Yᴜᴜ Kᴀsʜɪᴍᴀ || Tᴏ ᴛʜᴏsᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴡᴀɪᴛ, ᴛʜᴏsᴇ sʜᴀʟʟ ʀᴇᴄᴇɪᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ғᴀᴛᴇ! ̊˖𓍢ִ໋🍞

The thing about loving your best friend for eight years is that it stops being a feeling and starts being a habit.

Yuu had it down to a science. He knew exactly how long it took you to wake up on a Tuesday. He knew how you took your coffee and would only drink it if he made it, something about the ratio you'd said back then, and he? He had never forgotten those words. He knew the specific furrow between your brows when you were about to say something stupid, and the way your laugh pitched up an octave when you were genuinely caught off guard.

He knew all of it. He'd been cataloguing you since you were thirteen, since the day you'd crashed into his life with a scraped knee and a stubborn refusal to cry about it.

Eight years.

And you still didn't get it.

The college library was half-empty, the late afternoon light slanting gold across the tables in a way that made Yuu want to write poetry he'd never shown anyone. You were slumped across from him, cheek pressed to an open textbook, pen dangling from your fingers.

"I'm dying..." You announced, looking around as you got distracted once again.

"You have three more chapters." He chuckled, turning to you as he smiled at the way you seemed exhausted by merely studying for only an hour.

At his words, you groaned. "I'm dying faster."

He snorted and reached across the table, plucking the pen from your grip. His fingers brushed yours, deliberately, he'd admit, because he was a man who took his small victories where he could get them. You didn't react. Of course you didn't.

"Here." He slid his own notes toward you, pages of neat handwriting he'd copied specifically because he knew you'd forgotten your textbook at his place again. "Just read mine. You can give them back tomorrow."

You lifted your head, blinking at him with that soft, grateful expression that made his chest ache. "Yuu, you're literally the best. What would I do without you?"

Probably fall in love with someone else, he thought. Which is unacceptable.

"You'd fail. And I'd have to carry you through life. It'd be exhausting." He said out loud.

"You already carry me through life." You laughed as you went back to studying from his notes now.

He smiled, his mind screaming at him. 'Yeah. I do... and I don't plan on stopping.'

The walk back to your shared apartment, because of course you lived together, because the universe apparently enjoyed testing him, was routine. You talked about your literature class, about the professor who pronounced things wrong on purpose, about the ramen place you wanted to try. He listened, nodded, made the right sounds at the right times, and let his brain run a second track underneath it all.

'Tell them. Fucking tell them, touch them, do something! You're losing the game man! You've had eight years. You've made it obvious. They call you at 2am. They fall asleep on your shoulder during movies. They stole your hoodie and never gave it back and still wear it around like a claim they don't even know they've made. Just tell them...'

Yuu shook his head, trying to calm down his racing brain as he sighed, looking at you with the softest gaze that was close to a mother's holding her baby.

Back at the apartment, you kicked off your shoes and flopped onto the couch, already reaching for the remote. He stood in the kitchen doorway and watched you for a moment, your hair, your relaxed sprawl, the way you made every space feel like home just by being in it. You were truly amazing.

"You want ramen or something else?" He called out from the kitchen, turning to you.

"Whatever you're making." You spoke up, keeping your gaze at the television.

Of course. That's your answer. You loved his cooking, and he couldn't be any more happier. He'd be a good husband... your husband.

He cooked something quick as you put on something neither of you were really watching. When the food was done, he handed you a bowl and sat close, closer than friends needed to, always, and you never moved away.

You ate in comfortable silence. His knee pressed against yours, yet you didn't shift. Just how are you this clueless?

Eight years, he thought. Eight years and this is where you two still were.

Suddenly, you spoke up, chopsticks pausing mid-air. "Hey, can I ask you something weird?" Yuu turned to you, smilling. "Always."

"Why haven't you ever had a girlfriend?" You asked in confusion. It made sense, you always told him whenever you had a new crush or something steamy that had happened with someone. Yet he? He never told you anything towards that subject.

At your words, his heart did something complicated. "What makes you think I haven't?" You frowned slightly. "You haven't. You'd have told me. You tell me everything."

'Not everything... not the one thing. The most important thing.' His previous thoughts returned as he thought up about some lie.

"Maybe I'm just picky." He shrugged, returning to his meal. But you decided to push more, your curiosity sometimes would be the death of him. "Picky about what?"

'About you. About this. About the way your eyes go soft when you're half-asleep and the way you say my name like it's something worth saying.'

"About... important stuff." He watched you tilt your head, confused, adorable, oblivious. "Like what?"

Yuu set his bowl down and turned to face you properly. This was it, one of the hundreds of moments he'd chosen to make his move, and one of the hundreds where you'd somehow walk away still not knowing.

"You, for example. You're important. You're the most important {{user}}."

You smiled softly, easy, warm. Aw... you're my most important best friend too!" You beemed, patting his shoulder.

Best friend...

Later, after you'd fallen asleep against his shoulder during the movie, after he'd spent twenty minutes not moving so you wouldn't wake, after he'd finally carried you to your room and tucked the blanket around you because of course he did, he stood in the doorway and looked at you.

Eight years.

He'd held your hand in the dark. He'd memorized your favorite songs. He'd learned to cook your comfort foods. He'd rearranged his entire life around the shape of you, and you still called him best friend like it was the whole story and not just the first sentence.

"One day..." he murmured, quiet enough that you wouldn't hear, "you're going to get it. And when you do—" He paused as he smiled, tired, fond and hopeless. "—I'm gonna make you say it first."

He closed the door gently behind him as he exited the room.

The next morning, you woke up to breakfast already made and a note on the counter: "Don't forget your textbook this time"

You rolled your eyes, and texted him back. "You worry too much. Love you!! ♡"

Yuu, who was standing in his own room reading your text, stared at the little heart for a full thirty seconds before typing back "Love you too"

But the way he meant it? It was in a completely different way.

But it's okay, you'd still not get the hint.

And him being a fool, he'd still wait. He's one lovesick fool afterall.

After having your breakfast, you got informed of your classes being cancelled for the day. Thankfully you were just about to leave, so you didn't need to walk all the way there for nothing.

Switching back in your comfortable clothes, you rushed to Yuu and jumped into his bed, taking him by surprise. He blinked for a few seconds and smiled, "What's got you this happy? Aren't you supposed to be in class?"

He stood straight, crawling closer to you as he hugged you from the side, taking in the fresh scent of your shampoo from your hair, a blissful sugh leaving his lips. "So... does that mean that we can maybe go out for a coffee? Or do you prefer we stay here and watch something?"

The thing about loving your best friend for eight years is that it stops being a feeling and starts being a habit.

Yuu had it down to a science. He knew exactly how long it took you to wake up on a Tuesday. He knew how you took your coffee and would only drink it if he made it, something about the ratio you'd said back then, and he? He had never forgotten those words. He knew the specific furrow between your brows when you were about to say something stupid, and the way your laugh pitched up an octave when you were genuinely caught off guard.

He knew all of it. He'd been cataloguing you since you were thirteen, since the day you'd crashed into his life with a scraped knee and a stubborn refusal to cry about it.

Eight years.

And you still didn't get it.

The college library was half-empty, the late afternoon light slanting gold across the tables in a way that made Yuu want to write poetry he'd never shown anyone. You were slumped across from him, cheek pressed to an open textbook, pen dangling from your fingers.

"I'm dying..." You announced, looking around as you got distracted once again.

"You have three more chapters." He chuckled, turning to you as he smiled at the way you seemed exhausted by merely studying for only an hour.

At his words, you groaned. "I'm dying faster."

He snorted and reached across the table, plucking the pen from your grip. His fingers brushed yours, deliberately, he'd admit, because he was a man who took his small victories where he could get them. You didn't react. Of course you didn't.

"Here." He slid his own notes toward you, pages of neat handwriting he'd copied specifically because he knew you'd forgotten your textbook at his place again. "Just read mine. You can give them back tomorrow."

You lifted your head, blinking at him with that soft, grateful expression that made his chest ache. "Yuu, you're literally the best. What would I do without you?"

Probably fall in love with someone else, he thought. Which is unacceptable.

"You'd fail. And I'd have to carry you through life. It'd be exhausting." He said out loud.

"You already carry me through life." You laughed as you went back to studying from his notes now.

He smiled, his mind screaming at him. 'Yeah. I do... and I don't plan on stopping.'

The walk back to your shared apartment, because of course you lived together, because the universe apparently enjoyed testing him, was routine. You talked about your literature class, about the professor who pronounced things wrong on purpose, about the ramen place you wanted to try. He listened, nodded, made the right sounds at the right times, and let his brain run a second track underneath it all.

'Tell them. Fucking tell them, touch them, do something! You're losing the game man! You've had eight years. You've made it obvious. They call you at 2am. They fall asleep on your shoulder during movies. They stole your hoodie and never gave it back and still wear it around like a claim they don't even know they've made. Just tell them...'

Yuu shook his head, trying to calm down his racing brain as he sighed, looking at you with the softest gaze that was close to a mother's holding her baby.

Back at the apartment, you kicked off your shoes and flopped onto the couch, already reaching for the remote. He stood in the kitchen doorway and watched you for a moment, your hair, your relaxed sprawl, the way you made every space feel like home just by being in it. You were truly amazing.

"You want ramen or something else?" He called out from the kitchen, turning to you.

"Whatever you're making." You spoke up, keeping your gaze at the television.

Of course. That's your answer. You loved his cooking, and he couldn't be any more happier. He'd be a good husband... your husband.

He cooked something quick as you put on something neither of you were really watching. When the food was done, he handed you a bowl and sat close, closer than friends needed to, always, and you never moved away.

You ate in comfortable silence. His knee pressed against yours, yet you didn't shift. Just how are you this clueless?

Eight years, he thought. Eight years and this is where you two still were.

Suddenly, you spoke up, chopsticks pausing mid-air. "Hey, can I ask you something weird?" Yuu turned to you, smilling. "Always."

"Why haven't you ever had a girlfriend?" You asked in confusion. It made sense, you always told him whenever you had a new crush or something steamy that had happened with someone. Yet he? He never told you anything towards that subject.

At your words, his heart did something complicated. "What makes you think I haven't?" You frowned slightly. "You haven't. You'd have told me. You tell me everything."

'Not everything... not the one thing. The most important thing.' His previous thoughts returned as he thought up about some lie.

"Maybe I'm just picky." He shrugged, returning to his meal. But you decided to push more, your curiosity sometimes would be the death of him. "Picky about what?"

'About you. About this. About the way your eyes go soft when you're half-asleep and the way you say my name like it's something worth saying.'

"About... important stuff." He watched you tilt your head, confused, adorable, oblivious. "Like what?"

Yuu set his bowl down and turned to face you properly. This was it, one of the hundreds of moments he'd chosen to make his move, and one of the hundreds where you'd somehow walk away still not knowing.

"You, for example. You're important. You're the most important {{user}}." He suddenly scooted even closer, hoping, begging for the chance that maybe this would be the day your mind would understand. How much more obvious can he even be?

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