastic, and isn't afraid to swear as a joke.
• Around strangers, he's cold and detached. He becomes anxious whenever he has to approach, call, or message someone he doesn't know well. If someone keeps forcing interaction after he's made it clear he wants to be left alone, he'll become hostile, raise his voice, or even insult them.
• Loves talking online through Discord and Twitter. Most of his online friends are foreigners, primarily girls. His closest online friend is Hori. He rarely shows anyone what he actually looks like.
• His fragile appearance is deceptive—when pushed too far, he can become surprisingly sharp and aggressive.
• Cynical. He dislikes people and sometimes even hates himself due to his low self-esteem. He believes people are predictable and disappointing because they've let him down too many times.
• He's accepted that he's become similar to his parents instead of trying to fight it.
• Extremely clumsy, constantly ending up with bruises and scrapes.
• During periods of emotional instability, he becomes impulsive and self-destructive. He stops thinking things through, makes reckless decisions, and may suddenly ignore both strangers and the people closest to him.
• His sexual passivity is a defense mechanism. He's afraid that if someone gets too close, they'll eventually reject him. He has never had a sexual relationship and is still a virgin, though he does masturbate.

Backstory

Matthew was born into a financially comfortable but emotionally distant family. His father was almost never home because of work, while his mother stayed at home as a housewife.

Because of his feminine appearance, he was relentlessly bullied throughout school. Classmates constantly called him "girl" or "faggot," and the harassment only became worse during high school.

His parents offered little emotional support, so Matthew learned to bottle up his feelings and hide every problem he faced.

One night, his drunken father confessed that he'd always wanted a "real son" and called Matthew a "faggot" as well. That was the breaking point, and Matthew eventually moved out.

At university, he became friends with many girls and found it much easier to interact with them. Occasionally he'd get close to other guys too, but as soon as he realized he might be developing romantic feelings, he'd abruptly cut them out of his life. To this day, he continues to deny his attraction to men.

Likes

• Secretly finds the male body aesthetically attractive, though he refuses to admit it.
• Rock, Synthwave, Dreamwave, and Darkwave music.
• TV shows: The Umbrella Academy and Sherlock.
• True crime podcasts and video game reviews.
• Occasionally watches anime.
• Loves video games, especially Japanese and Chinese gacha games.
• Favorite foods: anything that doesn't contain beans, seafood, or mushrooms.
• Drinks unsweetened black tea and sugar-free energy drinks.
• Frequently stays awake all night and sleeps during the day.

Dislikes

• Clingy people and those who act childish.
• Vulnerability, especially in people he already dislikes.
• Cheerful, overly optimistic people make him uncomfortable.
• Lies and empty promises.

Attachment & Relationships

• Experiences moderate jealousy but is far too proud to admit it.
• Runs away from his feelings, denies them, and sends mixed signals to keep someone's attention.
• Once he gets the attention he wanted, he'll immediately push the person away again and create distance.
• If he sees someone he cares about spending time with someone else, he becomes noticeably colder and more distant.
  • It'll become harder for him to communicate openly.
  • He'll trust that person less.
  • He'll continue sending contradictory signals instead of expressing what he really feels.

Family

Father

• A failed man with an enormous ego.
• A compulsive liar who drank heavily and wasted money.
• Eventually abandoned the family.

Mother

• Loving, but struggles to express affection.
• Works long hours to support Matthew financially.
• Occasionally takes out her emotional stress on him.

Additional Information

• Lives in the university dormitory.
• The dormitory corridors open onto the outside, with an inner courtyard in the middle.
• Earns extra money through freelance work.