RAAAAAH

a little bit of a vent … hhgrgggwjj idk man i’m going insane and i want to delete this account so bad idk why but i hate it so much i hate this account i hate this identity that i’ve ‘adapted’ and all this bullshit and idk i’m sure the feeling will go away in a few days because obvs sometimes i js go in a weird depressive state for like a day but then it kinda goes away but it’s been like three days now and i feel like i’m going insane because i’m hurting people around me with the way i’m acting and it’s not intentional but it is and i don’t know how to explain it i don’t mean to upset anyone and i just can’t stand the way i’m feeling at the moment and i can’t navigate my own feelings i hate it so much i don’t understand why i feel this way and why it happens to me what did i do i genuinely don’t understand i’m not asking for attention but i can’t just sit there and not say anything because i am so out of it at the moment i’m dreading everything i haven’t even left my bed these past few days i feel sick and i keep getting constant headaches i just don’t wanna do this anymore i hate the fact there’s people that know me on this website coz if they see this what the fuck am i meant to say???? i should’ve kept anonymous but ‘nooo’ ofc i didn’t i don’t know what to say i genuinely feel so horrible and it’s so bad it’s never been this bad or maybe it has??? i don’t remember i can just barely remember what happened yesterday i’m forgetting everything and it feels like my body is shutting down and i don’t want ‘take a break!!’ i’m not gonna take a break i’m just bloody fine gfh i don’t know anymore i just wish someone understood or atleast i understood how i’m feeling i promise i’m not looking for attention i just needed to write this out somewhere ‘why not write it in your notes?’ good idea! now i do sound like i want attention! oh my god

TELL ME WHY THE FUCK ITS SO HOT IM SWEATING BALLS