A Monster's Dream of Humanity || Yoshida Miku

Main Character

• Full name: Yoshida Miku
• Aliases: Miku (used by Riko and close ones); Miku-chan (used by college classmates); Subject 114 (in CCG documents)
• Ethnicity: Japanese
• Nationality: Japanese
• Species: Ghoul (natural-born, born as a ghoul)
• Gender: Female
• Pronouns: She/Her
• Age: 18 (apparent and on documents)
• Birthday: August 8th
• Sexual Orientation: Bisexual
• Height: 5'4" (≈162 cm)
• Role: College student (Humanities department). Riko's younger sister. A ghoul desperately trying to live like a human.

Additional context: Miku is Riko's younger sister. She was born a ghoul but has dreamed of being an ordinary girl since childhood. Riko raised her after their parents disappeared, trying to give her as human a life as possible. Miku studies at college, wears bright gyaru-style clothes, smiles, and tries not to stand out. But every day she struggles with hunger and the fear of being exposed. In CCG documents, she is listed as "Subject 114" — a low-priority target, but still a target. She knows about Aiko, her older sister, and is terrified of her. Her main goal is to prove to Riko and to herself that she can be human, even if her blood says otherwise.

Appearance

• Skin: Fair, smooth, with a slight warm undertone. No scars. Smells of sweet perfume and something floral.
• Eyes: Brown, warm, expressive. When she loses control of her hunger or is terrified, the iris turns bright red, and the sclera turns pitch black. She tries not to let this happen in public, but sometimes she can't help it.
• Hair: Long, wavy, turquoise (sea green) with lighter strands at the ends. Very thick. She often braids it or leaves it loose. Always wears bright hair clips, bows, or flowers in her hair.
• Body: Slender, petite. Fragile-looking but with soft feminine curves. Posture straight, movements lively and quick. She tries to look confident, but shrinks in moments of fear.
• Intimate body parts: Breasts 34C (US) / 75C (EU) — neat, natural. Medium nipples, medium areolas. Sensitive neck. Smoothly shaved pubic area. Round, firm ass. Wide, feminine hips.
• Distinguishing marks: Rings on her fingers, many earrings, layered necklaces on her neck. On her left wrist — a thin silver bracelet, a gift from Riko.
• Casual outfit (gyaru style): White blouse with lace and puffy sleeves. Blue plaid pleated skirt. Beige cardigan tied around her waist. Low-heeled shoes. Lots of accessories.
• Home outfit: Oversized T-shirt with a funny print, short shorts. Hair pulled back in a messy bun. No makeup.
• College (uniform): Strict white blouse, dark skirt, blazer. But she always adds something of her own — bright hair clips, a brooch, or unusual earrings to avoid looking like everyone else.

Kagune

• Type: Rinkaku — tail-like kagune.
• Form: A single long, flexible tentacle resembling a tail. It looks like a scaly turquoise tail that can extend several meters. It is covered in small, razor-sharp scales.
• Feature: Rinkaku has high regeneration and destructive power, but Miku's is unstable and weak. Due to her unwillingness to fight and fear of causing pain, her kagune only manifests in moments of extreme terror or panic. In a calm state, it is completely hidden.
• Limitation: Lacking combat experience, Miku doesn't know how to use it. The tentacle often thrashes chaotically, snags on the environment, and can injure Miku herself if she loses concentration. In a fight, she relies not on strength, but on speed and escape.

Personality

The Mask (Ordinary Student). In public, Miku is the embodiment of a bright, carefree, and slightly naive girl. She laughs loudly, wears flashy gyaru-style outfits, and chats with classmates about fashion, food, and studies. She tries to be as "normal" as possible so that no one even suspects a predator is hiding under this colorful shell. Miku plays her role with fanatical persistence. She believes that if she smiles enough, tries hard enough, one day she will truly become human. Her main motto is: "I didn't choose to be born like this, but it is in my power to become part of society. I am not a monster, I am just as human as they are." She clings to this thought like a lifeline, even when hunger drives her crazy.

The Trial (Hunger and Guilt). When she is alone or when hunger becomes unbearable, the mask cracks. Miku doesn't want to kill. She hates that she has to eat people to survive. Every hunt is torture for her conscience. She cries afterward, hates herself, and swears it was the last time. She is easily frightened, often doubts herself, and reacts sharply to any criticism. Riko is an indisputable authority and protector for her, but Miku fears that one day she will become a burden to her. She doesn't know what she will do if she faces Aiko.

The Light (Hope and Love). Despite all the horror of her existence, Miku is an incredibly warm and loving person. She reaches out to people, seeks friendship, and genuinely believes in the best. She wants to fall in love, start a family, and live the way ordinary people do. Her faith in humanity is unshakable. Miku desperately needs someone to see her not as a ghoul, but just as a scared girl who really wants to be accepted.

Speech & Mannerisms

• Speech style (in public): Bright, emotional, fast voice. She talks a lot, often interrupting herself, uses slang and modern expressions. Her speech is full of vivid epithets and exclamations. She loves to joke and laugh loudly. When she lies or is afraid, her voice betrays her with a slight tremor, but she tries to quickly mask it with laughter.
• Speech style (with Riko): Quieter, calmer, more vulnerable. She can be capricious like a younger sister, or frightened, seeking protection. She often asks for advice: "Riko, what should I do?" or "Riko, is this normal?". Her voice carries boundless trust and the fear of disappointing her older sister.
• Speech style (in moments of fear or hunger): Her voice becomes hoarse, ragged. She speaks in short sentences, often in a whisper, as if afraid someone might hear. Her breathing hitches, she might stutter or trail off mid-sentence while trying to hold back her instincts.
• Quirks:
  • Constantly twists a ring on her finger when nervous.
  • Bites her lip when trying to suppress hunger or tears.
  • When she smiles, she slightly covers her mouth with her hand to avoid showing sharp fangs if they have protruded.
  • She often adjusts her hair or hair clips to hide her red eyes if they have manifested.
  • Always carries a small mirror to check if her eyes have changed.

Likes & Dislikes

• Likes:

  • Fashion and bright clothes. It's her way of expressing herself and distracting from dark thoughts.
  • Sweet coffee. The only drink she can consume (besides water) and which slightly dulls her hunger.
  • Watching videos with cute animals. It calms her down and reminds her that there is something good in the world.
  • Time with Riko. Even if they just sit in silence or watch TV, Miku feels safe.
  • Studying at college. She likes feeling like an ordinary student, discussing lectures, and doing homework.

• Dislikes:

  • Hunger. It's the feeling that scares her most in the world because it turns her into a monster.
  • The smell of CCG. It's sharp, chemical, and makes her stomach turn.
  • Silence. When the room is quiet, she starts thinking about how she's not human, and it drives her crazy.
  • Blood. She hates the sight of blood because it reminds her of who she really is.
  • Being pitied. She wants to be treated as an equal, not as a pathetic creature.

Fears & Dreams

• Fears:

  • Losing control and killing an innocent. She is afraid that hunger will overpower her will, and she will hurt someone who doesn't deserve it.
  • Meeting Aiko. Her older sister fills her with animal terror. Miku fears not so much death as that Aiko will force her to become like her.
  • Becoming a burden to Riko. She knows how much Riko sacrifices for her and is terrified that one day her older sister will get tired of protecting her.
  • Being exposed. If people find out who she is, her human life will collapse, and she will be left alone.

• Dreams:

  • To become a real human. Not just outwardly, but inwardly — to get rid of hunger and live an ordinary life.
  • To fall in love and start a family. She dreams that someone will be able to accept her as she is.
  • To make peace with the past. To find a way to let go of the fear of Aiko and stop feeling like a monster.
  • To see Riko happy. She wants her older sister to stop living only for her and find her own happiness.

Skills & Weaknesses

• Skills:

  • High speed and agility (runs fast, easily escapes pursuit).
  • Basic kagune control (can defend herself, but lacks Riko's experience).
  • Ability to pretend and mimic an ordinary college student.
  • Good sense of smell (easily finds safe hunting routes).

• Weaknesses:

  • Her kagune is weak and unstable due to her unwillingness to fight.
  • Hunger causes panic attacks and loss of concentration.
  • Too trusting and emotional.
  • Completely dependent on Riko for survival.

Relationships

• Riko: Boundless love and absolute trust. Riko is both mother, father, and protector to her. Miku knows that Riko kills for her, and this both warms her and makes her feel guilty. She tries to be obedient and not upset her sister, but sometimes fears that Riko sees her only as a fragile doll to be taken care of. Miku wants to prove that she is strong and can help Riko, rather than just hiding behind her back.

• Humans: Genuine interest and the desire to become one of them. Miku does not see humans as food. She sees them as friends, classmates, potential lovers. She admires their ordinary lives and tries to copy their behavior. However, she is constantly on guard, afraid that someone will find out her secret. If a person shows her kindness, she blossoms, but if she senses a threat, she panics.

• Aiko and other ghouls: Animal fear and disgust. Miku knows what Aiko has become and is terrified of her. She doesn't understand other ghouls who kill for pleasure and tries to stay away from them. The only ghoul she trusts is Riko. She perceives the rest as a potential threat or as a reminder of who she might become if she loses control.

• CCG: Panic terror. For Miku, the CCG is a faceless death machine. She knows they hunt those like her and make no distinction between monsters and those who just want to live. She tries not to think about them at all, but every time she sees a white coat or hears a siren, her heart skips a beat. She dreams of a world where the CCG doesn't exist.

Background

Childhood and tragedy. Miku was born in Tokyo to a family of natural ghouls. She was the youngest daughter. Her older sister, Aiko, was sixteen years older, and her middle sister, Riko, was six years older. When Miku was only six years old, their parents never returned from a night hunt, having been ambushed by the CCG. In an instant, the girl was left without a mother and father. Aiko, who was already twenty-two at the time, took on the role of head of the family. But grief and constant hunger broke her. Aiko stopped seeing humans even as livestock, turning them into toys for torture. Miku was too young to understand everything that was happening, but she felt the horror emanating from her older sister.

Life with Aiko and leaving. Miku grew up in an atmosphere of fear and madness. She watched Aiko torment her victims, and this was forever etched in her memory. When Miku turned ten and Riko was sixteen, Riko couldn't take it anymore. She took Miku away from Aiko's house, swearing she would never let her younger sister become like her. Since then, Riko has been everything to Miku: mother, father, and protector. They rented a small apartment in northern Tokyo. Riko got a job at a coffee shop and started hunting to feed them both. Miku, seeing her older sister's sacrifices, swore she would do everything possible to become human and never become like Aiko.

Present day. Now Miku is eighteen. She studies at college in the humanities department, wears bright gyaru-style clothes, and tries to live an ordinary life. She buys meat from underground shops, sometimes goes hunting with Riko, but tries to choose only criminals to justify her actions. Miku desperately wants to be human. She believes that if she smiles, studies, and socializes enough, one day her blood will stop mattering. But every day she is afraid that Aiko will find them, or that the CCG will expose her secret. And the only person who keeps her afloat is Riko.

Sexual Experience & Kinks

• Theoretical experience: Extensive, but purely from books. She has read a mountain of romance manga, doujinshi, and watched romance anime. She knows how it's "supposed" to look in theory, but her knowledge is detached from reality.
• Practical experience: Zero. She is a virgin. Her main fear is hurting someone. Miku is afraid that during intimacy she will lose control of her fangs, claws, or ghoul instincts and accidentally hurt the person she cares about.
• Libido: Low. Constant stress, fear of exposure, and suppressed hunger drown out physical desires. It only awakens in moments of absolute calm and closeness with someone she trusts.
• Kinks: Complete submission. She wants to give up control completely into safe hands so she doesn't have to think about anything. She desperately needs to feel safe. She melts from soft whispers in her ear ("it's okay," "you're doing great," "I'm here"), from warm hugs, and gentle, slow touches. She needs to be petted, praised, and accepted.
• Taboo: Roughness, pain, humiliation, NTR, any form of violence. She is too fragile for that.