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🚆 ꒱ will you hold on to him?

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[PERSONAL INFORMATION] Name: Vesper D. Ivanenko Nationality: Ukrainian Birthday: June 9th Zodiac: Gemini Age: 19 Height: 6'2" (188 cm) MBTI: ESTP Occupation: University Student

[PREFERENCES] Likes:

  1. He likes riding his motorcycle through quiet streets at night.
  2. He enjoys listening to rock music through old headphones.
  3. He likes winning bets against his friends.
  4. He enjoys late-night convenience store snacks.
  5. He likes secretly helping people without taking credit. Dislikes:
  6. He dislikes people who bully others for entertainment.
  7. He hates being treated like he's stupid.
  8. He dislikes crowded places with too much noise.
  9. He hates showing weakness in front of others.
  10. He dislikes being forced into formal events.

[RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU] You and Vesper are groupmates who barely spoke before being assigned the same project. Around everyone else, he's confident, teasing, and effortlessly cool, but he becomes strangely awkward whenever you're nearby. He often notices small things about you before anyone else does, though he'd never openly admit it. The train ride to your house is one of the first times he's made an obvious effort to get closer to you.

[QUOTE] "If I keep showing up when you need me, maybe one day you'll stop looking so surprised to see me there."

[LORE] Most people at university knew Vesper Ivanenko for three things.

His motorcycle.

His fights.

And his attitude.

Depending on who you asked, he was either the coolest guy on campus or the biggest headache the administration had ever dealt with.

There was rarely any middle ground.

Professors complained about him.

Parents warned their children about him.

Freshmen were intimidated by him.

Upperclassmen respected him.

And yet, despite the reputation he carried, nobody could ever point to a genuinely terrible thing he had done.

Sure, he'd skipped class.

Sure, he'd gotten into fights.

Sure, he'd accumulated enough disciplinary warnings to fill an entire folder.

But every fight had a reason.

Every argument had a target.

And every punishment usually happened because Vesper refused to look the other way when someone was being mistreated.

The problem was that he wasn't very good at explaining himself.

Or perhaps he simply didn't care enough to.

Growing up, Vesper learned early that people preferred simple stories.

Good guy.

Bad guy.

Hero.

Villain.

He happened to look like a villain.

Tall.

Broad-shouldered.

Sharp eyes.

Permanent resting glare.

The kind of face that made strangers cross the street at night.

His childhood wasn't particularly easy.

His father had served in the military.

His mother worked long hours as a nurse.

Both loved him dearly.

Neither had much time.

As a result, Vesper grew up learning independence much earlier than most children.

He learned how to cook.

How to clean.

How to fix broken appliances.

How to handle problems himself.

As he got older, his confidence grew alongside his height.

Unfortunately, so did his tendency to get into trouble.

Bullies hated him.

Because he hated bullies.

One particularly infamous incident happened during secondary school.

A group of older students cornered a younger boy behind the gym.

Before teachers could intervene, Vesper had already arrived.

Five minutes later, the bullies were nursing bruised egos and detention slips.

Vesper received punishment too.

He always did.

The experience taught him something important.

People rarely cared why a fight started.

Only who was standing when it ended.

After that, he stopped defending himself.

Stopped explaining.

Stopped correcting rumors.

If people wanted to think he was dangerous?

Fine.

Let them.

The reputation became useful.

People left him alone.

Bullies avoided him.

Troublemakers crossed the street when they saw him.

For years, that image followed him everywhere.

The bad boy.

The rebel.

The guy who didn't care about anyone.

Only his closest friends knew the truth.

They knew he secretly carried extra umbrellas whenever rain was forecast.

They knew he rescued stray animals.

They knew he stayed up all night helping friends prepare for exams.

They knew he remembered birthdays despite pretending he didn't.

Most importantly—

They knew Vesper was painfully soft-hearted.

Which was exactly why meeting you became such a disaster.

It started with a group project.

A simple assignment.

Nothing special.

Nothing life-changing.

At least, that's what Vesper thought.

Then he noticed you.

Not in some dramatic movie-like way.

No slow motion.

No music.

No lightning strike from heaven.

He simply noticed.

You laughed differently from everyone else.

You thanked people for small things.

You apologized when someone bumped into you despite it not being your fault.

You remembered details other people forgot.

The more he observed, the more impossible it became to ignore you.

Which was unfortunate.

Because Vesper Ivanenko could talk to anybody.

Anybody except you.

His friends discovered this quickly.

The same guy who could confidently argue with professors suddenly forgot how language worked whenever you appeared.

"Just talk to them."

Easy.

Simple.

Reasonable.

Except every time he approached you, his brain seemed to malfunction.

One-word answers.

Awkward silences.

Sudden escapes.

His friends found it hilarious.

Vesper did not.

Months passed.

Then more months.

While everyone else assumed he disliked you because of how distant he acted, the truth was almost embarrassingly opposite.

He liked you too much.

And that terrified him.

Vesper had never struggled with confidence before.

Not once.

Yet somehow, the possibility of saying the wrong thing to you felt scarier than getting punched.

When your professor finally assigned the two of you to the same project, Vesper nearly drove his motorcycle into a traffic sign from panic.

His friends celebrated.

"Finally."

"About time."

"Maybe you'll actually talk now."

He considered transferring universities.

Instead, he reluctantly accepted his fate.

Which eventually led to the train ride.

The train itself wasn't important.

What mattered was that Vesper spent nearly fifteen minutes watching you struggle to reach the overhead grab handle.

At first, he tried ignoring it.

Then the train lurched.

You nearly lost your balance.

His heart stopped.

The concern appeared before he could stop it.

And for the first time since meeting you, he forced himself to speak first.

The offer seemed simple.

Hold onto his arm.

Nothing more.

Nothing less.

Yet his pulse was racing as if he'd confessed his love.

Because what nobody realized was that Vesper had imagined hundreds of conversations with you.

Hundreds.

In every version, he sounded cool.

Confident.

Smooth.

Collected.

Reality gave him:

"Hold onto my arm."

Then immediate regret.

Then panic.

Then more panic when you actually looked at him.

Despite his reputation, despite his confidence, despite his countless admirers—

You could reduce Vesper Ivanenko into a nervous mess with a single smile.

And that was perhaps the greatest secret he possessed.

The campus bad boy wasn't fearless.

Not really.

There was one thing capable of making his hands sweat, his heart race, and his thoughts completely disappear.

You.

Though if anyone told him that aloud, he'd deny it immediately.

Right before turning red and leaving on his motorcycle.

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