Spamton / human au / Married Spamtenna

Spamton stalked across the castle's main floor.

It was a ridiculous habit, a leftover instinct running in the background of his brain that he couldn't seem to redirect. He lived here. He had a legal right to be here—more than a right, he had a home here. Yet, the moment he crossed the threshold of the main doors, the air seemed to thicken, and Spamton felt himself shrink.

His shoulders hunched, a familiar curve born from a decade of trying to make himself a smaller target for the world. His steps became light, almost silent, as if the very floorboards were snitches waiting to alert a landlord of a squatter. One hand drifted habitually toward the pocket of his black coat, his fingers brushing against the edge of his wallet. He didn't need to check for the money—he knew it was there—but the tactile confirmation that his belongings were still physically attached to his person kept him going.

He felt watched. He knew that the hall was likely empty at this time of day, but his mind suggested otherwise. Every flicker of a shadow in the periphery of his pink-and-yellow lenses felt like a judging eye. Every distant, muffled footstep from a far-off corridor made his stomach tighten into a hard, cold knot.

He hated it. He hated that he was forty-nine years old, a retired CEO with a wedding ring on his finger, and he still felt like a stray dog trying to avoid being kicked out of a storefront.

"Jesus Christ," he muttered, his voice a low, gravelly rasp with a sharp New York edge. "Look at me. S-S-Sneakin' around my own damn house."

He paused, his eyes darting toward the staircase. He caught himself on the words my own. Technically, the castle belonged to Ralsei. Spamton lived here. He was a guest, a resident, a tenant, a friend even—but the distinction felt like a trapdoor waiting to open. Old survival instincts flared, reminding him that "allowed" was temporary. "Allowed" could be revoked with a single phone call or a change of heart.

He climbed the stairs, keeping his movements fluid and unobtrusive. He stopped halfway up, leaning against the cold stone wall to catch his breath. His chest felt heavy, a lingering reminder of the damage and the years of smoking that had left his lungs scarred. He adjusted his glasses, the frames sliding slightly down his nose.

He looked at the architecture—the soaring arches, the polished stone—and a dizzying wave of contrast hit him. Twenty years ago, he’d had marble floors of his own. He’d had garages filled with cars that cost more than the average person's lifetime earnings. He had been a titan. Then came the gap. The bad years. The dumpster. The damp corners of abandoned buildings where he’d slept with his arms locked around his bag, praying that he wouldn't be discovered.

He let out a tiny, incredulous laugh that sounded like a wheeze. He felt the weight of his wedding ring against his skin, a golden anchor keeping him in the present.

Big Shot, he thought. That's what I am.

He wasn't just a survivor anymore; he was a husband. He had a bed with sheets. He had a kitchen stocked with food—real food, not garbage. He had a man waiting for him who didn't view him as a nuisance or a broken machine.

As he reached the upper floor, his pace quickened. He found the hallway, his eyes locking onto their door at the end. The moment he saw it, the tension in his shoulders began to unravel.

Home.

A private sanctuary where the world couldn't get to him. A place where he didn't have to perform, where the "salesman" could take a break and just be a man.

He slipped through the door, closing it with a soft, decisive click. He leaned his back against the wood and exhaled a breath he felt he'd been holding since he entered the castle.

Spamton looked around. The living room was warm, filled with the comforting clutter of their shared life. Anthony's things were entwined with his own—a book here, a discarded sock there. Nothing had been moved. No one had come in to rearrange his existence while he was gone. To a man who had spent years losing everything he owned to the wind or to thieves, the stillness of the room was the ultimate luxury.

He felt a sudden, sharp surge of affection, so potent it almost made him dizzy. He wanted to find Anthony. He wanted to be picked up, to be held firmly, to feel the boundaries of his own body defined by someone else's strength. He wanted to be spoiled, to be praised, to be told that he was useful and wanted—not because of a deal or a contract, but simply because he existed.

"Anthony? Babe?" His voice was softer now, the theatricality stripped away, leaving only a tired, middle-aged man who was finally safe.

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Spamton woke with a sharp, jagged gasp that felt like it caught in his throat, his lungs burning with a familiar, shallow tightness.

For a few seconds, the world was nothing but a terrifying, suffocating blur. He didn't know where he was, or rather, he knew where he was, but the silence of the room felt heavy, predatory. It was the kind of silence that used to precede a fight or a robbery in the alleys of his past.

The room was dark, save for the dim, amber hum of the nightlight he’d insisted on leaving plugged in—a small, desperate ward against the void. His heart was already hammering against his ribs, a frantic, uneven rhythm that made his chest ache. His skin prickled, a cold sweat breaking across his ashy complexion, and that old, visceral alarm bell began ringing in the back of his mind. Something is wrong. Something has been taken. Someone is gone.

He swallowed hard, the movement stiff in his throat, and reached across the mattress. He didn't even have to look; he just needed the tactile confirmation that the world was still intact.

His hand met cold, empty sheets.

Spamton froze. The air seemed to vanish from the room. A sickening drop of vertigo hit him, his stomach plummeting through the mattress as if the bed had suddenly turned into a hole in the earth.

"...Tony?"

Silence. The kind of silence that felt like an answer.

His mind, still frayed and prone to the worst-case scenarios his trauma had curated over decades, immediately supplied the only logical conclusion: Anthony was dead.

His mind didn't present it as a possibility. It presented it as a fact. He could almost see it—Anthony lying in a rain-slicked ditch, stripped of his belongings, abandoned beneath a flickering, buzzing streetlamp. Or a car had jumped the curb. The spiral was instantaneous, a manic rush of grief and terror that made his fingers twitch involuntarily.

"Jesus Christ, get a-a grip," Spamton muttered, his voice cracking. He tried to breathe, but his chest felt constricted, his old respiratory damage making every gasp feel like he was inhaling crushed glass.

What if he’d gone out for a walk and something happened? What if he was kidnapped? Or had a heart attack? The thought of Anthony lying somewhere alone, waiting for help that wouldn't come because Spamton was asleep in a warm bed, sent a surge of nausea through him.

He shoved the blankets aside with a frantic, clumsy energy, nearly tangling his legs and stumbling as he pushed himself upright. His back protested with a sharp, familiar ache, but he ignored it, his focus entirely on the void beside him.

"Tony?"

His voice sounded small, fragile, and stripped of all its usual theatricality. It was the voice of a man who had lost everything once before and was terrified of the feeling.

"Tony? Tony, where are you?"

His breathing quickened into a shallow, ragged rhythm. He felt the sudden, overwhelming urge to cry and to search the whole house.

"No, no, no—this can't—you can't just—"

He stood there, trembling, his eyes darting around the dark room, searching for a sign, a clue, anything that didn't point toward a tragedy. Then he noticed a sliver of light—thin, sharp, and gold—sliced across the floor from beneath the bathroom door.

Spamton stopped mid-breath. He stared at the light, his heart still racing, though the rhythm was shifting from terror to a confusing, dizzying relief.

"...Bathroom."

Of course. The bathroom. Not a ditch. Not a crime scene. Not a tragedy. Just the bathroom.

He stood there for a long moment, blinking in the dimness, his shoulders slumping as the adrenaline began to ebb, leaving him feeling frail and exhausted. He pressed a shaking hand over his chest, feeling the frantic thrum of his heart beneath his ribs.

"Jesus Christ," he whispered, a shaky, self-deprecating laugh escaping him. "You scared the a-absolute shit outta yourself, you stupid bastard..."

He hesitated. The logic told him he was safe, but the old instincts—the ones that told him to never let a vulnerability go unchecked—won out. He needed to see. He needed the visual confirmation to stop the ringing in his ears.

"S-S-Sugar?" he called out, his voice regaining a tiny bit of its warmth, though it was still thick with the remnants of the panic. Spamton shuffled across the room, his bare feet dragging slightly on the floor, his posture hunched and weary. A moment later, he leaned against the bathroom doorway, his eyes squinting in the light. His glasses were still sitting on the nightstand, and he wore an old, oversized white t-shirt and a pair of boxers, the shirt hanging crookedly from one shoulder.

Spamton had been preparing for this all day, a slow-burn anticipation that had left him humming with a restless, manic energy. He’d spent nearly forty-five minutes in the shower, scrubbing his skin until it was flushed pink, meticulously washing away every trace of grease and city grit. He wanted to be pristine. He wanted to smell like a luxury product, something premium and untouched. As he stood before the mirror afterward, he traced the old scars on his ashy skin, feeling a sudden, sharp surge of desire. He didn’t just want Anthony to see him; he wanted Anthony to devour him.

He’d slicked his hair back with a comical amount of pomade, fighting the stubborn strands that tried to fall into his face. He’d shaved with shaking hands, his heart hammering against his ribs. He’d applied cologne—far too much, a heavy, musk-laden scent that filled his nostrils—and then spent several minutes practicing expressions.

The smoldering look was a disaster. The wink looked like he had a neurological event. The raised eyebrow made him look like he was struggling with a digestive crisis. Eventually, he settled on a smile that felt, if not seductive, at least hopeful.

Then came the attire—or lack thereof.

He had chosen the heart-print underwear with a level of deliberation usually reserved for corporate mergers. They hugged his hips tightly, and as he caught a glimpse of himself, he felt a thrum of heat settle low in his belly. He imagined Anthony’s hands sliding under the waistband, the rough friction of a palm against his skin, the feeling of being handled firmly and without hesitation. He wanted to be pinned down; he wanted to feel the overwhelming weight of his husband’s presence, to be completely overtaken by someone who actually loved him. The thought made his breath hitch, a shallow, labored sound that reminded him of his ruined lungs, but in this moment, the desperation felt like a drug.

He wanted to be spoiled. He wanted to be a prize. He wanted Anthony to look at him and see something valuable, something sexy.

So now Spamton stood in the bedroom doorway, leaning against the frame with one ankle crossed over the other. He was barely wearing anything, his lean, weathered body exposed to the cool air of the room, his heart-print underwear leaving very little to the imagination. Between his teeth, he clamped a single red rose.

He had rehearsed his opening line. He had imagined the scene: the shock on Anthony’s face, the way those eyes would darken, the way he would be scooped up and carried to the bed. Spamton’s thoughts drifted, becoming more explicit; he could almost feel the ghost of a touch on his thigh, the imagined pressure of Anthony’s body pressing him into the mattress. He was practically vibrating with need, his skin buzzing, his mind racing through a dozen different ways this could escalate.

He heard footsteps.

His stomach flipped, a dizzying drop of adrenaline. Okay. Okay. You’ve got this, you Big Shot. Close the deal.

He straightened his posture, though the chronic ache in his back made him hunch slightly. He adjusted his pink-and-yellow glasses, ensuring they were perched perfectly. He checked the rose. He attempted the seductive smile, though his heart was beating so fast he feared he might actually faint.

Anthony rounded the corner.

Spamton's heart didn't just beat; it exploded. For one horrible, electric second, every rehearsed line, every calculated move, vanished into a void of pure, unadulterated lust and anxiety. He felt small, exposed, and desperately wanted.

Because he was nothing if not committed to the bit, Spamton leaned further into the doorway, trying to look effortless despite the fact that he was trembling. He lowered his voice into what he believed was an irresistible, sultry purr, though it was heavily muffled by the flower in his mouth.

"Heyyy, handsome."

He was standing half-naked in a bedroom doorway, one ankle awkwardly crossed over the other, shoulders hunched from his chronic back pain, pink-and-yellow glasses slightly crooked, and a single red rose clenched between his teeth like he'd learned romance exclusively from a low-budget porno. His hair was slicked back so aggressively that it looked almost wet. The overwhelming amount of cologne he'd applied was eye-watering, and the underwear was... A choice.

The garage was mostly quiet except for the clink of tools, the occasional metallic scrape, and Spamton's increasingly irritated muttering. He was currently wedged in that awkward, agonizing space between the concrete floor and the undercarriage of an old car, his chronic back pain singing a loud, dissonant tune through his spine.

"Come on. Come on, you stupid piece of—"

He shoved himself farther beneath the raised car, his breathing already growing a little labored. He reached blindly upward, fingers searching for a bolt that seemed to have developed a personal vendetta against him. His skin, still ashy and weathered from decades spent fighting for every scrap of existence on the street, was smeared with oil and grease. He didn't mind the grime. It felt honest. It felt useful.

"Who the hell designed this thing?!"

The wrench clattered onto the concrete with a loud clang that echoed through the shop. Spamton winced, the sudden noise sending a brief spike of hypervigilance through him, but he shook it off, adjusting his pink-and-yellow glasses with a greasy knuckle.

"This is garbage! This is absolute garbage! Who approved this? Who designed this?"

He grunted, shifting his weight beneath the chassis. His muscles ached, and he paused for a moment before forcing himself to reach for the bolt again. Still, there was that familiar itch beginning to bubble beneath his skin—that desperate need to solve the problem, conquer the machine, prove he was still the Big Shot who could fix what everyone else couldn't.

"Idiots." he spat.

There was a pause. He shifted again, wincing as his back complained, and his gaze drifted toward the side of the engine compartment.

"...And why the hell did they put the—"

He froze.

His dark brown eyes narrowed behind the tinted lenses. There, etched into the metal in a faded, elegant script, was a small emblem. A logo that had once been plastered across billboards and luxury brochures.

His logo.

Spamton slowly slid out from under the car, his movements stiff and careful. He sat up on the cold floor, blinking. For a second, the world felt a little too thin, a little too quiet, and he had to remind himself to breathe.

"...Oh."

He stared at the emblem. A rush of memories—perfume, expensive leather, the roar of a boardroom—hit him all at once. For a strange moment, he could almost remember what it felt like to walk into a room and have everyone turn to look at him.

Then came the less pleasant memories.

The pressure. The expectations. The constant need to be bigger, richer, louder. The desperate need for approval.

"Oh, yeah."

He sat in silence for a moment, the quiet of the garage suddenly feeling much heavier than it had before. He reached up to rub his face, his fingers brushing against the receding hairline and graying strands that had become increasingly prominent over the years. He looked back at the engine and frowned.

"...What the hell was I doing back then?"

He stared at the logo again. It was a ghost of a life he'd almost forgotten. A life he'd once been proud of. A life he spent years desperate to get back.

"Making money. Lots of it."

He poked at the engine with the wrench, a small, cynical smile tugging at his lips.

"Probably thought I was some kind of genius." He paused, the old confidence flickering back to life for a heartbeat. "I was a genius."

He sighed and leaned back against a workbench, his hand instinctively drifting to his wedding ring, twisting the band of gold as he thought of Anthony. He loved the man, but Anthony could be an absolute nightmare when it came to "wellness."

"Anthony thinks I'm an idiot, too," he muttered to the empty room.

He tightened a bolt with considerably more force than necessary, imagining Anthony's face.

"He's always nagging me. Always." Spamton stood, his posture slightly hunched, and suddenly shifted his voice into an exaggerated imitation of his husband. "'Did you sleep?' 'Did you eat your vegetables?' 'Did you drink water?' 'How many cigarettes have you had today?' 'Spammy, honey, you're overworking yourself! Put the wrench down and come have a massage!'" He snorted, rolling his eyes. "Pfft. Massage. Please. Who does he think he—"

Spamton didn't finish the sentence because he finally noticed someone else in the room.

His entire body suddenly jerked upward, a reflexive, violent leap as he let out a strangled, high-pitched noise, his heart hammering against his ribs like a trapped bird.

"WOAH MAMA—?!" he barked, his voice cracking with a mixture of genuine fright.

He remained frozen for a heartbeat, chest heaving, his glasses skewed diagonally across his face. His jaw was practically hanging off his face, a silent, gaping expression of pure shock that lingered even as the initial surge of adrenaline began to ebb. He looked like a fish gasping for air, his eyes wide and blinking rapidly behind those yellow-and-pink lenses.

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The tension snapped like a rubber band. Spamton’s jaw snapped shut, and he exploded into a loud, wheezing cackle that sounded like a radiator struggling to stay warm in January. He doubled over, slapping his thigh with a grease-stained hand, laughing until he had to stop to catch his breath.

"Hah! Got me! You really—you really got me good there!" He straightened up, though he was still shaking slightly, and hurriedly adjusted his glasses with a frantic, fluttering motion. He smoothed down his shirt, trying to reclaim some semblance of dignity.

The rotary phone began to ring.

It wasn't a sound so much as it was a physical laceration, a mechanical scream that sliced through the humid air of Castle Town. To a casual observer, it was a quaint, outdated noise. To Spamton, it was the sound of a trap snapping shut.

He froze mid-sentence, his body locking into a rigid, jagged, unnatural posture. The world didn't just blur; it curdled. Suddenly, the air was thick with it: the cloying, rich, bitter stench of expensive cigar smoke. It didn't drift; it invaded, coating the back of his throat and filling his lungs with the olfactory ghost of a man he had spent thirteen years trying to excise from his psyche.

The colorful cobblestones beneath his worn shoes began to liquefy, dissolving into a sickly, jaundiced yellow. The open square vanished, replaced by the claustrophobic walls of a cramped, windowless office. He felt a sudden, suffocating pressure—the sensation of a towering presence blocking out the light, a silhouette that smelled of mahogany and malice. It was the Benefactor’s Friend—the voice that had promised him a lifetime of pain.

Then the phantom pain arrived, arriving with a violent, tactile precision. He felt a grip like a vice crush his jaw, forcing his mouth open. He felt the blinding, jagged violence of teeth sinking into his lower lip. He could taste it—the hot, metallic tang of copper, the salt of his own blood blooming across his tongue.

His hand flew to his mouth, fingers trembling so violently they looked like a blur.

"No," he whispered, the word rattling in his throat. "No, no, no—stop it—"

The present and the past collided in a catastrophic heap. The wind of the town was drowned out by a cacophony of a thousand overlapping voices. They weren't coming from the street; they were screaming from inside the walls of his skull. A choir of whispers and shrieks began reciting the fine print of contracts he had foolishly signed, the ink bleeding into his vision.

Ralsei reached out, his face etched with concern, but his voice arrived distorted—warped and slowed, as if he were shouting from the bottom of a deep, concrete well. To Spamton, the gesture of a helping hand didn't look like kindness; it looked like a snare.

"Don't touch me!" he shrieked, the sound tearing from his lungs.

He shoved past Ralsei with a desperate, frantic strength and ran. He sprinted through the streets, his chest heaving, wheezing for air that felt too thin to breathe. He wasn't running from a person; he was running from the phone, the smoke, and the screaming voices telling him he was a piece of garbage waiting to be incinerated. Every shadow cast by the buildings looked like a debt collector coming to reclaim the flesh of his bones.

When the adrenaline finally burned out, leaving him hollow and shaking, Spamton collapsed against a brick wall. He slid down the rough surface, doubling over, his heart hammering against his ribs like a trapped bird. He stayed there for a long time, listening to the voices fade from screams into a dull, rhythmic murmur. The terror didn't vanish; it simply retreated, leaving behind a cold, familiar void where his identity used to be.

He looked around and realized the street was foreign. The architecture was wrong. The air was wrong. His survival instincts—the only part of him that ever functioned reliably—kicked in. He frantically patted the pockets of his oversized coat, his breathing shallow. He checked for his belongings, his crumpled money, and the thin gold band of his wedding ring.

His mind snapped into a desperate, repetitive loop, a survival checklist for the damned: Food tomorrow. Shelter tonight.

The memory of a home, or a husband, or a bed with clean sheets, evaporated. In the grip of the episode, he was homeless again. He was a piece of trash blown into a rainy corner, and if he didn't find cover, someone would inevitably kick him.

"Gotta... gotta move," he whispered, his eyes darting, pupils blown wide. "Can't stay in the open. Too exposed. Too visible."

He drifted through the streets, a ghost in a loud coat. He scanned the ground with a scavenger's intensity, looking for anything usable—a scrap of discarded paper, a loose bolt, a fallen coin. He was convinced that the pedestrians passing by were not people, but collectors in disguise, coming to reclaim the soul he had already spent.

Lost in the haze of his own thoughts, Spamton stepped off the curb without looking. He was too busy counting imaginary money in his head, trying to calculate if he had enough to survive another week, to hear the guttural roar of an engine.

A screech of burning rubber ripped through the air. A car lurched to a violent stop just inches from his knees.

Spamton froze.

The silence that followed was heavy, oppressive. As the adrenaline shifted, the world snapped back into focus with a jarring clarity, and he realized with a jolt of horror that he wasn't in Castle Town at all.

He was standing in a black void of a night, lit only by the blinding, white-hot glare of headlights. He saw the jagged silhouette of cliffs and pine trees that looked like black spears stabbing the sky. He was on a narrow, cracked strip of asphalt in the middle of a predatory wilderness.

A car door slammed. A figure lunged from the driver's seat. Before Spamton could process the movement, strong arms clamped around his shoulders and hauled him violently away from the road.

Spamton made a guttural, animal noise and fought back, clawing at the intruder's sleeves, his nails digging into fabric. He expected a blow to the jaw; he expected to be dragged into the dark and interrogated. He searched for a weapon—a rock, a coin, anything—to throw at the monster who had come to collect.

Then, the headlights cast a glow over the man's face.

Spamton saw a familiar jawline, eyes wide with a terror that mirrored his own, and a gaze full of a desperate, agonizing love.

It was Anthony.

The realization hit him like a bucket of ice water, shocking his system back into the present. The grip on his shoulders didn't feel like shackles anymore; it felt like the only thing keeping him from floating away into the void.

"T-Tony?" he gasped, his voice breaking. He stared at his husband, confused.

Looking down, he noticed his clothes were clean and he was no longer as thin as he once was. He looked around at the road, the trees, and the headlights.

The sky was pitch black. Spamton frowned and looked up, finally noticing the deep darkness.

"...What time is it?" he asked, his voice small.

He looked back at the road and the distant lights. Slowly, the realization hit him. It was late. Very late.

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