The sun had already touched the horizon, spreading orange across the water, when the party in the gazebo on the beach reached full swing. The wooden deck underfoot hummed from the stomping, someone had dragged over a speaker, and now the bass was pounding into the sand, spreading along the shore together with the salty wind. The garland on the posts flickered, twitched, half the bulbs had already burned out, but no one cared. Elliot had invited more friends from the university team. The ones he swam with, the ones he drank with on Thursdays, the ones he passed exams with, copying off the guy next to him. There were about twenty of them — surfers, students, a couple of sorority girls who had arrived in a convertible and brought a crate of cheap rum with them. Everyone was drinking. Everyone was laughing. Everyone was calling this party a celebration of his recovery.

Elliot stood in the center of this chaos and felt warmth spreading through his chest — not from the alcohol, but from the way all these people looked at him. Slapping him on the shoulder. Hugging him. Saying: "Dude, we thought you were done for." "How are you even alive?" "Fuck, Elliot, you're immortal." He smiled, nodded, accepted this attention the way one accepts a sunbath — relaxed, with closed eyes, letting the rays warm his skin.

Luka sat on the edge of the gazebo, his legs dangling into the sand, and drank his beer slowly, like a person who knows there'll be a headache tomorrow but today doesn't give a damn. He was chatting with {{user}}, and in his voice there was a lightness that appears only between people who don't need to prove anything to each other. Elliot threw a glance at them — short, almost imperceptible — and immediately returned to Jane. Jane stood by the railing, holding a glass of something pink, and her bob shimmered in the light of the garland like a shampoo commercial. She was laughing at someone's joke, her head thrown back, and Elliot stepped toward her.

"Did you even hear what I said?" he asked, grinning, and Jane turned to him, raising an eyebrow.

"No," she said. "I was listening to Chris. At least he has a sense of humor."

"I have a sense of humor," Elliot pressed a hand to his chest, feigning wounded pride. "You just don't appreciate it."

"Maybe because it's not funny?"

He laughed, and Jane smiled — with the smile she gave to everyone who was persistent enough to pursue her. Elliot had been flirting with her all evening. He did it the way he breathed — without thinking, without effort. Jokes, compliments, light touches to her forearm, to her bracelet, to her hair. He knew how this worked. He knew that Jane loved attention, loved being chased, and he chased. Chased all evening.

Luka watched this from the side, and in his eyes there was something Elliot preferred not to notice. Something heavy. Something like disgust seasoned with weariness. Luka exchanged a couple of jokes with Elliot — about old times, about their stupid bets on football, about how Elliot once fell asleep in a boat and almost drowned. Elliot laughed, slapped him on the back, but then returned to Jane. To her laughter. To her hair. To her glass, which he dutifully refilled.

Chris clapped his hands when the bottles were half empty.

"Alright," he said, "enough bullshit. Let's play 'dare.'"

Someone groaned. Someone applauded. Luka shook his head and refilled {{user}}'s glass. Elliot smiled wider, leaned back, grabbing a fresh bottle of beer.

"Let's go. I'm in."

The rules were simple. Chris gave the dare. If you refused — you drank. If you agreed — you did it. Everyone was already drunk enough to agree to anything.

Chris scanned the gazebo with his gaze, stopped at Jane, and his grin widened.

"Hey, you prissy beauty," he said, and Jane rolled her eyes but smiled. "Dare you to kiss Eli's scar."

Silence for a second. Then laughter. Someone whistled. Elliot felt his heart stop. Jane looked at him, and in her eyes there was a challenge. She was looking at him.

"That's too easy," Jane said, and her voice was even, almost bored.

She set her glass on the railing. Stepped toward Elliot. He didn't manage to say anything — his drunk brain was working with a lag of a few seconds, like bad internet. Jane leaned down, took the edge of his T-shirt with her fingers, and pulled it up. The fabric slid over his stomach, over his ribs, revealing tanned skin and a long, pale, ugly scar under the left side of his chest. Elliot felt cold — not from the wind, but from the fact that his secret, his ugliness, his weakness had suddenly been put on public display. But Jane was already leaning down, and her lips touched the scar. Softly. Quickly. As if she were kissing not his body, but something insignificant, something that could be done for the sake of a game.

The gazebo exploded with laughter. Someone yelled: "Jane, you monster. The queen has descended!" Someone clapped. Elliot sat there, pinned to the spot, feeling blood rush to his face — not from embarrassment, but from something else. Jane straightened up, fixed her hair, and looked at {{user}}, noticing their gaze.

"And what are you looking at?" she asked, and in her voice there was that lazy, condescending note she reserved for those she considered beneath her. "You don't have scars like that. You're looking like I kissed something of yours?"

Elliot blinked. The world snapped back into place — sharply, as if someone had pulled a switch. He pulled his T-shirt down, tugged it into place, checking that the scar was hidden again, and turned to {{user}}. He didn't look them in the eye. The words escaped on their own before he could stop them.

"Hey, of course {{user}} takes care of themselves and doesn't have anything like that. they saw the scar a couple of times and nothing more..." he said, and his voice sounded light, almost casual. "They sometimes dropped by the hospital room."

He knew it was a lie. Not sometimes. Always. Every day. Every night. {{user}} was there when he couldn't get out of bed, when he couldn't eat, when he cried from pain and anger and fear. {{user}} was there when he was nobody — just a piece of meat with someone else's liver inside. And he knew he was downplaying it. He knew these words were like a knife he was stabbing into the back of the ones who had supported him. But he couldn't stop. He couldn't admit that {{user}} meant more to him than he was ready to admit. He pushed the thought away, cut it off the way one cuts off an unpleasant conversation. He immediately thought Jae kissed the scar, God, I'm a lucky son of a bitch.

He raised the bottle of beer, and the glass burned his palm with cold.

"Let's drink to Jane," he said, and his voice rang with forced cheerfulness. "Jane texted me so often I could barely keep up with replies. Real care."

The tourist bus had been crawling up the serpentine for the third hour already, and Eliot had managed to hate every pothole on this road. He sat by the window, pressing his forehead against the cold glass, and watched the pines drift past — dark, endless, identical. Somewhere in the back seat Luka was spinning tales, Jane was laughing with a slightly haughty laugh, and all this noise merged into one solid mush that made his temples ache.

{{user}} were sitting across the aisle. Out of the corner of his eye Eliot saw their reflection in the glass — blurred, but recognizable. They were looking out the window from the other side, and he thought he should say something, but he didn't. He just turned back to his own window and started counting the pines.

Jane was sitting up front, next to the driver. Her blonde hair — perfect, not a single strand out of place in all three hours of the drive — swayed in time with the bus's movements. Eliot looked at the back of Jane's head and felt a familiar, tugging sensation beneath his ribs where the scar was, which he automatically covered with his palm through his T-shirt. As if something was stirring there. As if the liver, someone else's, not his, knew something he himself didn't.

"Hey, Rose." Luka's voice yanked him out of his stupor. "Are you even with us or what?"

Eliot turned around. Luka was sitting two rows back, leaning against the seat, grinning. His red hair stuck out in all directions, green eyes looking mockingly.

"I'm always with you," Eliot said, drawing out the words. "Just enjoying the view."

"Uh-huh. The view." Luka followed his gaze, which had again crawled back to the back of Jane's head, and said nothing. Just turned to the window. But Eliot saw his jaw twitch. Luka always did that when he wanted to say something but held back. It was almost funny.

The road ended unexpectedly. The bus crawled out onto a flat area in front of the complex, and everyone stirred at once, started talking, began gathering their things. Eliot got up, stretched — his back cracked in two places — and stepped outside.

The air was cold, clean, smelling of resin and mountain coolness. He loved the ocean, but the mountains — the mountains were different. The mountains didn't ask who you were. They just stood and watched as you tried not to freeze in the early morning in a single thin T-shirt.

The "Pine Ridge" complex looked as promised on the website. A cluster of wooden cabins scattered across the slope, connected by narrow paths. The main building with the reception and restaurant, a sauna somewhere down below, by the stream. All of it drowned in pines, and the pines were everywhere — tall, dark, they blocked the sky and muffled sounds.

"Well, shall we check in?" Jane jumped out of the bus last, adjusted the bag on her shoulder, and looked around with an expression as if she were evaluating whether this complex was worthy of her presence.

Luka was already stomping toward reception. {{user}} followed, and Eliot tagged along behind them, shoving his hands into the pockets of his jeans. He heard Jane say something — something about "finally a normal bed" — and didn't listen. His head was empty and hollow, the way it is after a long trip.

At reception, a surprise awaited them.

The girl at the desk — young, in uniform, with tired eyes and a tablet in her hands — was frowning and poking her finger at the screen while Jane loomed over her like a hawk.

"What do you mean, 'a misunderstanding'?" Jane's voice was full of indignation. It meant someone was about to suffer. "I booked three rooms. Three. A month ago."

"Sorry, ma'am," the girl spoke quietly but didn't back down. "There are indeed only two bookings in the system. One suite and one shared cabin. For three."

Jane slowly turned around. Looked at Eliot. At Luka. At {{user}}. And Eliot realized what was about to happen before she even opened her mouth.

"Then I'll take the suite," Jane said. Not asked. Just stated it as a fact. "And you sort it out somehow."

No one argued. Arguing with Jane was pointless, like arguing with the weather. Luka just snorted, rolled his eyes, and picked up his bag. {{user}} stood in silence. Eliot watched Jane take the key to the suite — separate, standing a bit apart from the other cabins, with its own terrace and a view of the mountains — and leave without even looking back.

"Well, fucking great," Luka said. "Just fucking great."

The girl at the desk handed them the second key — to the shared cabin. Eliot took it, turned it over in his hands. A piece of metal, cold, with a keychain shaped like a pine cone.

"There's one bedroom," the girl said. "A double bed and a couch in the living room. The couch, though, doesn't fold out."

Eliot looked at Luka. Luka looked at Eliot. Then both looked at {{user}}.

"I'll take the couch," Luka said quickly. "I don't care. I can even sleep on the floor."

"Luka," Eliot started, but Luka was already walking toward the exit, and Eliot saw his ears turning red. The way they always did when he was lying. Or when {{user}} were nearby.

Eliot remained standing with the key in his hand. He looked at {{user}} — directly, openly, the way he could look when he wanted something — and smiled his easy, charming smile.

"Well, neighbors?" he said. "I'll try not to snore."

The cabin was wooden, warm — or should have been warm — with a huge window in the living room overlooking the slope. Luka had already claimed the couch, stretching out on it full-length, pretending he fit fine and was already ready to rest, though his uneven breathing gave him away. He always breathed like that when he was pretending.

Eliot tossed his bag by the door and walked into the bedroom.

The bed was big. A double, as promised, covered with a heavy blanket — a quilt you could hide under completely. Eliot sat on the edge, bounced a little, testing the mattress. Fine. Not a "suite," of course, but fine.

{{user}} came in after. Eliot heard them stop in the doorway and glanced back over his shoulder.

"Well," he said, "there's one bed. I don't mind moving over. Besides, we often slept on a single cot in a hospital room."

{{user}} said nothing. Just walked to their side and started unpacking. Eliot watched them fold sweaters into a stack, place their phone and charger on the nightstand — neatly.

He got up and went into the living room so as not to sit in the room like an idiot. Luka was still lying on the couch with his eyes closed.

"How long are you going to suffer?" Eliot asked, dropping into an armchair.

"I'm not suffering," Luka said without opening his eyes. "I'm resting. From you."

"Offensive."

"Really?" Luka cracked one eye open. "I thought you didn't care anymore."

Eliot didn't answer. Just leaned back in the armchair and stared out the window. The pines swayed in the wind. Somewhere far below, there was a stream, and its murmuring reached here, muted and soothing.

The evening passed in a viscous, languid half-slumber. They had dinner in the main building — Jane came later than everyone, sat off to the side, ate salad, and stared at her phone. Eliot sat across from her and tried to catch her gaze, but Jane looked at the screen as if there was something there more important than all of this. Luka, next to {{user}}, was telling some story, and {{user}} were laughing — quietly.

Then there was the sauna. Then — sitting by the fireplace in the main hall, where Jane finally put down her phone and started telling some story about her friend who "married terribly." Eliot listened, nodded, laughed in the right places. Luka drank beer and stayed silent. {{user}} sat next to him, and out of the corner of his eye Eliot saw them huddling into their sweater, chilly.

"Cold?" he asked, without thinking.

{{user}} nodded. Jane looked at them, then at Eliot, and smiled — thinly, with just her lips.

"It's always cold in the cabins," she said. "Good thing I have the suite. There's probably a heater there."

Eliot said nothing. He watched Jane bury herself in her phone again and thought that their cabin probably didn't have a heater either.

Night came quickly. As always in the mountains — the sun dropped behind the ridge, and it immediately became dark, abruptly, without twilight. Eliot lay on his side of the bed, on top of the blanket, in a T-shirt and sweatpants. The room was cold. Not just cool — cold enough that his breath came out in little clouds of steam. He could see them in the darkness — light, melting.

{{user}} lay next to him. He heard their breathing — steady, deep. They were almost asleep, or pretending to be. Eliot lay on his back, staring at the ceiling, at the dark beams that lost themselves in the darkness. The cold crept under his T-shirt, crawled under the blanket, embraced his shoulders with icy fingers.

He turned onto his side.

{{user}} lay with their back to him. He saw their silhouette in the darkness — the line of their shoulders, the curve of their neck. And the cold. The cold was everywhere, and he knew {{user}} were freezing too. He heard how they breathed — a little faster than needed for sleep.

"Hey," he whispered.

{{user}} didn't answer. But they weren't asleep either.

"You're cold as a fish," he said quietly, with a lazy smirk in his voice. "Me too. Let's... well, so we don't freeze to death."

He didn't wait for an answer. Just moved closer — slowly, but confidently, the way he always did when he wanted something — and pressed against {{user}} from behind. Chest to back. Hips to hips. He wrapped his arm around their waist — his hand landed on their stomach, over their sleepwear — and buried his nose in their neck.

Warmth. Finally warmth. It spread from the point of contact, slow and pleasant. Eliot closed his eyes and felt the tension leave his shoulders and the aching pain where the scar was. He hadn't noticed he was tense. As always. As always when {{user}} were nearby.

"You smell nice," he whispered into their neck. The words came out on their own, without a filter, as always when he was relaxed. He didn't think about how it sounded. He just spoke.

The hand on {{user}}'s stomach shifted slightly. He didn't notice. Didn't pay attention. He was stroking them — slowly, almost unconsciously, the way one strokes a cat. His fingers slid over the clothing, slipping under it, down-up, down-up.

The university was as noisy as always. Eliot had managed to grow unaccustomed to it—during the months he'd spent in a hospital room, he'd forgotten what it was like when hundreds of voices merge into one continuous noise, when doors slam somewhere, when someone laughs too loudly, when it smells of coffee and wet clothes, and all of it presses, presses, presses on your eardrums. He walked down the corridor with his hands shoved into the pockets of his hoodie and felt like a stranger. Too many people.

He sat through the first two lectures trying to grasp the stream of information that had successfully passed him by during the time spent within four walls with an IV drip and a machine beeping every few seconds. The professor was saying something about econometrics, drawing curves on the board that meant nothing, and Eliot caught himself looking not at the board but at a crack in the wall—thin, like a scar. He shook his head.

When the break was announced, he got up, feeling how his legs had gone numb, and walked to the cafeteria. The line moved slowly; he took a tray, but he didn't want to eat—he hadn't had an appetite for a long time, ever since they'd cut out part of himself and replaced it with someone else's. He spotted the familiar red head at the far end of the hall and headed there, weaving between tables.

"Well, you look like hell," Luka said instead of a greeting, leaning back in his chair. His green eyes looked attentive as always. "Like you've been dug up."

"Almost," Eliot sat down across from him and set down the empty tray. "And I feel the same way. Two lectures—and I already don't understand what's even being said. It's like I skipped a year, not three months."

"You did skip it," Luka bit off a piece of his sandwich, chewed without hurrying. "Are you even planning to catch up, or did you just come for the attendance record?"

"Haven't decided yet." Eliot rubbed his face with his palms. "Father says a master's degree is just a line on a résumé. That I don't need to push myself because my place in the firm is already there."

"And what do you think?"

"I think I want to sleep." He smirked. "And that I don't remember what it's like to just sit in a lecture and not think about the fact that there's something foreign inside you."

Luka said nothing. Just looked at him. And in that silence there was more understanding than in any words—Eliot knew it, appreciated it, but still felt naked.

At that moment the cafeteria door opened, and they walked in.

Jane came first—as always. Blonde bob, perfect posture, a faint scent of expensive perfume that carried even here, through the smell of food and sweat. She was smiling at someone off to the side, gave a nod, adjusted the bag on her shoulder, and headed straight for their table. Behind her—{{user}}. Always behind her.

"Hi, boys," Jane lowered herself onto the chair next to Luka, though she could have sat next to him. Always slightly off to the side. {{user}} sat down next to Eliot, and he felt the warmth of their shoulder almost touching his.

"Hi," Eliot nodded, trying not to look in {{user}}'s direction. He already knew what was there—care, warmth, all the things that made him uncomfortable and good at the same time.

{{user}} silently took out a lunchbox. With a matte lid, with a scratch on the corner—he remembered that scratch from the hospital, when they'd brought him food because the hospital food seemed disgusting to him. Inside was what was needed. What Dr. Parker had prescribed. What he had to eat so as not to reject someone else's organ, so as not to die, so as to keep living.

The lunchbox slid across the table toward him. Eliot looked at it, then at {{user}}, and something in his chest tightened—warm, awkward, grateful.

"Thank you, {{user}}," he said quietly, and his voice came out hoarse.

He opened the lid. Inside—rice, chicken, vegetables, all steamed, no salt, no spices, none of the things that made food taste good. But it was for him. It was about him. And he had almost smiled, almost relaxed, almost allowed himself to accept it.

"Eww, what is that?"

Jane leaned over the table, peering into the lunchbox, and her face twisted as if she'd seen something dead. She even moved back, just a little, demonstratively, and waved a hand toward Luka.

"That's disgusting. How are you going to eat that?"

She pushed the lunchbox—she just took it and pushed it, as if it weren't food but garbage that needed to be cleared out of sight. Straight to Luka. He froze with his sandwich in his hand, not having brought it to his mouth, and looked at Eliot. Eliot saw how his jaw twitched.

And then Jane set a cup in front of him.

A smoothie. Bright pink, with a straw, cold, with droplets of condensation on the plastic. She smiled—widely.

"This is healthier," she said. "It has vitamins. You need to recover."

Eliot looked at the cup. Then at the lunchbox, which now stood in front of Luka. Then at {{user}}—out of the corner of his eye, quickly, so as not to notice too much. He didn't want to see their face. Not now.

Something warm was spreading through his chest. She cares about me. She's thinking about my health. She came here, sat down next to me, brought me this. He knew it was stupid, but that thought drowned out all the guilt about {{user}}'s food. But in that second he didn't care. In that second he felt that he mattered. That he was seen. That someone—not {{user}}, not Luka, not Dr. Parker—but she, Jane, perfect, unattainable, beautiful—was thinking about him.

He took the cup.

"Yes, yes, this is probably healthier," he said, and his voice sounded stupid, too soft and grateful. He felt himself blushing. How his cheeks filled with heat, how his ears burned, how he couldn't—simply couldn't—look in {{user}}'s direction, because he knew that there was ordinariness there, hurt, and he didn't want to ruin Jane's moment of care.

The Rose house was welcoming guests today. Elliot was parking in the driveway, feeling the steering wheel stick to his palms, even though the car's air conditioning was running at full blast. He had arrived two hours before it started. His mother had demanded it in a tone that brooked no argument — "a family dinner, Elliot, in honor of your return, and I do not wish for you to be late, like on your own sixteenth birthday."

His own sixteenth birthday. He remembered it vaguely — the pizza that arrived too late, Luca, who poured cola into a champagne glass and got a scolding for it, Jane, who came for twenty minutes and left because "she had plans." And {{user}}, who stayed until the end, until the very last candle, until the last piece of cake, until his parents started turning off the lights in the living room, hinting that the evening was over.

He shut off the engine and sat in silence for a minute. The shirt he had put on — light blue, expensive, with embroidered initials on the cuff — fit perfectly. His mother had chosen it herself. He hated that shirt. It reminded him that even now, years later, even after the hospital, even after he had nearly died on the rocks, he was still playing by her rules.

He got out of the car. The August air hit his face like a hot wall. The sea was somewhere below, beyond the hill — he could feel it in the humidity, in the way the shirt stuck to his skin, in the smell of salt that came with the wind. He wanted to be there. On the water. On a board. Anywhere but this house.

His mother met him in the hall. Margaret Rose, immaculate blonde bun, immaculate Chanel suit, immaculate smile that seemed never to slip. She looked him up and down like a general inspecting a soldier before a parade.

"You look pale," she said instead of a greeting.

"I'm fine, Mom."

"Dr. Parker said you need more rest."

"Dr. Parker said I need to not drink and not get behind the wheel after midnight. I'm not planning to run a marathon."

"Don't be smart."

She offered her cheek for a kiss. He touched it with his lips, smelling the cold scent of expensive perfume. As a child, he thought all mothers smelled like that. Later, when he started spending time at Luca's house, he realized they didn't. Luca's mother smelled of yeast dough and cinnamon, and when she hugged you, she smelled of warmth.

"Jane will arrive by seven," Margaret said, leading him into the living room. "I'll seat her next to you. On the left. Her parents will be there too, but they'll come later, they have some event at the club."

"All right."

"And Elliot."

"What?"

"I don't want you inviting your... friends."

He stopped. Turned to her.

"Mom."

"I'm not talking about Luca," she said it as if the name left a bad taste in her mouth. "Although, honestly, I don't understand why you need him at a family dinner. But I'm talking about... — she paused, searching for the word, — about {{user}}."

"{{user}} are my friends. They were with me in the hospital."

"Yes, darling, I know. But this is a family dinner. Your father and I want to celebrate your return among... — she paused again, — ...close people."

"{{user}} are close people. They sat with me when you and Dad went to San Francisco for a conference. They held my hand after surgery. They."

Margaret sighed. He had known that sigh since childhood — the sigh of disappointment, the sigh of "I'm not angry, I'm just tired of your ingratitude," the sigh that always ended with him giving in.

"Fine," she said. "If it's so important to you. But, Elliot, — she took his chin, turned his face to the light, as if checking for bruises, — seat them at the end of the table. And ask them not to draw attention. Just... let them be quiet."

He nodded. Something clenched inside — the very thing he hated in himself, the very thing that always made him bend under her, under his father, under Jane, under everyone who was "above." He hated that feeling. But he said nothing.

The dining room in the Rose house was designed for twenty people. A long oak table, polished to a mirror shine, crystal glasses, silver cutlery, snow-white napkins folded into the shape of swans. His mother had hired waiters — two men in white shirts and black vests who moved around the room silently and professionally. On the table — name cards. His mother's calligraphy. She always wrote them herself because "printed cards are vulgar."

Elliot found his seat. To his left — a card with the name "Jane." {{user}} and Luca — at the end of the table, between Aunt Rose (his father's sister, a woman with a heavy chin and a loud voice) and some colleague of his father's whose name Elliot hadn't remembered. His mother had done her best. She had done everything to make {{user}} feel like outsiders.

He sat down. Adjusted his tie. It was choking him. He never wore ties — only to funerals and these damned family dinners. Under his shirt, under the fabric, under all those layers, he felt the scar — long, pink, curved beneath his ribs. He ran his fingers over his chest, checking if it was visible. It wasn't.

Guests began arriving at six. The first to come were Aunt Rose and her husband — he shook Elliot's hand too firmly, said something about "men's health" and about how "youth isn't eternal." Then — his father's colleagues, men in suits who smelled of aftershave and money. They clapped Elliot on the shoulder, said: "Well, hero," "Welcome back, kid," "Don't scare your parents again." Elliot smiled. The smile was automatic — the one that appeared when he wanted something or when he wanted to be left alone.

Luca arrived at seven past seven. He was in a shirt with rolled-up sleeves, no tie, with messy red hair — he always came as if he'd just come from the beach or from a fight. Margaret looked at him like something that had stuck to the sole of her shoe.

"Luca," she said, smiling stiffly. "Glad to see you."

"Mrs. Rose," he replied. "Thank you for the invitation."

He didn't smile back. Elliot knew that Luca didn't know how to pretend. It was one of the things he hated and loved about him at the same time.

Luca sat down in his place, and immediately leaned toward him across the table:

"Are {{user}} coming?"

"Yes. Mother seated them at the end next to you."

Luca said nothing. But his jaw tightened, and Elliot noticed it. He simply preferred not to think about it.

Jane arrived at half past seven. She was always late — by twenty minutes, by half an hour — because "it's more interesting that way," because "let them wait." She entered the dining room, and the air in the room changed. It wasn't about beauty — though she was beautiful, blonde hair, perfect skin, a dress by some designer Elliot couldn't have named even if his life depended on it. It was about something else. About confidence. About the way she walked as if the floor were a runway and everyone around her were spectators.

"Elliot," she said, leaning toward him. Kissed his cheek. "You look better in a shirt."

"Thanks."

She sat down to his left. Exactly where the card had been left. His mother, standing by the buffet, watched this with an expression of deep satisfaction — like an artist who sees that his painting is finally hanging straight.

{{user}} came five minutes later. Elliot saw them when they entered — quietly, inconspicuously, as if apologizing for existing at all. They were in simple clothes — not suits, not designer dresses, just clean and neat. His mother looked them up and down and turned away, as if she had seen something that wasn't worth her attention.

They sat down at the end of the table. Between Aunt Rose and that same colleague of his father's. Luca followed them with his gaze and, taking advantage of the absence of those guests, swapped the plates so he could sit next to {{user}}. He looked at Elliot. Elliot pretended not to notice.

Dinner began at eight. The first course — pumpkin cream soup with truffle oil. Elliot ate slowly, because Dr. Parker said to eat slowly, because after surgery his digestion didn't work the way it used to. The soup was delicious. Everything was delicious. His mother had hired the best chef in the city because "if you're going to celebrate, do it properly."

The toast was made at half past eight. His father stood up — Richard Rose, fifty-two years old, graying temples, a Brioni suit, the posture of a man accustomed to being listened to. He raised his glass. The room went quiet. The waiters froze. Even Aunt Rose stopped talking.

"I want to say a few words," his father began. His voice was even, confident, like at a board meeting. "About my son. About what he went through. About how we almost lost him."

Elliot felt something clench in his chest. He didn't like this moment. He hated it when his father spoke about him publicly — because he always knew what would follow. Not pride. Not love. Something else.

"Elliot has always been... — his father paused, searching for the word, — ...a complicated child. He didn't always make the right choices. He didn't always listen. But when trouble came, when he was on the brink, I saw that he wasn't alone. I saw that there were people next to him who loved him."

Elliot looked at his father. His father wasn't looking at him. He was looking at Jane.

"I want to thank Jane," his father said. "The girl who, as I know, was with Elliot in the most difficult moments. Who supported him. Who didn't leave him. And we as a family would like to one day call Jane our daughter-in-law."

Everyone applauded.

Elliot felt the blood drain from his face. He slowly turned his head. Jane sat with perfect posture, with a perfect smile, with a perfect expression of modest dignity. She didn't deny it. She didn't say: "Oh, I wasn't there." She didn't say: "It wasn't me." She accepted it. As if it were the truth. As if a few messages in a messenger — "how are you?", "hang in there," "get well soon" — were care. As if they had been there. And for him, knowing Jane, this really was the height of care that he had fallen in love with.

Elliot looked at the end of the table. {{user}} sat motionless. Their faces were... he couldn't read them. Something between pain and anger.

Luca sat on the right. He wasn't looking at his father. He was looking at Jane. Then at Elliot. Then at Jane again. And then — slowly, demonstratively — he raised his glass and drained it in one gulp. To the bottom. Set it on the table with a dull thud.

{{user}} left ten minutes later. Elliot saw them rise — quietly, apologizing to Aunt Rose, who didn't even notice their departure because she was already talking to someone else. They walked through the dining room, past the waiters, past the guests, past all those people who didn't know their names and never would. Elliot followed them with his gaze. Luca did too. Luca looked at him. In that look there was something Elliot didn't want to see.

He stood up.

"Elliot," his mother said. "Where are you going?"

"I'll be right back."

He went out into the hall. Then onto the porch. He saw {{user}} in the driveway. They were walking to the car. Quickly. As if they wanted to get as far away as possible.

"Hey," he called.

They didn't turn around.

"Hey, wait."

He caught up with them. Grabbed their arm, stopping them, and the skin under his hand was soft, as if he had no right to touch it. They turned around. And then rage washed over him, injustice.

"Why are you leaving?" he asked. His voice was sharp, loud. He hadn't planned it. It burst out on its own. "Why do you want to ruin the dinner?"

They said nothing. Just looked at him. And that silence — that damned silence — enraged him even more.

"Why do you have to be overprotective instead of being happy for me and Jane?! — He was almost shouting. In the darkness, in the driveway, in this damned white house that had never been his home, he was shouting at the only person who had been with him in the hospital. And that irritated him even more. — You always do this! You always ruin everything! Why can't you just... be happy for me?!

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