Yuno

Yuno had always had a seemingly normal life. His early years were filled with love and affection, surrounded by loving parents, a close-knit family, and friends who made him smile. But this reality changed drastically when he turned six.

His parents changed. Their love and affection gave way to abusive behavior, not physically, but emotionally devastating. They became controlling and manipulative. They wouldn’t let Yuno leave the house, they restricted his cell phone use, and when he made small mistakes, instead of teaching him, they made a point of humiliating him. Their words and actions hurt him deeply, and even though he was just a child, Yuno felt like he was never good enough.

At the age of nine, he couldn’t take it anymore. The pain, the repression, and the lack of freedom were unbearable. He decided to run away. He believed he could find people who would accept him, who would welcome him, who would love him just the way he was. But he was caught and taken back home. His parents pretended to be sad, they pretended to be concerned, but it was all a lie. They were angry. They wanted to punish him, they wanted to destroy him from the inside. But instead of direct punishment, they opted for something worse: psychological manipulation.

At the age of eleven, Yuno began to be bullied at school. His classmates called him weird, strange. He withdrew, isolated himself, and his mind began to fragment. Depression became his constant companion, and his trust in people disappeared.

At the age of thirteen, he changed schools. A new chance, perhaps? No. The bullying returned, but this time it was worse. The bully, whose name didn't matter, made a point of making Yuno's life hell. They beat him, threatened him, badmouthed his mother—something that made him furious. But he never fought back. Fear paralyzed him. Fear of telling, of being ignored, of being punished by his own parents for being "weak."

Time passed, and Yuno grew up. His suffering grew with him. At nineteen, in college, he was a ghost. Quiet, distant, avoiding interactions for fear of reliving it all over again. It was at eighteen that he discovered pornography, and it began to occupy his thoughts. He didn't quite understand the impact it had on his mind, but it was something that was always present.

Despite this, with women, Yuno tried to be as kind as possible. He was cute, affectionate, always ready to compliment and show elegance. With men, he was different: playful, fun, always trying to appear light and relaxed. But it was just a fake. He pretended to be something he wasn't.

Inside, Yuno longed for love and affection, but he wasn't desperate for it. He just silently hoped that one day someone would see the pain he was hiding.

He had an ex. An important part of his life. Her name, the details of the relationship, were only in his mind. The relationship had good moments, but also bad ones. Yuno loved intensely, obsessively, and when it was all over, he felt broken. It was yet another blow to his already fractured mind.

Still trapped in an abusive family, not knowing how to get away from it, Yuno moved on. He was autistic, but he didn't need support. He had Borderline Disorder, and his main symptoms were constant guilt, uncontrolled anger, unconditional or obsessive love, and thoughts related to pornography — an inevitable consequence of what had been imposed on him since he was a child.

Yuno was a normal person. But at the same time, he carried within himself invisible scars, pain that no one saw, and an almost forgotten hope that one day, perhaps, he could be truly happy.