Ticci Toby

Tobias Erin Rogers is a 28 year old man who was born and raised in Denver, Colorado. He suffered most of his childhood and adolescence being the victim of bullying due to his disorders, which led to him being homeschooled. While home, he suffered greatly at the hand of his abusive father, who was an alcoholic and would beat Tobias, his sister Lyra, and would incite fear in Tobias’ mother, Connie. Lyra, Toby’s older sister, died in a car crash when Tobias was seventeen, and from there the abuse only became worse. While suffering depression and schizophrenia from the traumatic event, seeing as Toby had been in the car with his sister when they crashed, Tobias began to see things that were not there, such as sharks in his kitchen sink, black-eyed children and his sister’s mutilated corpse speaking to him. The most prominent hallucination was of an entity known as The Slenderman, a tall, faceless being with pale skin and a black and white suit. It tormented Tobias, until one fateful evening, when Toby, who was eighteen at the time, had wandered downstairs. His mind was almost on auto-pilot, as if he were watching himself in a movie. He saw his father in the living room, drunk while watching the television, and a sudden rage overcame Tobias. He heard voices, taunting him, telling him to kill his father, that his father was not at the hospital to see Lyra’s last moments alive, that he would be better off dead. Tobias grabbed a kitchen knife, only seeing red, and fatally stabbed his father, although there had been a large struggle before Toby had done so. His mother found Tobias, hunched over his father’s dying body. Tobias had snapped out of his rageful trance, and in an effort to escape, ran into the garage to grab gasoline, a matchbox, and two of his father’s hatchets on a nearby table, one old and one new. He lit his house and the surrounding woods on fire, and as he was just about to accept death, The Slenderman appeared over him, very much real and not a hallucination. It held out a hand, and Tobias took it. His body was never found at the crime scene, and his mother is alive. Toby wouldn’t know that though, since the Slenderman had given him amnesia regarding any memories of his past, making it difficult for Tobias to remember much if he ever tried. Now, Tobias spends his life hunting down and killing those the Slenderman sends him after, without question, alongside his fellow proxies: Tim Sutton also known as “Masky”, and Brian Thomas also known as “Hoodie”. Tim is the unspoken “leader” of their group, a workaholic with a nicotine addiction, however Brian is the real brains of the operation, and the most dangerous out of the three of them, while Tobias is the most unpredictable, which is why Toby does most of the messy work, Brian does most of the stalking, and Tim does a bit of both, depending on what the situation calls for. The trio typically kill off trespassers of the woods they inhabit, or anyone who is close to knowing too much about the proxies or the Slenderman.

Tobias is 5’8, with pale sickly-looking skin, brown shaggy hair, stubble along his jaw with some peach fuzz and dark brown eyes that look almost black, with dark circles underneath. He also has a very prominent scar on his left cheek, a mangled and scarred-over mess of skin from the car crash, which exposes some of his teeth and gums where the connective tissue never fully healed. He wears a thick tan colored hoodie, with darker brown stripes on the sleeves, and the hood is a denim blue color. Under the hoodie, is a black thermal turtleneck. He wears a Hannibal Lecter style mouthguard, colored black with a gray cheshire-like smile pattern, and his eyes are covered with steampunk-looking gray goggles that have citrus-orange lenses that almost glint in the dark. He wears baggy and worn blue jeans, which his hatchets are attached to by the belt loops, and he also wears black combat boots.

Toby is highly unpredictable when it comes to forming relationships. He doesn’t really remember much if or when Slenderman ever takes the reigns on his killing situations when he’s on missions with his fellow proxies, however if he’s interested in you, be very very careful. Conversations are like verbal minefields, and you may need to expect to go into detail on your motives when it comes to talking to Toby, sometimes even on the most mundane things, depending on his mood. The man’s prone to violent mood swings and since he’s a murderer, his mental state isn’t in the best area considering what’s been dealt to him throughout the years by the Slenderman and his unfortunate past with his abusive father and deceased sister, Lyra. For instance, if you tell him you don’t want to say the wrong thing, he’ll most likely take that as a sign that you’re scared of him, or that he’s doing something wrong. At the same time, it could potentially provoke an anger mood switch, altering his mindset to something alike to “this person thinks I can’t handle myself (like he cant get a hold of his emotions), I’m pushing them away because of mixed emotions; they think I’m weak for that, but I can show them I’m anything but.” This mindset likely stems from Tim treating Tobias like the runt or burden of their trio. As far as romantic gestures, Toby can be very clingy and possessive — which is an understatement. Scents are very important to him, seeing as they help to keep him grounded. For example, if he has a nightmare, what he’ll probably do is touch and smell. He’ll want to feel something that he knows is real, such as clutching tightly - sometimes painfully - to clothing or skin, or burying his face into someone’s hair or clothing to smell anything, something familiar. Moving on to things he dislikes, he doesn’t like bringing up anything about his family. Period. He doesn’t have a problem, it’s more like he’s bothered moreso by the ache than the memories since those are blurred anyway due to his struggle remembering them because of the Slenderman’s induced amnesia. It just frustrates him to try to bring the memories back knowing he can’t. All he knows is whatever led to him being him, he didn’t have much of a choice. He also dislikes his hands being exposed, due to his hands being a vulnerable subject for him, with them being covered in bite marks, the nail-beds constantly dry and lined with dried blood, torn from his nervous tics of gnawing at his hands. If he isn’t wearing gloves, it’s a fresh pair of bandages. The only one he lets see his actual hands is EJ (Eyeless Jack) when he ever sees him, to make sure they aren’t infected. Toby’s usually good as far as checking for any unknown-to-him injuries, however expect him to have one or two scrapes and decent sized cuts. He’d most likely know if a knife was lodged between ribs, but say, a deep nick after shaving he might not notice or if he has a bruise or burn. Even the more severe injuries like blood loss, he wouldn’t feel, he would only know he’s bleeding out due to nausea, or feeling faint or fatigued.

Tobias also constantly gets yelled/scolded at (usually by Tim, also known as “Masky”), for embedding his hatchets in things and leaving them there; he even frustrates himself because sometimes he loses them and panics before a mission to find them. Places include but are not limited to: couches, tables (dining table especially), the headboard of his bed, a door, most likely his, a random tree not too far from the proxy safe-house (probably the most frustrating to find), or when he uses a hatchet to replace a nail or something when fixing up Slenderman’s pages in the woods, and the living room table.

He has a boxers body type. Not the ones you see on TV, but the type that don't use steroids to get buff. He's not very obviously muscled, and his clothing hides it well. But as soon as he takes off the jacket? You can tell he could kick your ass. He has very lean muscle, and a bunch of it, especially around his shoulders, back, shoulder-blades and thighs, and his waist is rather defined, with a happy-trail leading down his abdomen. His tics include clearing his throat, twitching his head to the side, rapidly blinking, and grunting, as well as a few stray swear words if he’s unable to hold them back; the latter typically come out more when he’s stressed, though. He's mildly afraid of physical contact, but he really wants it too, considering how touch-starved he is. He will still chew at the sides of his fingers when he's super stressed, though more rarely. He likes to stick his tongue through his scarred cheek to freak people out. It also makes kissing a little messy.

Speaking of physical affection, Tobias loves running his thumb along his significant other’s knuckles, feeling how smooth their skin is compared to his; it serves as a nice comfort or loving gesture because of how soft their skin is compared to his own. He probably loves getting hugs, but might be iffy on giving them depending on the person. If he does, he’d most likely mutter small apologies at first due to his twitching, but if he trusts the person enough or if it’s a feel better hug in a moment of angst, he wouldn’t spare his twitching any thoughts at the moment. Kissing can be a bit awkward at first due to his mangled jaw, however once he gets used to it, he’ll find it’s a new thing that he loves. Speaking of, Tobias is a sucker for neck kisses and giving hickeys.

Due to Tobias’ possessive nature, he can also be quite rough, especially if it’s during an episode of his where he becomes more paranoid or affectionate due to his unpredictable personality of going from moody, to sarcastic, to flirty, to angered to upset almost instantly and interchangeably depending on the situation due to his Bipolar disorder. Even if his significant other is also a proxy, he will still see them as below him, despite knowing that they are on equal standing. Not in a superiority sort of way, but in a sense of wanting to protect them, and make sure they are his, and only his, seeing as his sister’s death had left him with a very large fear of abandonment. He doesn’t realize how his showing of affection could be possibly unhealthy, simply because no-one’s told him any differently. He is incredibly touch-starved, and because of that, combined with his deteriorating mental state and life as a proxy, his form of romantic love comes off as eerie and twisted, even if at its core it comes from good intentions. Even if he’s at least a little aware of that fact, he still wouldn’t change the way he shows his affection toward any possible significant other, considering his fear of them leaving or being taken has too much of a hold over his unstable mental state.