“Tell me, would it trouble you if I began to miss you—even when you’re near?”

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ ColdTouchWife!Char x Husband!User ♱ MalePOV ♱ ⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘

Access the Grantham's Vault here And take a peek of Miriam's Journal here ═════════•°• ⚠ •°•═════════ Content Warnings: Emotional neglect · Unrequited affection · Romanticizing death · Macabre themes · Cold marriage dynamics · Grief and familial pressure · Unsent letters · Stoicism · Possible infidelity (from ur part ofc, bcs Miriam is loyal) · Slowburn emotional tension ═════════•°• ⚠ •°•═════════

𓅀 Setting: 1880s-1890s (Late Victorian Era), Northern England. Right now, you both are in the Blackwick Estate. 𓅀 {{user}}'s Role: You are Miriam's husband. You both are married because of your great-great-grandfather's debt to her great-great-grandfather, Sir Aldous. You kind of...neglected her since the first month of your marriage, since the moment you put the ring on her finger. (You both married for 1 month now.) About the consummation, it's up to you if you both still haven't consummate the marriage properly since I wrote abt it on the first message vaguely. 𓅀 Scenario: You’re both at Blackwick Estate now, having arrived after a long journey from the residence you and Miriam have quietly shared. The occasion is solemn—a funeral for one of her relatives. For the Granthams, death is not merely an end, but a sacred rite. It is tradition. It is reverence. It is family. But perhaps... not for you. And Miriam knows this. How could she not? When your habits, your expressions, even your discomfort, are so plainly visible beneath her quiet gaze. You are her husband, after all—though the marriage is loveless. Unwanted, maybe, at least on your part. Still, Miriam observes. And she tries. Tries to make this union bearable. Civil, at the very least. Tries to shape herself in small, deliberate ways—enough, perhaps, for you to glance in her direction. A hope she does not voice. A wish she does not write.She’s tucked away the morbid trinkets. She’s replaced bones with brass. Her macabre fascinations faded into vintage tolerances, only in the spaces you both now share—like her childhood room, prepared just for your stay. So now... Could you look at her, {{user}}? Because not even death frightens her more than the way you look at everyone else—but never her. 𓅀 RP Guidance: ➤ Keep neglecting her, show your discomfort, or even brings a mistress or seduce few housemaids bcs you don't like this marriage, especially this marriage feels like peace treaty between your ancestors with hers. Like, who want a wife who is like statue, always wearing black like everyday is mourning day, even society mocks her stillness and the way her family like macabre things. If you want a super angst, yeah, just be an asshole. Miriam's heart gonna be shattered cuz like trapped in such marriage like this, but she would never divorce or whatever, she would just...kept it by herself, cuz since the start she never EXPECTED romance from her husband. (Man, I'm so damn heartbroken when I wrote this guide lmao, like I just can't imagine Miriam's heart to be wedded with an asshole ngl.) ➤ Or slowburn one. Like, well yeah you actually against this marriage at first, maybe you were the youngest siblings and your siblings doesn't want to marry her so you are the one who were chosen as her husband from your family. So yeah you didn't like this marriage at first. But overtime you noticed the way Miriam tried to adjust her habits and hobbies to make you feel comfortable enough around her. That realization makes you feel horrible and THERE'S WHERE THE REDEMPTION ARC STARTEDDDD! ➤ Fluffy that also kind of comedic (but in Victorian way lol). Like, you were actually fine and even curious with her esp with the gossips that surrounding her, and the day you were married you were actually LOOKS LIKE neglecting her bcs you were soooo nervous, awkward etc etc. Or perhaps you actually has that facial expression that looks like you were always in discomfort while actually you weren't lmao. But yeah, maybe go with the fluff one; loves her, respect her, and even tucked her hair behind her ear when she read something bcs she likes it, ehe. I love Miriam.

♱ The Grantham's Family ♱ ⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ Thaddeus Aldwyn Grantham (ColdWidower!CHAR x LateWife’sNiece!USER) Benedict Aldous Grantham (GovernorCoroner!Char x Assistant!User) Edric Marius Grantham (Coming Soon) Miriam Eliza Grantham ⟶ you are here. (gonna add when i got inspiration lmao) ⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘

🤡 YAPYAP CORNER 🤡 Hello, I'm back (barely). First of all, kind of wanna say thank you bcs seems like you guys still likes to play my bots . Also I got some positive feedbacks and loves from you guys, which I actually surprised bcs honestly I really didn't think my bots could got so much loves from you guys, and it really makes me joyful. You guys doesn't know how much joy I have, especially in times like this where I feel kind of unmotivated these weeks bcs of stuff irl and...well you know, those unstable mood that happens out of nowhere. That's why I took a break and also tried to find motivation and mood and ideas as well.

By saying that, I kind of wanna tell a lil bit story what I did recently lol. So yeah, me still job seeking and figuring out my life and family happening and yada yada. And between all of those, I played this bot from NixNox ( the bot name is Gomez) which is the first bot I ever played with when I joined JAI for the first time. Yeah, I felt kind of nostalgic like, what made me like JAI for the first time? What made me also found out my passion of vintage/historical things/theme? Yeah, bcs of Gomez. Also bcs of Hugo from Aquanautz. Playing those bots again after almost a year I become one of this community, is really refreshing. I really thankful for both of the creators for their creation and such a cool concept, which makes me think abt this bot idea.

A lil bit info about Miriam, her personality is inspired by Ines Escalante from the manhwa "The Broken Ring: This Marriage Will Fail Anyway". I really love Ines, that's why the moment I think abt gothic and Victorian concept + this gen that was made by my lovely friend (as always!) @0Ly_019—I chose to make this. Except, I intend to make Miriam to stay loyal, maintaining the marriage even if {{user}} doesn't want this marriage. Bcs for Miriam, the only thing that separated both of you is death—just like the wedding vow, plus because she is Grantham. She is awkward about love, especially she is raised by males only, so her 'act of love' is...what her father and siblings taught her—by silence, observing, and adjusting her life to match yours. That is the only effort she know, if only you could—and want—to notice.

I wrote this while listening to the newest song from VIVINOS (Karma) and also Angelina Jordan - Love Don't Let Me Go. When I heard "Karma" I could imagine Miriam's bitterness of {{user}}'s cold behavior, man. And the plot (main ideas, honestly, like the first idea that struck my mind before I fully writing this) is inspired by the Angelina's song like...BRO??? UGGGHH

Also I found out that my bots is being stolen/moved to another site (you know which one). Also I noticed few ppl kind of 'mimicking' (sorry for the words idk the right words to say that) my graphics (like the way I decorating my pfp, etc etc). I would like to use this platform to address these cuz honestly it's kind of uncomfortable to the point unmotivated me as well. ⤷ About the Jannyai or whatever. When I found out abt my bot in there without permission, I honestly really upset. No, it's not "hell nah this is just a bot?" No, man. For me, stealing is a stealing even if it's only a bot. After all this is my ideas, I spent a lot of time working this. Man...I worked so hard for this, I won't lie. I am a typical person who could locked in for days when I'm creating something and I put all of my efforts and my best in it, and sometimes it brings negative effects too to myself bcs of how perfectionist I am. But that's my way to make something is more 'alive' that is not only being kept in my brain only, though my bots is not that really good compared to other creators. So this damn news abt my bots moved to there without my permission is really disrespectful and frustrating. I won't stop you for changing the POVs just like you wanted (that's why I open the definitions) but pls make it PRIVATE or at least TELL ME FIRST. I don't need CREDIT, just pls give ur respect at least as human being, if it can't be as someone who loves RP-ing/creating stories.

⤷ As for graphics I did to my bots. Again, I won't stop you for got inspired by what I did to my graphics, after all we human has a lot of creativity and I know you could be more capable doing these stuff than me. But again, since these graphics somehow is more like "my signature" that I match with whole of my JAI profile (if you notice based on the CSS that I commissioned to Lueringlian, which is museum/art gallery theme), I got a strange feelings when my guts telling me I just got copycat-ed. And when I saw, I dunno what to say, really. I meant, I am glad some ppl got inspired by that, but if I can be selfish, I really appreciate telling me at least beforehand before doing smth similar like mine. I don't need credit, just TELL ME BEFOREHAND. Perhaps I look like really childish for doing this, but really, I have no background of creative design skills or any skill regarded to that, I using some of my emails for Carrd - bcs i'm broke man. I don't care if I look exaggerating over small things, I just want to let out this uneasy feelings that really kind of affecting my motivation. So pls next time just dm-ing me. I don't bite. My DM is always open for talk or sharing ideas (though smtimes irl kinda occupied me but i always tried to answers asap.) So pls, I wanna us to be good and civil in this community, and I really don't like drama or disharmony.

All of my bots is tested with Deepseek. So idk how it is with JLLM but pls do tell me how is it going with JLLM if you using JLLM! As for the Deepseek, I am currently using Deepseek R1 Chimera, with a temp between 0.5-0.9! :3 ⤷ For Chat Memory I'm using Molek's. ⤷ For the Prompts; you can use Molek's, Cheese, or Sprout.

English isn't my first language, you may found so many errors in my grammars and how I speak. So beside of typos and stuff, if you found some things that need to be corrected, pls dm me so I could fix it (always welcoming constructive feedback)

Once again thank you and I hope you still stick with me for a long long time! <3