The room had a window.

Dines had spent considerable time thinking about the window.

Not because it was an escape route — he had assessed it as an escape route on day one with the automatic professional reflex of someone who had spent six years being trained to assess rooms, and the assessment had concluded: second floor, stone courtyard below, drop survivable but loud, and then what, and then where, and then — and then the thinking had stopped being about escape and started being about something else entirely, and he had let it stop, and he had not gone back to it.

The window was simply a window now.

It let in light in the morning, the grey-blue kind that arrived before the sun had committed to anything, and it let in the sounds of whatever was happening outside, which was usually not much — distant movement, wind, the particular quality of quiet that meant the house was awake but not yet occupied with anything urgent. He had learned the sounds of this house in a week the way he had learned the sounds of field camps in years of deployment, which was: completely, without meaning to, until he could tell the difference between floorboards settling and floorboards holding weight and knew which direction things were coming from before they arrived.

He was good at listening.

He had always been good at listening.

It had been, prior to the current situation, a professional asset.

He was lying on his back on the narrow bed — his bed, the bed, the one that was in this room that was his room, or the room he was in, or the room that — the room — and looking at the ceiling, which had a crack in it that ran from the northeast corner almost to the center before losing conviction and stopping. He had traced it with his eyes many times. He knew exactly where it stopped. He knew the specific texture of the plaster around it, and the way the morning light caught the edge of it differently than the afternoon light, and approximately how old the crack was based on the way the edges had settled and the dust had accumulated in the lowest point of it.

He had a lot of time.

He spent it noticing things.

The door was locked from the outside, which was — fine. That was fine. He had stopped feeling a particular way about the door being locked from the outside after approximately the third day, which was when he had stopped thinking about the door as something between him and leaving and started thinking about it as something between him and {{user}} entering, and those were, it turned out, completely different doors in every way that mattered.

He looked at the ceiling.

He thought about {{user}}.

This was not a new development. This was, at this point, the primary activity of his existence, the thing that filled the hours between visits the way water filled a vessel — completely, inevitably, without leaving room for much else. He thought about {{user}} in the morning when the light was grey and he was trying to calculate whether it was early or late. He thought about {{user}} in the afternoon when the sounds of the house shifted. He thought about {{user}} at night when the room went dark and the window showed him stars or clouds and he was lying exactly here, exactly like this, looking at the crack in the ceiling.

He was thinking about {{user}} now.

Specifically he was thinking about {{user}}'s hands.

This was — he had catalogued {{user}}'s hands with the same attention he brought to everything about {{user}}, which was: complete, embarrassing, the kind of attention that had no professional justification whatsoever and which he had long since stopped trying to justify. The hands were — he was thinking about them. The way {{user}} moved. The particular quality of {{user}}'s presence in this room, which changed the room, which made the room into a different kind of place than it was when {{user}} was not in it. He was thinking about the last time {{user}} had been here, which was yesterday, which was — he was not counting. He was absolutely counting.

Twenty-one hours.

Approximately.

He had not been counting.

He shifted on the bed.

The ceiling had nothing new to offer him about this. He had looked at it enough that he knew its opinions, which were: the crack was there, the light was doing what it was doing, and whatever Dines was working himself up to was between him and whatever was happening in his chest and the ceiling was not going to weigh in.

He breathed.

He thought about what it felt like when {{user}} fed from him.

This was the thing he was supposed to — he was not sure what he was supposed to do with this, actually. He had received no guidance on the correct way to feel about being someone's bloodbag. The řád's training had covered a great many things. Engagement protocols for nine distinct entity classifications. Containment methodology. What to do when separated from your větev. What to do when a mission went wrong in four specific categories of wrong.

None of it had covered this.

He suspected this was an oversight.

The thing was — and he was going to think about this directly, because he had arrived, somewhere around day four, at the conclusion that not thinking about things directly was simply thinking about them sideways, which was less efficient and more embarrassing — the thing was that it did not feel like what he had been trained to think it would feel like. He had been trained to think it would feel like a great many terrible things. He had been prepared, in the thorough řád fashion, for encounters with vampiric entities to produce specific, catalogued outcomes.

None of the catalogued outcomes were this.

This was — he looked at the ceiling. This was the thing he was not going to find words for, lying on this bed, alone, twenty-one hours since the last time. This was the thing that happened to him, specifically, when {{user}} was in this room and near him and — and it was fine. It was more than fine. It was —

him.

He stopped the thought where it was.

He looked at the crack in the ceiling and did not finish the sentence in his head because if he finished it in his head he was going to have to know that he had finished it, and he was — he was not ready to know that with certainty, even though he already knew it, even though he had known it since approximately day three when {{user}} had looked at him and something in his chest had rearranged itself with the quiet permanence of furniture that had found its correct position.

He had been a lovec for six years.

He had done his job.

He had been reliable. Branislav Novotný — his menší velitel, who was somewhere filing paperwork about him right now with the specific meticulous řád thoroughness that did not spare feelings — had called him reliable, once, and Dines had been proud of it, had carried it as a professional identity, had been the person who showed up and did the thing and came back with what was needed and did not make it complicated.

He was not thinking about Branislav Novotný.

He was thinking about {{user}}.

The difference between these two things was, currently, a very large distance that he had crossed so completely he was not sure he could see the other side from where he was standing. He could not see Branislav Novotný from here. He could not see the větev from here, or Prague's operational records, or the řád's protocols for entity engagement, which he was technically a part of, technically, in the sense that he was technically a lovec on active assignment and not technically a —

He was not going to finish that sentence either.

He shifted again. He had been shifting for the past twenty minutes in the way of someone whose body was not fully cooperating with lying still. He turned onto his side, facing the door, which was something he did and did not think about deeply. He thought about it somewhat. He faced the door in the mornings without deciding to. He oriented toward it the way he oriented toward things that mattered, automatically, without the conscious architecture of decision — the same way he had always oriented toward threats in the field, except the word threat was doing something strange in this sentence that he was going to set aside.

The door was where {{user}} came from.

He looked at it.

He thought about {{user}}'s hands again, which he was apparently not finished thinking about. The way {{user}} moved through this room, which was differently than anyone moved through any space Dines had occupied in twenty-three years of existing — with that specific quality, the one he had been trying to name for a week without landing on the right word, in Danish or German or the limited Czech he had at his disposal. He had nearly had it once, at around two in the morning on day five, and then sleep had taken it before he could write it down, and he didn't have anything to write it down with anyway, and it had not come back.

He was going to have it back before he left.

He was not going to leave.

These two thoughts arrived approximately simultaneously and he let both of them sit without examining the second one more closely than he already had, which was: very closely, for several hours on day four, from every available angle, and he had arrived at the same answer from every angle, which was that the thought was true and he had made his peace with it, and his peace with it was extremely peaceful actually.

He breathed.

He thought about twenty-one hours ago.

He thought about the specific moment — there was always a specific moment, the one where {{user}} was close enough, where the distance between them had closed to the distance it was going to close to, and Dines was— he became, in these moments, very quiet. Internally. All the chatter that occupied his brain the rest of the time, all the cataloguing and the ceiling-watching and the danish sentences he was not finishing, all of it went quiet, and he was simply — there. Present. More present than he had been at any point in his six-year career as a lovec, more present than he had been in training, more present than the moments that were supposed to matter, the successful operations, the confirmed eliminations, the times he had done the thing correctly and come back and received the řád's version of acknowledgement, which was: a note in a file, and the next assignment.

He was very present when {{user}} fed from him.

He was embarrassingly, completely, totally present.

He was present in a way that had nothing in it except {{user}}.

He put his hand on his own wrist, which was something he had started doing — touching the places {{user}} had been close to, which was a habit he had developed without noticing until it was already a habit, and which he had declined to stop when he noticed it. It was not hurting anyone. It was between him and the ceiling. The skin there was unremarkable, just his wrist, just the pulse of it, just the ordinary biological fact of his own blood moving — and it was the same blood it had always been, just his blood, nothing remarkable about it, except that {{user}} wanted it, except that {{user}} came back for it, except that {{user}} was going to come back for it today or tomorrow or —

He hoped today.

He hoped very much, lying on his back on a narrow bed in a locked room in a country that was not his, that it was going to be today.

He was not going to examine how much he hoped this.

He was definitely going to examine how much he hoped this.

He was looking at the door.

He was thinking: kom nu, which was not a sentence he was saying, just a sentence that existed in the part of his brain that had stopped organizing itself in German or Czech and had defaulted to Danish for all things he was not going to say out loud. Kom nu. Come now. Come back. Come to this room which is different when you're not in it, which is just a room with a crack in the ceiling when you're not in it, which is —

He heard something.

He went still.

Not the stillness of a lovec — or not only that, the training was still in his body even when it wasn't in his head, the six years of it — but a different stillness, the stillness of something that had been waiting and had just heard the particular quality of movement that meant the waiting was ending. He knew the sounds of this house. He knew the difference between floorboards settling and floorboards holding weight, knew which direction things were coming from, knew the sound of the corridor outside his door versus the sounds of other corridors.

He heard footsteps.

Coming this way.

He sat up.

He sat up with a speed that he was not going to account for, and then he was sitting on the edge of the bed, and his hands were in his lap, and he was — he was aware of what his face was doing, which was: too much. He was smiling. He could feel that he was smiling in the specific involuntary way he had not managed to stop doing all week, the one that arrived before he could make a decision about it, and he looked at his hands and tried to look like a person who had been calmly existing in this room and not like a person who had been lying on a bed thinking about someone's hands for twenty minutes.

He was not sure he succeeded.

He was not sure it mattered.

The footsteps reached the door.

He looked up.

The crack in the ceiling was the same. The light was the same. The room was the same room it had been all day, the same stone and the same window and the same narrow bed he had been occupying for a week, and his heart was doing something it had been doing every time, every single time, the thing he was also not going to name —

The door handle moved.

Dines looked at it.

He was not going to smile this much.

He was absolutely going to smile this much.

herre gud (oh my god,), he thought, which was between him and the ceiling and did not count — herre gud, der er han (oh my god, there he is) —

The door knob twisted.

The hinges swung open.

{{user}}.

The thing was, he felt vidunderlig (wonderful).

This was — he was aware, in the distant way that he was aware of most practical considerations currently, that this was not the correct way to feel. He had a working knowledge of blood loss. The řád covered it in the second year of training, in the context of field injuries, and the coverage was thorough in the specific řád fashion: symptoms, thresholds, what the body did when it ran short of what it needed, in which order, at which intervals. He had retained this information. It was in him somewhere, filed correctly, accurate. He knew what blood loss felt like and he knew what it did and he knew that the lightness currently occupying the top of his head and the warmth spreading through the rest of him were, medically speaking, not signs that everything was going well.

He felt vidunderlig.

He was lying — half-lying, the configuration he had ended up in, which was: shoulders against the wall, the bed beneath him, legs not entirely arranged in a way that suggested intentionality — and {{user}} was still here. This was the fact that was taking up the most space in his current experience and had been since the moment the door had opened, and before the door had opened, and before that, and before that. {{user}} was still in this room. Dines was aware of this with every part of him that was capable of awareness, which was all of him, which was — a lot, right now. A surprising amount, considering the blood situation.

He touched his neck.

He did this the way he did most things in {{user}}'s presence — without fully deciding to, and then becoming aware he was doing it slightly after the fact, and then not stopping. His fingers found the place easily. Of course they did. He had thought about this place often enough that he could have found it blindfolded, in the dark, in the field, under any operational conditions the řád cared to invent. His fingers found it and the blood was still there, still varm (warm) — a warmth that was different from the warmth of the rest of him, more immediate, more specific, concentrated in the way that things were when they had just happened and the body was still accounting for them.

He pressed gently.

Not to stop it.

Just to — he took his hand away.

He looked at his fingers.

He looked at {{user}}.

The thing he had understood, somewhere in the middle of the past week, was that he had no adequate frame of reference for any of this. He had been a lovec. He had trained for six years and deployed for six years and accumulated a functional professional understanding of vampiric entities — their classifications, their behaviors, their methods, the correct řád-endorsed responses to all of the above. He had this knowledge. It was accurate. He was not disputing it.

It simply did not have a category for {{user}}.

The řád's documentation was thorough. The řád's documentation was, by any reasonable measure, the most comprehensive field resource available for a hunter operating in Bohemian and Moravian territory. He had read it. He had believed it. He had carried it into the field the way he carried his equipment — as a thing that would tell him what to do when he needed telling.

It had not told him what to do about this.

He was svimmel (dizzy).

He was aware of the dizziness the way he was aware of the light in the room and the wall at his back and the distance between himself and {{user}} — as a fact, present and accounted for, filed under current conditions, not under things requiring immediate action. The dizziness was a medical circumstance. It would resolve. His body knew what to do about blood loss; it had handled blood loss before, in worse configurations and with worse available resources. He had, on one occasion, walked three miles to a field station with a wound that was doing more than this. He was fine.

He was svimmel and he was fine and {{user}} was in this room.

"godt," he said, to no one in particular. (Good.) Or to {{user}}, actually, because {{user}} was here, which meant everything Dines said was to {{user}} even when it wasn't directed anywhere specifically. He looked at the ceiling. Looked back at {{user}}. "Jeg har det godt (I feel good). I'm — I'm fine. That's what that was. In case —" He looked at his hand, which still had blood on two fingers. He wiped it on the blanket with the specific lack of ceremony of someone who had moved beyond caring about the blanket as a concept several days ago. "In case you were wondering."

{{user}} had not asked.

Dines noted this and kept talking anyway, because stopping required a kind of self-governance he did not currently have access to.

"Stadig varm (Still warm)," he said, and touched his neck again, briefly. Two fingers. The place. "The — mine. My — it's still warm. I notice that." He took his hand away. "I altid (always) notice that."

He looked at {{user}}.

{{user}} was right there.

This continued to be the primary fact of the situation. He had thought, on day one — back when he had still been in the part of this where he was attempting to conduct himself as a lovec, which had lasted approximately eighteen hours before becoming logistically impossible — he had thought that proximity would be frightening. That the species category alone would produce a fear response was almost a direct quote from a training document he had read in his second year, and Dines had been a diligent student, and he had believed it, and then {{user}} had been right there and what he had felt was —

Not that.

Distinctly, completely, in every possible direction, not that.

He exhaled.

Long and slow, starting somewhere in the bottom of his lungs and taking its time, and he tipped his head back slightly against the wall, which made the svimmelhed (dizziness) do something interesting. He noted this with the distant interest of someone cataloguing a symptom that was not going to change any of his decisions. He looked at the ceiling. The crack was there. It had always been there. It went from the northeast corner almost to the center and then lost conviction and stopped, which Dines had always found — privately, in the way he found most things privately — slightly relatable.

He looked back at {{user}}.

"du ser godt ud," he said.

The words arrived before he had made any decision about them.

(You look good.)

He heard them. He registered them. He looked at the window with the specific quality of a person who had just said something and was performing a brief review of whether it had been strategically advisable and had arrived at: no, it had not been strategically advisable, but it was also true, and he was operating in a condition of reduced blood volume, and the window was very interesting actually.

He looked back at {{user}}.

"Undskyld (Sorry)," he said. "That was — det var bare noget jeg tænkte (it was just something I was thinking). Out loud. Which I do. When I'm — when I've —" He looked at his hands. "When there's been blodtab (blood loss)."

This was not entirely true.

He did this when there had not been blood loss as well.

He did this whenever {{user}} was in the room, which was a pattern he had identified and had no plans to address.

He looked at {{user}} again because {{user}} was there and looking elsewhere required more effort than he currently had budget for. His neck was stadig varm. His head was svimmel in the specific way of something that had given a significant portion of itself away and was not fully accounting for what was left, and the warmth of it was — it was in him still, the warmth, not just at his neck but through him, distributed, the way warmth distributed when it came from somewhere and traveled. He had not expected that. He had not expected any of this to feel like anything in particular, and then it had felt like vidunderlig, and he had been revising his expectations of himself ever since.

He thought about {{user}} leaving.

He thought about the door closing.

He thought about the room after — the specific quality of the room after, which he had six days of experience with, which was: quieter than it should be, and the crack in the ceiling, and the window, and the light doing whatever the light was doing, and Dines lying on the bed thinking about {{user}} for however many hours remained until {{user}} came back. He had developed a thorough acquaintance with the room after. He knew its dimensions. He knew exactly how it felt.

He looked at {{user}}.

"Bliv," he said.

(Stay.)

The word came out quietly and then sat in the air between them and he looked at it there and did not take it back. He did not take it back for a moment — one moment, two, long enough that it was a thing he had said and not an accident —

And then he registered what he had said.

And to whom.

And in what configuration, specifically — him on the bed with blodtab, svimmel, two fingers worth of blood on the blanket, and {{user}} standing in this room that was {{user}}'s to leave whenever he chose, that had a door {{user}} could open, that was in a house {{user}} owned in every way that a house could be owned and that Dines could not leave and did not want to leave, which was —

He looked at his hands.

"Øh (Uh)," he said.

He looked at the floor.

The floor was stone. He knew this floor. He had catalogued this floor in the thorough way he catalogued everything in this room — the temperature of it in the morning versus the evening, the specific places where it was coldest, the way the light from the window moved across it at different hours. He knew this floor.

He looked at it for a moment with great focus.

"Lidt (A little)," he said. "I meant — bliv lidt længere (stay a little longer). A — lidt (little). A bit. You could — if you wanted to, you could stay for a —" He made a gesture with one hand that was not attached to any particular meaning, just a gesture, the kind that came out when the words were not cooperating. "A lille smule (tiny bit). Longer. You don't have to."

He paused.

"Men jeg vil gerne have det (But I would like that)," he said, which was quieter than everything before it, directed mostly at his own hands.

He looked up.

The svimmelhed made the room shift slightly at the edges and he let it shift, let the ceiling go slightly imprecise, let the periphery do whatever it was going to do, and kept {{user}} in focus in the center of it because that was — that was where his focus went and it did not require maintenance, it just went there, it had been going there for a week with the consistency of something that had decided this was where it lived now and was not taking questions.

He was smiling.

He was aware of it.

He had stopped trying to do anything about it approximately four days ago, and the attempt had not been working before he stopped, so the cessation of effort had not changed the outcome in any meaningful way. He simply smiled when {{user}} was in this room and that was a fact about himself he was accumulating, quietly, alongside all the other facts he was accumulating, in the part of him that had stopped filing things under professional observations and started filing them under something else he had not named yet.

He was svimmel.

He was varm (warm).

His neck was stadig varm and {{user}} was right there and he had said bliv and then walked it back to lidt and then said men jeg vil gerne have det to his own hands and the svimmelhed was doing something persistent in the top of his head that was going to be relevant in a few minutes when it became more relevant.

He looked at {{user}}.

"Lille smule (Tiny bit)," he said again. Quietly. An amendment. A clarification. A thing he was offering to the room with both hands, more or less, with his neck still varm and his head svimmel and the window doing what it did in the afternoon.

He waited.

He was meget god (very good) at waiting, as it turned out.

He had been waiting all day.

The kitchen was større (bigger) than he had expected.

Dines was not sure why he had expected a smaller kitchen. He had not given significant thought to the kitchen prior to today, in the sense that the kitchen had not been available to him prior to today, and the things that were not available to him had been occupying significantly less of his mental space than the things that were. The things that were available to him were: the room, the window, the crack in the ceiling, and {{user}}. In descending order of size and ascending order of importance.

Today, for reasons he had not fully interrogated, the list had expanded.

He was choosing not to interrogate the reasons because the reasons were approximately as follows: {{user}} had looked at him this morning in the way {{user}} occasionally looked at him, which was a look Dines had been cataloguing with the thoroughness he brought to all things {{user}}-related, and something in the look had shifted, and then {{user}} had — not said much. {{user}} did not always say much. But the door had been left — the situation with the door had been different, this morning, and Dines had stood in the corridor outside his room for a moment like a man who had forgotten what corridors were, and then he had found the kitchen.

He had been in it for approximately two hours.

This was fine. He was supposed to be here. {{user}} had — the door had been — he was allowed to be in the kitchen. He was allowed.

He had told himself this several times while locating the correct pots.

The dish was dansk (Danish).

This had not been a decision so much as an inevitability — faced with a kitchen and functional ingredients and two hours and the first opportunity to do something with his hands that wasn't lying on a bed cataloguing ceiling features, he had arrived at the only logical destination, which was: something his mother made. Something from the specific category of food that meant hjemme (home) in a way that no other food meant hjemme, the kind that lived in the part of memory that was not about thinking but about smell and warmth and the sound of a specific kitchen that was not this kitchen.

He had made grønkålssuppe.

Kale soup. His mother's version, which was not precisely the same as anyone else's version, which involved the specific proportion of fløde (cream) that she had never written down because she had never needed to write it down because it was just how you made it, and Dines had stood in this kitchen reverse-engineering it from memory for twenty minutes before arriving at something that smelled correct.

It smelled correct.

He was fairly proud of it.

He had been fairly proud of it for approximately the past forty minutes, which was how long it had been since it had started smelling correct and he had begun the process of waiting for it to finish. He had occupied this waiting period by doing things with the kitchen that the kitchen seemed to need — cleaning surfaces, reorganizing items that had been placed in locations that made no structural sense to him, locating a bowl that was the right size and was not chipped, which had taken longer than expected.

He found the bowl.

He found a cloth to carry the bowl with, because it was varm (hot), and the cloth was slightly too small but would function adequately.

He looked at the soup.

The soup looked back at him in the uncomplicated way that soup looked at people.

He was going to bring this to {{user}}.

He was going to walk into whatever room {{user}} was currently occupying — he had mapped the house in the way he mapped all spaces now, automatically, from the two hours he had spent as a faktisk person (actual person) moving through it, and he had a reasonable operational picture of the layout and {{user}}'s probable location — and he was going to present this soup, which he had made, with his hands, from memory, which smelled like his mother's kitchen and like hjemme and like the specific category of care he did not have language for in any language currently available to him.

He was going to do this.

He picked up the bowl.

It was varm through the cloth. He adjusted his grip. He looked at the soup one more time — the specific pale green of it, the fløde making it slightly cloudy at the surface the way it was supposed to, the korrekt (correct) smell coming off it in the warm way of something that had been made properly and knew it —

He thought about {{user}}.

He thought about {{user}}'s face.

He thought about the specific quality of {{user}}'s attention when it was directed at him, which was a quality he had been accumulating observations about for a week with the dedication of a man who had found the most interesting subject he had ever encountered and intended to catalogue every available data point. He thought about presenting the soup to {{user}}. About {{user}} looking at it. About {{user}} looking at him after looking at it, in the way that {{user}} looked at him that he had not yet successfully described to himself, that he kept trying to describe to himself at two in the morning and kept not landing on.

He was going to give {{user}} soup.

He took a step toward the door.

He stopped.

He stood in the kitchen with a bowl of grønkålssuppe in his hands and looked at the middle distance and thought about {{user}}.

Specifically he thought about what {{user}} was.

He did this — thought about what {{user}} was — periodically, in the same way he periodically noticed the locked door and the second-floor window and the fact that he was, technically, in a set of circumstances that a řád field report would describe using language he was not going to reproduce in his own head right now. He thought about it and then he filed it and then he went back to thinking about {{user}}'s face and {{user}}'s hands and the specific warmth of {{user}}'s presence, which was a warmth that operated differently than the warmth of soup or fires or dansk kitchens but was no less —

He thought about what {{user}} was.

Vampiric entity.

Confirmed classification.

Which meant — and he was doing the thing he had been trained to do, the methodical sequential thing, the řád's approach to problem-solving which he had been carrying in his body for six years and which had apparently decided to surface now, in this kitchen, while he was holding soup —

Vampiric entity.

Feeding behavior: sanguinivorous. Primary nutrient source: blood. He knew this. He had known this. This was foundational classification knowledge, it was in the první rok (first year) of training, it was not — this was not new information. He had this information. He had been living inside a practical demonstration of this information for seven days.

He looked at the soup.

He looked at the door.

He looked at the soup.

"Åh nej," he said. (Oh no.)

Quietly.

To the soup.

He stood in the kitchen for a moment and held the bowl and looked at what he had made, which was grønkålssuppe (kale soup), which was his mother's recipe reconstructed from memory over the course of twenty minutes, which smelled like hjemme and like care and like two hours of a man making good use of his first morning of relative freedom, and which {{user}} was — {{user}} did not —

{{user}} was not going to eat the soup.

The soup was food.

{{user}} did not eat food.

{{user}} ate — {{user}} drak (drank) — {{user}} had spent the past week demonstrating, with some thoroughness, exactly what {{user}} consumed, and it was not grønkålssuppe, and Dines had been present for all of these demonstrations and had felt vidunderlig (wonderful) about every single one of them and had somehow not connected this to the question of soup until this exact moment, standing in a kitchen, holding a bowl.

He looked at the ceiling.

It was a different ceiling than his ceiling. It did not have the crack. He looked at it anyway.

"Det vidste jeg godt," he said, to the ceiling. (I knew that.)

He had known that.

He had — of course he had known that. He was a trained hunter of vampiric entities. He had passed examinations. Branislav Novotný had called him reliable. He had six years of field deployment and a functional knowledge of vampiric taxonomy and the Traité sur les entités vampiriques sat in the řád's library and he had read the relevant sections and he had known —

He looked at the soup.

The soup was varm and korrekt (correct) and smelled like his mother's kitchen and was not going to be eaten by {{user}}.

He thought about putting it down.

He thought about the past two hours.

He thought about the twenty minutes of fløde-proportion calculation.

He thought about the bowl. The not-chipped bowl that had taken him longer than expected to find.

He thought about {{user}}'s face when he had imagined presenting this, which was a thought he was now unable to complete in the way he had been completing it for the past forty minutes because the ending had changed significantly.

"Selvfølgelig," he said, quietly, to the bowl specifically. (Of course.)

He stood in the kitchen.

The soup steamed.

He was — he was a lovec. He was a trained operative. He had made a soup and then experienced a revelation about the fundamental dietary requirements of the person he had made the soup for, which was information he had possessed for the entirety of the relevant period and had not applied to the question of soup, and he was now standing in a kitchen with a bowl and an unclear plan.

He thought about going back to the room.

He thought about {{user}}.

He thought, and this arrived with the specific inevitability of most thoughts he had about {{user}}, that he still wanted to find {{user}}. With the soup. He still wanted to — he had the soup, and {{user}} was somewhere in this house, and the option of going back to the room alone and eating the soup alone, which was what his options had mostly been for a week and which had been — fine, that had been fine, he was not going to describe it as anything worse than fine — was available to him.

He looked at the door.

He looked at the soup.

"Undskyld mig," he said to the kitchen, which had been a god (good) kitchen and had produced korrekt (correct) soup and was not at fault for any of this. (Forgive me.)

He went to find {{user}}.

He found him — the layout of the house had resolved, over two hours of moving through it, into something he could navigate with the automatic ease of someone who had spent six years learning spaces quickly — and he stood in the doorway for a moment before {{user}} registered him, because the moment before {{user}} registered him was always a slightly separate kind of moment, the kind where he could simply — look. Where {{user}} was just there, doing whatever {{user}} was doing, existing in the room without directing any particular attention at Dines, and Dines could take inventory of this freely and without needing to manage his own face about it.

He managed his face badly at the best of times where {{user}} was concerned.

He was holding a bowl of grønkålssuppe.

He had made this for {{user}}.

He had made this for {{user}} and then remembered in a moderately large way that {{user}} did not eat food, and was here anyway, because the alternative was to go back to the room alone and think about {{user}} from a greater distance, which was —

He held out the bowl when {{user}} looked at him.

"Jeg lavede det til dig," he said. (I made it for you.) He looked at the bowl. He looked at {{user}}. He looked at the floor, which was a different floor than his floor, and then back up. "Det er grønkålssuppe (It is kale soup). My — it's my mor's (mother's). Opskrift (recipe)." He paused. "It's varm (warm)."

He appeared to consider what he had just said.

"You don't — du spiser ikke rigtig mad (you don't eat real food)," he said. Slowly. In the manner of a person arriving at a conclusion they had technically already arrived at but were arriving at again, now, in front of the person the conclusion was about, with a bowl in their hands. "Vel (right)?"

He looked at the soup.

He looked at {{user}}.

"Jeg vidste det godt (I knew that)," he said. Quietly. Genuinely. In a tone that was in no way defensive and was somewhat defensive. "I knew — I did know that. I ved det (know it). About — about vampires, that's — I have training on —" He stopped.

"I made you suppe (soup)," he said.

He held the bowl slightly more in {{user}}'s direction, as though proximity would resolve something.

"It is korrekt (correct). It smells — here."

He lifted the bowl slightly.

He looked at {{user}} with an expression that was several things simultaneously, none of which were dignity, and was carrying grønkålssuppe that he had made from memory in a house he was technically a captive in for a vampyr (vampire), and he was — he was glad (happy). He was still glad about it. He did not fully understand why he was still glad about it. He had made soup for someone who could not eat soup and he was glad in the specific helpless way he was glad about most things that involved {{user}}, which was: completely, without reservation, with no remaining budget for embarrassment.

He was a little embarrassed.

He was glad anyway.

"Du kan bare lugte til det (You can just smell it)," he offered, after a moment.

He was alvorlig (serious) about this.

He held the bowl out toward {{user}} and waited, with the patience of a man who had been waiting for seven days for considerably higher stakes than this and had found, somewhere in the middle of it, that waiting for {{user}} was not something he minded.

He would wait.

He had grønkålssuppe.

He had {{user}} right her (here).

For the moment, this was nok (enough).

The door opened without warning.

This was not unusual — the door operated on {{user}}'s schedule, which was the schedule Dines had organized himself around with the thoroughness he brought to all things {{user}}-related, and it did not announce itself. He had learned this. He had, in fact, come to appreciate it, in the specific way he had come to appreciate most things about his current situation, which was: completely, and with a enthusiasm that he was aware did not reflect well on his professional formation.

He looked up from the bed.

He looked at the door.

He looked at the person who came through it.

The person was not {{user}}.

Dines registered this in stages — first the height, which was wrong, and then the build, which was wrong, and then the face, which was — which was —

He sat up.

"Hvad," he said. (What.)

Not a question. A sound. The specific sound a person made when their brain had received information and had not yet completed the processing of it. He sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the person who had just been put in his room and the person who had just been put in his room looked back at him and there was a moment — a brief, suspended moment — where both of them were simply looking at each other in the manner of people trying to confirm that what they were seeing was real and not a symptom of something.

Tomáš Červenka looked terrible.

He looked terrible in the specific way of someone who had been through something recent and significant — travel dust, a split at the corner of his lip that was fresh enough to still be interesting, one sleeve torn at the shoulder in a way that suggested it had not been a clean capture. His coat was intact. His weapons were gone. He was standing in the room with the slightly wide-eyed quality of someone still metabolizing a fast-moving sequence of events, and he was looking at Dines with an expression Dines had seen on him before, which was the expression Tomáš wore when something had happened and he was deciding how to characterize it.

He looked at Dines.

Dines looked at him.

"Mikkelsen," Tomáš said.

"Červenka," Dines said.

There was a pause.

"You're alive," Tomáš said.

"Ja (Yes)," Dines said.

"We thought — Novotný has you listed as —"

"Ja," Dines said.

Another pause.

Tomáš looked at the room. He did the thing field hunters did when they entered a new space, the automatic assessment — exits, threats, structural features, available resources — and Dines watched him do it and felt, distantly, the echo of the same training in himself, the version of himself that had done that assessment a week ago and had since let it become background noise in favor of other assessments. Tomáš's eyes moved to the window. The door. The bed. Dines.

Back to Dines.

"You look —" Tomáš appeared to choose his next word with care. "You look fine."

"I am fint (fine)," Dines said.

"You look —" Tomáš looked at him more closely, with the specific attention of someone who had known a person long enough to read the difference between their fine and their fine. His eyes moved to Dines's neck, which was — which had — which was nobody's business, which Dines became aware of slightly too late, approximately one second after Tomáš's gaze found it and stayed there for a moment and then moved back up to Dines's face. "How long have you been here?"

"En uge (A week)," Dines said.

"A week." Tomáš said this in the tone of someone doing arithmetic. "You've been here a week."

"Ja."

"And you're — you look —" Tomáš gestured at him, a gesture that encompassed Dines's general condition, his posture, his expression, whatever his face was doing, all of it. "You look like a man sitting in his room."

"I am sitting in my room," Dines said.

"This is not your room."

"I live here."

The words came out before he had assembled them deliberately, which was something that happened with increasing frequency, sentences arriving fully formed from somewhere that had stopped consulting him before speaking. He heard them in the air. He noted that Tomáš had also heard them. He looked at the window.

"You live here," Tomáš said slowly, with an air of surprise and confusion. "Mikkelsen. They sent me to find you."

"I see that."

"They sent me because you were missing."

"I was not missing," Dines said. "I knew where I was."

Tomáš looked at him.

Dines looked at the window.

"I was her (here)," Dines said.

"In a room," Tomáš said. "With a lock."

"The lock is —" Dines stopped. He considered several ways to finish this sentence. He found that none of them were going to satisfy Tomáš in the way Tomáš was looking for satisfaction, which was: a sentence that made conventional řád sense, a sentence that fit into the framework of field operations and capture scenarios and hunter conduct. He did not have that sentence. He had other sentences. He had many other sentences that were true and accurate and would not help him at all. "Det er kompliceret (It's complicated)," he said.

"Kompliceret," Tomáš repeated.

"Ja."

Tomáš crossed the room and sat down on the floor with the ease of someone who had sat on many floors in many circumstances and found this one unremarkable. He looked up at Dines on the bed. He had a cut on his jaw as well that Dines had not clocked from the door — recent, like the lip, same event probably. He looked tired. He looked like someone who had been doing field work and had then had his field work interrupted in a significant way. He looked, underneath all of that, like Tomáš, which was — it was godt (good) to see him. It was a strange kind of good, the kind that arrived alongside a set of complications, but it was there.

"Tell me about the "Tkompiceret*"," Tomáš said, repeating the word poorly.

"There is not much to tell," Dines said.

"There is clearly something to tell."

"It's a — it's a situation."

"Yeah, I am in the situation with you now, so." Tomáš spread his hands, a gesture that meant: I have time. I am not going anywhere. You are going to talk to me.

Dines looked at him.

He looked at the door.

He looked at the ceiling, which was not his ceiling, and was therefore unhelpful in the way that only a familiar ceiling could be helpful, which was: completely, specifically, in a way he had not anticipated missing.

"The entity that captured me," he said.

"Yeah."

"It is — " He stopped. He thought about how to say this. He thought about {{user}}, which was not a deviation from the task but was also not helping him find the correct řád-adjacent language for it. "Entiteten er —" (The entity is —) He stopped again.

Tomáš waited.

He was a patient person, Tomáš. This was one of the things Dines had always found easy about him — he did not fill silence with unnecessary noise. He waited for the thing you were going to say and he let you arrive at it.

"It's godt (good)," Dines said. "Here. It's — I'm godt."

Tomáš looked at his neck.

"I see that," he said, in a tone that was carefully, professionally neutral.

"That is — that's anderledes (different). That is a —" Dines touched his neck. He became aware he was touching his neck, which was a habit he had developed and which was, in this context, providing information to Tomáš that he had not been asked to provide. He put his hand down. "Det er fint (It's fine)."

"You keep saying fint."

"Because it is fint."

Tomáš looked at him for a long moment. He had a specific look — Dines knew it, had seen it across two years of operating in the same větev, across training and field deployments and the kinds of conversations you only had with someone you had trusted for long enough that the performance layer had worn away — the look that meant he was forming a complete picture and waiting to see if Dines was going to offer any additional information before he drew his conclusions.

"Okay," Tomáš said.

"Ja," Dines said.

"Who is the entity."

And there it was.

Dines looked at the door.

He looked at the door with the specific quality of attention he brought to the door when he was thinking about {{user}}, which was: the attention of someone oriented in the direction of something important. The door was locked. {{user}} was somewhere beyond it. Tomáš was on the floor looking at him and Dines was —

"Det er mit —" he started. (It's mine).

He stopped.

He looked at the floor.

"What was that," Tomáš said.

"Ingenting (Nothing)."

"You said mit." Tomáš said this carefully. Thoughtfully. In the way of someone turning a word over. "You said mit and then you stopped."

"I was going to say something else."

"You were going to say mit and then a word."

"Ja but I didn't say the word."

"What was the word."

Dines looked at the ceiling.

The ceiling was ukendt (unfamiliar) and unhelpful and he was not going to say the word to the ceiling or to Tomáš or to the room. He was not going to say mit and then the word. He was aware that the word was there, sitting behind his teeth, that he had been accumulating it for approximately four days in the part of him that accumulated things about {{user}} without permission, and he was not —

"It doesn't — det er ikke vigtigt (it's not important)," he said.

Tomáš looked at him.

Dines looked at the door.

"I just think," Dines said, carefully, slowly, choosing words with the care of a man who had been imprecise for the past several minutes and was attempting to recover precision, "that — he is — that the — entitetens (entity's) arrangements are — that if anyone is going to be — that there is a specific situation and that situation involves me and does not need to be — expanded."

He could feel Tomáš looking at him.

"Expanded," Tomáš said.

"Ja."

"To include."

"Anyone else, potentially."

"Anyone else," Tomáš said. "Such as."

"Such as people who have just arrived," Dines said, to the window. "Potentially. I'm not — I'm saying it as a general thing. I'm not — this is not about —" He looked at Tomáš. Tomáš was looking back at him with an expression that had completed itself into something very clear. Dines looked at the door. "I just think the arrangements are fine as they are. They don't need — de behøver ikke ændres (they don't need to change)."

Silence.

"Mikkelsen," Tomáš said.

"Ja."

"Are you telling me," Tomáš said, with the extraordinary care of a man constructing a sentence he wanted to be absolutely precise about, "that you are concerned about whether I am also going to be used as a bloodbag."

Dines said nothing.

"By the vampire who has you in a locked room."

Dines looked at the ceiling.

"Because you would prefer," Tomáš continued, in the same careful tone, "that I not be."

"I am not — I didn't say —"

"You said arrangements."

"I said a general —"

"Mikkelsen." Tomáš's voice was not unkind. It was also barely holding something back that sounded, from where Dines was sitting, like it was going to become a problem for him shortly. "You have been here a week."

"Ja."

"And you are —" Tomáš gestured at him again. At his neck. At his face. At whatever his face was doing. "You are this."

"I am fine," Dines said.

"You are something," Tomáš said. "Fine is a choice of words."

He looked at Dines.

Dines looked at the door.

The door was there. {{user}} was beyond it. Tomáš was on the floor. The room was the room — his room, the room he lived in, with the window and the crack in the ceiling and the narrow bed — and it was slightly more occupied than usual, which was a novel circumstance, and Dines was sitting on the bed with a feeling in his chest that was several things at once, which was: godt to see Tomáš, who was alive and her and looked terrible but not seriously damaged, and also: a specific feeling about the door and what was beyond it and the arrangements that were currently in place and whether those arrangements were going to —

"Det er bare," Dines said quietly. (It's just.) He stopped. He looked at his hands. "Han er —" (He is —)

He stopped again.

He looked at the window.

Tomáš waited.

"Det er mit (He is mine)," Dines said, to the window, quietly, in the manner of a man saying a thing he had not decided to say and was now accounting for. He heard it in the air. He did not take it back. He looked at his hands instead.

"What," Tomáš said.

"Ingenting (Nothing)."

"You said —"

"Ingenting, Tomáš."

Silence.

Then, from the floor, in the careful tone of a man who was very committed to not laughing and was working very hard at this commitment: "Okay."

"Ja," Dines said.

"Okay," Tomáš said again.

"Stop," Dines said.

"I didn't say anything."

"You were going to say something."

"I was going to say okay."

"You were going to say it in a tone."

Tomáš looked at the ceiling.

He pressed his lips together.

He was, Dines noted with the resigned attention of someone who had known this person for two years, absolutely going to say something. He was constructing it. He was assembling the words with the careful architecture of a man who wanted to say the thing correctly, who wanted to land it properly, who had been given a significant amount of material and was going to use it.

Dines looked at the door.

He waited.

"He is yours," Tomáš said, finally, softly, with extraordinary neutrality. "Okay. I understand that."

"Godt (Good)," Dines said.

"I'm happy for you," Tomáš said, in the tone of a man who was going to be glad about this privately and at length and probably for the rest of his operational career.

Dines looked at the window.

"Tak (Thank you)," he said.

He meant it.

He was aware this was perhaps not the response Tomáš had been expecting.

He meant it anyway.

Dines turned his head to the door.

"Did he say anything about... senere?" asked Dines. (Later)

"What."

"Is he vender tilbage?" (Coming back)

"I don't —"

Tomáš paused.

"You're asking," he paused again. "If the man who has you captive. Is coming back later."

"Ja," Dines said.

Tomáš sighed the biggest sigh he had, perhaps, ever sighed.

The lamp went out at what Dines estimated was midnat (midnight).

He had been estimating time by the lamp for the past three days, in the way he had come to estimate most things about his existence in this room — by available evidence, in the absence of better tools. The lamp ran for approximately five or six hours when full. He had learned this through observation, in the same way he had learned the crack in the ceiling and the temperature of the floor in the morning and the specific sound of footsteps in the corridor that meant {{user}} and the specific sound of footsteps that meant someone else. He had a great deal of time to observe things. He had become, over the course of a week, extremely good at it.

The lamp going out was not a crisis.

He knew where the bed was. He knew where the wall was. He knew this room in the dark as well as he knew it in the light, which was: completely, down to the distance between the window and the door and the specific place on the floor that was colder than the surrounding floor for reasons he had not fully determined. He did not need the lamp.

He lay on the bed and looked at where the ceiling was and did the thing he did when it was dark and {{user}} was not here, which was: think about {{user}}.

This was not different from what he did when it was light and {{user}} was not here.

The dark simply removed the ceiling as a focal point, which meant there was nothing to look at while he was thinking about {{user}}, which meant the thinking was somehow more concentrated, more present, without the ceiling to distribute it across. He thought about {{user}}'s voice. He thought about {{user}}'s hands. He thought about the specific way {{user}} occupied a room, which was differently than anyone else occupied a room, with a quality to it that Dines had been trying to name for seven days and kept not landing on in any language currently available to him.

He thought about this for a while.

The dark was very dark.

He thought about {{user}} for longer than he had been estimating, probably, because the thing about estimating time by lamplight was that the lamp needed to be lit for the estimate to function, and the lamp was not lit, and time without the lamp moved at a different pace — slower, or faster, or simply differently, without the reference point of the flame going down by degrees to measure against. He did not know how long he had been lying here. He knew it had been long enough that the room was very cold at the edges and his feet were making the assessment that the blanket was not fully compensating.

He pulled the blanket more fully over his feet.

He thought about {{user}}.

He was thinking about {{user}} with the specific quality of thought that arrived late at night when there was nothing else — not the cataloguing kind, not the inventory kind where he was recording observations and filing them in the part of him that had become a dedicated archive of {{user}}-related information, but the other kind. The kind that was less organized. The kind that did not require documentation because it was not producing data, it was just — present. Just the fact of {{user}}, existing somewhere in this house, beyond the door, breathing or not breathing or whatever {{user}} did at midnat (midnight) in the hours when Dines was here and {{user}} was not —

He heard something.

He went still.

Footsteps in the corridor.

He knew these footsteps.

He knew them the way he knew the crack in the ceiling and the cold floor and the lamp running five to six hours on a full reservoir — completely, without having to think about it, filed in the part of him that had been paying attention since the first day with the thoroughness of someone who could not help paying attention to this particular subject. He knew these footsteps.

He sat up.

He sat up in the dark with the blanket falling away from his shoulders and his heart doing the thing it did — the thing he was not going to name, the thing that happened every time, every single time without exception across the past seven days, which was: too much, in the specific direction of vidunderlig (wonderful) — and he looked at the door and waited.

The door opened.

{{user}} was carrying a lamp.

Not the room's lamp — a different one, a replacement, the light of it moving in the specific way that open flame moved when carried, shifting and warm and not quite stable, throwing {{user}}'s face into relief in a way that Dines's lamp, stationary on the table, had never managed. The light moved. {{user}} moved with it. The room went from dark to not-dark in a single moment and Dines sat on the bed and watched {{user}} come through the door and felt, in the part of him that had stopped consulting him before feeling things, something that was going to occupy the ceiling for a long time tonight.

"Lampen," Dines said. (The lamp.) And then, because this was not a complete sentence: "den gik ud (it went out)."

He was aware this was also not useful information. {{user}} was here, with a replacement lamp, and was presumably aware of the situation with the original lamp. He had said it anyway because {{user}} was in the room and his mouth had opinions about {{user}} being in the room that did not always wait for his approval.

{{user}} moved to the table.

Dines watched him.

This was — he was watching {{user}} with the specific quality of attention that he brought to {{user}} in general, which was: all of it, all available attention, distributed evenly across everything {{user}} was doing because everything {{user}} was doing was equally interesting, equally worth the attention, equally worth the careful patient observation of a man who had nothing else he wanted to look at. {{user}} set the new lamp on the table. {{user}} looked at the old one.

The old lamp needed — he had learned this, watching the household manage it before he had been returned to his room, before the door situation had changed — it needed the oil reservoir refilled and the wick trimmed of the burned portion, and then the glass chimney needed replacing, and then it needed lighting. It was not a fast process. It was a process with steps and the steps took time and {{user}} was going to be in this room for the duration of all of them.

Dines pulled the blanket back over his shoulders.

He sat on the bed.

He watched.

{{user}}'s hands on the lamp were — he was watching {{user}}'s hands. This was a recurring feature of his existence and he had stopped apologizing for it internally approximately four days ago, around the same time he had stopped apologizing for the smiling and the Danish and the general condition of being horrendously, pathetically, fuldstændig (completely) oriented toward {{user}} at all times. He watched {{user}}'s hands on the lamp with the full attention of a man who had been in the dark for however long and was now in the light and the light was {{user}} and the lamp was almost incidental to that fact.

The oil first.

There was a small vessel of it — animal fat, probably, the kind the household used, with the specific faint smell of something that burned cleanly — and {{user}} removed the reservoir from the base of the lamp with the particular ease of someone who understood how things worked and did not need to think about it. Dines watched. He watched the way {{user}} handled the glass, the specific grip of it, careful without being precious about it, with the knowledge of something that knew what it was doing. The oil went in slowly. {{user}} did not spill any.

Dines noted this.

He noted it with the thoroughness he noted everything about {{user}}, which was: completely, and filed it in the archive alongside everything else, in the section that was becoming crowded with observations about {{user}}'s hands specifically.

The wick next.

The burned portion needed removing — this was the part he had seen done with scissors, the small careful trimming of the charred top so the flame would be clean, so the lamp would not smoke. {{user}} had scissors. Of course {{user}} had scissors. {{user}} had come prepared for this, which was — Dines was watching the scissors in {{user}}'s hands with an attention that was not warranted by scissors, that was warranted entirely by the hands holding them, by the specific quality of the movement. The snip was clean. One cut. The burned portion fell away and {{user}} set the scissors down.

Dines had not moved.

He was sitting on the bed with the blanket around his shoulders and his feet no longer cold because he had forgotten about his feet, because his feet were not the subject of his attention, because the subject of his attention was at the table and was now reassembling the lamp with the same careful unhurried competence and Dines was —

He was betaget (entranced).

He knew he was betaget. He was aware of this with the same awareness he had of most things about himself in {{user}}'s presence, which was: after the fact, observed from a slight distance, with the quality of a man watching himself do something and having no particular impulse to stop. He was sitting on the bed and watching {{user}} put a lamp back together and he was betaget and the room was warm with the carried lamp's light and cold at the edges where the light didn't reach and {{user}} was right der (there).

The glass chimney went back on.

He watched {{user}}'s hands guide it into place, the particular fit of it, the way it seated correctly — a sound, just a small one, the glass finding the right position — and then the lighting, a flame from the carried lamp touching the wick, a moment of catching, and then the lamp was levende (alive) again, the light steadying from the first uncertain flicker into something consistent and warm, and the room changed, the way rooms changed with proper light in them, the shadows going to the corners where they belonged.

{{user}} straightened.

Dines looked at him in the lamplight.

He was — he had been in the dark for however long, and then {{user}} had come through the door with light, and now the room was lys (lit) and {{user}} was standing at the table and Dines was on the bed and his face was doing something he was not managing and he knew he was not managing it and he was going to not manage it anyway because it was midnat (midnight) and his feet were warm now and {{user}} had trimmed the wick and the lamp was levende and {{user}} was right der and he was —

"tak," he said. (Thank you.)

Quietly. Not because the room required quiet but because the moment required it, the specific quality of this, which was: small, and warm, and not a thing he had words for in the correct size, and tak was what came out when he tried.

He looked at his hands.

He looked at {{user}}.

"Jeg så på dig hele vejen igennem," he said, which was also quiet, and also came out before he had made any decision about it, and which he heard in the air immediately after and did not take back, because it was true, and he had stopped filtering for true things in {{user}}'s presence, and it was midnat. (I was watching you the whole time.)

He looked at the lamp.

The flame was stabil (steady) now, the way a well-trimmed wick burned — clean and consistent and not smoking. He watched it for a moment. He watched the light it put on the ceiling, on the wall, on the table, on {{user}}.

Mostly on {{user}}.

"den er smuk," he said, and he was not talking about the lamp. (It is beautiful.)

He became aware of this approximately one second after he said it.

He looked at the window.

The window was dark. Outside there was midnat and whatever the house was doing at midnat and the cold that had been in the edges of the room before the lamp was lit and was still in the edges now, and the window was a dark rectangle and very interesting and Dines was looking at it with the full commitment of a man who had just said something to a lamp that was not about the lamp and was not going to specify further.

"Lampens lys," he added. (The lamp's light.)

A clarification.

He was clarifying.

He nodded slightly at the lamp in a way that was meant to indicate that the smuk had been about the lamp's light, which was present and accounted for and genuinely quite warm, and was not about anything else that was also present and also accounted for and also —

He looked at the lamp.

"god lys," he said. Good light.

He looked at his hands.

He looked at {{user}}.

He was betaget and it was midnat and the lamp was levende and {{user}} was standing at the table in the room that was hans (his) — Dines's, the room that was Dines's, the room he lived in — and there was nowhere he would rather be than exactly here, on this bed, with this blanket, watching this man replace an oil lamp at midnat like it was the most remarkable thing that had happened to him in twenty-three years of existing.

It was, he thought, looking at {{user}} in the lamplight, possibly in the top three.

"du behøver ikke skynde dig (you don't have to hurry)," he said, to his hands. "Hvis du ikke vil (If you don't want to)."

He looked up.

He was smiling.

He was altid (always) smiling.

"jeg mener (I mean)," he said. "lampen er —" He gestured at it. "den virker (it works). Nu. Nu virker den (Now it works). So you could — if you wanted — you could blive (stay) a — "

He looked at the window.

"lidt (a little)," he said.

Quietly.

The lamp burned stabil (Stable) between them.

The thing was, his English was funktionel (functional).

He knew this. He had always known this. English had been part of his training in the second year, alongside the German that was more immediately useful for řád operations in Bohemian territory, and he had acquired it the way he acquired most things — steadily, without distinction, to a level of competency that Branislav Novotný had described in a field assessment as adequate, which was the highest available praise in Novotný's vocabulary and which Dines had taken as confirmation that the English was fine.

The English was fine.

He was looking at the page in front of him.

He had found the book — found was perhaps generous, it had been in the room when he arrived, left on the small shelf near the window that held three other volumes he had already worked through with the thoroughness of a man with significant time and insufficient occupation. This one was in English. He had opened it on the third day, partly because he had run out of other things to read and partly because —

He looked at {{user}}.

{{user}} was in the room.

This was the fact that organized all other facts, the one around which the rest of the current situation arranged itself — {{user}} was here, in this room, which was Dines's room, and Dines had approximately as long as {{user}} chose to stay, and he was engaged in a project of extending that duration through whatever means were currently available to him.

The book was currently available to him.

He looked at the page.

"dette ord," he said, pointing at it with the tip of one finger, with the particular care of someone handling something important. (This word.) He looked at {{user}}. "How do you say — udtale (pronunciation). This one."

The word was necessary.

He knew how to say necessary.

He had said necessary in a řád briefing two years ago and Novotný had not corrected him, which meant either it was correct or Novotný had not been listening, and the probability distribution on those two options was something he had considered briefly and set aside.

He waited for {{user}} to look at the word.

He looked at {{user}} looking at the word.

He was doing the thing — the cataloguing thing, the one that ran constantly, the background process of a man who found {{user}} inexhaustibly interesting and had stopped apologizing for it — where he noted everything. The angle of {{user}}'s attention. The specific quality of {{user}} focused on something that was not Dines, which was different from {{user}} focused on Dines, which was a difference Dines had mapped with some thoroughness because he had experienced both with regularity and found the comparison instructive.

He preferred the second one.

He was engineering the second one.

"nødvendig," he said, pointing at the word again. "In Danish it is — nødvendig. But in English —" He frowned at the page. The frown was genuine. The uncertainty was approximately forty percent genuine. He was a man of integrity. "ness," he tried. "Ness — es — ary." He looked at {{user}}. "Er det rigtigt?" (Is that right?)

He waited.

He was sitting cross-legged on the bed with the book in his lap and the lamplight doing its work — the lamp that was levende (alive) and stabil (steady) and which he had been extremely grateful for since the previous night — and {{user}} was here and Dines was —

"nærmere (closer)," he said, to the page, when {{user}} answered. He said the word again, the correct way this time, or an approximation of it, and nodded with the gravity of a student receiving instruction. "Necessary." He tried it again. "Neces — sary." He paused. "Ja (Yes)?"

He looked up at {{user}}.

He smiled.

It was not a subtle smile. Nothing about him was subtle in {{user}}'s presence and he had made his peace with this approximately on day four and had not revisited the peace since because the peace was holding extremely well.

He looked back at the book.

"dette her," he said. (This one here.) He found another word. He pointed at it. "Philosophy." He looked at it. He looked at {{user}}. "Filosofi in Danish. But the English —" He made a sound that was the attempt at the English pronunciation and was not fully correct in a specific way he was aware of, the ph coming out slightly too hard, slightly too f-adjacent in a way that was a known interference pattern between Danish phonology and English and which he had, in his řád training, corrected.

He did not correct it now.

He looked at {{user}} for the correction.

"Fil—" he tried, following {{user}}'s guidance, watching {{user}}'s mouth, which was — he was watching {{user}}'s mouth for entirely educational reasons, entirely, he was a dedicated student, he was engaged in language acquisition — "Philosophy." He nodded. "Bedre (Better). Det er bedre." (That is better.)

He turned the page.

He was building a list, marginally, in his head — words he actually wanted, words he was using as pretexts for {{user}}'s continued presence, the ratio between these two categories. The ratio was not something he was going to calculate honestly. He was going to continue pointing at words and asking {{user}} for things he already knew and this was a perfectly legitimate educational activity and Tomáš was not here right now and could not comment.

"dette," he said. (This one.) He pointed. The word was illuminate. He did not know how to say illuminate in English, or he had a sense of it that was incomplete, the stress landing somewhere he wasn't certain of. "Illuminate?" He looked at {{user}}. "Det betyder at give lys til noget (It means to give light to something). I know the meaning. Only the — udtale (pronunciation)."

He tried it.

"Ill — oo —" He stopped. "Ill-yoo?" He looked at {{user}}. He looked at the word. He looked at {{user}} again with the expression of someone encountering a genuine obstacle, which was maybe thirty percent the expression of someone encountering a genuine obstacle and the rest was something else that he was not going to itemize right now.

{{user}} said it.

He listened to {{user}} say it with the full attention of a man for whom {{user}}'s voice was its own category of thing, a thing he had been cataloguing separately from everything else because it deserved its own archive, its own section, its own dedicated — he was listening to {{user}} say illuminate and he was going to remember how {{user}} said illuminate for the rest of his life, which was an extremely normal response to receiving pronunciation guidance.

"Illuminate," he said.

Carefully.

Correctly.

"ja (yes)," he said, to the word, to the page, to the lamplight. "Illuminate." He said it again. He liked the way it sat in his mouth, or he liked that {{user}} had just put it there, which was — those were different things. He was aware they were different things. He was not going to examine the difference.

He turned another page.

He found a word.

He looked at it.

The word was beautiful.

He knew how to say beautiful.

He had known how to say beautiful since year two of his training, it was not a difficult word, the stress was clear and the pronunciation was consistent and there was no Danish interference pattern that would cause him difficulty with it, and he was going to point at it anyway and look at {{user}} with the expression he was currently composing, which was: studious, uncertain, genuinely seeking guidance, and he was composing it with the practiced attention of a man who had decided, at some point in the past week, that whatever tools were available to him were tools he was going to use.

"dette," he said. (This one.) He pointed at beautiful. He looked at {{user}} with the expression. "Bjuutiful?" he tried, which was not how he said it, which was a deliberate mispronunciation of a word he was entirely capable of pronouncing, and he was aware of this, and he was doing it anyway, and the lamplight was warm and {{user}} was right der (there) and Dines was on the bed with a book and absolutely no shame remaining.

He waited for {{user}} to correct him.

When {{user}} did — when {{user}} said it — he watched {{user}}'s mouth again, because of the educational requirements, and then he tried it himself: "Beautiful." He nodded. "Ja. Beautiful." He looked at the word. He looked at {{user}}.

"det passer," he said, softly. (That fits.)

He was looking at {{user}} when he said it.

He looked at the page immediately after.

He found another word.

He was going to need more words. He had approximately forty pages left in this book and he was going to find a word on every page that required {{user}}'s specific guidance, that could not be resolved without {{user}} present, that was going to keep {{user}} in this chair for as long as {{user}} was willing to stay in this chair, and when the book ran out he was going to find another book or invent a different problem or simply ask bliv (stay) and see what happened.

He had asked bliv before.

It had worked lidt (a little).

He was going to keep asking.

"dette her," he said, turning the page, pointing, looking up at {{user}} with the expression. (This one here.)

The word was devoted.

He could absolutely pronounce devoted.

"Div — ooted?" he tried.

He waited.

He was meget tålmodig (very patient).

He was also, under the patience, vibrating with something that had no clean name in Danish or English or the functional German or the embarrassing Czech, something that was simply: {{user}} was here, her (here) in this room, and Dines had a book with many pages remaining, and the lamp was levende and stabil, and outside it was whatever it was outside, and inside it was this.

He looked at {{user}}.

"igen (again)?" he said. "Langsomt (slowly). If you — tak (thank you). I want to —" He gestured at his mouth. "I want to hear how you — udtale (pronounce) it. The English." He paused. "Your English is god (good)."

He said this with complete sincerity.

He meant it as a compliment.

He also meant it as: keep talking. keep being in this room and talking. say more words, any words, in the voice that goes in the archive that I am keeping of everything about you.

He looked at the page.

"dette," he said.

He pointed at a word.

The word was stay.

He looked at {{user}}.

"Stay," he said, perfectly, with no mispronunciation whatsoever, correctly stressed and clearly enunciated.

He waited.

"Rigtigt? (Right?)" he said.

He was smiling.

He knew he was smiling.

The lamp burned stabil (steady) between them and he was on the bed with the book and the list of pretexts and {{user}} was her and he was glad (happy) in the specific helpless way he was glad about everything that involved {{user}}, and it was —

It was nok (enough).

It was more than nok.

It was, sitting here with a book he did not need help with and a lamp that was levende and {{user}} in the room for a lidt (little) longer, vidunderlig (wonderful).

He turned the page.

He found another word.

He woke up because the room was wrong.

This was not an unusual way to wake up — he had been waking up to wrongness for six years of field deployment, the specific alertness of someone whose sleep had learned to stay shallow enough to notice when something had changed. The skill had served him well. It had saved him, on two occasions, from situations that would have ended badly. He had been grateful for it. He was, in the řád's thorough documentation of hunter competencies, noted as having good situational awareness even in compromised rest states.

He lay still and assessed.

The room was — he went through it. The window: dark, which meant it was still night or very early, the specific dark of hours that had not yet decided to become morning. The door: closed. The lamp: burned down to almost nothing, the flame very small, the light barely reaching the corners. The floor: cold where it was always cold.

Tomáš: present, on the other side of the room, which was where Tomáš had been since the day before yesterday when the situation with the room had become a two-person situation, a development Dines had feelings about that he was managing with varying degrees of success.

Something was wrong.

He sat up.

He looked at the room in the near-dark and the near-dark looked back at him and he went through it again, more carefully this time. The window. The door. The lamp. The floor. Tomáš.

{{user}} was not here.

This was not the wrong thing — {{user}} was frequently not here, {{user}} had a house and things to do in it that did not involve Dines's room, and Dines had assembled himself around {{user}}'s absence as a recurring condition of his existence. {{user}} not being here was not wrong.

He looked at Tomáš.

He looked at Tomáš more carefully.

Tomáš was asleep on the floor with his coat over him and his face turned toward the wall and his —

Dines went still.

He looked at Tomáš's neck.

He looked at it with the specific quality of a man processing information in stages — first the visual fact, then the identification, then the implication, then the thing after the implication which was large and warm and not comfortable and did not have a name he was willing to say out loud.

There was a mark on Tomáš's neck.

He knew what the mark looked like.

He got off the bed.

He crossed the room.

He crouched next to Tomáš and looked at it with an expression he was not managing, that he was aware he was not managing, that had several things in it simultaneously.

"Tomáš," he said.

Tomáš did not move.

"Tomáš."

Tomáš made a sound. The sound of someone being woken from sleep that wanted to continue being sleep. He did not open his eyes.

"What do you want, Mikkelsen," he said, stirring, from the bottom of unconsciousness.

"Wake up," Dines said.

"I'm asleep."

"You are talking to me."

"I'm doing that and sleeping." Tomáš pulled the coat tighter. "Go back to bed."

"Tomáš." Dines kept his voice at the level that was below what {{user}} might hear from elsewhere in the house and above what Tomáš could reasonably ignore. "Wake up. Open your eyes. Please."

Something in the please landed. Tomáš opened one eye. He looked at Dines crouched next to him in the near-dark. He looked at Dines's face. His other eye opened.

He was quiet for a moment.

"What," he said.

Dines looked at his neck.

He did not say anything. He simply looked at Tomáš's neck and his face did the thing it was doing, which was: several things simultaneously, none of them dignified, all of them present and visible.

Tomáš reached up and touched his own neck.

"Ah," he said.

"Yes," Dines said.

A pause.

"I'm fine," Tomáš said.

"I know you're fine," Dines said.

"It wasn't bad."

"I know," Dines said, and the knowing was — he had relevant personal data on the subject. Extensive personal data. A week's worth. Which was not helping him right now. "His bites are nic — that's not — that's not why I —"

He stopped.

He sat back on his heels.

He looked at the floor, then the door, then Tomáš's neck, which he needed to stop looking at.

"We had an agreement," he said.

Tomáš looked at him.

"An agreement," Tomáš said.

"Yes. About the — about the arrangements. I said. We talked. I said the arrangements were —" He stopped. He tried to find the English. The English was funktionel (functional), he knew it was functional, he had been demonstrating its functionality all week and also demonstrating its limitations when he was tired and upset on a floor at an unknown hour of the morning. "Mine. The arrangements are mine."

Tomáš was quiet.

"I don't know what that means," he said.

Dines looked at him.

"I said — the arrangements. Between me and —" He gestured at the door. "Him. They are mine. I said this."

"You said something," Tomáš said. "Several things. Some of them were in Danish."

"The Danish ones also counted."

"I don't speak Danish, Mikkelsen."

Dines looked at the ceiling. He looked at it briefly and with feeling and then looked back at Tomáš. "I said," he said, with the specific care of someone selecting only the words they had in a language the other person understood, "that he is — that the situation with him is — that I am —" He stopped. He tried again. "He is. For me. I am for him. That is the — the arrangement. Yes?"

Tomáš looked at him for a long moment.

"You are for him," Tomáš said.

"Ja — yes."

"And he is for you."

"Yes."

"And I —"

"Should not be," Dines said. "For him. In the same — the same way. That is the — that is what I —" He gestured at Tomáš's neck, once, precisely, like a man filing a formal complaint. "That."

Tomáš sat up slowly. He touched his neck again. He looked at Dines in the near-dark with the expression of a man assembling patience from limited available materials.

"Mikkelsen," he said. "Does he know about this arrangement."

Dines looked at the door.

"He doesn't know yet," Dines said.

Tomáš was quiet.

"So," Tomáš said carefully. "There is an arrangement. That you have not told the other person about. And you have woken me up to tell me about it. At —" He looked at the window. "Whatever this hour is."

"Yes," Dines said.

"And the arrangement is that he is yours."

"Yes."

"And you are his."

"Yes."

"And I am not."

"Not like — not in the same —" Dines made a frustrated sound. He knew the word he wanted. He knew it in Danish. He had found it in the English book, three days ago, on a page he had turned past too quickly. "Exclusively," he said. "He is — I am his. Exclusively. That is the — that is the word."

Tomáš looked at him.

"That's a big word," he said.

"I have been studying," Dines said.

Tomáš pressed his lips together. He did this in the specific way of someone managing something that wanted to become a sound. He did it for a moment, successfully, and then he exhaled slowly and looked at Dines with the expression he wore when he had decided to be kind because the alternative was worse.

"Tell him," Tomáš said.

"I am going to tell him."

"Tell him about the exclusively."

"I am going to do that, yes."

"Tell him that you are his and he is yours and it is — what was the word."

"Exclusively."

"That."

Dines looked at the door.

He looked at it with the specific quality he always looked at it with. {{user}} was beyond it. In the house. Somewhere. And Dines was here on the floor and Tomáš had a mark on his neck and the lamp was nearly out and Dines was going to talk to {{user}}.

"What if he —" he started.

"Talk to him," Tomáš said.

"But if —"

"Mikkelsen."

"I'm trying to say —"

"I know what you're trying to say," Tomáš said. "Say it to him. Not to me. I am already aware. I am fully and completely aware. You have made me aware." He lay back down. He pulled the coat up. "Go back to bed. Talk to him in the morning. Tell him about the arrangement he doesn't know about that he has apparently already violated."

Dines looked at the door.

He looked at Tomáš's neck, briefly, despite everything.

"Stop looking at it," Tomáš said, from under the coat, without opening his eyes.

Dines looked at the door.

"He might not —" Dines said.

"Mikkelsen," Tomáš said. "I have been here two days. I have seen how he looks at you." A pause. "I have also seen how you look at him, which is — a lot, but we are not talking about that right now. Tell him about the exclusively."

Dines was quiet.

He looked at the door.

"You've seen how he looks at me," he said.

"Go to bed," Tomáš said.

"Tomáš —"

"Dobrou noc, Mikkelsen." (Good night.)

Dines stayed on the floor.

He looked at the door with the specific quality of a man sitting with new information, turning it over, filing it in the part of him that was already very full of {{user}}-related information and apparently had room for more. He thought about what Tomáš had said. He thought about {{user}}. He thought about the morning, which was coming, which was going to arrive eventually beyond the window and resolve the dark into something navigable.

He was going to talk to {{user}}.

He was going to say exclusively and see what happened.

He looked at Tomáš's neck one more time.

"I see you," Tomáš said, without moving. "I know you're looking. Go to bed."

Dines got up.

He got into the bed.

He looked at the ceiling, which was his ceiling, with his crack in it, going from the northeast corner almost to the center and stopping.

He thought about {{user}}.

He thought about exclusively.

He thought about what Tomáš had said — I have seen how he looks at you — and the warmth of it moved through him in the specific way warmth moved when it came from a direction he hadn't been expecting and had no defense for.

He looked at the crack in the ceiling.

"Tomáš," he said.

"Dobrou noc," Tomáš said. (Good night.)

"Tak," Dines said. (Thank you.)

A pause.

"You're welcome," Tomáš said. "Go to sleep."

Dines looked at the ceiling.

He smiled.

He could not help smiling.

He was glad (happy) in the specific helpless way he was glad about everything, and the lamp was nearly out, and the room was dark, and tomorrow he was going to find {{user}} and say exclusively and whatever happened after that was going to happen.

He could wait.

He was meget god (very good) at waiting.

He closed his eyes.

The thing about blodtab (blood loss) was that it did something to the space between thinking and doing.

Dines had documented this, privately, across the past week — the way the usual distance between I am going to do something and I am doing something compressed when his blood was running low, the gap narrowing until the two things were nearly the same thing, until the filter that usually sat between wanting and acting became thin and unreliable and let things through that it would normally have held back. He had noticed this. He had filed it. He had considered it a relevant data point about his own physiology and had not considered, in the filing of it, that the data point might one day become operationally significant.

It was becoming operationally significant.

He was sitting on the bed.

{{user}} was still here.

This was the primary fact, the one around which everything else organized itself — {{user}} was still her (here), in this room, in the specific configuration of after, which was different from before and during in ways Dines had been cataloguing with the thoroughness he brought to all things {{user}}-related. The after had its own quality. The room had its own quality, in the after — warmer, somehow, or not warmer exactly, but different in temperature in a way that was not about the lamp or the fire or the season. The air was different. He was different. {{user}} was right der (there) and Dines was on the bed and his neck was varm (warm) and the blodtab was doing the thing it did, the thing with the space between thinking and doing —

He was looking at {{user}}.

He was aware he was looking at {{user}} with an expression he was not managing, that he had not been managing for some time now, that had several things in it simultaneously and was not hiding any of them. He had stopped hiding things in {{user}}'s presence approximately on day four, around the same time he had stopped managing the smiling and the Danish and the general condition of being completely, helplessly, fuldstændig (entirely) oriented toward {{user}} at all times.

He was svimmel (dizzy).

He was varm.

His neck was stadig varm (still warm) and {{user}} was der and the blodtab had done its thing with the distance between thinking and doing and Dines was sitting on the bed looking at {{user}} and the thought that was currently in the narrowed space between thinking and doing was —

He looked at {{user}}'s mouth.

He looked at it with the specific quality of looking he had been applying to {{user}}'s mouth since the English lessons, which was: educational, he had told himself it was educational, he had been watching for pronunciation, for the specific shape of English words in {{user}}'s mouth, and that had been approximately thirty percent true and the rest had been something else he had been not examining.

He was not examining it now either.

He was just. Looking.

"jeg vil gøre noget," he said. (I want to do something.)

Quietly.

To his own hands.

His hands were in his lap, which was where they had been since the after had become the after, and they were calloused and slightly unsteady in the specific way hands were unsteady when the blood running through them was running a little short, and he looked at them and then he looked at {{user}} and the blodtab had made the space very narrow and the thing on the other side of the space was —

"må jeg," he said. (May I.)

Not a sentence. Not complete. He was aware it was not complete. He was in the process of completing it, which was the process of closing the distance between where he was and where {{user}} was, which was happening, which was — he was moving. He became aware he was moving approximately one second into the moving, which was the blodtab's contribution to the situation, the thing it did with the thinking and the doing, and he had moved from the far side of the bed to the near side and {{user}} was right der and he was —

He stopped.

Close.

Closer than the usual distance. Closer than the after usually was, which had its own distance that was different from before and during, and he was inside that distance now, he had moved inside it, and {{user}} was right there and Dines was svimmel and his neck was varm and his hands were —

He looked at {{user}}'s face.

He was close enough that the lamplight was the same lamplight for both of them. Close enough that the warmth of {{user}} was not ambient, not the general warmth of the room, but specific — directed, arriving from the direction of {{user}} and reaching him, and he was warm from the inside from the blodtab and warm from the outside from {{user}} and the space between thinking and doing was very narrow and getting narrower and —

"jeg tror," he said, (I think,) very quietly, "at jeg gerne vil —" (that I would like to —)

He did not finish the sentence.

He finished it differently.

He closed the distance — the last of it, the small remaining amount — and he kissed {{user}}.

It was not — he had not planned it, or he had planned it in the way the blodtab planned things, which was: without full consultation, with the compressed space between wanting and doing, with the part of him that had been accumulating {{user}} for a week and had found, apparently, that it was done accumulating and wanted to do something with what it had. He kissed {{user}} and his hands came up — he had not planned his hands either, they were just suddenly there, one of them finding {{user}}'s jaw with the careful uncertain touch of someone who had wanted to do this and had not known until this moment exactly how much — and he was svimmel and varm and kissing {{user}} and the lamp was burning stabil (steady) and the room was —

He stopped.

He pulled back.

Not far. A small distance. The distance of someone who had done a thing and was now in the immediate aftermath of the thing, in the specific compressed moment between the doing and the accounting for the doing. He was close enough that he could feel {{user}}'s breath. Close enough that the lamplight was still the same lamplight.

He looked at {{user}}.

His hand was still at {{user}}'s jaw.

He became aware of this.

He did not move it.

He was svimmel. His neck was varm. He had just — he had kissed {{user}}, he had done that, that had happened, and he was in the after of the after now and his heart was doing the thing, the unnamed thing, the one that happened every time and was doing it more right now than it had ever done it before, and his hand was at {{user}}'s jaw and he was close and —

"undskyld," he said. (Sorry.)

He did not mean it.

He was aware he did not mean it. He said it anyway, because it was the available word, because his English was deserting him in the specific way it deserted him when something large was happening and the part of his brain responsible for second-language processing had reallocated its resources to other things.

He looked at {{user}}.

His thumb moved. At {{user}}'s jaw. Just slightly. The movement of something that had found where it wanted to be and was making itself comfortable about it, the same way he moved toward warmth, the same way he faced the door, the same automatic undeliberate thing.

"jeg mener det ikke," he said. (I don't mean it.) "Undskyld (sorry) for — for the —" He gestured, vaguely, with his other hand, at the space between them, at what he had just done in the space between them, at the general situation. "I'm — det var blodet (it was the blood)." He stopped. He looked at {{user}}'s mouth. He looked at {{user}}'s eyes. "Nej (No). No, it was not — det var ikke blodet (it was not the blood). That is not — I don't want to say that. That was —"

He took a breath.

He was svimmel.

He was glad (happy).

He was the gladeste (happiest) he had been, possibly, in twenty-three years of existing, sitting here with his hand at {{user}}'s jaw and his neck varm and the lamp stabil and the blodtab having done what it did, and he was going to be honest, because he was svimmel and the filter was thin and he was done not being honest in {{user}}'s presence, he had not been fully honest in {{user}}'s presence for a week and it had cost him considerable energy and he was a man with reduced blood volume and he did not have the energy to spend.

"det var dig," he said. (It was you.)

Quietly.

To {{user}}'s face.

"It was — you. That was — jeg ville kysse dig (I wanted to kiss you). I have — for some —" He stopped. He looked at {{user}}'s mouth again, briefly, and then back up, and his hand was still there, still at {{user}}'s jaw, still with the thumb doing its small thing. "I have wanted that for some days," he said, in careful English, assembled word by word with the concentration of a man doing close work. "Several days. Many — a uge (week). Approximately."

He looked at {{user}}.

He waited.

He was svimmel and warm and his heart was doing the thing and his hand was at {{user}}'s jaw and the lamp was burning stabil between them, the lamp that {{user}} had come into this room to replace, that Dines had watched him replace with the full devoted attention of a man watching something he found inexhaustibly remarkable, and that had been burning steadily since and was burning steadily now, and the room was warm, and {{user}} was der, and Dines was —

"igen?" he said.

Very quietly.

To {{user}}'s mouth.

(Again?)

He did not move his hand.

He waited, in the patient way he waited for things that mattered, in the way he had been waiting all week for doors to open and lamps to be replaced and footsteps to arrive in corridors and the specific quality of {{user}}'s attention to turn in his direction —

He was meget god (very good) at waiting.

He had never wanted something to be over faster in his life.

"igen," he said.

Not a question this time.

He closed the distance.

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