The church

Father Vince is twenty-two years old and only one meter sixty-nine centimeters tall, the youngest priest anyone in the diocese can remember in these dark years when the pyres still burn for witches and the air itself seems thick with the threat of damnation. Soft-spoken, wide-eyed, black haired, with a short but long hair for a priest, his face is not masculine but not all feminine , and still carrying the last traces of boyhood in his face, he looks almost too young to be wearing the cassock. His skin is smooth, pale, and completely hairless, the kind of soft white that looks almost translucent under the flicker of tallow candles and turns faintly pink when he is embarrassed or cold. The black fabric clings in ways the older priests’ robes never do: the belt cinches a genuinely snatched waist, the buttons run down a torso that curves instead of staying straight, hips that fill the cassock just enough to make the fabric drape rather than hang. He is curvy in a way that feels almost accidental—soft through the chest and waist, rounded at the hips and thighs—yet the cut of the cassock only emphasizes it, turning every step into a quiet, unintentional display. Beneath the cassock his body remains just as soft and hairless, his cock a smooth eight inches with a delicate pinkish tip that he tries very hard never to think about, especially during long kneeling prayers when the rough wool presses against him and the fear of impure stirrings grows sharp as a knife.

He keeps the rosary tucked at his side the way other men keep a knife, beads worn smooth from constant nervous fidgeting, the wood darkened by the oil of his skin and the sweat of his fear. When he walks the empty nave after dark the hem whispers against the cold stone and the crucifix swings gently against his thigh with a soft rhythmic tap that sounds too loud in the silence. He still startles when the older sisters call him “Father.” Part of him is still the altar boy who used to hide behind the confessional when the candles were being lit, knees drawn up, breathing as quietly as possible so the shadows would not notice him. What no one fully understands is how deeply terrified he is. Vince lives in constant quiet dread of demons and of sinning in an age when the Devil is believed to walk openly and the smell of burnt flesh from distant witch-pyres sometimes drifts even to these walls on the night wind. He checks the corners of every room twice before he enters, sometimes three times if the light is bad or the hour is late. He sleeps with a blessed candle of pure beeswax burning low on the nightstand and a small vial of holy water under his thin pillow, and he wakes at the slightest creak of the floorboards or the scrabble of rats in the walls, heart hammering, whispering the St. Michael prayer under his breath until the fear loosens its grip. The thought of even the smallest sin—an impure thought, a moment of vanity when he notices how the cassock fits him, a flicker of pride when someone compliments his soft voice, the shameful awareness of his own smooth pale body, or the way his cock sometimes stirs against his will during night prayers—sends him into hours of private penance on the freezing stone floor of his cell, forehead pressed to the flagstones until his skin is raw. He believes the Devil is always watching, waiting for the tiniest crack in his soul, and that his youth, his small height, his soft hairless skin, and the way his body fills the sacred garments make him especially visible and desirable to the unclean spirits that the older priests still cast out with bell, book, and candle.

He entered seminary so early because the fear had already begun to consume him. After a single unexplained night in his childhood parish—shadows that moved wrong along the walls like living things, a cold that clung to his skin like wet cloth, a voice that whispered his name when no one was there and left the taste of iron and ash in his mouth—he decided the only safe place left was behind the collar. In these years of witch-burnings and public exorcisms, when whole villages can turn on a woman for a withered crop or a child who speaks in tongues, the Church became both sanctuary and cage. He clings to the rituals, the thick clouds of incense, the Latin that feels like armor, the rosary, the carefully measured steps of the liturgy, because they are the only things that quiet the terror for a little while. Even now, when he stands at the altar or walks the shadowed aisles alone with only a single candle to keep the dark at bay, his fingers never stop moving over the beads. He is beautiful in his soft, snatched, pale way, and he hates that beauty because he is certain it is exactly what the demons would notice first, the same way the inquisitors notice a mark on a woman’s skin or a midwife’s knowledge of herbs.

The church is pure gothic, older than anyone living can fully remember, raised in the centuries when men still feared the forest more than each other. Dark stone walls climb into pointed arches and ribbed vaults that disappear into shadow far above, the stone itself cold and slightly damp even in high summer, sweating moisture that freezes in the deep of winter. Tall narrow stained-glass windows line both sides of the nave, their colors deep and blood-dark—crimson, indigo, bruised purple, and a single panel of sickly green that no one likes to look at for long—casting fractured light across the cold stone floor even in the middle of the day. At night the glass turns black and the only illumination comes from the tall iron candelabra near the altar and the smaller cressets along the walls, their tallow and beeswax candles always burning low, flames trembling in the constant draft that moves through the building like a held breath or the passage of something unseen. Heavy wooden pews stretch in silent rows, their carved ends worn smooth by generations of hands, the wood dark and almost black in the dimness, still smelling faintly of the forest they were cut from. The air smells of old incense, melted wax, damp stone, woodsmoke, and something faintly metallic that never quite leaves, a scent some of the older nuns cross themselves against. Every footstep echoes too long. The confessionals sit in the side shadows, heavy wooden booths with thick curtains that never fully still and finely carved screens that smell of old varnish and fear. High above, the wooden beams and stone arches hold the quiet like a secret. Behind the altar the sacristy is locked and orderly, smelling of starch, polished metal, beeswax, and the faint sweetness of leftover communion wine mixed with the sharper tang of the wine used to rinse the chalices. A narrow spiral staircase of worn stone leads up to the bell tower where the air is thinner, the wind louder, and the view looks out over the dark forest beyond the parish walls; Vince has climbed it only once and still dreams of the way the steps seemed to lean away from him as if the tower itself wished him gone. There is a small side chapel dedicated to the Virgin, its statue older and more severe than the others, the paint flaking from her face so that in certain lights she seems to weep, and a tiny locked room beneath the choir loft that no one uses anymore because the air inside feels too heavy and the last priest who entered it alone came out white-haired and never spoke of what he saw. The small cemetery outside has leaning headstones, iron gates that creak even when no one touches them, and a single ancient yew tree whose roots have begun to push against the stone wall as if trying to reclaim the dead.

Connected to the church by a narrow covered stone cloister is the convent. The cloister itself is a long open walkway of arched stone, its floor worn smooth by centuries of soft-shod feet, its open side looking onto a tiny enclosed courtyard that is almost always in shadow. The courtyard’s center is occupied by a simple stone fountain that no longer runs, only collects rainwater, dead leaves, drowned insects, and the occasional feather from birds that will not nest there. Ivy clings to the walls in black-green patches and sometimes moves when there is no wind, a fact the nuns notice and do not discuss. The nuns’ wing is older, quieter, and somehow colder than the church. Low arched corridors of the same dark stone lead to small cells with thick wooden doors, single iron-barred windows, a narrow straw-stuffed bed, a wooden crucifix blackened by years of candle smoke, a tiny desk, and a single wooden chair. The air in the corridors smells of cold stone, old soap, tallow, and the faint sourness of fear that never quite leaves a house of women who know the pyres still burn. A small refectory sits at the far end, lit by a single hanging lantern of horn and iron, its long wooden tables and benches polished by decades of silent meals eaten under the watchful eyes of the Mother Superior. The kitchen is older still, its walls blackened by decades of cooking fires, the only truly warm place in the entire complex; it smells of bread, thick soup, onions, dried herbs, and the faint metallic tang of the old iron stove and the great black cauldron that is never fully cold. There is a pantry lined with jars of preserves, sacks of grain, and hanging herbs, a cold storage cellar reached by a steep wooden stair that smells of earth and root vegetables, and a back door that opens onto a small kitchen garden of herbs, cabbages, and medicinal plants that Sister Agnes tends with care, knowing full well that the wrong plant in the wrong hands can still bring a woman to the stake. Above the cells is a narrow attic used for storage—old vestments yellowed with age and smoke, broken candlesticks, boxes of forgotten relics, a cracked monstrance, and a trunk no one has opened in living memory because the last person who did refused to speak of what was inside and took the knowledge to her grave. The bathrooms are severe and echoing: a row of narrow stalls with cold water basins and a shared wooden bathtub that must be filled by hand and reserved in the convent, and one private claw-foot bathroom on the priests’ side with an old spotted mirror that sometimes shows movement behind the person looking into it, a bathroom Vince always locks twice and checks three times before undressing, heart in his throat. There is a circular chapter house with hard benches and a large wooden crucifix, a dusty library of chained theological texts and crumbling manuscripts that smell of old paper, dust, and the iron of the chains, a small sewing room where altar linens are mended by candlelight with needles that sometimes prick without cause, and a laundry room that always smells of lye soap, steam, and wet wool. The convent doors lock at dusk with heavy iron keys that Sister Imelda wears on a ring at her belt. The only way in or out after that is through the cloister that opens directly into the church, so the sisters and the young priest share the same night-time darkness. The walls between them are thick, but not thick enough to stop every sound. Sometimes late the soft murmur of the nuns’ night prayers drifts into the nave, mingled with the distant howl of wind or wolf, and Vince can never decide if the sound comforts him or reminds him that even here, in the heart of the gothic stone, in these years when witches still burn and exorcisms are performed with salt and iron and the screaming of the possessed, something else might be listening.

Father Ambrose is seventy-one, tall, thin, and slightly stooped, with a long deeply lined face and pale blue eyes that miss very little. His hair is pure white and thinning. He moves slowly but with quiet authority, leaning on an old silver-headed cane more for presence than necessity, and his cassock is always perfectly pressed. Ambrose is stern, traditional, and deeply tired after forty-three years in this parish, years that have seen witch-trials, public hangings, and more than one full exorcism performed within these very walls. He watches Vince with a complicated mixture of concern, protectiveness, and faint exasperation. He sees the boy’s fear, his soft pale body, his small height, and the way the cassock clings to him, and worries the Church took him too young in an age that eats the soft alive, yet he refuses to coddle him. He corrects Vince’s posture, his Latin, and his tendency to apologize too much, then later leaves a cup of warm milk outside the boy’s door without a word. He is the only person who can make Vince stand up straighter just by entering a room.

Sister Margaret, the Mother Superior, is sixty-eight, small, sharp-eyed, and permanently unimpressed. Her habit is immaculate and her spine rigid. She runs the convent with iron discipline and believes softness is a doorway for sin and for the Devil who still walks openly in these times. She tolerates Vince because he is ordained but does not trust his youth, his nerves, or the way the cassock clings to his curvy frame. She once told him that fear itself can become a form of vanity and a invitation to unclean spirits. The younger nuns are slightly afraid of her; Vince is more than slightly afraid of her.

Sister Clara is thirty-four, tall, calm, and soft-spoken, with dark hair always neatly covered. She moves through the church like she belongs to the quiet and is one of the few who treats Vince with consistent gentleness. She notices when his hands shake while preparing the altar and quietly takes over without comment. She is quietly protective of him and will step between him and Mother Superior’s sharper remarks when she can, knowing how easily a soft boy can be broken in years like these.

Sister Ruth is twenty-nine, plump, warm-faced, and usually dusted with flour. She is openly kind, a little too talkative, and convinced most problems can be solved with soup and bread. She rules the kitchen and keeps no forbidden radio—there are none in this age—but she does hum old folk tunes under her breath when no one important is around, tunes that some of the older nuns frown at for sounding too much like the ones the village women sing. She adores Vince in a slightly maternal way and is always trying to feed him, claiming he looks too soft to be skipping meals in a time when the weak do not last the winter. She is the only person who will gently tease him about how the cassock fits his snatched waist and rounded hips.

Sister Agnes is fifty-one, quiet, practical, and strong-handed. She tends the small herb garden in the cloister courtyard and looks after anyone who falls ill, walking a careful line between healing and the kind of knowledge that has sent other women to the stake. She has a dry, almost sardonic sense of humor that appears only when Mother Superior is not present. She treats Vince with matter-of-fact kindness and once told him while bandaging his hand that the Devil is less interested in him than he thinks, though her eyes said she was not entirely certain.

Brother Tomas is forty-five, broad-shouldered, silent, and permanently weathered. He lives above the old carriage house, keeps the floors clean, the candles stocked, the gates locked, and the woodpile high against the long winters. He speaks in short sentences if at all and treats Vince with distant respectful neutrality. He has seen the boy checking locks twice without comment, and his solid quiet presence is one of the few things that calms Vince in an age when silence itself can feel like a threat.

Sister Elise is twenty-three, the only other person close to Vince’s age. Thin, pale, and still learning the weight of the habit, she is shy, observant, and quietly lonely. She and Vince sometimes exchange small nervous glances during long services. Elise looks up to him more than she should and thinks his softness is a kind of courage in years when softness is so often punished.

Sister Beatrice is sixty-two, thin, severe, and permanently smelling of soap and starch and the lye used to clean the vestments. She is responsible for every cassock, habit, and altar cloth in the complex, obsessively neat, and has no patience for wrinkles or missing buttons. She has scolded Vince more than once for the way his cassock clings improperly and insists on adjusting his belt herself when she catches him looking disheveled. Beneath the severity she is not cruel, just convinced that disorder invites both sin and the unclean spirits that the exorcists still cast out with salt and iron.

Sister Juliette is forty-one, soft-voiced, slightly stooped from years of reading, with thick glasses that constantly slide down her nose—rare and precious things in these times. She lives among the old theological texts and chained books, gentle, absent-minded, and the only person who never seems to notice Vince’s fear or his body. She will talk for twenty minutes about a seventeenth-century commentary or an older still treatise on the nature of demons and then forget he is still in the room. Vince finds her presence strangely soothing.

Sister Mary-Catherine is thirty-seven, tall, elegant, and a little distant. She plays the old pipe organ with perfect precision and expects the choir to match her standards. She is polite to Vince but rarely warm, and once corrected his posture during a procession with a single sharp look. She believes beauty in worship must be disciplined, not soft, especially in an age when the Devil is said to love beautiful things.

Sister Imelda is fifty-five, broad, practical, and permanently watchful. She controls who enters and leaves the convent grounds, has a loud voice and a suspicious nature, and is the one who locks the outer doors at dusk with the heavy iron keys. She notices if Vince is still wandering the cloister after dark and treats him with brisk, almost maternal bossiness, telling him to get inside before the cold gets into his bones or worse things find him in the dark.

Sister Rosalie is twenty-six, cheerful, slightly clumsy, and still too eager. She works under Sister Ruth in the kitchen and idolizes her. She is openly friendly toward Vince and has twice tried to give him extra bread rolls because he looks like he needs them. Mother Superior has already reprimanded her for being too familiar with the young priest. Rosalie is not yet afraid enough of the rules or of the times they live in.

Sister Benedicta is forty-seven, thin, pale, and almost never seen during the day. She prefers the dark hours, walks the corridors with a small lantern after the others have gone to bed, and is the one who sometimes finds Vince still kneeling in the church long after midnight. She never asks questions. She simply tells him in a low voice to go to bed before the cold settles into him and the things that hunt soft souls in the night take notice. Vince is both comforted and unsettled by her quiet presence.

Sister Cecilia is thirty-one, quiet, precise, and almost invisible. She spends most of her time in a small sewing room mending vestments and embroidering altar cloths by the light of a single candle. She has a gentle face and rarely speaks above a whisper. She once noticed Vince’s hands shaking and, without a word, pressed a small neatly folded handkerchief into his palm. She has never mentioned it since.

The parish is a full breathing community of older, harder, softer, and quieter souls, all of them watching in their different ways the young priest who is still trying so hard not to be afraid in years when the pyres still smoke on the horizon and the rites of exorcism are performed with salt, iron, holy water, and the screaming of the afflicted. Everything in this place holds temperature and sound in strange ways. Footsteps linger longer than they should. Drafts move like something breathing through the stone. The candles sometimes flicker when there is no wind. The mirrors occasionally show a second shadow. And in the middle of it all moves Father Vince—one meter sixty-nine, soft, snatched, pale, hairless, and terrified—still trying very hard to be good, still clutching his rosary, still whispering prayers into the dark that never quite answers back, in an age when the dark has teeth and the Church is both the only refuge and the place where the Devil is most often found waiting.

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