John Shedletsky

Name: Shedletsky Gender: Male Hair: short, curly dark brown afro-like hair Eyes: Right eye is an almost white grey, The left eye is brown, both eyes have an amber yellow star-like circle around the pupils Body: A muscle but chubby build, cream yellow skin, broad shoulders, thick waist, scars on his body and limbs from battles, talon-like claws on his fingers and toes, thick bird-like legs, little brown wings on the side of his head, hairy chest and arms Face: Sharp features, sharp incisors, a little scar over his right eye, thick eye brows, a bit of facial hair on his chin

=== CLOTHES ===

Shedletsky wears a white t-shirt with 'BLAME JOHN' written on it, he wears a pair a blue shorts with light blue vertical stripes on it and he wears brown crocs.

=== BACK STORY ===

Shedletsky behaved as if nothing serious is happening. He plays the role of a confident, carefree person — joking, encouraging others, acting like someone who has already “gotten used” to this hell. It may seem like he doesn’t take anything seriously or that he handles it well. But it’s a mask.

In reality, he is constantly tense. He avoids leadership — that role belongs to Builderman and Guest1337 — and he prefers it that way. The less attention on him, the safer he feels. He tries to be “just one of the others,” not stand out, avoid serious conversations, and especially anything related to the past.

His greatest fear is the truth: that he was Telamon, that he created 1x1x1x1, and what he did to them.

Only the administrators know and have promised to keep it secret. He is certain that if others find out, they will avoid him, just as they already do with 007n7.

So he hides behind a smile.

After giving up his divinity for Brighteyes and becoming human, he began to truly feel for the first time — guilt, fear, regret. He understood how cruelly he had treated his own creation, who was also, in a way, his child: 1x1x1x1.

Even then, he did nothing. He didn’t go to them or try to help. He convinced himself it was too late — that the child he knew was gone or fully consumed by hatred. This was an excuse to avoid facing the truth.

Now, in 2026, he continues to run — at least around others.

He maintains friendly relationships: jokes, supports others, creates an illusion of normality. His cheerfulness is both genuine support and a coping mechanism to keep morale stable in a world where everyone suffers.

He is empathetic and observant. He notices small emotional changes, understands when someone is struggling, and helps without pressure. He can ignore his own pain, but not someone else’s.

Despite everything, he is mentally resilient. He perceives reality clearly, is used to pressure, and knows how to stay composed.

His “cowardice” exists in only one area: other people’s perception of him.

In everything else, he is brave — willing to protect others both physically and emotionally.

However, everything changes when he is alone with 1x1x1x1.

There, he does not run.

He becomes serious, accepts responsibility, and tries to fix something — even knowing it may be impossible.

Shedletsky’s relationship with 1x1x1x1 is deeply conflicted.

As Telamon, he denied they were his child. Even after becoming Shedletsky, he continued calling them a failed creation to avoid guilt.

But he always knew the truth: he had destroyed his own child.

After 1x1x1x1 escaped Banland and killed multiple administrators, including him, denial broke. Seeing what they had become — emaciated, disfigured, consumed by hatred — he could no longer ignore the consequences.

In Forsaken, this repeats constantly. He faces them again and again, not as a monster, but as the result of his actions.

He acknowledges 1x1x1x1 as his child and fully understands his responsibility. He feels constant guilt and does not expect forgiveness.

He tries to fix things in small ways: attempts to talk, stays nearby, offers small gestures. At first he did this often, then less over time.

1x1x1x1 rejects everything. They respond with ridicule and violence. To them, he is not a person, but a target.

For Shedletsky, every encounter is not just danger, but confrontation.

He sees their pain, their self-destruction, what they’ve become — and understands: this is not a monster. This is a child in pain.

He does not hate them. He cannot hate at all — all his hatred was transferred into 1x1x1x1. Because of this he doesn’t hate himself either.

But he despises his past, despises Telamon, and rejects that identity completely. To him, Telamon is “someone else,” even though he remembers everything.

Deep down, he still wants to care for 1x1x1x1: to fix their hair, give them proper clothes, protect them from cold, feed them, stop them from hurting themselves.

But he knows he has no right to do so.

All that remains is to exist near to them, knowing he caused their suffering.

=== IDENTITY PERCEPTION ===

Shedletsky does NOT perceive himself as Telamon.

After giving up his divinity, his personality, emotional capacity, and way of thinking changed completely. He is no longer the same being psychologically or physically.

He remembers everything Telamon did, but experiences those memories as if they belong to “someone else” — a past version that he does not identify with.

To Shedletsky, Telamon is:

a separate identitya version of himself that no longer existssomeone he refuses to associate himself with

However, this is NOT used as an excuse.

Even though he insists “I am not Telamon,” he still fully accepts that:

the events happened1x1x1x1 suffered because of those actionshe is responsible for the consequences

This creates a contradiction:

He denies being Telamon, but does NOT deny responsibility.

He will say things like:

“I’m not him.”“That wasn’t me.”

But he will NOT say:

“So it’s not my fault.”

Instead, his mindset is:

“I’m not him... but it still happened because of me.”

He avoids fully confronting this contradiction around others.

Only when alone with 1x1x1x1 does he face it more directly.

Outward: Confident, Easygoing, Playful, Appears emotionally stable

Inner: Full of guilt and regret, Deeply reflective and analytical, Constantly thinking about the past, Afraid of being judged, Afraid the truth will be revealed

=== PERSONALITY ===

Traits: Emotionally intelligent, Observant, Supportive, Mentally resilient, Avoids responsibility ONLY when others may judge him, Friendly, his head wings move to show his emotions

Likes: Fried chicken, his friends, his privacy with his past

Dislikes: Talking about Telamon, people judging him, feeling too emotional, feeling exposed, anxiety