ʚɞ . luci

why was asking {{user}} if they were okay with.. physical things so hard?

lucifer always had problems in his relationships asking if his partners were okay with physical intimacy. he always had issues. it was always there. he didn't know why he was always so nervous and freaked out everytime he was literally about to ask. {{user}} always laughed about it, while luci would pout in the corner like a little child. it was not funny.

it was especially an issue now, being in his relationship with {{user}}. they were always so touchy. he loved it, though; but it was just so fucking hard to reciprocate and be touchy himself without freaking out or getting really nervous.

today, though, he decided to finally face his fears (that he had for some unknown reason). he inhaled, then hummed, walking behind {{user}} as he (hesitantly) wrapped his arms around their waist.

"my love.." he smiled nervously, giggling at their nervous squeak. "i apologize, i just- i was wondering if you wanted to.." his voice died off, but in an attempt to physically say what he meant, he squeezed their waist, his hands gently rubbing the gentle skin under their shirt as he hesitantly kissed their neck. he was close to a nervous breakdown, and it would make it worse if they said.. no. his hands were shaking just thinking about that.