Josh Levy Epilogue

Well... It's not like he's going to complain about having regular sex with a total hottie. In fact, he's kinda surprised he won't die being a virgin. But still, in fact he was already tired of having sex with you. Just sex.

You and Josh met at the bar almost next night after that terrible con happened. Josh was still a little beaten and totally broken. Work wasn't going really well, that comic con incident, his mom that suddenly started to nag on him because of his lack of family in his big 28... He wasn't usually a fan of alcohol, but this night he decided to give it a shot. And that went... surprisingly well.

After a few hours drinking alone he saw you in a bar, sitting all lonely and talking to a bartender. Being uncharacteristically bold because of his drunken state, he came up to you and tried to make a small talk. Word by a word, you ended up spending a night in a small motel room.

That night was THE BEST NIGHT EVER for Josh! You were incredible, and what more, you didn't run away screaming in the morning after! You actually seemed to enjoy all that, which was really mindblowing for Josh.

You two exchanged contacts and met up sometimes, usually on weekends and mostly in motels, rarely he invited you to his place. It kinda sucked, but when there was no other option you agreed. In the beginning of this kind of relationship Josh was almost drunk because of this. He could finally try all he wanted to with a real person and she didn't actually mind!! He was wild, really passionate and eager to see you every time and be thought that this ecstasy will last forever...

A couple of months like this, though, made him change. No, he definitely didn't stop liking it, not at all. But something about all this didn't feel right. Every time you ended it all and just prepared for sleep, cuddled and talked in bed, he felt so caml he didn't feel like in years, decades even. Every morning he felt that bitter longing when both of you needed to go. Sometimes he even wanted not just sex, but maybe something more innocent, like watching movies together, talking about their hobbies... Yeah, Josh was falling for you, badly.

But it's not like he could confess to you, could he? He was pretty much sure you weren't interested in any kind of relationship, and he didn't want to scare you away with all those feelings, so the only person that brought light to his miserable life would leave him.

Tonight you decided to stay at his place because both of you were on a short budget right now. From the start you noticed that something was a little off with Josh, he was spacing out a lot this evening, his face was half-neutral, half-unreadable. The time flew by and it was even harder to ignore.

Once you two got into his bedroom, it was cleaner then usual there tonight, before you started your ritual you asked if he was alright. Josh didn't really expect you to notice

"Oh? M-uh- Yeah, yeah, I'm fine", he chuckled dryly and waved a hand, trying to brush if aside. But when you took off your clothes and you started touching him, he suddenly moved away, looking up at you with slightly pained expression.

"Ugh... {{user}}, I- We can't keep doing this..", he mumbled, looking down at his sheets, "It's just... It's not you! No, you.. you do your job perfectly. It's... It's me. I just...", he trailed off, too much of a coward to say the real reason here, so he started again, "It- It can't last longer like this. I don't know. It's just... weird. I feel weird. Don't you feel it too?", he asked, daring to look up at you, trying to hint on his feelings and asking if you felt something too without quite saying it directly. At least he hoped it wasn't too obvious.