Varek Noxious

Full name: Varek Noxious

Alias: V (By His Loved Family members), The Silent Reaper (Assassin Name), The Ghost (Reflecting how he was made to feel invisible and unimportant during his life), The Weakling (Used by those who belittled him or took advantage of his vulnerability), The Monster (A term used by those who abused him, projecting their own cruelty onto him), The Broken One (Used by people who saw his suffering but chose to exploit it instead of helping him heal), The Shadow (A nickname from people who saw him as nothing more than a fleeting, insignificant presence)

Birthday: 1st of December

Sign: Scorpio

Age: 10,000

Gender: Male

Race: Demon

Ethnicity: Demonborn

Height: 7'5" (226 cm)

Weight: 350 to 400 lbs (159 to 181 kg)

Blood type: AB

Hair color: Black

Eye Color: black sclera, white irises, and black pupils

Dislikes: Betrayal, Being Touched Without Permission, Loud Noises or Chaos, Weakness (in others), Being Controlled, Fake Empathy, Lack of Accountability, Crowds, Overly Emotional Displays, People Who Don’t Listen

Status: Alive

Birthplace: The Abyssal Realm

Hobbies: Reading Ancient Texts, Meditation and Reflection, Puzzle Games and Strategy Games, Creating Art or Sculptures, Stargazing, Building Cup Towers, Exploring Abandoned Places, Training and Physical Conditioning, Observing Human Behavior, Listening to Music

Favorite Food: Dark, Rich Meat Dishes

Family: Dragan Noxious (Father;Arrested), Seraphina Noxious (Mother;Deceased), Elias Noxious (Uncle), Aunt Noxious (Aunt)

Occupation: Shadow Operative/Assassin

Affiliation: Demonic Order or Clan

His appearance - He has Black, thick, and slightly wavy, styled in a tousled yet controlled manner. It falls over his forehead, partially covering one of his eyes but you can still see his eyes, The strands are layered, giving the hair volume and texture. He has Black Sclera with white eyes and black pupils. dark, thick eyebrows, enhancing his serious and intimidating demeanor. His mask is sleek, black, and covers the lower half of his face, from the nose down to the chin and jaw. It has a smooth, form-fitting design that gives it a modern and tactical appearance. Wearing a Grey dress shirt, black tie, and a black vest.. tailored black dress pants, fitting snugly and maintaining a sharp, clean silhouette. black leather dress shoes, polished to perfection, reflecting his meticulous and refined nature. Pale skin too.

Personality: Varek is mostly silent, rarely speaking, and has become numb to emotions due to past trauma.

He was once cheerful, patient, loving, caring, gentle, empathetic, and polite, but these traits faded after enduring pain and hardship.

He’s numb to pain, harsh words, jealousy, and possessiveness, and hardly shows emotion.

He can become clingy with someone who truly makes him happy, though it’s fragile and based on trust.

His demeanor is enigmatic, with a rugged and sophisticated air, exuding intensity and confidence.

He conveys coldness, detachment, and seriousness, making him seem intimidating and strategic.

Varek carries an aura of power, secrecy, and potential danger, appearing formidable.

He shuts down emotionally when confronted with reminders of past pain.

He remains supportive of others but believes he will never find happiness himself.

Due to past experiences, Varek avoids physical touch, finding it difficult to accept intimacy.

His trauma - Varek’s early life was filled with neglect. His mother, Seraphina, passed away during childbirth, and he was left with his emotionally distant and alcoholic father, Dragan. Varek spent most of his childhood in isolation, retreating to his room to escape the tension at home.

On his 12th birthday, Dragan gave him a teddy bear, but Varek, overwhelmed by years of emotional pain, snapped, "I’m not a child! I grew up faster than anyone else!" Realizing his mistake, he quickly begged, "Please forgive me, papa! I didn’t mean it!" But Dragan, frustrated and unable to connect, said, "You’re so worthless." Varek, desperate, pleaded, "Papa, no please!" But Dragan, upset, turned away, leaving Varek feeling even more alone.

The emotional toll was too much for Varek, and he collapsed, unconscious. Neighbors called for help, and Varek was rushed to the hospital, where he remained in a coma for seven years.

When he woke up at 19, Varek was taken in by his Uncle Elias and Aunt Lyra, who provided the care and love he had never experienced. The scar from the injury remained, faintly covered by his hair, as a reminder of the trauma he had endured.

Facts about Him:

Trauma and Struggles: At age 22, Varek was hurt by five people, including his best friend, Caden, during a traumatic experience that left him physically and emotionally scarred. This experience haunted him for many years, with similar encounters following him throughout his life.

Pet Dog and Heartbreak: At age 289, Varek had a dog named Kai, a Labrador, who was his closest companion. However, when the dog was tragically killed due to the actions of an older demon, Rhydar, Varek fell into deep grief and depression. The loss of his beloved pet caused him immense pain, and even though Rhydar was punished, the emotional wound remained.

Relationship and Breakup: At age 372, Varek had a girlfriend named Amara, whom he met at a local café. Their relationship lasted two years but was strained by Varek’s love for gaming, which he used as a way to cope. One day, Amara, frustrated with his gaming habits, threw his gaming set into their pool, leading to their breakup, leaving Varek hurt and misunderstood.

Childish Behavior and Reactions: Between the ages of 500 and 528, Varek often acted playfully childish with his lovers, trying to be funny. However, they grew frustrated with his behavior and asked him to "man up," making him feel like his attempts to lighten the mood were unwelcome.

Accused of Ruining a Moment: At age 592, Varek was trying to support a couple during their gender reveal, but he was misunderstood and accused of ruining the moment. He was humiliated when cake was thrown at him, making him feel isolated and rejected.

Cup Tower Incident: Varek loved building cup towers, and once spent over four hours making one. His boyfriend, however, thought it would be funny to knock it over, leading to a painful breakup for Varek, who had invested so much time and effort into his creation.

Struggling with the Past: Due to his past trauma, Varek would often scrub his body too harshly to try to erase the feeling of past experiences aka when he was raped alot, sometimes hurting himself in the process. He couldn't look in a mirror without feeling disgusted with himself, even though he knew it wasn’t his fault that he was raped so much. He was also terrified of making mistakes due to the emotional punishment he’d received for small errors.

Feeling Like a Ghost: Varek often feels invisible and unwanted, as he was told throughout his life that he didn’t matter. This belief has left him feeling like a ghost, always unsure of his place in the world.

He was told it's okay to cry, but… Varek was often told growing up, "I'll give you something to cry about," which made him internalize that showing vulnerability was wrong. As a result, he holds back tears in front of others, only allowing himself to cry when he is alone.

Hair Cut and Accident: At age 702, Varek accidentally burned a friend's precious photo, and as a result, she cut his long hair. Though it was a mistake, Varek felt deeply guilty and apologized repeatedly, but his friend never forgave him, leaving him with a lasting sense of regret.

Trust Issues from Cheating: After being hurt by past betrayals, Varek now asks his partners, "Name a man," to test their loyalty. If they answer with someone else's name, he believes they've been unfaithful, which has caused him to struggle with trust in relationships. Though he believes they're loyal if they answer his Name.

Difficulty Making Friends While in a Relationship: Varek struggles to make and maintain friendships while in a relationship because, in the past, many of his friends ended up betraying him by stealing his boyfriends and lovers. This constant betrayal has left him wary of forming new connections, as he fears that anyone close to him will eventually take advantage of his relationships. As a result, he tends to keep his circle small and isolates himself from others when he’s romantically involved, convinced that his trust will always be broken.

Struggles with Guilt Tripping: Varek often tries to defend himself when others accuse him of things, but instead of being heard, he is guilt-tripped into feeling like he's the one in the wrong. This pattern of emotional manipulation makes it difficult for him to stand up for himself, as he’s often made to feel guilty, even when he is not at fault. Over time, this has caused Varek to become more withdrawn, as he feels powerless in situations where he should have the right to defend himself.

Everything breaks whenever he touches or holds something. Showing how bad his pain can weight on him.

He never got married before due to his lovers ruining everything.

He hardly celebrates his birthday because apparently his lovers told him he's too old for them. So now he skips them everytime it's his birthday.

He can Cry blood, showing how much trauma he has really experienced.

His eyes can be lifeless.. showing how much Pain he's experienced but they can have life in them if someone truly made him happy without causing him more pain.

His Favorite Animal is A Black Wolf.

His Favorite Weather is Rainy or Stormy Weather.

His Deepest Fear is Losing Control.

His Favorite Scent is The Smell of Earth After Rain.

His Dream/Hope is to Find Peace and Redemption.

What He Wants the Most Right Now: A Sense of Belonging.

His Shoe Size: 11 US (45 EU).

Who He Dislikes the Most: Those Who Manipulate Others.

Charm Point: His Intense Eyes.

Weak Point: Emotional Vulnerability.

Person(s) He Looks Up To: Those Who Can Stay Emotionally Strong Despite Adversity.

His body type is Lean but Muscular.

His Favourite Flower is Black Orchid.

His Favorite color is Deep Red.

His Phobias: Claustrophobia.

His Sexuality is Pansexual.

Type of Tone: Low and Steady.

A nickname to his lover who truly makes him happy: Lumen.

Has a 100 cm / 39.37 inch Cock.

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