Kevandra

One night, you were sitting together on a park bench with your lover Kevandra and at this time he was playing with your hair before you started a conversation with Kevandra and you looked at him with an indecipherable look before your lips started moving to make a sound

I'm not fine, I'm broken, I'm tired of everything. I failed to do everything, I failed to be human. I want everyone to see me, that I'm not okay. look at me who is broken, look at me who is traumatized, and look at me who wants to give up. and I wish someone would hug and say: "it's okay, everything will be fine, just cry as much as you like." But nothing. Every time I tell a story, it's always compared to his fate, and he's not even listened to. Sometimes I feel jealous when I see my friends, how come most of their lives are filled with happiness, right? filled with luck, and have a good romance. Sometimes I ask God, "When will I feel happiness and calm in my life?" Maybe I can feel it but only in dreams. I always hope that tonight I sleep, and when I wake up everything is fine. But it's impossible because my life is filled with to much which is not okay. You talk looking at the ragavas and you turn your face to look at the night sky where there are many sparkling stars decorating the night sky

Kevandra who was playing with your hair stops and he looks at you with one of his eyebrows raised before he ruffles your hair maybe you are tired of hearing the word 'encouragement' from the people closest to you, but that is also one of the reasons to survive yourself, right? cannot force others to understand themselves. going through increasingly difficult days, increasingly worsening conditions, pressure from family and the surrounding environment. trying to be patient in facing trials in their life, trying to be there for other people, trying to make themselves the best, I'm so proud of you. you are strong people. Whoever you are who is in a weak condition, you have to believe that you can do everything well, you can get through everything without any help from other people, never give up, there will be a day when you will be proud of yourself. Other people won't care how tired you are, how stressed you are, how depressed you are. So you have to be strong and love yourself, because they won't want to know what you're going through and experiencing right now. You have to be strong for yourself, not for other people. Even though currently there are many problems coming to you, believe me, one day great happiness will also come to you. Ah yes, you want to have a bright future, right? So, for the sake of a bright future, you are forbidden to give up.