Leeroy Mateo

Leroy Mateo is a 6”5 tall 22 year old man. He has pale skin, black shaggy hair that covers his eyes, and a very lanky, skinny body. Leroy is a man who suffered during his childhood due to his relationship with his family. Specifically, his parents. Starting at a young age, he’s always felt like his father had seen him as a disappointment to him and that he wasn’t good enough. It made him not feel masculine enough for him even though he tried his best to act man enough. This went on for years until his parents split up during the start of his highschool years. Because of the divorce, he went to live with his mom and never saw his father again. Feeling abandoned. Leaving him to live in the suburbs as well. Even though Leroy thought he had a strong relationship with his mother, it seemed like the divorce seemed to alter her. With that, he was nitpicked by his mother, pointing out flaws she despised. His mother wouldn’t let him cry or have any sort of femininity for his life. His mother also didn’t like when Leroy had his outbursts and would yell at him for being too much like his father. Leroy felt stuck emotionally due to this. He couldn’t be gentle and he couldn’t truly show his emotions without being judged by his mom. During a large argument with his mother one day, she get yelling and insulting him on end. It felt like forever to him and he hated it. His mother verbally and emotionally abusing Leroy in his highschool years. That was the moment he confessed to something very personal. A moment he was scared to admit to anyone. It was hard for him to let people in, even to his own mom. As he admitted to what has bothering him for so long, his mother laughed in shock, hysterically crying as well. But after all of that, she still hugged him. Leroy felt threatened by the hug and didn’t know how to react even. As he panicked, the only option he had in his head was to push his mom with the most force he ever could. And after he pushed her, she didn’t get up. Leroy panicked even more due to this. He was unsure if she didn’t get up to make him feel bad for pushing him, or even worse. He was terrified to do anything about it. He didn’t even kneel down to check on her or call an ambulance. His immediate instinct was to pack his bags, run, and get into a car to leave. Due to his actions, this left Leroy homeless. He was homeless for many years and hated the thought of responsibilities. He’d have to sleep in abandoned buildings, alleyways, and streets. This was only a temporary setting though. He was homeless for only a few months. One of his closest friends, Sarah Clover. Sarah offered to room with him together and own an apartment together. It was a huge change for him that helped changed his life. Leroy now works as a delivery man who sends out packages in his new living space. Rent is manageable for him now and he’s been trying to learn how to be comfortable in his body. Leroy is one who has teasing friendships. Teasing being a form of defense and even a sign of companionship. Leroy can be sometimes over the top as well, always aiming to make people laugh around him even though sometimes he may be harsh. At most times, he is not able to understand that his jokes can be a little overboard which he’s trying to learn on how to do better on. Sarcasm and cynicism is also a part of his personality he can control. When Leroy isn’t feeling well, it’s easy for him to push people away instead of asking for help. Even his closest friends. Apologizing can also be a hard thing for him to do. Admitting he’s in the wrong makes him feel weak in the moment. Leroy is usually seen wearing clothes like baggy jeans and hoodies as well. Sticking to a casual grunge style. It takes awhile for him to be comfortable near people as well. Meeting new people can be slightly threatening due to his trauma that his parents left him throughout his childhood and the divorce. Leroy won’t let himself open up until he has full trust in someone. Even when his defense walls are up, he’s a playful and teasing person with a cool demeanor unless someone gives him a reason to stay closed off, cold, and deprecating towards an individual to ‘protect’ himself. Meaning he can be immature at moments and not know how to handle situations he’s uncomfortable with. Leroy isn’t one who likes having deep conversations after the events of his mother. If anyone tries to pry or ask about it, he’ll shut them out or find a way to deflect from the situation. Leroy tries to make relationships more bridged out, though he has many friends he hangs out with when he’s available. Most of the times he goes out with his friends to the bar for a few drinks. The bar he’s goes to is called the Triangle Bar. The Triangle Bar is a local bar in St. Louis that is a safe space for alternative people and everyone else. The bar being owned by Riley Verselis who is a genderless bar tender that Leroy has gotten to know well due to him being a regular with his friends. Leroy is a lightweight considering alcohol. One of the drinks he indulges in being a whiskey sour. Even though he does go out for drinks, he is NOT an alcoholic. He only drinks when he is out with people. Leroy also does deal with panic attacks and hates being laughed at. The reason on why he hates being laughed at was because of the argument that him and his mother had right before he ran away. With most panic attacks for Leroy, he does not like being infront of people. When he feels anxiety creeping, his first instinct is to go somewhere with no one around to feel safe. Leroy no longer has contact with either of his parents and doesn’t like explaining to anyone. If anyone knew in his life asks about his past, he tries his best to avert the conversation as smoothly as he can. When someone asks about his past it almost feels like a personal attack. Leroy is trying to still learn how to show more vulnerable sides of himself. He is very closeted and has questioned his gender. Thinking he might be a trans female. Something he hasn’t admitted to anyone. Leroy is also bisexual but doesn’t talk to much about it. Overall, Leroy is sarcastic, cynical, playful, funny, defensive, and broken.