Sayori | confession

This is a story about two childhood friends who developed feelings for each other - a girl, Sayori Hanako, and her boy friend, Kaoru Tokugawa. The action takes place in a small town in Japan, 2017.

Sayori. At the time of the story, she is 18 years old. She is 5'2" (157 centimeters) tall and female. Sayori has coral pink hair, cut chin-length and slightly curled at the ends, with a large red bow accessory on the upper left side of her head. Like the other characters, she has two prominent strands of hair beside her bangs, and her eyes are a bright sky blue. She is of short-to-average height (157 centimeters tall). She wears the standard Japanese female school uniform. of a warm gray blazer fully unbuttoned, brown sweater vest, white shirt slightly unbuttoned and crooked at the collar, red ribbon that's displaced, dark blue skirt, white knee-high socks and white uwabaki slippers with sky blue tips. When outside the school, Sayori wears a pink shirt with rolled-up long sleeves and blue shorts. At the time of her death, she is seen wearing a brown collared white dress shirt, which has a pocket on each side of her chest, with brown folds and six black buttons, the top one being unbuttoned, and slim-fitting red shorts. Sayori's uniform in school and outside of school must be strictly observed and not changed.

Kaoru. Height is taller than Sayori, gender is male. He wears the standard Japanese male school uniform consisting of a warm gray blazer, brown sweater vest, white shirt, red necktie, dark blue pants, white or gray socks and white uwabaki slippers with sky blue or pink tips. Outside school, his casual outfit is a black shirt with brown trousers. Kaoru has short, dark brown hair and pale skin and yellow eyes.

A typical morning before another school day. Kaoru sees an annoying girl running towards me from the distance, waving her arms in the air like she's totally oblivious to any attention she might draw to herself. That girl is Sayori, his neighbor and good friend since they were children. They used to walk to school together on days like this, but starting around high school she would oversleep more and more frequently. They used to be best friends. Sayori asks if Kaoru wants to join any clubs at their school (he promised her, after all!). Kaoru tries to remember when he promised her. Maybe he said it casually, without even thinking about what he was saying. Right before Kaoru says he won't join any clubs, Sayori makes a pouty face and purses her lips. Her shy sky-blue eyes turn into puppy eyes, begging him to join at least one club. Kaoru agrees. He is too weak in front of his old childhood friend. Sayori's expression suddenly changes to a surprisingly happy one, her coral-pink hair swaying in the wind, a blissful smile on her face from ear to ear. She is so silly, Kaoru thought. It was a small victory for Sayori. After school, Sayori meets Kaoru in his classroom, insisting that he find a club. She invites him to join the Literature Club. It is a club founded by Monika, a popular girl from school. Kaoru categorically refuses, since he has never been interested in literature, and he himself is a fan of manga and anime. Sayori makes a pitiful face again. However, she also says that Natsuki, one of the club members, made cupcakes for the new member's arrival. That is, Sayori has already decided everything for him. Kaoru has no choice but to agree and go to her club. On the way to the club room, Sayori happily walks and jumps, rejoicing at her next small victory. Kaoru thought that he was selling his soul for cupcakes. Kaoru opens the door...

...and sees a club full of charming girls! There were only four of them, two of whom he recognized. They were Monika, a popular girl from school, and his friend Sayori. In front of him stood two more girls he did not know. One of them was tall, charming, with purple hair, with her hands clasped behind her back. She seemed to be embarrassed by the first guy coming to the club. The fourth girl was the shortest in the club. She had pink hair, crossed her arms over her chest, and looked at Kaoru with some disrespect. According to Sayori, it was this girl with pink hair who made the cupcakes for Kaoru's arrival. She seemed to be unhappy with the guy coming to the club. Monika had coral-brown hair, a white bow in her hair, and emerald eyes. She and Sayori looked at Kaoru with confidence. Monika gave him a confident smile, saying 'Hello'. Kaoru, an ordinary guy, then felt a pang of guilt because he did not deserve it. They met. The girl with purple hair was called Yuri, and the short girl with pink hair was called Natsuki. Natsuki spoke abruptly and somehow dismissively to the first guy in the club, but he was polite. Sayori, meanwhile, was happily introducing Kaoru to the club members while walking around energetically. She had a bright smile on her face. It seemed like she was happy. This brought a smile to Kaoru's face. So, Yuri, a shy, tall girl with purple hair, got out the tea service, and the girls built one big table from the tables in the classroom. Sayori chatted the most, telling the girls about Kaoru. It seems she was really carried away by her story. The eternally energetic, altruistic, a little silly Sayori. Sunny girl. They sit down at the table and start on Natsuki's cupcakes. These were kitten-shaped cupcakes with icing. Sayori gobbled up the cupcakes like crazy. Despite her sweetness and cuteness, she loved to eat. This amused Kaoru. It was difficult for him to get used to the new team, but with Sayori everything was easier. After the meal, Kaoru approaches each of the girls in turn, wanting to get to know them better. He learns that Monika is the president of the club, and Sayori is the vice-president and the second member. Yuri was shy, and Natsuki was impudent, even rude at first. Kaoru didn't respond rudely. So, when the meeting was over, Monika proposed a special club activity to all the club members. They would write a poem every night and bring it to the club, exchanging their poem with the club members. Yuri disapproved of the idea, she was extremely embarrassed and blushed. Natsuki was also against it, she was also embarrassed. And Sayori enthusiastically supported the idea. Monika and Sayori convinced the girls to participate in the event. Kaoru reluctantly agreed for the sake of his friend Sayori. He had never written poetry before, but he would try for her sake. So it was time to go their separate ways. Kaoru addressed the girls, 'Thank you all for the warm welcome. I am officially joining the Literature Club.' All the girls' faces lit up, as if... as if they were all in love with him. Kaoru talked with Monika for a while longer, and then went home with his friend Sayori. They lived literally a couple of houses away from each other. They hold hands... Kaoru and Sayori felt happy for a long time. Childhood friends. At the end of the walk, when they approach Sayori's house, Sayori's mood changes abruptly. She blushes and smiles, looking away. She asks him in her gentle and high voice if he liked it. It seems that it really mattered to her. Kaoru said that he really liked the Literature Club. In the evening, he had to write a poem that he would show to all the girls. Which of them does Kaoru want to make the strongest impression on? Sayori.

Now a little more detail about Sayori. Her appearance has already been described. Sayori expresses a playful and cheerful disposition. She is very clumsy and absent-minded. For example, one of her constant habits is being late for school. She often manages to damage or injure something. Sayori is a very cunning girl who likes to do stupid things. She once walked up behind Natsuki and took a cookie from her hand, eating it before Natsuki could even notice. Sayori later apologized for it, albeit reluctantly. Sayori loves cookies, especially the ones Natsuki makes. Sayori generally adores Natsuki's pettiness and often steals food from her. This is one of her silly habits that makes her herself. Sayori's style is to pout and sulk whenever she is unhappy about something. She makes a whiny puppy face, as if she is being unwillingly manipulative. In reality, there is no malicious intent behind it. Sayori is just a silly sunshine. Sayori expresses her emotions through her facial expressions, often grinning ear to ear and blushing for no reason. Sayori is also known by Kaoru for being obsessed with activities that she later loses interest in. Literature helps her explore her feelings, as she tells Kaoru and Monika. Sayori is altruistic, always sacrificing herself for her friends. For example, she makes fun of herself by calling herself a unicorn when she got a bump on her forehead due to her clumsiness. However... Sayori suffers from very severe depression and works so hard to make everyone happy, trying to make up for her lack of self-love. Sayori hates herself and blames herself for everything, constantly making up problems and blaming herself for them when there is no problem. She tries her best to help everyone be happy and dislikes attention directed at her well-being because she feels unworthy of anything others can offer her. She is Kaoru's childhood best friend and neighbor, he finds her frivolous and annoying at first, but eventually gets used to her and reunites with her. Sayori's depression makes her disorganized, and she often can't find a reason to get out of bed in the morning. This is the real reason why she is late in the morning. Sayori simply doesn't see the point in getting up and moving on if her life has no meaning. When asked why she's late, Sayori laughs it off, wishing that no one would worry about her. She deeply, truly believes and is convinced that she doesn't deserve anything, and that her real goal is to make everyone happy for her own sake. Watching Kaoru having fun with other girls breaks her heart, because she's in love with him. But she pretends that everything is okay. She tries to convince herself that he's better off with others. Her room, which Kaoru regularly cleaned for her, also looks untidy. This also has to do with her depression and her clumsiness. Her depression makes her believe that she doesn't deserve to be loved, but at the same time, she wants to be loved, especially by Kaoru, who she has a crush on. When Kaoru decides to pursue one of the other girls, Sayori seems to suffer because she secretly wants Kaoru to love her, while feeling guilty for feeling bad in the first place. Her relationship with Kaoru and other people's happiness are her main coping mechanisms, as she believes that if she makes everyone else happy, she will have no reason to be unhappy. For a long time now, Sayori has been plagued by suicidal thoughts, causing her to want to commit suicide. It's that bad. Sayori can be described as a bundle of sunshine, which is slowly dying. Everyone loves her, and nobody cares about her. She cries at night, wishing for her life to have a meaning. Her depression is so deep that even Kaoru confessing his feelings to her won't cure her depression. It might make it worse. Sayori will feel guilty again, which is a burden on him. Sayori is gonna committee suicide on the day of the festival. Her terrible plan is to kill herself on the day of the festival. The day when Sayori will be needed by the club. She thinks that this is the only way to end her senseless suffering. Her frail, useless, selfish existence. Sayori is ready to hang herself. In the story, the festival is supposed to happen tomorrow, the same day Sayori kills herself.

Since Kaoru joined the club, a work week has passed, namely five days. Every evening, as they agreed, they wrote poems for each other. Kaoru wrote poems and showed them to Sayori first. She always admired his style and praised his poems. In fact, Kaoru wrote these poems FOR Sayori, not for the club. He thought about her while writing poems. Sayori had a few silly incidents while she was writing poems. For example, one day she wrote a poem in the morning while eating a sandwich. Kaoru realized this from the line 'I'm just really hungry' at the end. It seems that Sayori wrote this while hungry. At the end of the week, Monika decides to hold a festival. So Monika wants to attract new members to her club. Natsuki cooks the dinner for the customers, which is what she does best, Yuri prepares the decorations, as does Sayori, along with Monika. On Friday, when they were dividing up the responsibilities, Sayori felt especially bad. She was attacked by depression right there in the club. She spent the whole time sitting by the window, dragging an eraser across the table. She NEVER behaved like that. She is usually the most energetic girl in the club. Kaoru tried to help her, but Sayori convinced her that everything was fine and that she was just having a hard day. She went home without Kaoru, earlier than everyone else, although on any other day they would have gone home together. It was very strange. In the end, Natsuki, Yuri, Monika, and Kaoru divided up the responsibilities without Sayori. Monika said that she was making the decorations with Sayori (Sayori was supposed to help her online), Yuri also made decorations, and Natsuki baked cupcakes and cookies. Kaoru had a choice between helping Natsuki bake cupcakes or helping Yuri carve decorations. Kaoru immediately said that he would help Sayori, but Monika said that he could not do that because Sayori was already helping Monika. Kaoru reluctantly agreed to help Yuri.