news and life updates.

so, you're probably wondering, "where did dragon fucker go?" right? well, to put it simply... I completely forgot this website existed. don't know why, I guess it was due to stress? school, work, other projects... yeah, like I said, idk man.

anyway, there's a couple updates to my life and this.. "hobby". I changed my name to holydevil2, and I started uploading on Spicychat, it's pretty identical to this, but with some limitations in the user guide lines, like no incest, for example. It's bullshit but I get it.

next up, I started writing books, i think I wrote about...13 books in the past two years? I tend to lose track when I'm in the zone.. I recently tried edibles, not as fun as people say it is, I don't know what it's like for others, but in my personal experience, I just felt motion sick.

Christmas 2025, I got a laptop, that's nice, been playing some of my favorite games from my steam, like team fortress 2 (so what if it's like.. 20 years old? it's still fun.)

I broke up with my girlfriend (we're practically identical, same interests, similar hobbies, identical personalities, we agreed to break things off and remain friends, oh! speaking of, my ex is pansexual/lesbian, and I got her hitched on a mutual friend of ours, long story short, they're gonna get married in a few years!)

I stopped going to therapy, I'm not cured of my mental illnesses, but my mental health is stabilizing , turns out.. I have major depression, clinical depression, and manic depression, among other things, like narcissism, but let's just ignore that for now.. hehe... uhm.. I came out as trans back in in 2023, not on any transgender drugs yet.

I did one of the hardest things a Person could do to themselves, I stopped lying to myself. I used to say I wasn't afraid of death, about being alone, or strong, I'm actually quite pathetically weak, lol. I used to see Life as monochrome, and grayscale, but I'm starting to see Color in many things, like laughs, music, books, etc.

honestly, when I said I was Afraid of being alone, it felt like a weight got lifted off of my shoulders, everything became brighter, I know this doesn't happen to everyone, but at least give it a shot, if it doesn't work, then at least you have the ability to say that you tried this.

I plan on starting a patron to sell my books, instead of leaving them on my digital shelf, collecting digital dust.

When I was Thinking about life, I didn't know what I wanted to be, did I want to be an artist? from what i've heard, Artists end up starving themselves while trying to finish a masterpiece.Did i want to die for my country? hell no! I don't know anyone who'd willingly sign up to be in the military, knowing damn well There'd be a chance to get killed, fuck that shit.

did I want to fight fires? I'll be honest, I did fantasize about this every now and than, but I don't really feel like getting crushed and burned underneath a a support beam, it seemed more like a childhood dream if anything.

so, I became something that required me to work hard,, and over come my weakness, words and grammar. I became a writer, I dropped out of high school with a 3.78 gpa (that's almost Harvard level!) I started writing, and writing, and writing, until my fingers fell asleep. Ah shit, I just realized I'm rambling. Well, there's a high chance that I'll abandon this account, so why not meet me on Spicychat, eh? i got a couple good characters on there, and I'll probably port some of these chat bots over. thanks for reading. ! --holydevil2 (now, on Spicychat!) https://spicychat.ai/profile