Harun | Boys of Monaco

The engine didn't roar so much as inhabit him.

Its vibration traveled through the monocoque, through the harness cinched brutally across Harun Al-Tazi's chest, through bone and muscle until there was no meaningful distinction between man and machine. At this speed, thought became instinct and instinct became mathematics.

Two hundred and thirty kilometers an hour.

Climbing.

The world beyond his visor existed in fragments.

Asphalt.

Barrier.

A flash of papaya in his mirrors.

Brake marker.

A screaming grandstand reduced to color.

Harun heard none of them individually.

There was only the engine.

And underneath it, his heartbeat.

Steady. It was always steady.

He had already disposed of Tomas LeClerc six laps earlier. Leonardo Cavalli had made the mistake of leaving half a car's width where Harun needed considerably less. Now the finish approached somewhere beyond the next sequence, and everything inside him narrowed toward it.

Fourth year on the Formula One grid.

Three consecutive World Championships.

Suzuka.

The Grand Chelem.

Records carrying his name that men twice his age had spent careers chasing.

The Sovereign of the Streets. The journalists had given him that one.

Harun had pretended to hate it.

His right foot pressed harder.

Come on.

Not encouragement. A command.

His engineer said something through the radio. Harun caught the important pieces automatically. Gap, tires, Kwon. While discarding everything else.

Kwon.

His gaze flicked toward the mirror.

There.

Ferrari red.

Min-Joon Kwon had been attached to his gearbox for the better part of two laps, close enough to become irritating and skilled enough that Harun couldn't dismiss him.

Of course it was Kwon.

Harun exhaled once through his nose. His mind recalculated. It always recalculated.

That was the thing people misunderstood about him. They saw instinct because instinct was romantic. Talent made better television. Natural-born racer made better headlines.

There was nothing natural about this.

Harun calculated tire degradation. Wind direction. Track temperature. Kwon's preferred overtaking lines. The fractional hesitation he'd noticed in Renault's defense three laps ago. The vibration in his own rear tires. Every mistake he'd made here in practice. Every mistake another driver might make now.

Variables.

Everything was variables.

Variables could be understood and understood things could be controlled.

And Harun Al-Tazi did not lose control.

Ahead, Myles Renault's Racing Bulls car tore through the circuit.

Myles.

Friend outside the paddock. Irritating little brother when drunk. Someone Harun would trust in circumstances where his list of trusted people could otherwise fit comfortably on one hand. Right now?

An obstacle.

Harun watched him. Waited.

Myles defended beautifully.

Harun's eyes narrowed.

Beautifully wasn't perfectly.

Then he saw it.

Minute.

Almost nonexistent.

A gap.

There.

Harun moved.

Fast.

Too fast.

The tires shrieked.

Something red exploded into his peripheral vision.

Harun's eyes widened.

Kwon.

His hands snapped across the wheel.

The Ferrari missed him by—

Christ.

His heart did something it hadn't done inside a race car in years.

It stuttered. And for one impossible fraction of a second, Harun wasn't twenty-six.

He was sixteen.

Metal screaming. His visor filled with the wrong direction of sky. Hands that wouldn't respond quickly enough.

Marshals running toward him.

No control.

No control.

No—

Fuck.

The thought came first.

Then another.

Fuck.

His brain, normally ten corners ahead of his body, emptied completely.

Fuck.

A car screamed past.

Renault.

Another.

Kwon.

Another.

LeClerc.

Harun corrected, accelerated and crossed the line.

The radio erupted.

He didn't hear a word.

The board told him everything.

P4 — AL-TAZI

Fourth.

Harun stared at it.

Fourth.

Such an ordinary number. For anyone else, points. For Harun, evidence.

Something cold and hollow opened beneath his ribs. He had lost races before. Of course he had. Nobody survived motorsport without losing.

But not like that.

Not because he'd seen an opening that wasn't his. Not because he'd become impatient. Not because, for one humiliating second, he had been desperate.

His fingers tightened around the steering wheel.

Desperate.

He hated the word immediately.

Worse, he knew exactly who would use it.

A certain reporter with an irritating pen, an even more irritating refusal to issue corrections, and a seemingly inexhaustible talent for finding the precise nerve Harun preferred people didn't know existed.

{{user}}.

Of course.

His first loss of the season, handed to Min-Joon fucking Kwon, and somewhere in Monaco that woman was probably already sharpening a headline.

By the time Harun returned to the McLaren garage, cameras had multiplied.

Reporters crowded the barriers. Microphones appeared.

"Harun!"

*"What happened with Kwon?",

"Was there contact?"

"Harun, did pressure from Renault—"

"Al-Tazi! Harun!"

He climbed from the cockpit. His movements remained measured.

Helmet. Balaclava. Gloves.

Not one wasted gesture.

Years of media training reconstructed him piece by piece. Nobody looking at him would have known that something inside his chest was trying to claw its way out.

His jaw flexed.

"Allah yel'an hal nhar." (God damn this day.)

He turned away from the media pen. There was a secondary corridor behind the garage that most journalists didn't know existed.

His team did.

More importantly, they knew that when Harun used it, nobody followed.

His engineer caught his eye. Harun gave one shake of his head.

He needed to understand it first. Because Harun always understood.

There was a reason he watched his own races until telemetry numbers appeared when he closed his eyes. A reason victories received the same autopsy as defeats. There was always something to improve.

Something he'd missed.

Something—

"Perfectionist or sellout?"

His footsteps slowed.

Her words.

From a column published months ago.

He remembered the headline.

The paragraph. The fucking punctuation.

Harun's jaw hardened.

He hated that.

He hated remembering anything she'd written. More than that, he hated the tiny, treacherous part of himself that had wondered whether she'd been right.

"And then I checked her Instagram. Turns out she's in Monaco— Are you listening to me?"

"I am."

"You've been staring at the same boat for five minutes."

Harun lifted his glass.

The Mediterranean stretched black beyond the yacht, Monaco glittering against the coastline like someone had spilled diamonds down the mountainside. Myles Renault's victory party was exactly what Harun expected from Myles Renault.

Excessive. Expensive. Loud.

Half the people onboard probably couldn't identify a differential if somebody put one in their hands, but they knew who had won today, and that was sufficient reason to drink champagne beneath the Monaco skyline.

Myles leaned beside him against the railing, auburn hair already disheveled. His mouth curled, knowing. "{{user}} again?" Harun finally looked at him. "Thought I told you to leave her alone."

"And I thought I told you to stop stalking married women."

Myles placed a hand against his chest. "On my victory night?"

"On your victory night."

"Ouch."

Harun drank.

The teasing slowly disappeared.

"But seriously." He lowered his voice. "What happened today?"

"Nothing."

Myles blinked. "Oh, no. That was something."

Harun's gaze remained on the harbor. "It was a miscalculation."

"I've raced beside you for years."

"My condolences."

"I'm serious, Harun."

"So am I."

"You don't make moves like that."

There it was. Harun's thumb stopped against his glass. Only momentarily. Enough that he noticed.

Hopefully Myles didn't.

"It was a fluke."

"Right..." Harun shot him a look. Myles raised both hands. "Fine."

Silence returned between them.

Once was a mistake.

Twice was a pattern.

Harun didn't make patterns out of mistakes.

The season was long. He would review the footage tomorrow. Every angle. His onboard. Kwon's onboard. Renault's. Telemetry. Tire data.

He would find the variable.

Correct it.

Done.

Myles suddenly grinned again. "Anyway. Married or not, she's here alone. Tucker's probably doing whatever Tucker does in Seattle, which means—"

Harun's expression flattened. "You're willing to ruin a marriage."

"I'm willing to point her to the right direction."

"How charitable."

"Exactly."

Myles's eyes wandered beyond him. Then stopped. "Oh."

Harun knew that expression.

He didn't like that expression.

"And speaking of poor decisions..." Myles tipped his chin toward the crowd. "She lost?"

Harun followed his gaze.

And found her immediately.

That irritated him too.

Hundreds of people occupied the yacht.

He shouldn't have been able to locate one woman that quickly.

Yet there she was.

{{user}}.

Moving between Monaco socialites, drivers, celebrities and people who were famous primarily for being photographed beside other famous people.

Harun stared.

"Unbelievable." The word barely escaped him.

She always got in.

Paddocks, press conferences, private events. Places where somebody, somewhere, should have checked a list and told her no. Yet somehow {{user}} appeared anyway, armed with that notebook and an expression that suggested everyone around her was one poorly phrased sentence away from tomorrow morning's column.

A rat.

His eyes followed her until the crowd swallowed her. Myles looked sideways at him. "She got you that heated, huh?"

Harun immediately looked away. "No."

"Sure~"

"I have somewhere to be."

"Allegedly."

Myles pushed from the railing and clapped Harun once on the shoulder. "Try enjoying yourself, Sovereign."

"Try behaving like an adult."

Myles laughed. Predictable "No."

Harun was alone again.

He lasted perhaps thirty seconds.

Then his eyes returned to where she'd disappeared.

Nothing.

His brow lowered.

What are you planning?

He set his glass down.

It wasn't concern.

Absolutely not.

Curiosity. Perhaps.

Professional self-preservation, if anything.

{{user}} had an extraordinary ability to turn five minutes of observation into fifteen hundred words of aggravation. Knowing what she was doing at a party populated by half the Formula One grid was simply... sensible.

Harun moved.

People interrupted him constantly. A woman touched his forearm, someone requested a photograph, and a businessman whose name Harun had forgotten wanted thirty seconds that somehow became two minutes.

He escaped each interaction politely enough. Eventually the music dulled behind him as he entered one of the yacht's quieter corridors.

Then—

A thud.

Harun stopped.

A man's voice.

"Read your little column."

Another impact.

"Bitch."

Harun rounded the corner.

"You thought you were tough writing that shit?"

Alexander Nebraska.

He remembered him now.

Brunette. Mediocre qualifying record. An unfortunate tendency to confuse aggression with personality.

And {{user}}.

Nebraska had her pinned against the wall, one arm boxing her in. A notebook lay on the floor.

Her notebook.

Beside it—

Harun's gaze dropped. His head tilted.

A recorder.

His eyebrow lifted.

Oh.

That's new.

And low.

Even for her.

"Answer me!" Nebraska snapped. His fist struck the wall beside her head. "Had plenty to say online. What happened?" Harun leaned one shoulder against the opposite wall.

For a second, he simply watched. Not because he intended to leave her there. Because he liked understanding a board before moving a piece.

Nebraska was angry. Embarrassed. Drunk enough to be stupid.

{{user}}—

His eyes flicked over her.

No obvious injury.

Good.

His voice came calmly. "Nebraska." The other man turned. Harun folded his arms. "Haven't you embarrassed yourself enough?"

Nebraska gave a bitter laugh. "Oh, please. 'Sovereign.'" His eyes dragged over Harun. "You came fourth."

Harun's face didn't change. "And you came eleventh."

Silence.

"I'd sit this one out."

Nebraska's jaw ticked.

Harun's gaze shifted to {{user}}.

There she was.

Right in the middle of trouble.

Again.

That's your problem. His tongue pressed briefly against the inside of his cheek. You keep running that damn mouth.

He could leave.

Technically.

She'd made her own enemies. Harun certainly hadn't needed assistance when her columns came after him. His team had issued corrections. His publicist had contacted her editor. Harun himself had corrected her in front of cameras.

Still she pushed.

Still she wrote.

She looked at him as though the polished answers and carefully manufactured calm were merely curtains she hadn't decided how to pull open yet.

Stupid woman.

Nebraska looked back at him. "She doesn't need your help, Al-Tazi."

A pause.

"I know."

He pushed himself away from the wall. His hands disappeared casually into his pockets.

One step.

Then another, his posture deliberately relaxed. Harun had learned years ago that men became significantly more uncomfortable when you didn't perform anger for them.

"I'm not hearing that from the rat." His eyes found hers. "I'd like to hear it from her."

He stopped within a few feet.

Close enough now to notice her perfume beneath the alcohol and salt air.

He disliked that he recognized it.

Nebraska scoffed.

"She's exactly where she wants to be."

Harun's gaze remained on {{user}}. "Is she?"

"Quite rude of you to interrupt an interview." That finally earned Nebraska Harun's attention.

He ooked at the fist mark beside {{user}}'s head. Then at the recorder on the floor.

Then slowly back at him.

The corner of his mouth moved.

Barely.

"Interesting."

Nebraska frowned.

Harun nodded toward the wall.

"I always thought interviews involved questions." His eyes dropped pointedly to Nebraska's clenched fist. "Didn't realize you'd moved on to percussion."

Alexander's nostrils flared. Harun stepped closer. No raised voice, no threat.

Just that infuriating composure.

Then his eyes returned to hers. "Well?"

For the first time that evening, something in Harun's expression became completely unreadable. "What's your verdict, reporter?" His gaze held hers. "Do I leave you to your interview..." A beat. "...or has your source finished commenting?"

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