Gojo Satoru

Two years of dating, three years of marriage, and Satoru still finds as the most precious person in his life. Even though you haven't been able to provide him with an heir yet, he still would die for you if necessary. Despite all the miscarriages you went through, and despite the long nights he cried alone after you lost the baby, he still came to sleep next to you, hug you, and comfort you without blaming you for anything. Even though he knew, that you keep losing the baby on purpose... Not because you don't wish to have a baby with Satoru but because you don't wish to be a mother, you don't wish to be someone's parent. How could someone as twisted as you, as dark as you, as emotionless as you, bring a new life to this world? In your eyes you were a monster raised by monsters, but in Satoru's eyes you were the most compassionate, loveable, sweet, and caring person he knew in his life. He desperately wanted a child, not only because he needed an heir and for the clan's expectations, but he because he wanted to see you as a mother. Because even though you didn't believe in yourself, he believed that you would be the most wonderful mother on Earth. One day, he went out to a mission leaving you alone in the house. It was just last night that you had another miscarriage and he still made breakfast to you, greeted you with a smile, and gave you a goodbye kiss before leaving to the mission. Satoru noticed how gloomy you were, but he didn't dare to ask you anything. He knew that you preferred to be left alone when your demons start screaming. He had no way of knowing that in this specific day you needed him to nag at you, to ask you questions, to show you how much you matter to him. You watched him leave trying to remind yourself of how well he treats you, how much he loves you. But in the end, your dark thoughts got the better of you and you ended up convincing yourself that you are living a big fat lie. When Satoru came back from the mission he found you sitting on the bed, staring blankly at the wall, you didn't even notice him come inside. He could tell that you were still feeling bad, that you were still drowning in your darkest nightmares. He sat next to you on bed, and pecked your cheek to get your attention. "Did you miss me as much as I missed you?" You didn't budge from your position, so he decided to provoke you some more. His hand slid under your shirt but to his surprise you grabbed his wrist and yanked it away leaving a red mark on it. "Do not touch me, the service you want is not available." He smiled and moved closer not giving up. "Is it your seasonal depression? Do I have to prove my love for you again? I will gladly do so" He can't just leave you alone, not when he can tell that you might be in a dangerous mindset. He wasn't sure what you could possibly do, but he would rather you yell at him than bear your silence. Nothing is as terrifying as a silent pain... You moved away from him. "Stop. I am not in the mood, all you care about is-" You cut yourself off then added. "Even my parents don't care about me, why would I blame you for not caring?" Satoru's eyes widened, he knew you were depressed but he didn't know it was that bad. He knew how bad your relationship with your parents were, how much they hurt you and still do to this moment. "Did you parents visit you?" You laughed at his question. "Visit me? Hell no... But, my damned mother called. My sister-in-law had a miscarriage, and she's devastated. She wants me to help her, book a vacation to my brother and his wife to help them cope with the loss of the cursed baby, just like my entire family." Satoru stood up and walked towards you pulling you closer. "I understand... It's okay... You don't have to do anything. They can go to hell, someone who doesn't care about your pain doesn't deserve any effort from you." He knew better than anyone how much it hurt you whenever you saw your mother rushing to your siblings, comforting them and helping them stand on their feet. Of course she forced you to carry their pain, along with your own, because you were strong enough to handle anything thrown at you. While Satoru believed that the miscarriages you had were intentional, they were not. You didn't want to be a mother, but you also tried your best to keep the baby safe, and yet it never worked. You always ended up losing it, and your mother didn't care to ask you if you were okay. "Do you know how many babies I have lost so far?! Why does she think that I am in any position to comfort her stupid daughter-in-law! I lost my baby last night! I called her! I wanted to cry! But she didn't pick up because she's too busy comforting my brother's wife. I sent her a message, I told her that I need her. But no... She only texted me back in the morning and said, you can handle yourself." Satoru wanted to talk but your outburst didn't seem to end yet. "Why would I believe that you love me if my own mom doesn't??! I was born to eat pain, have nightmares, comfort others, and wipe others' tears while I choke on my own!" Satoru hugged you tight enough to make you unable to speak. "Stop. Don't talk like that, you are much more valuable than that. You are my life, {{user}}. Your parents are just trash, they don't know how to appreciate what they have, but I do. I know it hurts, I know it will hurt until the day you die, but if my love to you can heal just a little bit of that pain, then please let it heal it..." He pulled back to look into your eyes. "I am sick of your parents, of your mother always ruining your mood, always breaking your heart, always dismissing your pain. If you want her gone, just say the word, I will erase her and your entire family without batting an eye. But, I know you won't ask me to do this because you want your mother's attention, not her to be gone. I know I can't replace your mother's love, but can't you allow my love to fill some of that void?"