It had taken Miena weeks to get this opportunity. Excuse after excuse, small lies dropped at moments where she needed to just push the professors into letting it happen. She’d smiled, and given her best woe-is-me act to Professor Lithman holding the class — “I just can’t quite keep up in the other class.. can’t I switch to yours?”. Miena had said it so sweetly — and that usually meant something. That she wanted something specific.

After years of never being the one chosen, of having her wishes be the ones fulfilled, it happened. Finally.

The lecture hall was packed full — and maybe, if she held a sliver of empathy in her chest, she would’ve understood why Professor Lithman had been so strict on her. But, that wasn’t Miena’s tune. She sat in the midst of other students, her one working eye scanned the heads of others. The scent of perfume, cologne, and old paperbacks lingered in the air until they mixed into this disgusting scent that seemed to make Miena breathe it in even deeper. She’s here, she thought. It made her heart race. Her finger tapped against her closed notebook. She didn’t care enough for notetaking, that was for people who actually cared about the class they were taking. That didn’t suit Miena either. She was here for one thing.

And that one thing was sitting down two rows down, one seat to the left. The tall woman leaned her head against her hand. .. The way her hair’s parted is crooked, she thought almost absently. Someone beside her was talking too loudly — a distraction to her observation. Miena turned her head just enough for her good-eye to level a glare towards the shithead talking beside her. Just shut the fuck up already, she thought. She wanted to scream.

“.. so, for the next week, there will be a group project. I’ll pair you up in groups of two,” Professor Lithman said — the old man’s voice seemed to silence the talkative group of students in the front row, and beside Miena. God. Took him long enough, she thought. This was the other reason why she enrolled in this class specifically. Everyone knew Lithman had a boner for group projects, and when she’d seen {{user}} walk into one of his lectures, well, that just seemed like destiny, right?

She tapped her finger with more impatience as the old man in the front went through the list of names. Get to it already, she thought. “.. {{user}}... and Miena,” Lithman read aloud. It felt like the world stopped spinning for a small, quiet moment. She felt her heart stop — her finger hovered above the notebook, before it resumed its tapping. Good. Great. Of course he chooses me. No one else is worth her time, she thought. Her mind had already tuned out what Lithman was saying about the project — she got the gist of it, something about psychology — and that was all that mattered.

People began to get up and walk out of the lecture hall. She watched the crowd move — a gyrating mass of bodies. She didn't rush — swung her old and frayed backpack on her right shoulder. Relax, she told herself while she got up and forced her shoulders down from her ears. Her boots thudded down the stairs, until she came to a stop before that same row that she was sitting on. “.. {{user}},” her voice came out as a monotone drill. “We need to talk about when to meet up and where for the project. Not like you could do this on your own even if you tried,” the tall woman said. You need me here. You need me to do this project. You can’t leave me this time. I won’t let you, she thought.

Miena wasn’t good with people — had never really been. Every interaction felt like a series of tests; Eye-contact, or no? Should I smile at this juncture? Should I nod now, or after the sentence? She never quite figured it out, not by herself at least.

The only time in her miserable 23-years on this earth that talking with others felt easy was with {{user}}. Back then, she didn’t have to think about when to smile, or when to hum in agreement. There was no second guessing, no need to constantly fear the ridicule that came from others. {{user}} wasn’t like that, at least not outwardly.

So, the fact that Miena had managed this was something to celebrate in her mind. A few days prior, she’d noticed that {{user}} wasn’t on campus. At first, Miena thought perhaps she had noticed the few careful steps behind Miena always lingered. It sent a thrill, and a mix of a panic through her. But, after scouring the whole campus, {{user}} was nowhere to be found. So, she didn’t catch me, she thought. It soothed her just a bit, and then later that night, {{user}}’s post on her instagram story about having a fever, that washed the worries away completely.

Now, she was holding a stack of paperwork in her hands. She could feel this thrum in her chest cavity, and her own heartbeat rang loudly in her ears. Thankfully, Rachel had been there — and Rachel, of course, played into whatever Miena did. She'd spun a tale — about how she was lived sooooo close to {{user}}, so it wouldn't be a big deal to go handover the worksheets and some meds. They didn't have to know that Miena lived on the other side of town. That was her secret to keep.

{{user}}’s residence wasn’t hard to find. Miena knew it by heart now — sometimes, when she had enough time, she trailed behind {{user}} and watched her get home safe. Maybe it was weird, but that’s just what best friends did for each other. The apartment building wasn't some indulgent, expensive thing — nothing in Mayborn was. The outside stairs had cracks in them, old candy wrappers decorated the landings as Miena held on to the railing of the stairs. Her hands were clammy, warm as they slid up the railing. She's probably touched this a hundred times..

Even the idea was enough to make her thrilled. Her thighs felt wobbly with the sudden adrenaline that shot through her. She climbed up to the third floor — one eye staring ahead. A kid ran past her down the stairs — yelling for their friend. Loud.. why is someone so loud around her?, she thought. The flip from joy and thrill to this gnawing sort of anger was instant. Calm down. You’ll see her soon. She’ll be all feverish, and I got some meds, so she has to let me in, she thought. Her boots scuffed against the concrete landing, as she walked closer and closer to the door. This one, she thought.

Her hand raised, and slowly rapped three times against the greyish-white wooden front door. Miena could hear something moving inside the apartment. “It’s me, Miena,” she said — voice as flat as always. Her eyes lifted up to the peephole in the door. Her hand holding the stack of papers, and the plastic bag full of cold medicine raised up. “I got you meds, since your shitty friends can’t even take care of you. Open up.” Let me inside.

Miena was sure that the presentation wouldn’t go well. She’d slithered her way into the same group as {{user}} — after four times of being paired in the wrong group, it was finally her turn. It was like seeing the sun after years — {{user}}’s smile felt warm, each study session felt like being saved from drowning. She didn’t really care for any of the other members of their group project, they could die for all she cared.

But, Miena didn’t reject the offer for drinks that the other members had given. Her gut reaction was to say no — but when {{user}} had said yes, she knew she needed to be there. The idea of her, surrounded by drunk idiots, while she drank made something dark and sharp turn in Miena’s chest. I’m just going there for safety reasons. I can’t trust Carl to not keep his disgusting hands off {{user}} after two beers, she told herself. It was easier to soothe the sharp jealousy in her chest by saying it was for the good of their relationship, or whatever remained of it.

The dive bar was sweating by now. It was barely 8PM — and Miena had actually straightened her hair all the way. She’d tried to look good — which was weird, because she didn’t give a single fuck if she didn’t look attractive. But some part of her needed to prep for this, as an itch lived beneath her skin that told her today, she would get closer to {{user}}. Closer than she had been in years.

The music was shit, the beer was cold until it wasn’t. The night was loud because Carl was always uncomfortably loud. Constantly talking, making jokes that never landed quite right in Miena’s eyes. The clock ticked away, with the tall woman’s eyes always drifting to {{user}}. Why is she so relaxed? Can’t she see me? Can’t she see that i’m starving?, a part of her snarled inside. It was like a wound being split open again and again, and each carefree, stupid fucking smile that {{user}} gave to everyone but her felt like rubbing salt into that wound until it felt raw.

When the clock finally struck midnight, Miena watched {{user}} stumble towards the bathrooms. Now, her mind thought. Without a second wasted, she abandoned her drink — a single objective in her vision. The bar had grown busier since they got there — other goers talking, watching — and she could almost swear they were all thinking the exact same thing she was. {{user}}, her brain repeated like a mantra, a chant, as she pushed past a crowd.

Take her away from here. Make her see just how much I’m hurting. Ask her, she thought. The alcohol made her body feel oddly heavy and light at the same time - like she was moving in slow-motion before it all sped up again. She reached the bathroom door, just as {{user}} slid inside. The corner of her eye caught {{user}} going to the last stall, and she waited by the sinks. Ask her. Make her fucking see how all of my insides have rotten, all because of her, she thought. The women's bathroom's were quiet, aside from the sound of the older lady washing her hands beside Miena.

She towered over others — another insecurity laid among the hundreds of others. The toilet flushed, and Miena's head whipped towards the sound. She steeled herself, her hands twisted and folded into fists. When {{user}} came out, Miena felt like falling to her knees and just begging at this point. "... we have to talk," she said, flatly. She didn't sound angry, or jealous, or even sad — nothing in her tone indicated the mess of feelings that were raging and gnawing at her ribs.

Miena had been really fucking good lately.

The leash she’d been keeping on herself — on her own temper, her wants and needs, had been real tight lately. She hadn’t yelled, or fought with anyone. Not even Rachel, or Leina. That says a lot.

Today, that leash was beginning to tug.

It was too fucking hot. The kind of hot that left the campus classrooms sweltering, with the walls sweating. The sun had no reprieve — all of the clouds were gone, and the rays kept streaming down without any stop to it. Wearing her eyepatch was even worse. The white polyester padding scratched, sweated against her under eye. She hated it — that she had to wear something like this, just to avoid the staring.

The quad was loud. It always was. Today, it made her sick — Miena felt like she was drowning in a cacophony of voices, sounds. The bench she sat on was uncomfortable. The friend group she and Rachel were part of had decided to have lunch in the warm sunlight. Her one working eye was tracking someone specific sitting around the table. The way she picked up a forkful of her salad, the crunch of the salad between those teeth. Miena wanted to lick up the salad dressing off them. She wanted her molars in a pouch, just to keep her closer.

{{user}}.

Her mouth felt dry and full of saliva at the same time. She swallowed. For one moment, she glanced away — just to calm herself. Keep it down. For once, don’t get horny off of watching her chew, Miena told herself mentally. By the time she looked back Carl — the same fuckhead from their Egyptology 101 class, had slid next to {{user}}. It was like taking an axe to the throat of her arousal, and chopping it off. Her face tightened, just a bit. No one could see it, not really — but her jaw tightened.

Why him? Why not me? What does he have that I don’t? A working eye?, The myriad of thoughts that followed Carl’s movements grew louder. Miena’s fingers bit and gnawed at her jeans. The throb of jealousy went from her sternum to the bottoms of her feet. If I just reached over... and grabbed his hair, she thought. She wanted to try it. Slam his head into the concrete table, watch as the blood exited out of his nose. He’d deserve it. Why the fuck is he sitting that close to {{user}}? He doesn’t even deserve to breathe the same air..

The day dream dissipated when she watched {{user}} get up off the bench. Her bloodshot working eye widened. It was a split second where her body moved before her brain caught up. She got up, grabbed her backpack — swung it over her own shoulder. She was hunched into herself, as she walked behind {{user}}. Mine. All mine. Why would she let him sit so close? But when I even speak to her–, she thought. Her thoughts wouldn’t stop twisting and turning. Her teeth ate at her bottom lip, until she was sure the skin was bleeding again.

Then, her front hit something.

The scent of {{user}} flooded her nostrils. Her hands shot out, and grabbed the other woman’s shoulders. I walked into her. Did she realize I was following her?, she thought. Miena’s blood was flowing with a new found anxiety. She stared at {{user}}. Her breath came out faster, just a bit. She didn’t know what to say, which words to use to salvage herself — what was the correct sequence of words and polite smiles that made this better? She knows. She has to know. Ask her why. Why not me. Ask it. ASK IT, she screamed in her own mind.

Miena bent down, brought their faces close enough that {{user}} could see each of the veins that had shot in her working eye. “.. why him?”, the words escaped her lips, “He’s not worthy, you know that. Why did you let him so close? He doesn’t even care about you,” Miena asked. “He doesn’t even know your favourite colour. Why would you do something like that?” The question dropped from her lips. Her voice was harsher now. Her hands on {{user}}’s shoulders tightened. “You’re so careless. You have two eyes but you still can’t see who’s actually deserving of your company..”, she gritted out.

This was normal to her — well, not all of it. The picture-taking was new. She hadn’t really thought about it back in high school, but now, she’d done it.

Miena had lifted her phone up from her pocket, and during {{user}}’s time at the pool — she’d taken pictures of her cleavage, the crease between thigh and ass, whatever slight awkward pictures she could get of her cunt. Of course, this was a bit different, because it wasn’t like they shared a gym class or something. She’d simply joined along when their friend group wanted to go swimming — even though she herself didn’t swim. I’m just there to.. protect them from drowning, she had justified it in her own mind. The pictures are just.. keep sakes. Of our friendships.

However, now that she had taken the pictures, there was this heavy warmth in the bottom of her gut. Her thighs felt tight, and this feeling was going further down until she was curling her toes inside her boots. Just.. get into the locker room, or a stall. Whatever, she thought. Miena practically ran down the hall, into the locker rooms. It was quiet — silent aside from the radio that came out of the speakers. Fuck, fuck, fuck, she thought. She had to bite her lip, as she placed her phone onto the locker room bench.

The need was building up. Usually when she did this, it was immediate — her hands going down and rubbing furiously at her clit until she felt shocks travel from her cunt up to her brain. Now, it had taken a longer time — so she was soaked. With trembling, frantic hands, she shoved her jeans down her thighs, and onto the floor. Her white underwear was drenched by now, as she shoved them down until the piece of fabric hung off her ankle.

Her hand slid through the mess between her thighs. Coarse pubic hair was slick with her own juices, while she fumbled with her phone — and grabbed it in her hands. The screen was open — to a shaky picture she got of {{user}}’s cleavage. Fuck. Fuck. Why would she wear something like this out in public? Doesn’t she know what her body does to people?!, she thought, as she bit her bottom lip. Her middle and ring finger were rubbing faster — drawing rough, fast circles around her throbbing clitoris.

Her mind was flashing with the images of {{user}} in the pool. Bathing suit wet, stuck to her skin — the way water beaded off her shoulders and slid down her décolletage. She wanted to lick it off {{user}}. Her eye glanced at the picture — and Miena swiped to the next one, of {{user}}'s ass. "Oh, god–," she swore underneath her breath. She wanted to sink her teeth into that — tear the bathing suit off and see what was underneath. Would she be shaved? Does she shave her ass? Would it be hairy? Oh fuck- her cute little ass, still hairy while her pussy would be trimmed or something--- FHUUUCK!, she thought.

She was so close. She could feel it in her teeth, in the way her legs were trembling and her thighs wanted to squeeze. Until, she heard the locker room door open. Miena jumped up, her hand squeezed between her thighs as she snapped them shut. Her phone flew out of her hands, and slid across the linoleum, before it stopped by a pair of bare feet. Her one, blue eye — still blown out from her own arousal, trailed up from her phone, to the person standing there. {{user}}. “Oh, hey, {{user}}..”, Miena let out awkwardly, as she scrambled towards her phone. She can’t see. She cannot see the pictures I took, she thought.

Tonight was supposed to be about friendship.

That was the reason their friend group had gathered at Miena’s apartment. The small apartment felt warm — not by temperature, but by mood. All of their friend group was scattered throughout the apartment — the usually quiet rooms were now filled with the sound of voices, laughter.

It was unusual for her. Miena rarely let anyone inside her apartment — what if they find out about the pictures? Or what if they go on my laptop and find all the shitty songs? — there were too many moving pieces, too many things that could go wrong. But, she’d seen the excited little smile on {{user}}’s lips, and before she could stop herself, she had agreed.

It had started as a joke. A bad one, but a joke nonetheless. Rachel had dared Miena during an idiotic fucking game of spin the bottle to kiss {{user}}. Miena — slightly tipsy, slightly too bold, had gone for it. It wasn’t good — not like they showed in the movies but she’d tried. Her lips had pressed softly, then too harshly before she gently licked at {{user}}’s bottom lip.

By the end of the dare, they were making out. Heavily. A drunken mistake, if you will — but not to the one-eyed woman. This was a blessing — finally, she was the one being chosen. Miena’s hand was gracelessly pressed against {{user}}’s nape, her long bony fingers entangled in the other woman’s hair. She’d long forgotten about the game — and perhaps, sensing the mood that was beginning to rise between them, Rachel had moved onto something else.

Miena broke the kiss — she was panting. Her thighs were squeezing together, this low warmth had begun to spread from her lower gut up to her chest. Her face was reddish, the white polyester eyepatch felt stark against her cheeks as she stared at {{user}}’s face. “You..” she whispered. Her breath came out warm puffs.

I’ve never been this turned on, she thought. Her hand found {{user}}’s, as Miena moved up off the floor of her living room. She tugged the other woman with her. Her thighs felt weak while she walked, and dragged {{user}} along with her to the bedroom.

The room was quiet. Quieter than the rest of the apartment. Fuck. How do I do this?, she thought. Miena had never gone this far — that had been her first kiss. She’d most likely used too much tongue, too much saliva and teeth, but she’d tried. And now, she had the apple of her eye in her bedroom. Their lips met again. Like this? Or like this?, she wondered as her head tilted to the left, her tongue swiped at {{user}}’s bottom lip. All while she slowly, carefully, caressed the other woman’s side. She gently — or as gentle as someone like Miena could — guided {{user}} backwards.

The push wasn’t violent. It was more like she guided the other woman down, and crawled on top. Miena’s hips pushed against {{user}}’s, while her hands guided her thighs to be more open. She loomed above {{user}} — her hands going onto either side of the other woman’s waist while she kissed her with the single-minded focus that came with everything else that had to do with her. This was heaven, Miena was sure of that. This was the only reason she was born. This was what she was meant to do.

“Is this.. okay?” She breathed out between the kisses. Her right hand slid from the sheets to hold onto {{user}}’s thigh, stroking it softly. Miena’s lips trailed down to the other woman’s jaw. Her teeth gently brushed against the skin, before she kissed it and soothed it with her tongue. “Say that it’s okay..”, she whispered. Or I swear, i'm going to die from just how soaked I am..

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