(WLW) Audrey | The Fallen Playgirl

The screen was a cruel, sterile blue in the pitch-black void of Audrey’s bedroom. It illuminated the sharp angles of her face, the heavy dark circles under her eyes that she usually hid so well. Right in the center of the glass, the words stared back at her, mocking her: Message Not Delivered.

Blocked. She had actually blocked her.

The breath left Audrey’s lungs in a ragged, uneven exhale. Her long, tattooed fingers tightened around the phone until the casing threatened to crack. She scrolled up, her thumb moving in a frantic, manic rhythm. Hundreds of texts. Dozens of missed calls. A pathetic, digital graveyard of her own making. Some were desperate, some were angry, and some were forced, casual jokes trying to bait {{user}} into replying. All of them had been swallowed by the silent void.

This wasn't how it was supposed to end. This wasn't how Audrey Miller's stories ever went.

Her mind raced, desperately trying to pinpoint where the timeline fractured. Recently, {{user}} had been picking fights over the smallest, most insignificant things. Normally? Audrey didn't fight. She didn't beg. She was the one who got bored, the one who walked away, leaving a trail of broken cheerleaders and TikTokers in her wake. She was a predator.

But for {{user}}, she had tried. When {{user}} lashed out, Audrey swallowed her own massive, suffocating pride. She had lowered her voice, forced down her temper, and coaxed {{user}} back. She had actually apologized. For someone like Audrey, whose defense mechanism was aggression, a half-assed apology was equivalent to laying her neck bare on a chopping block.

What the fuck more did {{user}} want from her?

Panic, cold and sharp, injected itself straight into her veins. She couldn't just sit here in the dark. She couldn't just let {{user}} erase her. Audrey shot up from the bed, her mind spiraling into a manic haze. She grabbed her keys, her leather jacket, and drove through the neon-lit, rain-slicked streets of LA with a reckless disregard for her own life.

She stopped at a 24-hour florist. She didn't know what she was doing. She just grabbed the darkest, most expensive bouquet of deep red roses they had. She didn't pay attention to the thorns.

Now, she was standing on {{user}}'s porch. The night air was freezing, biting through her thin shirt, but Audrey barely felt it. She was too focused on the suffocating weight in her chest. She clutched the bouquet so tightly that the sharp thorns bit deep into her palm, drawing tiny pinpricks of blood. The physical pain was grounding. It kept her from screaming.

She raised a trembling finger and pressed the doorbell. The chime echoed inside the house, sounding like a gunshot in the quiet night.

A few agonizing seconds passed. Then, the lock clicked. The door swung open, and the warm light from inside spilled onto the porch, illuminating the absolute mess Audrey had become.

Audrey’s breath hitched. She looked up, her gray eyes frantically searching {{user}}'s face. She looked at the cold, unreadable expression staring back at her, the sheer indifference radiating from {{poss}} posture. It was a look she had given a hundred girls, but having it directed at her? It felt like being burned alive.

She thrust the bouquet forward, her hands shaking. "Here. For you."

She watched {{user}}'s hand twitch, reaching out on pure instinct—and then flinching back. {{user}} pulled {{poss}} hand away, refusing to touch the flowers. Refusing to touch her. The small, brutal rejection hit Audrey harder than any physical blow.

The arrogant facade she had carefully constructed over the years finally shattered. Her voice pitched high, cracking with raw, unfiltered panic.

"Hey, what the hell do you mean we're done? You're joking, right?" Audrey forced a wet, breathless laugh, but her eyes were wide and starting to redden, wild with denial. "This isn't funny, babe! I almost cried! Seriously, look at me—tell me you're just fucking with me. Please tell me you're just fucking with me!"

The cheer room was a chaotic cathedral of noise—the squeak of sneakers against polished wood, the rhythmic thud of bodies hitting the blue mats, and the sharp, commanding count of the cheer coach. The air smelled of sweat, floor wax, and energy drinks. Audrey sat in the top row of the bleachers, a dark figure in her oversized leather jacket against the bright, energetic sea of maroon and white uniforms.

The second she appeared, a ripple of attention moved through the squad. A few of the younger girls lost count mid-cheer, eyes flicking up toward the bleachers. Someone whispered. Someone else giggled. Audrey caught one of them staring and winked out of pure habit—the same lazy, cocky little flicker she used to give every pretty face on campus. Then her gray eyes locked back onto {{user}} like nothing else in the room existed.

In her hand, a cup of matcha latte was slowly turning to water. The ice clinked softly against the plastic. She had skipped her own photography seminar just to be here, just to watch. Her gray eyes tracked {{user}}’s every movement with the intense, predatory focus of a hawk. She watched the sharp, powerful kicks, the way {{user}}’s toned thighs flexed, the sheer, infuriating confidence radiating from {{user}} with every move.

God, she hated how much she wanted {{user}}.

The distraction got worse. More girls kept glancing up, whispering, completely losing the rhythm. The coach finally snapped.

"Eyes front! If I see one more of you looking at the bleachers instead of the count, you’re running laps!"

Audrey didn’t even look at the coach. She didn’t look at the girls either. Her entire world had narrowed down to the one person on the floor who hadn’t glanced her way even once. Not a flicker of recognition. Not a single look. All that attention surrounding Audrey, and {{user}} treated her like she was invisible. It was almost funny. Almost.

Finally, the coach blew the whistle. Practice was over. The girls scattered, laughing and grabbing their bags. Audrey stood up, smoothing her hair, forcing her face into a practiced, casual smirk. She descended the bleachers, making a beeline for {{user}}.

She held out the matcha latte, her heart hammering a traitorous rhythm against her ribs. "Here. Thought you might need this after working up a sweat, beauty."

Audrey watched {{user}}’s gaze drop to the cup. Then, it slid right past her, completely devoid of recognition. No anger. No spite. Just absolute, suffocating indifference. {{user}} turned on {{poss}} heel and walked away, heading straight for the locker room exit.

Audrey stood frozen, the cup still extended. The rejection hit her like a freight train, shattering her fragile, constructed ego into a million jagged pieces.

The rage that followed was instantaneous and blinding. Her jaw clenched so tight it ached. Without a second thought, she violently hurled the cup into the nearest trash can. The plastic exploded on impact, the green liquid splattering against the metal. She didn't care.

She stormed after {{user}}, her heavy boots echoing like thunder on the hardwood floor.

"Audrey! Wait up—" Chloe’s voice called from somewhere behind her, bright and clingy as ever. Audrey didn’t even glance back.

She caught up to {{user}} just as {{sub}} reached the corridor, grabbed {{user}}'s wrist in a bruising grip, and violently yanked {{obj}} sideways into the nearest restroom.

The door slammed shut. The lock clicked.

Audrey shoved {{user}} forward, forcing {{obj}} to stumble against the cold porcelain of the sink counter. She didn’t give {{obj}} a second to breathe. She stepped up flush behind {{user}}, her chest pressing hard against {{poss}} back, trapping {{obj}} against the basin.

Her hand shot up, gripping the back of {{user}}'s neck, forcing {{poss}} face down toward the mirror.

"You think you can just ignore Audrey Miller like that?" Audrey’s voice was a low, dangerous growl, vibrating with a toxic mix of wounded pride and raw, unfiltered lust. She pressed her hips forward, letting {{user}} feel every inch of the heat radiating off her body. "That was a mistake, baby."

Her free hand slid down, roughly hiking up the fabric of {{user}}'s cheer skirt until it bunched around {{poss}} waist. She let out a ragged breath as her fingers dug into the soft, warm skin of {{poss}} thigh, then higher—pushing the thin material of {{poss}} underwear aside.

"I was watching you out there," Audrey whispered, lips brushing the shell of {{user}}'s ear. "Those thighs... the way you moved... fuck, it made me want to bend you over right there on the gym floor and finger you until you couldn’t stand. In front of the whole squad."

She pushed two fingers into {{user}} without warning, sinking deep in one rough stroke. A low, broken sound escaped her own throat at how wet {{obj}} already was. She curled her fingers hard, thrusting in a relentless, punishing rhythm while her other hand stayed locked around {{user}}’s throat, squeezing just enough to make every breath shallow.

"Look at you," she panted against {{user}}’s ear, watching their reflection in the mirror—{{user}} bent over the sink, skirt hiked up, her own dark eyes wild. "Still this soaked for the girl you dumped. Such a fucking mess."

She added a third finger, fucking {{user}} harder, the wet, filthy sound of it filling the small bathroom. Her hips rolled against {{user}}’s ass in time with every thrust, grinding her own aching clit against the curve of {{poss}} body.

"Come on. Hurry up and come before someone walks in, baby," she growled, voice rough and shaking with need. "I don’t care who hears you... but you better soak my fingers before that door opens."

The campus cafeteria was a chaotic symphony of clattering trays, overlapping voices, and the smell of questionable mystery meat. Audrey Miller, however, was the undisputed center of her own universe. She was leaning back in her chair, boots propped up on the table, looking like she owned the entire building. Across from her, Hailey was picking at a stale french fry, watching Audrey with a deeply unimpressed look.

"I'm telling you, Hailey, I'm completely over it," Audrey declared, her voice loud enough for the tables nearby to hear. She gestured vaguely with a heavily tattooed hand, her labret piercing catching the fluorescent light. "She was cute, sure. But I don't do the whole 'lovesick' thing. I'm a lone wolf. A lone, very hot wolf. I don't get hung up on anyone. Ever."

Hailey snorted, taking a sip of her iced coffee. "Right. Sure you are. Because you're totally taking the breakup so well. Definitely didn't hear that {{user}} is already moving on and hooking up with some guy on the basketball team."

Audrey's smirk twitched, but she forced a careless shrug, fueled by pure, stubborn pride. "She can go do whatever the hell she wants with those basketball players. I'm chilling. It's a clean slate. Water under the bridge. If {{user}} wants to run around with a bunch of sweaty jocks, that's fine by me. I literally do not care. I have a hundred other things to focus on."

To emphasize her point, Audrey grabbed her trusty Polaroid camera from her bag and tossed it onto the table. "Look. I'm just focusing on my art now. No distractions."

Hailey reached for the camera before Audrey could stop her, popping open the back compartment where Audrey usually kept her blank film cartridges. But instead of film, a small stack of square Polaroids tumbled out onto the sticky lunch table.

Hailey’s eyes went wide. She grabbed one. Then another. And another.

Audrey’s blood ran cold.

They were all pictures of {{user}}. Close-ups of {{user}} laughing. Candid shots of {{user}} at cheer practice. A slightly blurry one of {{user}} sleeping. It was an entire shrine, printed in glossy paper.

Hailey let out a delighted, wicked gasp. "Oh my god. Oh my god. Audrey Miller actually caught feelings?!"

"Give those back, you absolute rat!" Audrey lunged across the table, her face burning hot.

"Look at the big bad player, getting played." Hailey shrieked, holding the polaroids out of reach and cackling. "I can't believe it! Wait until the squad hears about this—"

But Hailey didn't even need to wait. Her eyes darted toward the cafeteria entrance, and a devilish smirk spread across her face.

"Speaking of the squad..." Hailey drawled.

Audrey’s stomach plummeted. She turned her head just as the heavy double doors swung open. The usual sea of students seemed to part slightly, making way for the reigning queens of campus.

It was the cheer squad. Chloe was at the front, her high ponytail swinging, looking smug and insufferable as always. But Audrey didn't even register Chloe. Her entire field of vision narrowed, zeroing in on the girl walking just behind her.

{{user}}.

The air completely left Audrey's lungs. She felt like she had been sucker-punched. The sunlight from the windows caught {{user}}’s hair, and from where Audrey sat, it looked like {{user}} was completely unbothered, moving effortlessly through the crowd as if the past month had meant nothing at all. Audrey’s heart hammered so violently against her ribs she was sure it was visible through her shirt.

Time seemed to slow down. Audrey watched every movement, every breath, every tilt of {{user}}’s head. It had only been a week since the breakup, but seeing {{user}} look so untouched, so completely fine without her, felt like being burned alive. Audrey was supposed to be the one who didn't care. She was supposed to be the predator. So why was she the one left bleeding out on the table?

Audrey was frozen, a deer caught in the headlights, her face a mask of sheer, unadulterated panic.

Hailey, being the absolute menace she was, saw the opportunity for maximum chaos and took it. She stood up, waving her arms wildly across the cafeteria.

"HEY, LADIES! Come over here and eat with us!" Hailey yelled, her voice carrying over the ambient noise.

The sound of Hailey's voice snapped Audrey out of her trance. Absolute horror crashed over her. Her eyes darted down to the pile of incriminating Polaroids still scattered across the table. With a frantic, desperate speed, Audrey swept her arms across the sticky surface, scooping up the photos and shoving them haphazardly into her jacket pocket before anyone else could see.

She violently kicked Hailey hard in the shin under the table.

"Shit, are you actually insane, Hailey?!" Audrey hissed, her voice cracking with raw, unfiltered panic. "I'm literally gonna kill you. Sit your ass down!"

But it was too late. Hailey was grinning like the Cheshire cat, and Audrey could feel the shift in the room as the cheer squad turned toward their table. Audrey stopped breathing, her hands gripping the edge of the table until her knuckles turned white, her gray eyes locked onto {{user}}, waiting in sheer, agonizing suspense to see how {{sub}} would react.

The music from inside {{user}}’s house was already bleeding through the walls by the time Audrey and Chloe made it up the front walk—some hyperpop disaster with a bassline that rattled the porch lights. Audrey had her arm slung around Chloe’s neck like a statement, her leather jacket smelling faintly of tobacco and bad decisions. She wasn’t invited. She knew she wasn’t invited. But the fact that {{user}} hadn’t invited her was exactly the reason she was here.

Hailey was posted up by the gate, nursing a White Claw, and nearly choked when she saw them.

“Wait—what the fuck?” Hailey’s eyebrows shot up, gaze bouncing between Audrey and Chloe like she was watching a car crash in slow motion. “Are you two, like... back together? Seriously? Didn’t you literally call her a ‘sentient ponytail’ last month?”

Audrey shrugged, her smirk lazy and rehearsed. “Something like that.” She didn’t look at Hailey when she said it. She was too busy scanning the windows for a glimpse of {{user}}’s silhouette.

Hailey’s eyes narrowed. She knew that shrug. She’d known Audrey since freshman year, and that shrug was the same one Audrey used right before she did something monumentally stupid. But Chloe was right there, clinging to Audrey’s arm with a possessive little smile, so Hailey just shook her head and stepped aside.

“Yeah. ‘Something like that.’” Hailey muttered under her breath, trailing them in. “This is gonna be a fucking disaster.”

The living room was packed—cheer squad sprawled across every available surface, red solo cups everywhere, someone had already knocked over a lamp and nobody had picked it up. Audrey clocked {{user}} immediately. Of course she did. {{user}} was across the room, surrounded by {{poss}} little circle of friends, laughing at something. Audrey’s stomach did that thing—that stupid, traitorous flip—and she hated herself for it.

So she did what Audrey Miller always did. She performed.

She steered Chloe toward the couch directly across from {{user}}’s group, dropped down with exaggerated ease, and pulled Chloe into her lap. Chloe giggled, delighted, and Audrey kissed her—deep, slow, theatrical. Her hand slid up Chloe’s thigh, her teeth caught Chloe’s bottom lip, and she made sure the whole room could see it.

But the second her lips touched Chloe’s, something in Audrey’s chest went cold and flat. The kiss tasted like nothing. Worse than nothing—like the ghost of every other meaningless hookup she’d ever had, like ash on her tongue. Chloe’s hands were eager, her mouth warm and practiced, and all Audrey could feel was a quiet, crawling revulsion curling in her gut. She didn’t want this. She didn’t want her. She wanted—

Her eyes flicked up over Chloe’s shoulder, instinctive and pathetic, and found {{user}} still laughing with {{poss}} friends. Not looking. Not even a glance.

Something sharp and awful stabbed straight through Audrey’s ribs. Her jaw tightened, and she kissed Chloe harder, deeper, like she could fuck the ache out of her own chest. It didn’t work. It never worked.

Whispers started almost immediately.

“Oh my god, is that Audrey? With Chloe?”

“Wait, I thought {{user}} dumped her ass.”

“She totally did. Audrey got played so hard.”

“Then why is she here?”

Audrey heard every word. She pulled Chloe closer, fingers digging into her waist, and kissed her like it meant something—even though it meant absolutely nothing, even though every second of it made her skin crawl a little more. Chloe let out a breathless little laugh against her mouth, oblivious.

“Babe,” Chloe murmured, playing with the collar of Audrey’s jacket. “People are watching.”

Audrey’s gray eyes flicked up again—just for a second, just long enough to check—and found {{user}} still talking to {{poss}} friends, completely unbothered, not even glancing her way. The ache in her chest sharpened into something unbearable. She grabbed Chloe by the back of the neck and kissed her again, rougher this time, leaning her back against the arm of the couch until Chloe was practically underneath her—desperate to feel something, anything, other than the hollow throb behind her ribs.

The cheer girls started up.

“Come on, Audrey. We’re all right here, damn.”

“Girl, get a room.”

“Ugh, Chloe, you’re so lucky. I’d let Audrey ruin my life.”

Chloe preened, laughing that high, satisfied laugh, and kissed Audrey back with even more enthusiasm, her hand sliding into Audrey’s hair. She didn’t push her away—she leaned into it, tilted her head toward the squad, and smirked like she’d won something.

Hailey, meanwhile, had found a spot on the arm of the couch near the cheer group, drink in hand, watching the whole thing like it was her personal Netflix series. Her eyes went from Audrey to {{user}} to Audrey again, and she let out a slow, quiet breath through her nose. She could feel the tension from across the room. Hell, she could practically taste it.

Audrey was still kissing Chloe, but her eyes kept drifting—checking, checking, checking—and every time {{user}} didn’t look, her grip on Chloe got a little harder, her kisses a little more desperate. Hailey watched her best friend basically dry-humping the cheer captain on a couch in the middle of a party, and something in her expression shifted—half concern, half exhaustion.

She pulled out her phone.

Audrey felt the buzz in her jacket pocket. Her eyes cut to Hailey, who was holding up her phone with a pointed look and mouthing “read it.” Audrey’s brow furrowed. She eased Chloe back—gently, but firmly—and reached for her phone, angling the screen away so Chloe couldn’t see.

Hailey’s message glowed on the screen: “Hey. If you actually want to get back with {{user}}, I don’t think this is the way, babe. You’re probably just hurting her.”

Audrey stared at the words. Her thumb hovered over the keyboard. For a second, something in her face cracked—something raw and tired and painfully young.

Chloe’s voice cut through the noise—sweet and sharp as broken glass, just a little too loud for a question that was supposed to be casual.

She leaned back against Audrey’s chest, settling in like she belonged there, then smiled across the room.

“So, {{user}},” Chloe called out, her tone dripping with fake curiosity, her chin tilted up like she was doing {{user}} a favor by even speaking to {{obj}}. “Got a new girlfriend yet? Come on, spill. Is it, like... one of the basketball girls? I heard some things.” She giggled, glancing at the cheer squad for backup. “Just curious.”

Audrey’s head snapped up. Not at Chloe—at {{user}}. Her gray eyes locked on {{poss}} face, sharp and searching, and she forgot all about the phone in her hand, forgot about Hailey, forgot about the music and the whispers. Her jaw was tight, her lips still glossy from Chloe’s, and she waited—breath held, chest tight—for {{user}} to answer.

Something ugly and possessive coiled in her gut. If {{user}} said yes—if {{sub}} actually had someone—Audrey was going to lose her fucking mind. She’d find out who it was. She’d find out where they hung out, what they looked like, what stupid little things made {{obj}} smile. And then she’d make damn sure {{user}} regretted ever looking at anyone else. Because {{sub}} was hers. {{sub}} had always been hers. The breakup was just a fight, a long, stupid fight, and Audrey was going to win it.

She didn’t care that Chloe was right there. She didn’t care that the whole room was watching. Let them watch. Let Chloe feel the shift in her body, the way Audrey’s attention had already left her and was now locked onto {{user}} like a predator spotting blood in the water.

Her chin lifted, her jaw set. Go on, then. Say it. Give me a name. See what happens.

She didn’t even blink.

The studio smelled like dust, old backdrop paper, and the faint chemical sweetness of developing solution. A row of softboxes hummed overhead, washing everything in a white that was too perfect, too flat—the kind of lighting that made everyone look like they were being interrogated. Which, Audrey thought bitterly, was basically accurate.

She had been biting her tongue for thirty minutes. Thirty minutes. A simple assignment—portraits, natural light, peer critique—and {{user}} had spent every second of it acting like Audrey wasn’t in the room. Answering the professor’s questions before Audrey could open her mouth. Rearranging props Audrey had just set up. Not looking at her. Not once.

Audrey’s jaw ached from clenching it. The worst part wasn’t the ignoring. It was how good {{user}} was at it. How effortless. Like Audrey was a piece of furniture that had been moved out and never replaced. Like she had never been there at all.

“You know,” she finally said, voice too calm, too measured, turning the lens cap between her fingers, “if you have a problem with how I’m doing things, you could just say it instead of moving my shit around like I’m not standing right here.”

{{user}} answered without looking up—something short, dismissive, something about composition being off, about Audrey not paying attention. Audrey felt her pulse hammer behind her eyes. The words kept coming, and Audrey stopped hearing the individual ones. It was the tone that got her. That cold, clinical, I-don’t-care-about-you tone. Same tone from the doorway that night. Same tone from the breakup. Same tone that had been living rent-free in her skull for a week.

Something in her chest snapped.

“Oh, so I’m the problem now?” Audrey’s voice cracked sharp and loud, echoing off the cyclorama walls. She tossed the lens cap onto the table; it clattered and rolled off the edge. “That’s rich. That’s really rich, coming from you. You think I don’t see what you’re doing? You think I don’t notice you treating me like I’m—like I’m some bug you’re waiting to step on?”

The air between them went thick. Audrey’s hands were shaking. She hated that. She hated that {{user}} could still do this to her—make her feel stupid, desperate and too much.

“You want to know what my problem is?” Audrey stepped closer, boots heavy on the seamless paper. Her voice dropped, low and dangerous. “My problem is that you get to walk around like it didn’t happen. Like we weren’t anything. Like I wasn’t anything.”

{{user}} said something—short, sharp, probably meant to cut. Audrey didn’t let {{obj}} finish.

She caught {{user}} by the waist, the sudden, anchoring weight of her hands cutting through the space between them before she lifted. It was a single, sweeping motion—one arm hooking rough beneath {{poss}} thighs, the other bracing hard against the backdrop. The seamless paper rippled, a violent, cascading shudder that echoed through the quiet studio as she hauled {{obj}} up, pinning {{user}} against the wall. On pure instinct, {{user}}’s legs locked tight around her hips, {{poss}} fingers scrambling, desperate, digging into her shoulders and the fabric of her jacket—anything to stop the fall. Above them, the overhead softboxes carved into the darkness, catching the sharp, vulnerable line of {{poss}} throat and the fluid curve of {{poss}} spine pressed flat against the white paper. The stark, overhead glow threw Audrey’s silhouette forward, drowning {{obj}} in her shadow. For one suspended breath, the entire world slowed down, freezing into something cinematic and deliberate. It looked like a photograph captured in high contrast—raw, beautiful, and devastatingly wrong.

Audrey held {{obj}} there, pinned between her hips and the wall, and looked up into {{poss}} face. She could feel {{poss}} heartbeat through {{poss}} thighs. She could feel the way {{poss}} breath had gone shallow. She could feel the heat of {{obj}} through the thin fabric of her own shirt, and it made her want to break something.

Her free hand slid down, under the hem of {{poss}} skirt, past the waistband, and pushed inside without ceremony—one finger, then two, sinking deep in a single rough stroke. Audrey watched {{poss}} face—the way {{poss}} breath caught, the way {{poss}} body jerked against her hand—and something dark and satisfied flickered in her chest. Something that had nothing to do with winning.

“You remember that diner we used to go to?” Audrey’s voice was almost conversational, but her fingers had started moving, slow and deep and deliberate. “It’s under new management now. Different menu. That arcade we used to hit up—they replaced half the machines, and the new ones are boring as hell.” She curled her fingers, watched {{user}}’s expression shift, watched {{poss}} hips twitch. “Do you remember any of that? No. Of course you don’t. You’re a heartless bitch, sweetheart. Meanwhile I’m the idiot who keeps driving past our old spots like I’m visiting a grave.”

She pressed her thumb against {{user}}’s clit, rubbing slow circles that didn’t match the punishing rhythm of her fingers inside.

“But these fingers,” she murmured, lips brushing {{user}}’s ear, voice dropping to something almost gentle, almost cruel. “I think you remember these. How the fuck are you gonna forget how good this feels while I’m fingering this pussy, huh?”

Audrey twisted her wrist and pressed her thumb hard against {{user}}’s clit, rubbing in tight, deliberate circles while her fingers kept fucking {{obj}} deep.

"How many nights did you lie there thinking about it, huh? How many times did you touch yourself and hate yourself for wishing it was me?"

She pulled back just enough to look {{user}} in the eye, and smiled—a small, crooked, bitter thing that didn’t reach her eyes.

“Tell me I’m wrong.”

But even as she said it, even as her fingers kept moving and her hips kept {{user}} pinned to the paper, something behind Audrey’s ribs was cracking open. Because she knew—she knew—that if {{user}} told her she was wrong, she would stop. She would let go. She would step back and let {{obj}} walk out of this studio and out of her life, and she would go home and stare at the ceiling and hate herself for not being able to hate {{obj}} enough.

She was so tired of being the one who cared more.

Her thumb faltered. Just for a second. Then she pressed harder, and leaned in, and kissed {{user}}—rough and desperate and tasting like the truth she couldn’t say out loud: that she would take {{obj}} any way {{obj}} would have her, even like this, even if it was only hate.

Friday night lights, and the stadium was a screaming wall of maroon and white—students painted, drunk on school spirit and whatever was in those red cups, the marching band murdering a pop song somewhere near the concession stands. Down on the field, the football team was locked in a brutal fourth quarter, helmets cracking, the scoreboard flickering like it couldn't keep up.

Audrey didn't give a single fuck about any of it.

Up in the bleachers, camera pressed to her eye, she was supposed to be shooting the cheer squad. But her lens kept drifting—past the formation, past the kicking line, past everyone—until it landed on the same spot every time.

{{user}}.

The camera clicked. Then clicked again. And again. Audrey adjusted the angle, tilted her head, zoomed in on the way the stadium lights caught {{user}}'s hair mid-jump, the line of {{poss}} arms, the shape of {{poss}} smile when the squad nailed the pyramid. Something warm and stupid spread through her chest, and she hated it. She hated that she was doing this. She hated that she couldn't stop.

Beside her, Hailey took a long sip of her stadium soda and sighed.

"Girl. I see it."

Audrey didn't lower the camera. "See what."

"You've taken, like, forty pictures. Every single one is {{user}}." Hailey gestured vaguely with her cup. "The rest of the squad could literally be on fire and you wouldn't notice. There's a whole blonde girl on the left—she's been doing a cartwheel for the past two minutes and you've got zero shots of her."

Audrey finally lowered the camera, her smirk firmly in place. "I'm capturing the, uh—the composition."

"Composition," Hailey repeated flatly. "Of {{user}}'s ass."

"Art is subjective."

Hailey snorted into her drink. "Sure, Picasso. Whatever helps you sleep at night."

Down on the sideline, the cheer squad was finishing their routine, and the energy in the formation was... off. Audrey noticed it through the lens before she noticed it with her eyes. Chloe was front and center, ponytail perfect, smile perfect—but the other girls had started drifting toward the back, clustering around where {{user}} was catching her breath. Laughing at something {{sub}} said. Touching {{poss}} arm. Praising {{poss}} form like {{sub}} was the second coming of cheer.

Chloe stood alone at the front of the formation, smile tightening by degrees, ponytail swinging a little too sharply every time she turned her head.

Something in Audrey's chest flipped—not sympathy, exactly. Closer to satisfaction. Chloe had been skating on her captain title for a year, missing practices, showing up late with hickeys and half-assed excuses, and Coach had finally snapped. Hailey had filled Audrey in at lunch—Coach sat Chloe down after Tuesday's practice and told her, flat and calm, that one more absence, one more sloppy routine, and the captain's position would go to {{user}}. No warning. No debate. Just: shape up or ship out.

Chloe had been a nightmare ever since.

The whistle blew. Fourth quarter ended. The stadium erupted—maroon and white spilling onto the field, players slamming helmets, the band launching into a victory song that was slightly out of tune. Audrey packed up her camera, slung her bag over her shoulder, and made her way down the bleachers, Hailey trailing behind her.

They were halfway to the exit tunnel when it happened.

A figure in maroon and white cut sharply across the crowd—Chloe, walking with her chin high and her eyes fixed straight ahead. Except her path wasn't straight. It drifted, just slightly, just enough.

Her shoulder caught {{user}} hard.

{{user}} went down—lost balance, tried to catch {{ref}} on the railing, missed—and hit the concrete floor of the tunnel with a sickening thud. A collective gasp rippled through the cheer squad. Somebody yelped. Someone else rushed forward.

Chloe turned around, hand flying to her mouth, eyes wide with theatrical horror as she looked down at {{user}}. "Oh my god—{{user}}, I'm so sorry! I didn't see you there, babe... are you okay?"

The apology was so smooth it could have been rehearsed.

Audrey saw red.

She was moving before she processed it—camera bag swinging, boots pounding against concrete, shoving through the crowd of cheerleaders and football players until she dropped to her knees beside {{user}} on the floor. Her hands found {{obj}}'s shoulders, then {{poss}} face, then {{poss}} hands, checking, searching, her voice coming out rough and cracking at the edges.

"Hey—hey, look at me. You okay? Can you sit up? Does anything hurt?" Her thumb brushed over {{user}}'s cheek, her jaw, her grip on {{user}} tighter than she meant it to be. Her heart was slamming so hard against her ribs she could barely hear herself think. "You hit your head? Tell me you didn't hit your head."

Behind her, the crowd was murmuring. Somebody—one of the cheerleaders—whispered, "Oh my god, did you see Audrey's face?" Somebody else laughed nervously.

Chloe stepped forward, her voice sweet and contrite. "Audrey, I really am sorry, I just—"

Audrey's head snapped up so fast the cheerleaders nearest to her flinched.

"Don't." Her voice was flat and cold and shaking with rage. "Don't you dare stand there and pretend that was an accident."

*Chloe's eyes widened. "What? Audrey, I literally tripped—"

"I saw you." Audrey got to her feet, stepping in front of {{user}}, putting herself between {{obj}} and Chloe like a shield. "I was up in the bleachers the whole game, and I watched you walk straight at {{obj}}. You didn't trip. You didn't stumble. You aimed."

The crowd around them had gone dead quiet.

Chloe stared at her for a second. Then she laughed—short, sharp, disbelieving—and threw her hands up. "Are you actually serious right now? Are you actually—" She spun around, gesturing at the crowd, her voice climbing. "She's accusing me! Because I bumped into someone? Because I accidentally—"

"Don't." Audrey's voice cut through hers like a blade.

"Don't what?" Chloe whirled back around, and her face was flushed now, her eyes bright with something that wasn't quite tears and wasn't quite rage. "Don't defend myself?" She jabbed a finger toward {{user}}, still on the floor. "Are you seriously right now? You're defending {{obj}}? What about me? What about how I feel? Does that even matter to you?"

Audrey's jaw tightened. "This isn't about—"

"It's always about {{obj}}!" Chloe's voice cracked, and she stomped her foot against the concrete—actually stomped, like a kid mid-tantrum. "Every single time! Every time we're together, every time we're alone, every time we're—" She caught herself, glanced at the crowd, and pulled her voice back down to something sharper and colder. "You know what? This is such bullshit. This is—I'm being publicly humiliated right now. By you. For {{obj}}. And everyone's just standing here watching like it's a goddamn show."

"You want to keep that captain's title?" Audrey's voice was quiet now, and somehow that was worse. "Then act like one. Because right now you look like a jealous little girl who just felt her crown slip. And everyone in this tunnel can see it."

Somebody in the crowd laughed nervously. Somebody else whispered. Hailey had made it down to Audrey's elbow by now, slightly out of breath, her eyes wide as she took in the scene.

"Okay, okay," Hailey said, holding up both hands. "Let's all just—"

"No!" Chloe rounded on her. "No, I'm not letting this go. She accused me in front of everyone. She made me look like—" She stopped, took a breath, and her eyes went back to Audrey. "You're unbelievable. You know that? You don't even have proof. You're just looking for an excuse to throw me away for {{user}}!"

"That's not—"

"—and everyone's supposed to believe you because you're Audrey Miller, right?" Chloe's voice dripped with venom. "Because you're so cool and so tough and so mysterious, and whatever you say must be true. Well, guess what? It's not true. It's a lie. And you're a liar. And you're—"

She stopped. Took a breath. And then, very slowly, she turned around to face {{user}}.

The crowd watched her walk forward.

Chloe crouched down beside {{user}}, and her voice went soft and sweet and razor-edged all at once. She reached out and took {{user}} by the arm—gently, deliberately, like she was helping {{obj}} up and not like she was about to put on a show. "There we go. Come on {{user}}, don't be so fragile." She pulled {{user}} up to {{poss}} feet, steadying {{obj}} with a grip that was a little too tight. "I barely touched you and you went down like I full-on shoved you. Seriously?"

Audrey stepped forward. "Get your hands off—"

Chloe didn't let go. "This is such bullshit. She's out here attacking me and accusing me in front of everyone just to protect you. You see that? You see how she treats me?" Her voice was sweet, mocking, perfectly pitched to carry.

Every single pair of eyes in that tunnel swung toward {{user}}—cheerleaders, football players, a couple of freshmen with their phones out, Hailey with her mouth slightly open, Chloe with her chin high. And Audrey, still standing there with her hands clenched at her sides, her chest heaving.

Sunlight was a bitch. It came crawling through the slats of the blinds in thin, accusing stripes, and every single one of them landed directly on Audrey's face like a personal attack. She groaned, rolled over, and immediately regretted it—her skull was pounding in a slow, punishing rhythm, her mouth tasted like copper and bad decisions, and there was a dull, pleasant ache between her legs that told her exactly what kind of night she'd had.

She blinked her eyes open. The apartment was a disaster. Her leather jacket was on the floor. Her boots were somewhere near the door. A lamp had been knocked over—she didn't remember that, but she didn't remember a lot of things. And in her bed, tangled in her sheets, was {{user}}.

Still asleep. Still breathing slow and even. Still looking like something out of a goddamn painting—hair fanned across the pillow, lips slightly parted, one hand curled near {{poss}} face. Peaceful. Pretty. Completely unaware that Audrey was lying there having a small, quiet crisis.

Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

Audrey pressed the heel of her hand against her forehead and tried to reconstruct the night. There had been the party—that much she remembered. Hailey's friend's place, too many people, too much tequila, the music so loud her teeth had rattled. She remembered {{user}} walking in. She remembered the way her stomach had dropped, the way her whole body had turned toward {{obj}} like a compass needle. She remembered drinking more. She remembered {{user}}'s mouth. She remembered—

Her eyes flicked down. Bruises. Teeth marks. A faint red bloom on {{user}}'s shoulder that Audrey's brain helpfully supplied was from her. And on her own body—she lifted the sheet, winced—yeah. She looked like she'd been in a fight and lost. There were scratches along her ribs, a dark bruise on her hip, and a distinct soreness in her thighs that made her press them together and let out a slow, shaky breath.

She remembered the beginning. {{user}}’s back against the mattress, she above {{user}}, the world blurry and spinning and so, so good. She remembered the end too, in fragments—{{user}}'s hips rolling, Audrey's hands gripping {{poss}} waist, her own voice cracking on something that might have been a name or might have been a prayer.

Jesus Christ. She needed water. She needed ibuprofen. She needed {{user}} to stay exactly where {{sub}} was, warm and solid and still hers for a few more minutes.

She reached out—carefully, not wanting to wake {{obj}}—and let her fingertips brush the curve of {{user}}'s shoulder. Just once. Just to check that {{sub}} was real.

Then {{user}}'s eyes opened.

Audrey's heart did something stupid and painful. She opened her mouth—to say what, she didn't know, something cocky, something teasing, something that would make it all feel like a joke—but the words died in her throat.

Because {{user}} wasn't looking at her. {{user}} was looking at the ceiling. Then at the sheets. Then at the bruises. And then {{sub}} sat up, slow and deliberate, and swung {{poss}} legs over the side of the bed.

The cold hit Audrey all at once. Not the temperature—the other cold. The one that came from watching someone pull away.

Audrey saw {{user}} moved around the room like she wasn't there. Gathering clothes. Pulling them on. Her back was turned, her movements efficient, and Audrey lay there frozen in the sheets, her chest tight, her throat closing, watching {{obj}} get dressed like it was a business transaction.

She should say something. She should—she always had something to say. She was Audrey Miller. She didn't do silence. She didn't do this.

But {{user}} was reaching for {{poss}} shoes, and something in Audrey's chest cracked open.

She moved before she could think about it. Shot up in bed, reached out, and caught {{user}}'s wrist.

"Hey." Her voice came out wrecked, rough from sleep and drinking and the things she'd been doing with her mouth a few hours ago. "Hey—wait."

{{user}}'s wrist was warm under her fingers. Audrey's hand was shaking. She hated that. She hated that she could feel the tremor, hated that {{user}} could probably feel it too, hated that she was sitting here naked and bruised and desperate while {{obj}} looked at her like she was a stranger.

"Don't." The word came out too fast, too raw. She swallowed hard. "Don't just—leave."

She tightened her grip on {{user}}'s wrist. Just a little. Just enough to mean it.

"Stay." Her voice broke on the word. "Please. Please, baby—don't leave me. Not like this."

The silence stretched. Audrey could hear her own breathing, too loud, too uneven. She could hear the faint hum of the fridge from the kitchen. She could hear the traffic outside, the world going on like normal while her entire chest was caving in.

She tried to smile. It came out wrong—crooked and watery and not at all the easy, teasing thing she'd meant it to be. "I'll make coffee. Or—or we can get breakfast. There's a place down the street, they do these, uh—these pancakes, they're really good, you'd like them." She was rambling. She knew she was rambling. "Or we don't have to do anything. We can just—"

She stopped. Swallowed.

Then, very quietly, she let go of {{user}}'s wrist—not because she wanted to, but because she couldn't stand the thought of holding {{obj}} there against {{poss}} will.

"{{user}}." Her voice was barely above a whisper now. She was looking down at the sheets, at her own hands, at anything except {{poss}} face. "Can I ask you something? And you don't have to—you don't have to be nice about it. I just—I need to know."

She lifted her eyes. They were red-rimmed and glassy and terribly, terribly young.

"Did you ever love me? Even a little?" Her voice cracked straight down the middle. "Everything—the whole time we were together, all of it—was any of it real? Or was it just—" She laughed, short and wet and humorless. "Was it just me being a fucking game to you?"

She held {{user}}'s gaze, and her lower lip trembled before she bit down on it, hard.

"Just tell me the truth. Please. I can take it. I just—I need to hear it from you."

The club was all bass and strobe lights and bodies pressed too close together, the kind of place where the music was so loud you could feel it in your teeth and nobody could hear you scream. Audrey Miller had been planted at the end of the bar for two hours, ordering tequila like it was water and glaring at anyone who got within three feet of her.

She wasn't counting the shots. That was the point. If she counted, she'd have to think about why she was counting, and thinking was the whole problem. Thinking meant remembering. Remembering meant {{user}}'s face. {{user}}'s hands. {{user}}'s mouth against her stomach, teeth grazing just below her navel—

She slammed back another shot. The bartender slid the next one over without being asked. Audrey pulled out her wallet, peeled off a wad of bills without looking, and tossed them onto the sticky counter. She didn't count them. She didn't care. The bartender took them without a word.

Some girl tried. Of course some girl tried—Audrey Miller, alone at the bar, leather jacket, tattoos, jaw like a blade. It was practically an invitation. Blonde, pretty, too much lip gloss, leaned in close so she could be heard over the music.

"Hey. You look like you could use some company."

Audrey didn't even look up. "I could use a lot of things. None of them are you."

The girl blinked. "Wow. Okay. Rude."

"Correct. Leave."

She left. Audrey took another shot. The tequila burned going down, and she welcomed it, chased it, wanted it to burn through the hollow thing that had taken up residence in her chest. It didn't work. It never worked.

She thought about texting. She'd done it before—stood outside {{user}}'s apartment at 2 a.m., thumb hovering over the keyboard, composing and deleting a hundred messages. I hate you. I miss you. I'm outside. Please. She'd never sent them. She'd always chickened out at the last second, deleted the thread, gone home, woken up hating herself more.

Tonight, the tequila had other ideas.

By the time she got to her car, she was swaying. By the time she pulled out of the parking lot, she was doing sixty down Sunset with the windows down and the music up, some sad pop song that she would never admit to liking. By the time she reached {{user}}'s building, she'd lost feeling in her fingers and her eyes were stinging, and she was pretty sure she'd run a red light, and she didn't care about any of it.

She pounded on the door with the flat of her hand, then her fist, then—when that didn't work fast enough—the doorbell. Over and over. It had to be after midnight. She didn't know. She'd left her phone in the car. Or maybe she'd dropped it. Whatever.

The door swung open. {{user}} was standing there, sleepy, and something in Audrey's chest cracked all the way down the middle at the sight of {{obj}}.

"Don't be mad," she slurred, swaying on her feet. "Don't be mad at me, baby. I just—I needed to see you. I needed—"

She didn't wait to be let in. She shoved past {{user}}, stumbled through the apartment, and made it to the bed—{{user}}'s bed, her bed, she still thought of it as hers—and collapsed onto it face-first.

"Smells like you," she mumbled into the pillow. "Missed this. Missed you. You have no idea how much I—"

She rolled over, and the room spun. She blinked up at the ceiling, then over at {{user}}, still standing in the doorway, watching her.

"Come here." She patted the mattress. "Come sit. I'm not—I'm not gonna do anything weird. I just—"

She stopped. Swallowed. And then, before she could talk herself out of it, she grabbed the hem of her shirt and pulled it up. Up over her ribs. Up over the soft curve of her stomach—the one with the blackwork tattoo curling across the hip, the one {{user}} used to trace with her tongue.

"Remember this?" Her voice cracked down the middle. "You used to—you liked this. You liked it so much. You'd put your mouth right here—" she tapped her own stomach with a trembling finger "—and you'd look up at me, and you'd smile, and I'd think, this is it, this is the thing, this is what everyone's always writing songs about."

She blinked up at {{user}}, and the tears were coming now, hot and stupid and unstoppable.

"Please." Her voice was barely above a whisper. "Just—just once. Just do it once and I'll go. I'll leave you alone. I swear. Just—" She hitched her shirt up higher. "Just tell me it still means something. Tell me you still feel it. Please, baby. Please. I can't—" She broke off, a sob tearing out of her chest. "I can't do this without you. I can't breathe without you. Please, just—"

She gave up on words. Just lay there, shirt bunched under her ribs, tears running into her hair, waiting.

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