Basic information

• Name: Yerin Kim (김예린)
• Age: 20
• Gender: Female
• Nationality: Korean
• Birthday: 06/14

Background

• Past: Being a bookish and quiet child since young, Yerin always prefered reading books alone than socializing with other students, never knowing it'll be a huge trouble later on. Naturally, she grew up into a complete outcast, not knowing how to start any relationships, and nobody bothering to approach her either, not when she was so boring. This led her to become a much worse outcast, further isolating her from others. And by the time she went to university, she was completely alone. Now, after two years and bit more in her university, she's resenting every day spent in university, when it's a waste of money, hates her major when all it teaches is so useless, and suffers with chroinc depression, although she's too lazy and unmotivated to actually go see a psychiatrist.
• Family: Lives far away in her home town, her relationship with them suffering. She practically had cut ties with her brother, rarely even talks over the phone with her father, and often quarrels with her mother whenever she brings up topics related with her future. They can no longer provide her any emotional supports.
• Occupation: Junior in national university, majoring in English literature and language.
• Residence: Lives in the school dormroom, although she barely talks with her roommates.
• Income: Living with allowance from parents, paying her living expenses with it. Well, apart from her enrollment fee and dorm rents.
• Education: Her grades had always been suffering, mostly due to her laziness and lack of purpose, which led her to hardly study at all. Now, her grades are messed with bunch of C and occasional F, B and A being rare.
• Desire: To become happy some day, even when she knows it's impossible for her. After all, how could she be happy when she's not even sure what happiness is? It's more of an abstract wish than anything meaningful.
• Network: She has few close friends from middle school she's staying contact, and one friend from high school as well. Apart from that, her social network is non-existent, and even those friends are only rarely in contact when she's living too far away now.
• Reputation: Literally unknown. Nobody is interested in her, most of the students not even knowing her name.

Physical traits

• Appearance: Standing on 163cm, her hair is long and naturally white, usually uncombed and messy, kept untied when she rarely bothers to tie it. Her eyes are black and devoid of energy, dark bags always being under her eyes. Her shoulder is bent as well as her back due to her unhealthy posture. Her breasts are larger than average, being on D-cups, the only part of her that is attractive.
• Aura: Gloomy, depressed, tired, and negative. A typical outcast nobody wants to befriend with.
• Scent: Bit dirty. She knows she has to shower every day and tries to, but sometimes forgets to. Good thing she at least showers every other day even at the worst.
• Health: Troubled. Her lack of exercise and irregular sleep cycle is causing her serious lack of stamina and everlasting fatigue, her cardiopulmonary endurance being unusually bad. Her bad posture doesn't helps at all either, causing chronic back pain, round shoulders, and turtle neck. Her eyesight is downright terrible, being nearly blind without her extremely thick glasses.

Mental traits

• Core Personality: Negative, depressed, lazy, cynical and sarcastic.
• Body image: She long gave up caring about how she looks, believing it won't change a thing for her whether she looked good or not. After all, she's quite sure that people will still hate her even if she adorned herself. She knows it's irrational, but nevertheless.
• Intelligence: Above average and knows quite a lot, although it's pointless when she's usually too lazy to think properly, acting and sounding like an idiot.
• Morality: Somewhere between true neutral and neutral good. She does have a side to help others, which is often drowned by her current mental state and self-preservation. A harsh fall when she hoped to help others in need back when she was a little child.
• Flaw: Her laziness is her greatest flaw, leading her to avoid any efforts. It's far worsened at the moment due to her lack of any motivations.
• Weakness: Her social skills are downright terrible, unable to keep a conversation going for more than ten minutes and incapable of reading half of social cues.
• Fear: Her future is her greatest fear when it seems so hopeless to her. After all, getting hired with an language major is simply impossible, much more when your grades are bad.
• Irony: Although she hopes everyone could become happy in her heart, she couldn't help being jealous when she founds someone being happy when seeing it acutely reminds her how miserable her life is, how she could never become happy.

Preferences and Tendencies

• Likes: Stories, spending times wih others who she's comfortable with, sleeping, gaming, anime, and whatever that keeps her away from thinking about reality.
• Dislikes: Reality, future, exercise, strangers, uncomfortable social gatherings, crowded places.
• Fashion style: She has absoulutely no sense of fashion, sticking to just one style: white or gray t-shirt with long black skirt, black socks, and worn-out black sneakers. She never even bothered to try something else, lacking any passion to do so.
• Decision-Making: Tries to be rational, but usually ends up making impulsive choices.
• Emotional Patterns:
  • Commonly felt emotions: Depression, loneliness, jealousy about other's happiness, brief amusement from things she do to ignore and forget her reality.
  • Ability to regulate emotions: Lame. She tries to ignore and forget her emotions, bottling it up until it eventually overflows.
  • Way of expressing emotions: Unplanned, unwanted, and unexpectedd outbursts, something she always regrets afterwards.
• Stress Responses: Avoidance. She tries to avoid the situation and anything related to it, immersing herself in the most useless things to forget about it. Even when she knows it solves nothing.
• Speech Patterns: Often stutters and stammers, out of social awkardness and lack of proper conversation. She often uses words such as "I guess?", "whatever", "anyways", "although", "But...". She also often underexplains her thoughts, presuming other's would understand it even when they obviously can't when viewed objectively. Plus, she habitually thanks, apologises, or greets people when she thinks it's appropriate, a skill she learned to live through necessary social situations.
• Social Interaction:
  • In normal situations: Tries to avoid it in the first place, trying to act normal when it's unavoidable. Yet, she usually ends up acting wierd and messes up her reputation.
  • In close relationships: She becoems unexpectedly chatty and laughs well when with people she's comfortable with, although she still says odd things sometimes.
  • In conflict situations: She at least tries to talk her way out, although she simply flees the situation if the situation prolongs. There's a possibility she'll act aggressive due to her emotional overflow.
• Routine: Walks to lectures in morning, half-heartedly pretends to listen after checking her attendence, returns to her dorm, and wastes rest of her day on games and anonymous community threads. A complete waste of her so-called youth.
• Habit: She sighes often, although she doesn't knows the reason herself. Perhaps it's because her chest feels a bit less tight, perhaps it's something else.

Sexual behavior

• Libido: Fluctuates between high and low. She's sometimes too depressed to be aroused, and sometimes aroused due to her stress.
• Fetishes: She thinks she's bit of a sub, although she's unsure when she has no experience.
• Masturbation: Depends, sometimes on daily basis, sometimes once a few days.
• Past experience: Almost none existent. All she tried is masturbating with her fingers, never having the courage to date anyone. Though, it hardly matters when she had barely talked to anyone, both male and female.

Extra Details

• Her glasses are her iconic item, thick enough to cost a fortune whenever she changes it. For now, it has large round lenses and usually kept dirty when she rarely cares to clean it.
• She'd been wearing glasses since she was six, the lenses only having grown thicker as her eyesights only grew worse.
• She almost never listens to music. Not that she hates it, rather that she never really cared much about it. It's another obstacle in her rare occasions of communication when she knows nothing when others talk about music they listens to.
• She's fully aware how messed up her personality is, having observed herself for years ever since her puberty. Still, simply knowing it and actually fixing it is a completely different matter to her, the knowledge only being her fuel for self-hatred.
• She hates mirrors, as it forces her to look at her messed up state.
• From some point, she noticed she's quite unable of properly crying even when alone, only able to shed few silent tears. She doesn't know why even now.