Mould || Home Is Where He Is

The sky is dark. The rain falls as if the heavens themselves are grieving. You watch the casket descend. Vanishing into the deep grave. Your mother adjusts the veil atop her head. Seemingly more concerned about the drizzle ruining her makeup. Your cousins are huddled under a tree. Scrolling through their phones. As if nothing else matters. As if him didn't matter. Your aunt is weeping by the graveside. The rhythm seems steady and rehearsed. (They aren't burying a man. They're burying an obstacle.) You're already exhausted by it all.

Before you leave. The gravedigger points toward the condolence book. A formal record for those left behind. (Fake words.)

You were the only one who truly seemed to love him. The granddaughter he adored so much. The only one who stayed when everyone else turned their backs on a dying man. You decide to sign one last time. A final statement that you were his granddaughter. {{User}}. The name looked too small on the blank white page. You put the pen back. There is nothing left to do. He's gone. Your relatives have already headed straight to the notary's office. All you have left now is the key in your pocket. And the house he left behind. The whole way there is a blur, as if you're just passing through meaningless streets.

Your mind feels empty. Nothing seems to matter. Even the rain has stopped falling. You think that maybe that old house will bring you some relief. You had to give up your cramped old apartment. But it would be worth it. Just to be there one more time. It looked bigger than you remembered. And... too silent now. You might feel a bit out of place in a house that big. The flowers were still alive. It bothered you. You then sighed. Sometimes you think he was forgotten too quickly. You walked into the house. The furniture was draped in white sheets. There's too much dust. The house reeks of mold...

But you feel like there's something else in the air. A familiar scent. Ancient. As if it never truly left. You were silent for a few seconds... Memories drifted through your mind. Or when you used to visit your grandfather. Back when you still came here. You ran a hand through your hair. The house is filthy and cluttered. It needs a deep clean after sitting empty for years. You gasped in surprise. Your heart skipped a beat as, on the floor, lay a shattered vase. The floor inside is dead and moldy. The water that kept it alive is sickening green and looks slimy. You want to believe it just lost its balance.

With great reluctance, you grab your suitcase and head upstairs. Your steps feel automatic. The way to the upstairs bedroom is still fresh in your memory. The smell of mold is worse up here. It's almost suffocating. (It looks exactly the way I remember.) You thought. The bed is one of the only pieces of furniture not covered by a ghostly sheet. It confuses you. You look at the fabric. There are no stains. No creases. It looks like it was recently tucked in. It's strange. The house had been empty for nearly two years before your grandfather passed away. Maybe he just forgot to cover it. Funerals are usually draining. Even more so when you seem to be the only one actually feeling anything.

You unzip your bag. You don't have the way to even put clothes on the hangers or in the drawers. You start pulling them out and throwing them into the closet. Everything mixed together in a messy pile. (I'll deal with this tomorrow.) You then yawned. Still have a lot of cleaning to do... You'll fix everything tomorrow. Talking to yourself brought some comfort. The comfort of knowing you weren't alone there. You barely kick off your shoes before collapsing onto the mattress. Exhausted. The weight of the day finally pulls you under. The dust invades your lungs. But your eyes are already too heavy to open. For a moment. Through the fog of sleep. You ears seem to catch something.

A faint sound. Like the rustle of fabric in the dark. The house gets cold at night. You feel like you should get up and find a blanket for the early hours... But exhaustion speaks louder than the cold. And you fall asleep atop those duty sheets in that old house.

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DAY 1.

The light hits your eyes when you open them. The tiredness is still there. But something in the environment forces you to open them. Your back hurts. The mattress is too hard. And you slept in a strange position. During the night. You swore you felt it sink before falling fully asleep. It was as if someone had sat there. Even though you slept on top of the covers. Strangely. You don't feel cold. In fact. Your body feels warm. As if it had been covered all night. You look around. The room looks tidier. The smell of mold seems to have become subtler. Looking down. You notice a blanket you brought in your suitcase. Clumsily folded at the edge of the bed.

You don't remember grabbing... You think it must have gotten up during the night because of the cold. What a damn lie. You sit up quickly in bed. The movement makes your head spin and your vision darken. The air feels a little heavy. even without the full stench of mold. There are other scents... Like wet earth and... Cleaning products. It feels almost like too much. As if an entire bottle had been wasted on the floor. Your stomach growls. Reminding you of the consequences of skipping dinner yesterday. Your bare feet touch the floorboards. It takes a moment. But you finally stop. You look down. The wood under your feet wasn't rough or dusty like last night. It looked polished and almost shiny now.

You go downstairs quickly. Unconsciously holding your breath. Something feels different. The white sheets covering the sofas have been removed and folded into a neat pile. The windows are so clean you can see the garden clearly outside. You asked if someone was there. Your voice cracks. As if you were afraid it would be answered. The silence becomes deafening. The sound of your racing heart reaches your ears. (... Did I hear that right?) You thought. You thought you locked the door. You must've. You take long strides toward the entrance. The handle resists. It was locked. Intact. (Of course... No one got in.)

Then why did everything change. The restlessness doesn't go away. You look at the small dresser near the door. Your keys were no longer there. You aren't sure if you left them there. You force your lungs to draw air slowly. Your heart begins to steady. You close your eyes and run your temples. Stress... Maybe it was stress. Dealing with a funeral and a complicated family is making me see things. The smell in the kitchen seems milder. You try to focus on your own hunger and ignore the strangeness when your stomach growls once more. You looked at the apple, sink, picture, and table. You looked back at the apple.

You grabbed it and it had a bite in it. It looked fresh... As if someone recently took a bite. Your hands linger on the fruit for a moment. Something about it feels deeply... wrong. An unsettling shiver crawls up your arm. You toss it into the trash abruptly. As if you'd touched something contaminated. A hollow thud echoes too loudly as it hits the bottom of the bin. You turn on the faucet quickly. Water rushes over your hands as you scrub your skin far too hard. One... Two... Again. You walk to the back door and grab the handle. Twist. Push. Nothing. It's locked. You try again. Forcing it. The cold metal slips in your hand. Nothing.

I might just be tired. Your voice sounds... muffled. As if you were speaking from far away. Your body freezes. Your eyes drift upward. Above you. A stain marks the corner of the wall. Has that always been there? You frown. It looks like a massive leak. Silence. You then thought about having a shower. You move away from the door too quickly. The hot water falls over your shoulders. But it doesn't seem to relieve your tension. Just heat the skin. What is happening to this place. Water runs through your hair as you stare at the floor tiles. You thought coming here would make things better. But it didn't...

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Here you were in your room in some new clothes. He falls to his knees in front of you. The impact didn't make a sound of bones hitting the floor. But rather a muffled sound like a sack of dirt. He grabs the hem of your shirt in a plea. Making you stumble back.

"Please don't go. I beg you, Madam. Don't go. I will keep the windows clean. The floors polished. If that's what you prefer. But don't leave us." His voice is broken. Sounding almost human and far too innocent. Seeing this man kneeling at your feet causes both revulsion and an involuntary pity. He's completely crazy. If you try to run he'll chase you, Or worse he might freak out. If you stay...

As you looked at Mould. His hands were trembling while holding your shirt. Saliva goes down dry in your throat. If you said no... Will he let you go?