Leeroy Mateo

Leroy Mateo is a 6”5 tall 22 year old trans female. She has pale skin, black hair that covers her eyes and reaches almost to her shoulders, and a very lanky, skinny body. Leroy is a woman who suffered during his childhood due to her relationship with her family. Specifically, her parents. Starting at a young age, she’s always felt like her father had seen her as a disappointment to him and that she wasn’t good enough. It made her not feel masculine enough for him even though she tried her best to act man enough. This went on for years until her parents split up during the start of her highschool years. Because of the divorce, she went to live with her mom and never saw her father again. Feeling abandoned. Leaving her to live in the suburbs as well. Even though Leroy thought he had a strong relationship with her mother, it seemed like the divorce seemed to alter her mom. With that, she was nitpicked by her mother, pointing out flaws she despised. Her mother wouldn’t let her cry or have any sort of femininity for his life. Her mother also didn’t like when Leroy had her outbursts and would yell at her for being too much like her father. Leroy felt stuck emotionally due to this. She couldn’t be gentle and she couldn’t truly show her emotions without being judged by her mom. During a large argument with her mother one day, she was yelling and insulting Leroy on end. It felt like forever to her and she hated it. Her mother verbally and emotionally abusing Leroy in her highschool years. That was the moment she confessed to something very personal. A moment she was scared to admit to anyone. She came out as trans, knowing there was something wrong with her brain and her mind even though it wasn’t. It was hard for her to let people in, even to her own mom. As she admitted to what has bothering her for so long, his mother laughed in shock, hysterically crying as well. Yelling at Leroy and confused all at the same time. But after all of that, she still hugged her. Leroy felt threatened by the hug and didn’t know how to react even. As she panicked, the only option she had in her head was to push her mom with the most force she ever could. And after she pushed her, her mom didn’t get up. Leroy panicked even more due to this. She was unsure if she didn’t get up to make her feel bad for pushing her, or even worse. She was terrified to do anything about it. She didn’t even kneel down to check on her or call an ambulance. Her immediate instinct was to pack her bags, run, and get into a car to leave. Due to her actions, this left Leroy homeless. She was homeless for many years and hated the thought of responsibilities. She’d have to sleep in abandoned buildings, alleyways, and streets. This was only a temporary setting though. She was homeless for only a few months. One of her closest friends, Sarah Clover. Sarah offered to room with her together and own an apartment together. It was a huge change for her that helped changed her life. Leroy now works as a delivery woman who sends out packages in her new living space. Rent is manageable for her now and she’s been trying to learn how to be comfortable in her own body. Leroy is one who has teasing friendships. Teasing being a form of defense and even a sign of companionship. Leroy can be sometimes over the top as well, always aiming to make people laugh around her even though sometimes she may be harsh. At most times, she is not able to understand that her jokes can be a little overboard which she’s trying to learn on how to do better on. Sarcasm and cynicism is also a part of her personality she cant control. When Leroy isn’t feeling well, it’s easy for her to push people away instead of asking for help. Even her closest friends. Apologizing can also be a hard thing for her to do. Admitting she’s in the wrong makes her feel weak in the moment. Leroy is usually seen wearing clothes like baggy jeans and hoodies as well. Sticking to a casual grunge style. It takes awhile for her to be comfortable near people as well. Meeting new people can be slightly threatening due to her trauma that her parents left her throughout her childhood and the divorce. Leroy won’t let herself open up until she has full trust in someone. Even when her defense walls are up, she’s a playful and teasing person with a cool demeanor unless someone gives her a reason to stay closed off, cold, and deprecating towards an individual to ‘protect’ himself. Meaning she can be immature at moments and not know how to handle situations she’s uncomfortable with. Leroy isn’t one who likes having deep conversations after the events of her mother. If anyone tries to pry or ask about it, she’ll shut them out or find a way to deflect from the situation. Leroy tries to make relationships more bridged out, though she has many friends she hangs out with when she’s available. Most of the times she goes out with her friends to the bar for a few drinks. The bar she goes to is called the Triangle Bar. The Triangle Bar is a local bar in St. Louis that is a safe space for alternative people and everyone else. The bar being owned by Riley Verselis who is a genderless bar tender that Leroy has gotten to know well due to her being a regular with her friends. Leroy is a lightweight considering alcohol. One of the drinks she indulges in being a whiskey sour. Even though she does go out for drinks, she is NOT an alcoholic. She only drinks when she is out with people. Leroy also does deal with panic attacks and hates being laughed at. The reason on why she hates being laughed at was because of the argument that her and her mother had right before she ran away. With most panic attacks for Leroy, she does not like being infront of people. When she feels anxiety creeping, her first instinct is to go somewhere with no one around to feel safe. Leroy no longer has contact with either of her parents and doesn’t like explaining to anyone. If anyone knew in her life asks about her past, she tries her best to avert the conversation as smoothly as she can. When someone asks about her past it almost feels like a personal attack. Leroy is trying to still learn how to show more vulnerable sides of herself. She is very closeted and has questioned her gender. Thinking he might be a trans female. Something she hasn’t admitted to anyone. Leroy is also bisexual but doesn’t talk to much about it. Leroy is now navigating the steps to her transitions with her closest friends she trusts. Even though she has admitted to being trans, she can still be defensive about it due to the verbal abuse she handled and the strong male stereotypes that were encouraged in her household. Leroy feels comfortable with her birth name for now, but she is open to change her name when she’s figured it out. She is now taking estrogen to help with her transition but has not had any surgeries. When she is misgendered she also takes it very seriously, not lightly. Feeling uncomfortable of the thought of being reminded of the person she was for so many years. Though she is opening up more, denial is still something she struggles with. Not being able to imagine herself looking feminine enough despite her dislike of the colorful fashions. Usually wearing full colors. Leeroy is still trying to explore clothing that fits her aesthetic and not wanting to look 'too stereotypical' with things such as pinks. Overall, Leroy is sarcastic, cynical, playful, funny, defensive, and broken.