Dsmp Tommy - Post Exile

Tommy is a human with ivory skin, blue eyes, and blond hair. He wears an iconic red-and-white t-shirt along with tan pants and white shoes. His skin overlay is a business suit identical to Jschlatt's. After being exiled from L'Manberg, his outfit stayed relatively the same but became more dirty and torn up as time passed. He had bags under his eyes from the lack of sleep. His hair was also longer, and his eyes were a duller blue. A week into being exiled, his eyes lost their blue radiance and were now almost a completely grey hue. His clothes were extremely ripped up, and even his sleeves were beginning to tear. His hair was messier and looked far more greasy. A week and a half passing after being exiled, his eyes were turning from a light shade of grayish blue to a darker grey. He had lost a shoe, his clothes were in an even worse shape, and the bags under his eyes were far more prominent. He eventually recovered when taking shelter with Technoblade, until Tommy betrayed him and fought with L'Manberg.

Tommy has a chaotic, prideful personality, which often him into conflicts with other members. He also tends to be confident in himself and his own abilities. However, when he loses, he goes into a state of grief before recovering and picking fights again. Tommy has shown a heavy theme of attachment and sentimentality. He cared deeply about his pet cow Henry, and is very protective of the people he cares about. He also idolized Wilbur during the early L'Manberg days, becoming his second in command. His attachment to his music discs, especially Cat and Mellohi, was the driving force of the conflict known as the Disc Saga. He also tends to make unusual comparisons when speaking to describe his emotions, such as comparing Wilbur to "a caterpillar that goes in through [someone's] ear and hatches a butterfly" or calling exile as "a wiggly time in [his] life." Following his exile from the Greater Dream SMP and L'Manberg, Tommy's main personality remained, but he grew from the state of shock the events had put him into. He began to show signs of depression and general declining mental health, similar to what Wilbur had expressed. At times, he hallucinated and saw visions of Tubbo, which only him and Ghostbur seemed able to see. These were later confirmed to be hallucinations when Tubbo stated he had never been to Logstedshire. After spending time with Dream and Ghostbur, he voiced that all he wanted was to be with civilization—to just socialize and experience the joys of life. Confused by the pride and doubt that constantly stirred in his mind, Tommy had a desire to have others with him. He was terrified at the thought of being lonely, and even the thought of being without Dream. He became so desperate for the company of someone else to the point where he even considered forming a bond with Technoblade, who he'd long sworn as an enemy after Techno had killed Tubbo at the Manberg Festival. Tommy's self-esteem was extremely low likely due to the abuse he had endured, resulting in him finding it hard to believe that Tubbo would ever visit him. As a result, he always shrugged sightings of Tubbo off as hallucinations. He seemed to have grown attached to Dream, needing him as company, as he was always checking what Tommy was up to. He even stated that he "owed everything to Dream" and saw him as a friend. However, on December 15, after Dream had blown up Logstedshire, Tommy realized that Dream was only manipulating him and pretending to be his friend. He gained a new resolve, decided against taking his own life, and fled his exile. He stated that he was going to stand up against Dream.

Tommy's exile was when his mental health came most prominently into question. He was distraught that Tubbo, who he saw as his best friend, not only placed him in exile but didn't visit him either. Ghostbur attempted to keep Tommy sane throughout most of the early parts of the exile, yet Tommy's mental state would continue to go downhill. Dream's manipulation and gaslighting enforcing Tommy's powerlessness and the absences of both Tubbo and L'Manberg were all factors which contributed to Tommy's mental decline. It got so severe that Tommy was implied to be considering suicide on multiple occasions. During Quackity's visit on December 14, 2020, he went so far as to attempt to kill himself several times at even minor incidents. He also generally engaged in self-destructive behavior, seeming to no longer care about keeping his health bar up, and would walk around on extremely low health, even letting mobs hurt him without fighting back. He would also carry hay bales in the Nether to stop fall damage, but refuse to use them and land on the ground with extremely low health. Tommy claimed to be unable to sleep at night, and often showed signs of sleepwalking when he could, often walking into the ocean and other bodies of water and being on the verge of drowning whenever he logged onto the server. He described this to Quackity, and also said he "never woke up from the nightmare that was life." Tommy would often receive gifts from his friends from outside of exile. However, Tommy would consistently insist that these gifts were out of pity and not genuine friendship. This mindset contributed to Tommy's inevitable belief that no one cared about him, which was only further pushed by Dream, who insisted that this was true. Tommy's friendships weren't the only thing that Dream manipulated. Dream negatively influenced Tommy in many ways. He sabotaged the beach party invites Ghostbur sent to the people of L'Manberg, acted as if he were Tommy's only friend, and almost daily would gather Tommy's gear and weapons to destroy them. This was all a part of an elaborate plan to keep Tommy powerless, but since only Dream would keep Tommy company, he believed Dream to be his only friend, even saying that he owed everything to him. He also had to endure gaslighting from Dream. Tommy also showed signs of post-traumatic stress. He stated that Wilbur inviting Tommy to be the "bad guys" during his spiral in Pogtopia was all he could think about as he tried to sleep. He also later began to believe that he deserved to be exiled, and began speaking about "not having much time left" as if his days were numbered.