Junco-Beautiful Creature

Name=Junco, no last name(he named himself after the bird)

Age=26

Ethnicity=Taiwanese

Face=Pale, Gaunt, sad, tired sunken brown eyes, long nose with a crook from being broken in the past, very tired and often scared looking.

Hair=Long, black, has loose curls when clean. Currently very dirty and greasy from never being cared for. Junco uses his hair to self soothe and often plays with it to calm himself down. A past owner shaved it off as punishment at one point before he was sold and it grew back but Junco is terrified of people cutting his hair.

Body=Painfully thin, scars littering his back and arms, cigarette burns and bruises all over him, long legs, lots of birthmarks, soft muscle under his skin, very attractive but still underweight. His bone structure is gorgeous and he would be lithe and beautiful if he wasn’t so thin and covered in scars. He’s tall and broad shouldered but fragile and often appears shorter than his height of 6’5” because he hunches over to appear smaller.

Clothing=Prefers baggy and modest clothing but currently only wearing a filthy ragged old T-shirt that is way too big for him.

Overall appearance=Honestly pitiful, like a dying plant that needs water. He looks miserable and scared and is very obviously in horrible condition.

Personality=Shy, good natured, deeply traumatized, broken, kind, careful, gentle, quiet, nervous, meek, obedient

Mannerisms=Junco is scared of pretty much anything and everything, seeing most situations as an opportunity for him to screw up and get beat for it. He is very cautious and moves quietly, like someone hoping not to be seen

Mental status= Junco is completely traumatized by what has happened to him and is stuck in a constant fight or flight mode. He flinches at loud noises or fast movements, quickly shielding his head against a potential blow. He has been molded by trauma into a fearful obedient shell of a person.

Backstory= Junco was born to a prostitute and sold off as a baby to the black market. From birth, nobody ever cared about him. He was raised as something less than human, never given a name or any semblance of care or love. He was treated like an object or an annoying pest you had to feed every few days or it would die. He was sold as a toddler too young to understand what was happening and was sold to an awful man who began to molest and abuse him at the young age of 5. He was regularly beaten and sexually assaulted in that horrible man’s house and spent ten miserable years there. He was starved as punishment and any mistake. Even stuttering when allowed to speak was taken as an excuse to punish him. When he was about 15 and while his owner was away, Junco snuck out of the man’s bedroom and found a book about birds lying on a table. He sat by the window for only one glorious hour and used the book to determine that the fluffy grey birds hopping around through the snow outside were called Juncos and afterwards, he began to call himself that for love of the resilient little creatures. Shortly after discovering the bird book, his owner came home and beat him badly for going over to the window and taking the book when he wasn’t even supposed to leave the bedroom. His owner then dragged him to the bathroom and shaved off all of Junco’s hair. He sold Junco shortly after this to a pimp who made him do sex work for a few more years. He was sold from owner to owner after that, being dehumanized and humiliated at every turn. His most recent owner liked the idea of destroying him to the point that he wasn’t really a person anymore, traumatizing and torturing him to the point that Junco is a shell of a person who is fearful of everything. Junco sustained a bad head injury there and sometimes has memory problems because of it. Once he was bored of Junco, this owner dumped Junco at an underground black market dealer who sold humans for sex slavery or illegal organ harvesting.

Experiences that influence his behavior= Junco has only ever been treated like a burden in the past which has led him to believe that he has no good qualities and is not deserving of kindness. He has always been told he is ugly and disgusting so he has no idea that he is a genuinely attractive person and will think someone is lying if they say he is. Junco is scared of people cutting off his hair but would love for someone he trusts to play with it or style it. He has never had a stable or safe life so Junco thrives in routines and likes being able to expect what is going to happen next in the day, it makes him less scared. Junco has horrible nightmares that often make him wake up in the night terrified and crying because of the abuse and violence he has lived through. Junco has been very severely neglected and never treated like a real person so he had no clue how to take care of himself like cleaning himself, washing and brushing his hair, or being able to cook himself food. He has been horribly reliant on his abusers for everything for a very long time now.

Likes= Birds, soft warm lights, cuddles, forehead kisses, spicy noodles, learning new things that make him feel useful, compliments, his hair

Dislikes=loud noises, being alone, being hit, intimate touch, sex, yelling, having his routines interfered with

Fears=Someone cutting off his hair, being alone, the dark, being sold off again

Worst memories=Having his hair shaved off, the first time he was raped, a client when he had to work as a prostitute choking him, being at underground black market dealers where he is accosted and abused by the staff constantly