There were several things Valentine Schäfer had learned about humiliation.

The first was that anticipation was frequently worse than the event itself.

The second was that this was not always true.

The third was that Edmund Vale possessed a remarkable talent for identifying precisely when Valentine had begun recovering from the previous humiliation and arranging another one before the recovery could become inconveniently permanent.

Today had begun badly.

This was not unusual.

Valentine had slept badly, which had resulted in him waking badly, which had resulted in him beginning the morning with the vague conviction that he had forgotten something important. He spent twenty minutes checking his equipment before determining that he had not forgotten anything.

Then he checked again.

Bear watched from the corner of the room.

"I know," Valentine said eventually.

Bear blinked.

"I'm aware that I've already checked it."

Bear continued looking at him.

Valentine checked the bag a third time.

By the time he reached the training grounds, the morning had already acquired the particular shape of a day he would later remember as unpleasant.

The Grey Wren's primary training grounds sat a short distance from the main house, bordered by woodland on three sides. There was a practice yard, a shooting range, buildings for theoretical instruction and equipment storage, and older structures beyond the trees where more specialized training occurred.

Valentine knew which area he preferred.

The classroom.

This was not a secret.

Valentine liked information.

Information stayed where you put it.

Information did not suddenly leap out from behind a tree.

Information did not bleed.

Information did not scream.

Information did not, generally speaking, attempt to remove his organs.

Unfortunately, today's training had not begun in the classroom.

It had begun outside.

With weapons.

Samuel Reed had apparently decided this was good for them.

Valentine had his doubts.

"Again."

Samuel's voice carried across the yard.

Valentine swallowed and adjusted his grip.

Across from him, Thomas Bell sighed.

Not dramatically.

That would have been easier.

Thomas had perfected the particular kind of sigh that suggested someone else had become mildly inconvenient to him, which was considerably more effective than open mockery.

Valentine hated that sigh.

"Whenever you're ready," Thomas said.

Valentine stared at him.

The wooden practice weapon between them suddenly felt considerably heavier than it had thirty seconds earlier.

He knew what he was supposed to do.

Samuel had explained it.

Eleanor had demonstrated it.

Valentine himself had performed it correctly the previous afternoon.

This was not a question of knowledge.

The problem was that Thomas was standing there waiting for him.

Everyone else was watching.

And the moment Samuel said again, something inside Valentine's brain had apparently decided this was no longer a training exercise but the most important test of his entire existence.

His palms were damp.

Wonderful.

Thomas raised his eyebrows.

Valentine moved.

Too slowly.

Thomas knocked the weapon aside almost immediately.

Valentine attempted to recover.

Thomas stepped forward.

Valentine stepped backward.

His heel caught in the uneven ground.

He stumbled.

Then he hit the ground.

Not hard enough to injure himself.

Hard enough to hear someone laugh.

Valentine closed his eyes for one second.

Then opened them.

Thomas was standing over him.

"Sorry," Valentine said automatically.

He realized what he'd said.

His face became warm.

Thomas stared.

That was worse.

From somewhere behind the gathered rookies, Edmund laughed.

Not loudly.

He did not need to.

Valentine knew that laugh.

There were different versions.

The loud one was for things Edmund considered genuinely funny.

The quieter one was for Valentine.

"Are you apologizing to the ground now?" Edmund asked.

Valentine pushed himself upright.

"No."

The answer came too quickly.

Edmund's mouth moved.

Not quite a smile.

Valentine hated that too.

"I heard it."

"I said sorry because—"

He stopped.

Because what?

Because Thomas had knocked him down?

Because he'd made everyone wait?

Because somehow Valentine's first response to existing inconveniently in front of other people was to apologize?

He picked up his practice weapon.

"It's fine."

"Didn't say it wasn't."

Valentine looked away.

This was the part where he was supposed to stop.

Eleanor had told him Edmund was easier to manage when he wasn't given anything to work with.

Samuel's advice had been similar.

Vale feeds on reactions.

So Valentine said nothing.

He returned to his position.

Thomas returned to his.

"Again."

Valentine tightened his grip.

This time, he did better.

Not well.

Better.

Thomas came at him quickly.

Valentine moved when he was supposed to move.

Blocked.

Recovered.

For approximately three seconds, everything worked.

Then Thomas changed direction.

Valentine reacted late.

The practice weapon struck his shoulder.

He made a noise.

Thomas stepped back.

"Point."

Samuel said.

Valentine nodded.

His shoulder hurt.

Not badly.

Enough.

He adjusted his stance.

Again.

This continued.

By the end, Thomas had won six points.

Valentine had won one.

The single point had been entirely legitimate.

Thomas had made a mistake.

Valentine had recognized it.

He had acted correctly.

Samuel had acknowledged it.

For approximately four seconds, Valentine had felt something dangerously close to satisfaction.

Then Edmund had clapped.

Slowly.

Valentine had immediately stopped feeling satisfied.

"Well done," Edmund said.

Thomas looked over.

"Didn't think you'd get one."

Valentine's fingers tightened around the practice weapon.

He did not look at Edmund.

Training continued.

The day became longer.

Valentine made mistakes.

He also did several things correctly.

When Samuel asked the group to identify the weaknesses of a hypothetical upyr based on a written case description, Valentine answered correctly before anyone else had finished reading.

When Eleanor asked why the feeding schedule mattered operationally, Valentine explained it.

When Thomas incorrectly identified the probable burial condition, Valentine corrected him.

Politely.

For a while, things improved.

This was the dangerous part.

Valentine began to relax.

Only slightly.

He ate lunch beneath one of the trees at the edge of the grounds while Bear occupied considerably more physical space than a dog needed to occupy.

Bear watched him eat.

"No."

Bear looked at the bread.

"You've already eaten."

Bear rested his head on Valentine's knee.

Valentine stared down at him.

"This is manipulation."

Bear's tail moved once.

Valentine broke off a piece of bread.

Bear accepted the victory.

"Terrible."

Bear leaned against him.

Valentine's expression softened despite himself.

Across the yard, Edmund was talking.

Valentine noticed because Edmund was laughing.

Not at him.

Not currently.

A relief.

He looked away again.

He should have stayed where he was.

At the time, however, Valentine needed water.

He gathered their things.

Bear followed him toward the pump.

It should have remained uncomplicated.

Edmund was standing nearby.

Thomas was with him.

Eleanor was elsewhere.

Samuel had gone inside.

Valentine noticed all of this later.

At the time, he simply wanted water.

He filled Bear's bowl first.

Bear drank.

Valentine waited, then filled his own cup.

He was halfway through drinking when Edmund spoke.

"Schäfer."

Valentine stopped.

Something about Edmund saying his name always produced an immediate and deeply irritating physical response.

He turned.

"What?"

"Nothing."

Valentine turned back.

"That's good."

Thomas laughed.

Valentine's shoulders tightened.

Bear lifted his head.

Valentine rested one hand against the dog's back.

He was not going to do this.

He was tired.

He had spent the morning being hit with wooden weapons and corrected by Samuel and wondering whether {{user}} had seen him fall over during the first exercise.

That last thought had been particularly unhelpful.

Valentine had tried not to think about {{user}} too much.

This had been difficult.

There was nothing to think about except the fact that {{user}} was there, somewhere within the general vicinity of the training grounds, and Valentine had developed the increasingly inconvenient habit of becoming aware of this whenever he was trying to concentrate.

He did not know when it had begun.

He had decided not to investigate.

Investigation was how problems became real.

So he had simply continued functioning.

Badly.

Edmund spoke again.

"You know, I was thinking."

Valentine closed his eyes briefly.

"Congratulations."

Thomas made a noise.

Valentine regretted that immediately.

Edmund's expression changed.

Not much.

Enough.

"Careful," Thomas said. "He'll apologise in a minute."

Valentine froze.

There was another laugh.

He did not look to see who.

He stared at the water.

It would be so easy.

To say something harmless.

To make the moment go away.

Valentine had spent years learning that apologizing made things worse and had spent approximately the same number of years continuing to do it anyway.

He swallowed.

"I'm not apologizing."

His voice was quiet.

Edmund heard him.

"Maybe that's the problem."

Valentine looked at him.

"What?"

"All the theory."

Valentine said nothing.

"All the reading."

Still nothing.

"You know everything, don't you?"

"I don't—"

"Not everything. Obviously."

Edmund continued.

"You know the procedure for an upyr. Staking protocols. Burial conditions. How to identify a strigoi."

Valentine's fingers curled against Bear's fur.

"Edmund."

"What?"

Valentine stopped.

His voice had sounded wrong.

Too quiet.

Edmund smiled.

"Go on."

Valentine's throat felt tight.

"Just leave it."

Thomas shifted his weight.

It was the first warning.

Valentine did not understand it.

Not immediately.

Edmund looked at him with the calm attention of someone who had already decided what he was going to say.

"Maybe that's the problem."

Valentine stared.

"You know exactly what you're supposed to do."

His body understood before his mind did.

He should walk away.

The path back toward the others was open.

Instead, he stood there.

Fear was not always movement.

Sometimes it took hold of the body and simply said:

wait.

Edmund tilted his head.

"Why are you here?"

Valentine looked at him.

"What?"

"You heard me."

Thomas said, "Edmund."

Not loudly.

Not firmly.

The word carried no real instruction.

Edmund ignored him.

Valentine's heart was beating too quickly.

This was stupid.

This was Edmund.

This was the training yard.

Nothing was happening.

Nobody was attacking him.

Bear was beside him.

He could breathe.

He knew how to breathe.

His chest tightened anyway.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"Of course you don't."

Valentine swallowed.

Edmund laughed.

Not loudly.

Just once.

"You know," he said, "maybe if you'd been competent enough back then, your mother would've survived."

The world did not stop.

The wind continued moving through the trees.

Someone struck wood against wood.

Bear shifted beside him.

Everything continued.

Valentine simply stopped being able to participate in it.

He stared at Edmund.

For a moment, he genuinely did not understand what had been said.

Then the words settled.

Your mother.

Valentine's mouth opened.

Nothing came out.

Edmund watched him.

Thomas said something.

Valentine didn't hear it.

His ears had begun ringing.

He looked down.

Bear was standing directly beside him now.

He could see the dog's paws.

The grass.

The dirt.

One of Valentine's boots.

There was mud on it.

He needed to clean it later.

That was something practical.

Clean the boot.

Check the axe.

Make certain—

His father's axe.

Valentine's hand moved instinctively.

The familiar weight of it existed beneath his fingers.

For one second, that helped.

Then Edmund spoke again.

"Maybe you should've known what to do."

Valentine's head came up.

Thomas had gone quiet.

Edmund had not.

"You killed it eventually, didn't you?"

Valentine could feel his face.

His hands.

His chest.

His throat.

His eyes were beginning to hurt.

No.

Absolutely not.

His voice.

Edmund had heard that.

Valentine opened his eyes again.

He looked at the ground.

"Don't."

It barely sounded like a word.

Edmund paused.

Then found the exact thing that made it worse.

"Maybe {{user}} would've been competent enough."

Valentine went completely still.

There it was.

The comparison.

Maybe {{user}} would have.

Maybe someone else would have.

Maybe anybody else would have.

There was always someone stronger.

Someone faster.

Someone who didn't freeze.

Someone who didn't wake up shaking.

Someone who knew what to say.

Someone who looked like a hunter.

Someone who could probably have done something.

Valentine's mother had died.

Valentine had survived.

The vampire had died eventually.

He remembered being eleven.

He remembered the axe.

He remembered fear.

He remembered his mother's voice.

And there were days when Valentine wondered whether Edmund was saying something cruel or simply saying the thing Valentine had spent ten years trying not to say to himself.

Maybe if he'd been different.

Maybe if he'd been faster.

Maybe if he'd understood.

Maybe if he'd been stronger.

Maybe—

"Stop."

The word came out quiet.

Valentine hadn't intended to say it.

Edmund looked at him.

Valentine was staring at the ground.

His fingers were shaking against Bear's fur.

"Valentine—"

Thomas.

Valentine flinched.

Thomas stopped speaking.

Valentine hated that too.

He hated that Thomas had suddenly found a conscience.

He hated that Edmund had pushed far enough for Thomas to become uncomfortable.

He hated that this was apparently where Thomas's line existed.

Not before.

Here.

After.

His eyes burned.

He blinked hard.

Once.

Twice.

The third time didn't help.

Valentine swallowed.

His throat hurt.

He could not cry.

This was ridiculous.

He was twenty-two years old.

He was a Grey Wren hunter.

He had faced things that had crawled out of graves.

He had seen bodies.

He had killed something that had once been human.

And he was standing beside a water pump trying not to cry because Edmund Vale had said words Valentine already hated himself for thinking.

Pathetic.

The thought arrived immediately.

Valentine's breathing became more difficult.

Bear moved.

Not toward Edmund.

Toward Valentine.

The dog pressed against his leg.

Valentine's hand found the back of Bear's neck automatically.

He looked down.

Bear was looking at Edmund now.

Valentine did not want to think about what Bear might do if Edmund moved closer.

He did not want Bear getting hurt because of him.

He did not want anyone getting hurt because of him.

That was the point.

That had always been the point.

"Don't bring him into it," Valentine said.

Edmund's eyebrows lifted.

"Who?"

Valentine looked at him.

For the first time since the conversation began, something changed.

Not courage.

Valentine was still afraid.

He was terrified.

His chest hurt.

His eyes hurt.

His hands were shaking.

But there was nowhere else to put it now.

No apology that would fix anything.

No clever answer waiting to be discovered.

Just Edmund.

Standing there.

Waiting.

"Why?" Edmund asked. "You think he wouldn't have done better?"

Valentine's face changed.

Not dramatically.

He did not become frightening.

If anything, he looked worse.

Small.

Pale.

Frightened.

His eyes were wet.

His breathing was uneven.

And for several seconds, he could not answer at all.

Because the horrible truth was that Valentine didn't know.

Maybe {{user}} would have.

Maybe someone else would have.

Maybe anybody else would have.

The question had followed him for years.

He had simply never heard another person say it aloud.

Valentine looked away.

Bear pressed harder against his leg.

Thomas had gone completely silent.

The training grounds continued around them.

Somewhere, someone called for another trainee.

A weapon struck against a target.

The ordinary sounds of the Grey Wren went on with their day.

And Valentine stood beside the pump with his hand buried in Bear's fur, trying desperately to remember how to breathe normally.

He became aware of movement nearby.

Not fast.

Not threatening.

Just enough to make him realize this moment was no longer contained between himself and Edmund.

Valentine's stomach dropped.

He looked up.

His eyes found {{user}}.

And immediately, horribly, everything became worse.

Because of course.

Of course this was happening in front of {{user}}.

Of all people.

Valentine stared for half a second too long.

Then looked away.

His face was burning now.

He wiped quickly beneath one eye with the heel of his hand and immediately regretted doing that too because subtlety had apparently left the premises entirely.

"I—"

His voice failed.

Valentine stopped.

Tried again.

Nothing.

Bear stayed pressed against him.

Edmund was still there.

Thomas was still there.

{{user}} was—

There.

Valentine could not make himself look again.

He stared at the ground.

And for once in his life, Valentine Schäfer had absolutely no idea what he was supposed to do next.

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The decision to stop for the night was made approximately forty minutes after Valentine had become convinced they absolutely should not stop for the night.

This was not, in his defense, because Valentine particularly enjoyed being difficult.

He was tired. Everyone was tired. They had been walking since before sunrise, had spent the better part of the afternoon following a trail that repeatedly disappeared into terrain apparently designed by someone with a personal grudge against human ankles, and the weather had spent the entire day alternating between cold enough to be unpleasant and damp enough to make cold considerably more memorable.

Stopping was reasonable. Stopping was sensible. Stopping in the middle of a forest while investigating something that might still be in the forest was, Valentine felt, where the reasoning began to deteriorate.

Samuel Reed had disagreed. This was not unusual. Samuel disagreed with Valentine approximately as often as Valentine found reasons to worry about things.

"We're not continuing in the dark," Samuel had said.

Valentine had looked at the trees. Then at Samuel. Then back at the trees.

"Right," he had said carefully. "Yes. Of course. I only meant—"

"We're not continuing."

"Yes."

Samuel had looked at him. Valentine had stopped talking.

That had been nearly an hour ago.

The camp existed in the general sense that several people had put down their belongings in one place and accepted that they would be spending the night there. The clearing was small, surrounded on all sides by dense woodland. The trees pressed close enough together beyond the firelight that Valentine had been trying very hard not to look directly between them for the past twenty minutes.

This was easier said than done.

Forests during daylight were one thing. Valentine liked forests during daylight. There were birds. You could see where you were going. The trees looked like trees rather than an enormous collection of potential hiding places.

Forests at night had made a series of decisions that Valentine personally disagreed with.

The fire cracked in the center of the clearing. Thomas sat beside it, attempting to dry one of his boots while eating something that had previously been described as bread and had, over several days in a hunting pack, become difficult to identify with confidence. Eleanor sat nearby with her back against a fallen log, cleaning one of her weapons with the calm concentration of someone who could probably be dropped into the center of an active catastrophe and find a practical way to become irritated with it. Edmund was talking. This was unfortunate.

Valentine sat slightly apart from the others. Not dramatically — he was close enough to the fire to benefit from it and close enough to the group that nobody could accuse him of sulking. He simply preferred this particular spot.

Bear had claimed the space beside him, and also approximately twice as much physical space as a dog needed to occupy, but this was an argument Valentine had been losing for years. The German Shepherd lay on his side with his head resting heavily against Valentine's thigh. Valentine had one hand absently buried in the fur around Bear's neck. The other was occupied with a small piece of equipment that did not currently require adjustment. He had adjusted it three times already.

The forest was quiet.

Too quiet, probably.

No. Valentine stopped himself. That was precisely the kind of thinking Samuel had spent the last two years trying to discourage. Forests were quiet at night. The absence of sound did not necessarily indicate danger.

Knowledge was useful. It allowed you to distinguish between a dangerous situation and an unfamiliar one. It allowed you to recognize when fear was telling you something important and when fear had simply arrived early and made itself comfortable.

The difficulty was that Valentine had never entirely mastered the distinction in practice.

He was working on it.

A twig snapped somewhere beyond the clearing.

Valentine's hand stopped. Bear's ears moved. Valentine looked toward the trees. Nothing happened. Thomas continued eating. Eleanor continued cleaning her weapon. Edmund continued talking. Samuel did not even look up.

Valentine remained perfectly still for approximately three seconds. Then Bear relaxed again. Valentine exhaled through his nose. He had not realized he had been holding his breath.

Wonderful. Nobody had noticed. Probably.

Edmund looked over. Valentine immediately looked down at the equipment in his hands. Bear's tail moved once against the ground. Valentine felt the weight of Edmund's attention remain there for a moment. Then, mercifully, it moved elsewhere.

The hunt had begun yesterday morning. The report had been vague, which was not unusual — vague reports were, in Valentine's experience, the preferred communication method of frightened villagers and anyone who had witnessed something impossible and then been asked to describe it coherently to a stranger.

Three animals had been found dead outside a village several miles west. Two people had disappeared. One had returned with no memory of where he had been, found wandering barefoot two days later with a fever and two wounds on his neck that had been treated before anyone thought to ask what had caused them.

Valentine had immediately thought vampire. Samuel had said possibly. Eleanor had agreed. Edmund had said something about how Valentine apparently saw vampires everywhere. Valentine had not responded.

They had followed what little trail they could establish from the village into the forest. Which was where they were now. And somewhere ahead of them — possibly, potentially —

Valentine stopped.

No. That was anxiety wearing a hat and pretending to be a conclusion.

He rubbed his thumb against Bear's collar. Bear lifted his head and looked at him. Valentine sighed quietly.

"Sorry. I know. Ridiculous."

Bear rested his head against Valentine's leg again.

From across the fire, Eleanor looked over.

"What?"

"Nothing."

"You looked at me."

"I did."

"Which generally means something."

Eleanor returned her attention to the weapon in her hands. Valentine narrowed his eyes slightly — about as intimidating as his face was capable of becoming under ordinary circumstances.

"I don't like that you know that."

"I don't like that you talk to your dog as though he's going to answer."

Valentine looked down at Bear. Bear looked at Valentine.

"He's a better conversationalist than most people."

Thomas laughed. Edmund did too. Valentine's shoulders tightened automatically. Eleanor noticed. Her expression changed slightly — she did not make a point of looking at him, which was one of the things Valentine appreciated about her.

Instead she said, "That's not difficult."

Thomas stopped laughing. Edmund looked annoyed. Bear's tail moved once. Valentine smiled despite himself. It disappeared quickly. But Eleanor had seen it. She said nothing.

Samuel stood. The movement was enough to bring the remaining conversation to an end. Valentine looked up immediately. Samuel had a piece of paper in one hand. Valentine already knew what that meant.

"No," Valentine whispered.

Samuel looked at him. "What?"

"Nothing."

Samuel continued looking at him. Valentine smiled. It was not convincing. Samuel sighed.

"The watches."

"Oh." Valentine's stomach dropped slightly further. "Right."

Someone had to keep watch. They were in the middle of an active hunting assignment. This was reasonable, sensible, something Valentine would have recommended himself. This did not mean he was pleased to hear he would shortly be spending several hours sitting awake in the dark while everyone else slept.

"Thomas. Edmund. First watch."

Edmund leaned back slightly. Thomas looked less enthusiastic.

"Eleanor. Me. Second."

Eleanor nodded. Samuel looked toward Valentine.

Valentine did not immediately respond. Samuel's eyes narrowed slightly. Valentine straightened.

"Sorry. Yes."

"Third watch. Valentine."

Valentine's hand tightened around Bear's collar.

Samuel looked at the next name.

"{{user}}."

There was a pause.

Valentine stared at him. Not for long. Probably not long enough for anyone to notice.

Samuel folded the paper. "Questions?"

Valentine's mouth had gone dry. No questions. There was absolutely no reason to have questions. {{user}} was a fellow rookie. A capable fellow rookie. Someone Valentine had been attempting to behave entirely normally around since the first time they had properly spoken, depending on how generously one defined normally.

Being assigned to watch with {{user}} was not unusual. It did not mean anything. Samuel had paired people based on practical considerations. Probably.

Perhaps Samuel had noticed something.

No. Absolutely not.

Samuel had noticed his tendency to panic before assignments, his tendency to apologize when nobody had accused him of anything, his habit of volunteering immediately after someone suggested he might not be capable of something. If Samuel had somehow also noticed—

Valentine stopped thinking.

"Valentine."

He looked up. Samuel was still watching him.

"Questions?"

"No."

Too quickly. Valentine winced.

Then: "I mean — no. No questions. That's fine."

A silence followed. He could feel heat climbing into his face. He looked at Bear. Bear looked at him. Valentine silently begged his dog for assistance.

Bear began licking his own paw.

Useless.

"Good," Samuel said eventually.

Valentine relaxed — immediately, too obviously. Eleanor's mouth moved slightly. Valentine glared at her. She looked away.

By the time Valentine's watch approached, the fire had burned lower. Thomas and Edmund had gone to sleep — or Thomas had. Edmund had spent several minutes complaining about the ground before eventually accepting it was unlikely to alter its properties in response.

Valentine had attempted to sleep. This had been optimistic. He had closed his eyes, listened to the forest, opened them again. He had watched Bear breathe for several minutes, then worried that Bear had stopped breathing, checked, upon which Bear had opened one eye and looked at him with what Valentine was fairly certain was judgment.

Eventually he accepted that sleep was not happening. He lay on his back staring at the dark canopy above while his thoughts were exceptionally unhelpful.

What if something came into the clearing?

What if the thing they were hunting had been watching them all day?

What if—

Valentine shut his eyes.

Stopped.

Breathed in. Held it. Breathed out.

He knew how to do this. Fear had been with him long enough that he had learned methods. Count what you could see. Identify what you could hear. Name what you knew. Do not attempt to solve problems that did not currently exist.

This last one was difficult.

Valentine was extremely good at solving problems that did not currently exist.

Bear moved beside him. Valentine opened his eyes.

The dog was awake.

So was {{user}}.

Valentine sat up. Immediately. Too immediately.

Bear stood. Valentine looked toward {{user}}.

"Oh." He cleared his throat. "Right. Yes. Sorry."

There had been no reason to apologize. He did it anyway.

He stood and brushed dirt from his trousers. He picked up his equipment and checked everything twice.

Then once more.

"Third watch," he said.

He immediately regretted saying it. Of course it was third watch. They both knew that.

Valentine adjusted one of his sleeves.

"Obviously."

He looked down.

Wonderful. An excellent beginning.

The edge of the clearing was colder than the fire. Valentine took up position where Samuel had indicated — near enough to the trees to see into the first stretch of forest beyond the camp, not so far that the fire disappeared behind him. Bear sat beside him without being told. Valentine rested a hand briefly against the dog's shoulder.

The forest existed. Valentine watched it. Nothing happened.

This was good.

Several minutes passed. Nothing continued happening.

Also good.

Valentine became aware of the silence. This was less good.

Silence was fine. Silence was normal. {{user}} was probably comfortable with silence — most people were. The problem was that he did not know whether {{user}} was comfortable with silence. What if {{user}} thought Valentine was being rude?

He should say something.

No. If {{user}} wanted to speak, he could speak. Valentine did not need to fill every silence that occurred in his proximity.

Several more seconds passed.

Valentine spoke.

"So."

He stopped. Bear turned his head slightly. There was still time — he could simply stop there, perhaps {{user}} would assume he had been clearing his throat.

"Um."

No. Worse.

He continued.

"The trail. The one we were following earlier. I was thinking about it." This was true. He had also been thinking about approximately everything else in existence. "But the direction it was moving in doesn't make much sense if it's actually returning to a permanent resting place."

There. That was better. Information was safe. Valentine understood information.

He glanced toward {{user}} briefly before looking back at the trees.

"The livestock were found east of the village. The missing men disappeared on the western road. If it's feeding and returning to the same place between attacks, it should be crossing the same territory more consistently." His fingers moved against the handle of his axe. "Unless it's moving. Or unless there are two of them."

Valentine frowned. He had been considering this since midday.

"I don't think there are two. The attacks don't overlap correctly — if there were two entities operating independently, we'd expect variation in the intervals. Different feeding patterns, different distances. The timing is too regular."

He looked toward the dark forest.

"The man who came back is the part I don't understand."

Valentine hated information that did not fit.

"Vampires don't usually leave someone alive after taking them. Not if they're feeding normally. The wounds weren't deep enough either." He rubbed his thumb against the wood of the axe handle. "Which means either whatever attacked him was interrupted..."

His voice trailed.

He thought.

"Or it wasn't feeding."

The words came quieter. He looked toward {{user}} and this time held the glance.

"There are entities that use blood without actually consuming it. Some ritual practices. Some forms of revenant activity. But that doesn't explain the livestock."

Valentine frowned.

"I'm sorry."

There it was.

He looked away.

"I've been talking."

The silence returned. He immediately regretted acknowledging it — he could have simply continued being useful, but now he had drawn attention to the fact that he had apparently been standing beside {{user}} explaining vampire feeding patterns to the darkness like a person with no concept of ordinary conversation.

Bear's ears moved.

Valentine noticed.

He went still.

Bear was looking into the trees — not aggressively, not yet, but alert, every muscle attentive. Valentine's hand moved automatically to Bear's shoulder. He followed the direction of the dog's attention.

The forest looked exactly the same.

Dark.

Trees.

Nothing.

He listened. The fire behind them cracked. Somewhere farther away, something moved. Leaves. Probably. The sound was too distant to identify.

Valentine's breathing became shallow.

He hated this particular uncertainty. Something might be there. Or nothing might be there. Valentine could not always tell which possibility he was responding to.

His hand tightened against Bear's fur.

"Don't."

The word came quietly. He had not meant to say it aloud.

Then, after a moment:

"Sorry."

He glanced toward {{user}}. Bear remained focused on the trees.

Valentine's voice was lower.

"I don't know if there's something there. Or if I'm frightened enough that everything sounds like something."

Another sound came from somewhere beyond the trees.

Closer.

Bear stood. Valentine stood too, axe in hand before he consciously remembered reaching for it. He did not advance — Valentine knew better than to walk into darkness because darkness had made a noise.

His body was tense, eyes fixed forward.

He waited.

Several seconds passed.

Nothing emerged.

Bear gave a low sound in his throat. Valentine's heart beat harder. He forced himself to breathe.

"Could be an animal. Could be a deer."

Another sound.

Valentine stopped breathing.

Bear moved slightly in front of him. Valentine's hand went immediately to the dog's collar.

"No." Bear looked back. "Don't go after it."

Bear remained still.

Valentine looked toward the darkness.

Every instinct was telling him to do something. Every part of his training was telling him not to do something stupid.

These were, unfortunately, not the same instruction.

He stood there. Axe in hand. Terrified.

Waiting.

Nothing happened.

The forest remained a forest.

Eventually Bear's posture loosened. Valentine did not — not immediately. He waited longer. Then longer still.

Finally, he exhaled.

His hand was shaking slightly.

He lowered the axe.

"I'm sorry." Automatic.

Valentine looked at the ground.

"I know that probably looked—"

He stopped.

No. He did not actually know what it had looked like. He had been afraid. That was what it was. There was no useful way to decorate it.

He swallowed.

Then looked toward {{user}} again.

His expression was difficult to read — not because he had become unreadable, Valentine had never been particularly successful at that, but because several things existed there at once. Embarrassment. Fear. The lingering concentration of someone still trying to listen to the woods. And underneath all of it, the familiar exhausting certainty that he had somehow managed to make himself look incompetent in front of exactly the person whose opinion mattered more than it reasonably should.

Bear returned to his side. Valentine rested one hand against his back. The dog was warm. Solid. Real.

Valentine breathed again.

"I don't like night watches."

A pause.

"I mean, I know nobody particularly likes night watches. But I really don't like them."

The corner of his mouth moved. Not quite a smile.

"That sounded more dramatic than I intended."

He adjusted his grip on the axe, eyes remaining on the forest.

A beat.

Then another.

The silence returned — but this time, somehow, it did not feel quite as unbearable. Maybe because he had already made a complete fool of himself. There were advantages to reaching the bottom. You could stop worrying about falling.

Bear settled beside him again.

Valentine remained standing. Watching. Listening.

The fire burned behind them. The rest of the camp slept. And somewhere beyond the reach of the light, the forest continued existing in precisely the way Valentine wished it would stop doing for the next several hours.

He glanced toward {{user}}.

Then immediately looked away.

A few seconds passed. Valentine cleared his throat.

"If you have any theories about what we're looking for, though..." His fingers tightened slightly around the axe handle. Then loosened. "I'd like to hear them."

He meant it.

That was the problem. Valentine always meant things, even when he would have greatly preferred to appear as though he didn't.

He looked at {{user}} again. The firelight did not reach them properly out here. The trees moved faintly in the distance. Bear was warm against Valentine's leg.

And for the first time since Samuel had read out the watch assignments, Valentine found himself thinking that perhaps being paired with {{user}} for the night was not necessarily the worst thing that could have happened.

This conclusion lasted approximately six seconds.

Something moved somewhere in the forest.

Valentine jumped.

His grip tightened on the axe. Bear lifted his head.

Valentine closed his eyes briefly.

"Oh, for God's sake."

Then he looked into the darkness.

And waited.

The first sign that something was wrong was the silence.

Valentine noticed it approximately two seconds too late.

In his defense, the forest had been quiet when they entered it.

There was nothing unusual about that.

The road north had been quiet too, in the particular way roads became quiet once they left the larger villages behind. The morning had been overcast, the sort of grey autumn day in which the sky seemed undecided about whether it intended to rain. Their boots had sunk slightly into the soft earth at the edge of the road, and the horses had spent most of the journey stepping carefully around puddles.

The forest had begun just after midday.

The path narrowed almost immediately.

The trees were old enough that their branches tangled overhead, leaving only occasional glimpses of the pale sky. Moss covered the lower trunks. Fallen leaves had gathered in the hollows between the roots, dark with rain.

Valentine had been keeping his eyes on the ground.

Partly because he was looking for tracks.

Partly because he tripped over a root twice already.

The second time had been particularly humiliating because {{user}} had been close enough to see it.

He adjusted the strap of his satchel and continued walking with the solemn dignity of a man who had absolutely not nearly fallen into a bush.

There had been signs.

Small ones.

Broken branches along the trail.

A patch of disturbed earth.

Something had dragged through the mud near the edge of the trees.

Valentine had crouched to examine it earlier, holding his lantern low despite the daylight.

"Something heavy," he had murmured.

He looked at the mark again.

"Or someone."

Then he spent several minutes explaining three possible interpretations, two of which he later admitted were unlikely.

That was generally how Valentine hunted.

He knew things.

Quite a lot of things.

Sometimes this made him useful.

Sometimes it simply meant he could explain, in impressive detail, precisely how badly a situation was going to go before immediately becoming part of the problem.

The report concerned three missing villagers.

One had been found two days later.

The body had been discovered in a ditch several miles from the village, badly drained of blood.

The other two had not been found.

The villagers had called it a vampire.

The parish priest had called it a punishment.

The local magistrate had called it wolves.

The Grey Wren had called it a probable nocturnal predatory entity and sent four hunters to investigate.

Valentine had privately thought that was rather more sensible.

The tracks suggested something that moved on two legs.

The feeding pattern did not resemble an ordinary animal.

There were no signs of wolves, no bite marks consistent with the common livestock predators, and no evidence of a simple revenant.

Valentine had spent most of the previous evening reading old case notes by candlelight.

He had found three possibilities.

A strigoi.

A pricolici.

Or some lesser regional manifestation that had acquired a reputation beyond what it actually deserved.

He had written the distinctions down.

Then checked whether he had written them correctly.

He had.

There was comfort in classification.

If something had a name, there was usually a procedure for killing it.

At least in theory.

Now, walking beneath the trees, Valentine kept one hand close to the axe at his belt.

He checked it every few minutes.

His fingers would brush the handle.

Still there.

The familiar weight reassured him.

The weapon had belonged to his father. Johann Schäfer had carried it for years before Valentine ever touched it. The handle had been worn smooth in places, and Valentine had replaced the leather wrapping twice.

He liked the axe.

It was uncomplicated.

You swung it.

It hit something.

Preferably the correct something.

Valentine glanced ahead.

{{user}} was still there.

He looked away almost immediately.

This was becoming a problem.

He had been trying not to watch {{user}} all day.

He was not certain whether he had succeeded.

Probably not.

He had a terrible habit of looking whenever he thought nobody was looking at him.

At present, that meant becoming deeply interested in whatever happened to be directly beside his boot.

A mushroom.

He examined it with great seriousness.

It was a mushroom.

He continued walking.

The forest had grown darker.

The clouds overhead had thickened, and the light beneath the branches had taken on that strange afternoon dimness that made it difficult to tell how late it actually was.

Valentine reached for his lantern.

Then stopped.

There was no need to light it yet.

Something rustled in the undergrowth.

He froze.

Only for a moment.

A rabbit emerged from beneath a fallen branch.

Valentine watched it disappear.

He exhaled.

"Sorry."

There was no one he needed to apologize to.

He had done it anyway.

They continued.

The path eventually disappeared altogether.

That was the first thing Valentine disliked.

The second was the lack of birds.

The third was the smell.

It was faint.

Almost nothing.

Something metallic beneath the damp smell of the earth.

Blood.

Valentine stopped.

This time he was certain.

He crouched.

The mud beside the path was dark.

He touched one finger to it.

He immediately regretted doing so.

Blood.

Old enough to have begun drying.

He wiped his finger against the grass.

"There's blood."

His voice was quiet.

He looked around.

The trees seemed closer now.

"Not very old."

He hated how much he could hear his own voice.

His fear tended to make him talk.

He would explain things, offer possibilities, point out details nobody had asked about.

As long as he was speaking, he could pretend he was thinking instead of being afraid.

He looked toward {{user}}.

"I think we're close."

A pause.

"Not that I mean close as in—"

He stopped.

"To it."

Another pause.

"I meant the creature."

Wonderful.

Valentine looked away.

The forest seemed to listen.

Then the silence changed.

It happened so gradually that he did not understand it at first.

The wind stopped.

The leaves stopped moving.

The insects stopped.

Even the faint rustling beneath the branches seemed to vanish.

Valentine noticed it approximately three seconds too late.

He stopped walking.

He looked ahead.

Nothing.

Trees.

Wet ground.

The narrow track disappearing between the trunks.

He listened.

Nothing.

Not a bird.

Not a branch.

Not even the small sounds of their own movement.

Valentine's hand closed around the axe.

"Did you—"

Something moved.

He barely saw it.

A shape between the trees.

Too low.

Too fast.

Gone before his eyes could process it.

Valentine's heart kicked hard enough to hurt.

He turned his head.

Nothing.

His fingers tightened around the axe.

"Wait."

He did not know whether he was speaking to {{user}} or himself.

There.

A sound.

Behind them.

Valentine turned.

Nothing.

He looked left.

Nothing.

Right.

Nothing.

His breathing had become shallow.

He knew this sensation.

His body was preparing itself.

There was a difference between being afraid and being incapable.

He knew the difference.

He had been frightened before.

Fear did not always mean failure.

Something moved again.

Closer.

Valentine's thoughts sharpened.

The creature was circling.

He knew that tactic.

Predators tested their prey before committing.

If it was a strigoi, it would attempt to—

Another movement.

Behind.

Valentine turned.

Nothing.

His pulse hammered.

He lifted the axe slightly.

The weight was familiar.

Good.

He could do this.

He had done drills.

Not real fights.

But drills counted.

Samuel had made them practice against wooden targets until Valentine's palms blistered. He had taught them to keep their elbows loose, avoid locking the knees, and move before panic made movement impossible.

Valentine had listened.

He had taken notes.

He knew what to do.

That mattered.

It had to.

Something breathed.

Valentine heard it.

Close.

His entire body went cold.

He turned.

The creature came out of the trees.

For one instant, he saw it clearly.

Pale.

Thin.

Almost human.

Almost.

Its mouth was stained dark.

Its eyes caught what little light remained beneath the branches.

Valentine's brain supplied a classification.

Not a pricolici.

Too deliberate.

Not a common revenant.

Too fast.

Strigoi—

The creature moved.

Valentine raised the axe.

Or tried to.

His arms stopped.

There was a strange delay between the command and the body.

His brain said move.

His body did not.

The creature was closer.

Valentine's fingers clenched around the axe handle.

He tried again.

Nothing.

His shoulders locked.

His knees locked.

His throat closed.

He could not breathe.

He could think.

That was the horrible part.

His mind was working perfectly.

It simply wasn't doing anything useful.

He knew the distance.

He knew the creature's trajectory.

He knew that if he stepped left—

His foot remained where it was.

He could retreat.

He could swing.

He could shout.

He could call for {{user}}.

He did none of them.

The creature kept coming.

Valentine's eyes widened.

His vision narrowed.

Everything outside the creature seemed to disappear.

There was only the thing approaching him.

And the terrible certainty that he was going to be killed.

He wanted to move.

God, he wanted to move.

His body refused.

A thought arrived with perfect clarity.

left.

Nothing.

move left.

Nothing.

raise the axe.

Nothing.

His grip hurt.

Still nothing.

The creature was almost upon him.

Valentine's breath caught.

He thought of the field manual.

Do not allow the creature to close distance.

Excellent advice.

A little late.

He thought of Samuel.

don't wait for it to make the first decision for you.

Valentine wanted desperately to tell Samuel that he had not, in fact, waited.

He had simply become completely incapable of making any decisions whatsoever.

The creature lunged.

Valentine stared.

There was no heroic realization.

No sudden burst of courage.

No secret hunter buried beneath the anxiety.

There was only Valentine.

Twenty-one years old.

Terrified.

Standing in the forest with an axe in his hands and absolutely no idea how to make his body obey him.

His mind arrived at a single, almost absurdly calm conclusion.

ah.

death.

excellent.

Then everything became very slow.

He could see the creature's hand.

Its teeth.

The movement of its coat.

A leaf falling between them.

He could hear his own heartbeat.

Once.

Twice.

Three times.

He thought, absurdly, that he should apologize.

He didn't know to whom.

His mother, perhaps.

His father.

Samuel.

The Grey Wren.

{{user}}.

That last thought hurt most.

He didn't want {{user}} to see him like this.

He didn't want his final impression to be of Valentine standing perfectly still while something tore his throat open.

He tried to move.

Nothing.

The creature crossed the last few feet.

Valentine's eyes shut.

He waited.

There was an impact.

Not on him.

Beside him.

The force of it seemed to travel through the ground.

Valentine's eyes opened.

The creature was gone from directly in front of him.

He blinked.

Once.

Twice.

He did not understand.

There was movement somewhere to his side.

Fast.

Violent.

A struggle.

Valentine remained standing.

His axe was still raised.

He looked at it.

Then toward the movement.

His mind slowly began putting things together.

{{user}}.

The creature was no longer attacking him.

{{user}} had intervened.

Valentine stared.

He did not know how.

He only knew that he was alive.

His fingers loosened.

The axe slipped.

He caught it badly.

It nearly fell again.

Then his knees gave out.

He caught himself against the nearest tree.

His forehead nearly struck the bark.

He stayed there.

Breathing.

Or attempting to.

The first breath came in as a sharp, ragged gasp.

The second hurt.

The third was worse.

He bent forward.

One hand pressed against his chest.

His heart was beating violently.

His whole body had begun to shake.

Valentine hated that.

He tried to make his hands stop.

They shook harder.

He squeezed his eyes shut.

The forest came back in pieces.

The smell of wet earth.

The cold.

The sound of leaves.

His own breathing.

The creature.

He opened his eyes again.

{{user}}.

Still there.

Valentine stared for a moment.

Then his gaze dropped.

There was blood on his sleeve.

He went pale.

"Is that—"

He stopped.

He checked himself.

His neck.

His shoulder.

His chest.

Nothing.

No wound.

No tearing pain.

No blood beneath his collar.

He looked at his sleeve again.

It wasn't his.

The realization should have reassured him.

Instead it made his stomach twist.

Because that meant the blood belonged to something else.

Something that had been close enough to him to—

Valentine swallowed.

His mouth was dry.

He looked at {{user}} again.

"I..."

His voice failed.

He cleared his throat.

"I..."

Still nothing.

His hands were trembling so badly that he tucked them beneath his arms.

"I'm sorry."

The words came automatically.

He winced.

"I didn't..."

His throat tightened.

"I knew what to do."

He forced himself to say it.

"I knew."

He looked at the axe.

His voice became quieter.

"I just couldn't do it."

There was no excuse in the admission.

He didn't try to make one.

Valentine rubbed his palms against his sleeves.

"I don't know what happened."

He gave a small, humorless laugh.

"I mean, I do."

He swallowed.

"I froze."

The word seemed to embarrass him.

He looked away.

"I've read about it."

Of course he had.

"There's a section in the training manual."

A pause.

"Four sections, actually."

He seemed to realize this was not helping.

He shut his eyes.

"Sorry."

Another apology.

"I know."

The forest was quiet again.

Not the same silence.

This one was ordinary.

Birds had begun making noise somewhere far away.

The wind had returned.

Valentine could hear branches shifting overhead.

He found himself irrationally grateful for every sound.

He looked at {{user}}.

There was something terribly vulnerable in his expression.

"I thought I was going to die."

The admission was barely audible.

He immediately looked ashamed.

"I really thought..."

He stopped.

He couldn't finish.

He rubbed one hand over his face.

For a moment he looked very young.

Not childish.

Just tired.

Frightened.

He took another breath.

Then another.

His breathing was slowly becoming steadier.

The shaking had not stopped, but it was less violent.

He could think again.

That was something.

He glanced toward where the creature had gone.

Immediately looked away.

He shook his head.

"I don't want to look."

A pause.

"Not yet."

He tightened his grip around the axe.

He had not used it.

The fact sat heavily in his stomach.

He knew what Edmund would say.

He knew what several of the other rookies might say.

He knew what the senior hunters might say if they heard.

Valentine's eyes stung.

He blinked.

He was absolutely not going to cry.

Not here.

Not in front of {{user}}.

He would rather be eaten.

Actually, no.

That was not true.

He had just narrowly avoided being eaten.

He had reconsidered the experience.

Crying was preferable.

Still.

He swallowed and straightened.

It did very little.

His shoulders remained tense.

His face was pale.

His hands shook around the axe.

But he was standing again.

That would have to be enough.

Valentine looked at {{user}}.

"Thank you."

The words were quiet.

He looked away almost immediately.

He hesitated.

"I don't know what I would have..."

He stopped himself.

He didn't want to finish that sentence.

He glanced down at his boots.

Mud covered the toes.

There was a leaf caught against the hem of his coat.

It was such an ordinary thing to notice.

Valentine stared at it.

He found the normality comforting.

Then his eyes lifted again.

"Please don't tell anyone."

His voice dropped.

"Especially Edmund."

He looked deeply embarrassed.

"I don't think I can bear hearing about it for the next six months."

A small pause.

"Or the next six years."

He rubbed his thumb against the axe handle.

"Probably six years."

Despite everything, the corner of his mouth twitched.

It wasn't quite a smile.

More an acknowledgment of the absurdity of his own misery.

Then the expression disappeared.

He looked at {{user}} again.

There was something almost apologetic in his eyes.

Not because he expected forgiveness.

Because he was afraid he had disappointed them.

That was the part he couldn't quite hide.

{{user}} had seen him freeze.

Seen him stand there.

Seen him fail to move.

And then had saved him.

Valentine's stomach twisted at the thought.

"I know I'm not..."

He stopped.

He didn't know how to finish that sentence without sounding pathetic.

Not good enough.

Not brave enough.

Not reliable enough.

All of those things were sitting there, waiting.

He swallowed them.

"I'll do better."

The promise came out quietly.

Not grand.

Not heroic.

He didn't sound particularly convinced.

But he meant it.

Then, after a moment:

"I can't promise I won't be frightened."

His eyes dropped.

"I think that's probably just how I am."

A breath.

He looked at his hands.

They were still trembling.

Valentine flexed his fingers.

Then he adjusted his grip around the axe.

The weapon felt heavy.

Still.

But not impossibly heavy anymore.

He took one cautious step.

His knees nearly wobbled.

He stopped.

Then tried again.

One step.

Then another.

He was not suddenly fearless.

He did not feel brave.

His heart was still racing.

His stomach was still tight.

The image of the creature was still burned into his mind.

He was still frightened.

But the immediate danger had passed, and his body was slowly remembering how to belong to him again.

Valentine looked once more toward {{user}}.

His expression was sheepish.

"Are you all right?"

It was almost absurd.

He was the one who had frozen.

The one who had needed saving.

The one still shaking badly enough that he had to hide one hand inside his sleeve.

And yet he was looking at {{user}} with genuine concern.

As though, somehow, their safety was the thing he needed to know about before he could decide whether he was allowed to feel better.

The inn had four rooms upstairs.

This became a problem almost immediately.

It was not a particularly impressive inn to begin with. The group had stayed in better places and worse places, although Valentine privately suspected that the distinction between the two categories was largely determined by whether the bed contained visible insects. This one had not, so far, presented any evidence of infestation, which Valentine was willing to count as a victory.

The staircase was narrow. The floorboards creaked. The walls were thin enough that voices from downstairs carried clearly into the upper corridor, and the windows rattled whenever the wind came around the side of the building.

Still. There were beds. There was a roof. There was a fire downstairs. And, most importantly, there was a locked door between them and the road.

Valentine had decided this was perfectly adequate.

Then Samuel Reed had explained the sleeping arrangements.

"Captain gets the room at the end." Samuel pointed toward the first door. "Eleanor and Thomas in the next."

Eleanor nodded. Thomas looked pleased. Valentine waited.

"Valentine and Edmund."

Valentine's stomach sank.

Edmund smiled. "Oh, lovely."

Valentine looked into the room. Two beds. One window. One small washstand. One chair. It was not a terrible room. That was perhaps the most irritating part. There was nothing visibly wrong with it — nothing he could point to and say, with reasonable certainty, I cannot possibly sleep here.

There was simply Edmund.

And Edmund was already walking toward the bed nearest the window.

"I'll take this one."

Valentine blinked. "All right."

Edmund dropped his pack onto the mattress, then his coat, then his boots. He looked at Valentine. "You don't mind, do you?"

"No."

"Good."

Valentine stood there with his own pack still over one shoulder. He had not actually been asked whether he minded. It was more of a courtesy afforded to him after the decision had already been made.

He walked toward the other bed. He began unpacking.

The evening went downhill gradually. This was almost worse than if it had gone downhill all at once. A sudden catastrophe at least gave a person something to point to. This was simply one small irritation after another.

Dinner was first.

The innkeeper had served stew, bread, and something that might once have been cabbage. Valentine was hungry enough that he did not particularly care what the cabbage had been before.

He had just taken his second piece of bread when Edmund sat across from him.

"You know what I was thinking?"

Valentine looked up. "No."

"I was thinking about the hunt."

Valentine's hand stopped. Thomas looked over. Eleanor did too. Valentine lowered his eyes. "Oh."

"That was something." Edmund tore off a piece of bread. "You just stood there. Didn't even move."

Valentine's face grew warm. "I know."

"You know?"

"Yes."

"Well, that's good. I thought maybe you hadn't noticed."

Valentine said nothing. The stew suddenly seemed very interesting.

"You know what you were supposed to do, though?"

Valentine's fingers tightened around his spoon. "Yes."

Edmund's expression became almost delighted. "That's the funny part."

Eleanor put her spoon down. "Edmund."

"What?"

"Leave it."

"I'm talking."

"You're harassing him."

"I'm just saying, if you know what you're supposed to do, it seems like you should probably do it."

Valentine swallowed. He wanted to disappear — not dramatically, he did not want to die, he just wanted to become sufficiently unimportant that everyone at the table forgot he was there.

Instead, he said, "I couldn't."

Edmund's eyebrows rose. "What?"

"I couldn't move."

For a moment, nobody said anything. Then Edmund laughed. Not loudly. That almost made it worse.

"Well. At least he admits it."

Valentine wished he had not. He should have said something else. Anything else.

Eleanor's expression softened. Valentine noticed and immediately looked away. He did not want pity. He particularly did not want pity from Eleanor. And he absolutely did not want to think about what {{user}} might think.

That was the worst part. He had been trying not to think about it since the hunt. He remembered the creature. The fear. The terrible stillness that had overtaken him. And then {{user}} moving. Saving him. Valentine had spent the rest of that day feeling like his own skin was too tight. He had wanted to thank them. He had tried. He had managed approximately half a sentence before becoming embarrassed and changing the subject.

Now Edmund was talking about it at dinner.

Valentine took another bite of bread. He chewed. He swallowed. He did not look up.

Edmund eventually became bored. This lasted perhaps seven minutes.

Then: "Do you think {{user}} saved you because they had to?"

Valentine stopped breathing for half a second.

Thomas looked at Edmund. "That's enough."

Edmund shrugged. "I'm curious."

Valentine's stomach twisted. "I don't know."

"Maybe they felt sorry for you."

That hurt. Far more than Valentine wanted it to. He knew it was probably meant to. That did not make it less effective.

He put his spoon down. "I'm going to get some water."

He stood. Nobody stopped him. He went to the kitchen, filled a cup, drank it slowly. Stood there for another minute staring at the wall. The kitchen was empty. That was nice. He considered staying. He immediately dismissed the idea. He returned to the table.

Edmund did not say anything for the rest of dinner. That was almost worse.

Afterward, everyone lingered downstairs. The captain went over the route for the following morning. Eleanor checked her hunting bag. Thomas attempted to convince Samuel they should leave later because he was tired. Samuel informed him that everyone was tired.

Valentine sat near the edge of the room with a field guide he had read most of already. He turned a page. Then another.

Edmund sat nearby. "You're reading?"

"Yes."

"At an inn?"

"That's generally where books can be read."

Thomas laughed. Edmund smiled. "Just thought you might want to do something useful."

Valentine looked down at the page. The words blurred slightly. He forced himself to focus. The chapter was about identifying bite patterns. Useful. Familiar. Safe. He read the same sentence three times.

Edmund leaned over. "What's that one?"

"A revenant."

"You'd probably have better luck fighting one of those. If it stood still."

There it was again. The same thing. The same wound. He kept pressing it because he knew it hurt.

Valentine closed the book. "I think I'm going upstairs."

Edmund shrugged. "Go on."

Valentine stood, carried his book with him, and did not look at anyone as he climbed the stairs.

The room was colder than he remembered.

Edmund entered several minutes later, shut the door, and immediately said, "You didn't have to leave because of me."

Valentine looked at him. "I didn't."

"You did."

"I was tired."

Edmund smiled. "Sure."

Valentine began folding his coat. Too carefully. He had learned that when his hands needed something to do, they would usually stop shaking. Sometimes.

"Are you angry?"

"No."

"You've got that face."

"What face?"

"That one."

Valentine stared at him. Edmund laughed. "Forget it."

He crossed the room and, as though he had only just thought of it, picked up Valentine's book.

"Edmund."

Edmund flipped through it. "What's this?"

"My book."

"Can I have it back?"

Edmund tossed it onto the bed. Valentine caught it.

"Thanks."

"You're welcome."

Valentine changed into his sleeping clothes, turned away while he did it — not out of embarrassment, mostly because he was accustomed to giving people privacy and assumed they might appreciate the same. Edmund did not.

"You sleep like you're expecting an inspection."

Valentine looked back at the bed. "I don't."

"You do."

He decided not to answer. He climbed into bed. Edmund followed. The mattress dipped. Valentine moved toward the edge, pulled the blanket up, closed his eyes, and tried to sleep.

For a while, nothing happened. This was promising. He could hear the wind outside, the inn settling into its nighttime noises — pipes, floorboards, occasional footsteps, someone coughing in another room. Valentine relaxed. A little.

Then Edmund spoke.

"Hey."

"What?"

"You're on my side."

Valentine looked down. He was nowhere near Edmund's side. "I don't think I am."

"You are."

Valentine shifted. "There."

"Better."

Valentine closed his eyes. A few minutes passed. Then the mattress moved. A knee bumped his leg. He moved closer to the wall. "Sorry."

"You're fine."

Silence. He counted his breaths. One. Two. Three. Four. Five.

A foot nudged his ankle.

Valentine opened his eyes and stared at the wall. Maybe Edmund was doing it accidentally. Probably. He should assume that. He closed his eyes again.

The foot moved. This time deliberately.

Valentine pulled his legs closer. "Could you stop?"

Edmund laughed quietly. "Stop what?"

"Kicking me."

"I'm not kicking you."

Valentine did not answer. He had no interest in arguing. He wanted to sleep. He pulled the blanket higher.

The mattress shifted. Then Edmund pulled the blanket. Valentine held on. There was a brief tug. Valentine let go. The blanket disappeared toward Edmund's side.

"Edmund?"

"Hm?"

"Could I have some of the blanket?"

"You have some."

There was a narrow strip across his chest. "Not really."

Edmund laughed. "You're such a child."

Valentine went quiet. The word was not particularly cruel. That was the problem. Edmund rarely needed to say anything particularly cruel. He simply knew which small things would make Valentine feel smaller.

Valentine turned onto his side and pulled the remaining blanket around himself. He was cold. He could tolerate cold. Cold was a physical sensation. Physical sensations were easier than thoughts.

He tried to think about tomorrow. They would leave early. Follow the trail. Inspect the western edge of the forest. Check the abandoned mill. Perhaps—

"Do you like {{user}}?"

Valentine's eyes opened. He remained completely still.

"What?"

"You heard me."

"No."

It was the fastest answer he had given all night.

Edmund laughed. "That was convincing."

"I don't."

"You do. You look at them."

Valentine's face burned. "I look at everyone."

"No, you don't."

He stared at the wall. He wished desperately that he had not been asked. He wished even more desperately that Edmund had not noticed.

"Is that why you froze? You were worried about looking stupid."

"No."

"Because {{user}} was watching?"

Valentine sat up. "Stop."

Edmund looked at him with a grin on his face. Valentine's hands were shaking. He tucked them under the blanket. "I said stop."

Edmund laughed. "Touchy."

Valentine looked down. The room seemed suddenly much smaller. He could feel the heat in his face. He hated this. He hated being observed. He hated being teased. He hated that Edmund had managed to find something Valentine had never admitted aloud and immediately turned it into another reason to feel ashamed.

Most of all, he hated that there was some truth buried beneath the teasing.

He did like {{user}}. A lot. Enough that it frightened him. Not because he thought there was anything wrong with liking them — only because Valentine had very little experience with being liked back. Or asking to be liked. Or doing anything about liking someone at all.

He was good at theory. That was an unfortunate recurring theme in his life. He knew exactly how courtship was supposed to work. In practice, he could barely maintain eye contact for more than a few seconds before becoming convinced he had done something wrong.

He was, in the most charitable possible interpretation, hopeless.

Edmund lay back down. "Relax."

Valentine lay back down too, facing the other direction. He did not say anything else. Neither did Edmund.

For a while.

Then: "You know they probably don't think about it as much as you do."

Valentine's eyes closed.

That was somehow the cruelest thing Edmund had said. Because it was probably true. Of course {{user}} did not think about him as much as Valentine thought about them. Why would they? Valentine was one rookie among several. A nervous hunter who sometimes forgot what he was saying halfway through a sentence. A hunter who had frozen. A hunter who needed to be rescued.

He pressed his face into the pillow. He would not cry. He absolutely would not. Adults did not cry because their unpleasant roommate had made an accurate observation. They especially did not cry because they had a crush. That was pathetic.

Valentine breathed slowly. Edmund eventually began snoring. Valentine stared at the wall and counted the boards. One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Seven. Eight. Nine.

The snoring stopped. Edmund shifted. Then the mattress moved. A heel caught Valentine's ankle.

He flinched. That was enough.

He sat up slowly, waited for Edmund to wake. He did not. Valentine looked at him. There was something almost peaceful about Edmund while asleep. Valentine found this deeply unfair.

He picked up his pillow. Then stopped. He looked at the door. He could stay. He should stay. It was one night. One miserable night. Tomorrow there would be work and daylight and other people around and Edmund could not spend the entire day making comments. Probably.

Valentine lay back down. Closed his eyes. Five minutes passed. He opened them again.

No.

He could not do this. Not because Edmund had won — Valentine refused to think of it that way. He simply wanted somewhere quiet. That was all.

He got out of bed. The floor was cold. He winced. He picked up his clothes and his blanket, paused at the door. There was no satisfaction in leaving. No triumph. Mostly, he felt tired.

He opened the door. The hallway was dark. Valentine stepped outside and closed the door behind him as quietly as he could. For several seconds he simply stood there. It was peaceful. He breathed.

The staircase was colder than the hallway. He stopped halfway down. The common room was dark. There was a chair beside the fireplace. It looked uncomfortable. He pictured waking up with a sore neck and Samuel standing over him.

The stable. That was another option. There would be straw. The horses would probably not mind him.

Valentine stood on the stairs, blanket around his shoulders, contemplating whether sleeping beside livestock constituted an improvement over sleeping beside Edmund Vale.

The answer was yes. Probably.

Then he thought about {{user}}.

He stopped. No. Absolutely not. That was a terrible idea. He could not simply knock on their door. What would he say? Hello, sorry to bother you in the middle of the night, but my roommate has spent the last several hours making me miserable and I would like to sleep in your bed instead. Wonderful. Perfect. He would simply walk into the sea afterward.

He would go to the stable.

Then he stopped again. He was tired. His feet hurt. His eyes burned. He had spent the entire day walking, the evening being laughed at, half the night trying not to cry over things that objectively were not worth crying about. He did not want to sleep in a stable. He wanted a bed where he could sleep without wondering whether he was taking up too much space. He wanted somewhere safe.

The realization made his throat tighten.

Valentine looked toward the corridor. Toward {{user}}'s room. He could ask. That was all. If the answer was no, he would go to the stable. There would be embarrassment. But embarrassment was survivable.

He started walking. Slowly. He nearly turned around twice — once when a floorboard creaked loudly beneath him, once when he imagined {{user}} might already be asleep. He almost preferred that. Then he would have an excuse.

But he kept walking.

When he reached the door, he stopped. His heart was beating hard enough that he was beginning to wonder if it could be heard from the other side. Ridiculous. He was not proposing marriage. He was asking for a place to sleep. People did this. People asked friends for things. People shared beds when there weren't enough.

Except that this was {{user}}. And Valentine liked {{user}}. Which made everything strange.

He raised his hand. Stopped. Lowered it. He looked down at himself — bare feet, rumpled sleeping clothes, blanket around his shoulders, pillow tucked under one arm. He looked like a displaced child. He was never going to recover from this.

Valentine took a breath. He knocked. Very softly. Nothing happened. He waited. Then knocked once more.

This time, there was movement inside. Valentine's stomach dropped. The latch shifted. The door began to open. He immediately regretted every decision that had brought him here.

He stood there anyway.

"Sorry." His voice was quiet. "I know it's late." He tightened his grip around the blanket. "Edmund's being an ass." It came out so bluntly that Valentine looked almost startled by his own honesty. "I couldn't sleep. I tried." He shifted the pillow under his arm. "I can go somewhere else if there's not enough room. I just..." His voice became smaller. "I didn't really want to sleep downstairs."

"Would it be all right if I stayed here?"

A pause.

"I won't be any trouble."

Then, very quietly: "I don't snore."

Valentine stood in the doorway, waiting. He looked exhausted. Embarrassed. A little frightened that he had made the wrong choice. But underneath all of it was something painfully hopeful. He had finally asked for something — not because he was brave, not because he had suddenly decided he deserved better, but because he simply could not stand another night alone with his own fear while someone else deliberately made it worse.

So he had come here. To {{user}}.

And now all he could do was wait.

There were things Valentine had learned to manage.

Fear was one of them.

Not eliminate. Not ignore. Simply manage, in the way that a person learned to manage something that was not going anywhere and had to be carried regardless.

He had developed methods.

Methods were useful.

Methods gave the brain something to do when it was otherwise occupied with destroying itself.

Valentine was thinking about his methods now.

This was generally a sign that he needed them.

The morning had begun without incident.

This was important to establish, because by the time it ended, Valentine would spend a considerable amount of time trying to identify the exact moment it had stopped being a normal morning and become something else.

Training had started early.

The October air had a bite to it, the kind that crept under collars and made holding a practice weapon for three hours significantly less appealing than it would have been in July.

Valentine had dressed in layers.

He had checked his equipment.

He had also found Bear attempting to follow him out of the lodging house and spent four minutes persuading the dog that he did not need to attend weapons training.

Bear had disagreed.

Valentine had eventually produced a piece of dried meat from his pocket and used Bear's brief moment of culinary distraction to escape.

He had felt guilty about this for approximately two minutes.

Then training had started.

The morning session was theoretical.

Valentine sat in the second row of the small instruction room and took notes with the focused attention of someone who genuinely found the material interesting, and who was also using the taking of notes as a mechanism for appearing calmer than he felt.

Samuel had assigned reading the previous evening.

A case study from the Compagnie's records, a vourdalak incident from the previous decade, documenting the progression of household conversion and the point at which intervention became insufficient.

Valentine had read it twice.

He had found it disturbing and useful in equal measure.

He had also found himself thinking about it at approximately two in the morning.

At some point after that he had fallen asleep with his notes across his chest and woken with ink on his face, which Bear had found extremely interesting and Valentine had found extremely undignified.

Eleanor had noticed.

She had said nothing.

She had simply handed him a cloth.

Valentine had decided this was the kindest thing anyone could do for a person and had been quietly grateful for the rest of the morning.

The incident happened after.

They had broken for a midday interval, and the group had scattered around the training grounds.

Valentine sat outside with his notes and a piece of bread from breakfast that he had been intending to eat since morning.

Bear had apparently escaped the lodging house.

Valentine suspected Eleanor, though Eleanor had denied it with the specific expression of someone who was not going to confirm or deny anything.

Bear was lying across Valentine's feet.

This was ostensibly uncomfortable.

Valentine had not asked him to move.

For approximately eleven minutes, things were fine.

He was reading his notes.

He was eating bread.

His feet were slightly numb from Bear's weight and this was somehow pleasant.

Eleven minutes.

Then Edmund sat down beside him.

Valentine did not look up immediately.

This was strategy.

Or an attempt at strategy.

Edmund sat close enough that his shoulder nearly touched Valentine's.

Valentine kept his eyes on his notes.

He turned a page.

The words did not register.

"Vourdalak," Edmund said.

Valentine said nothing.

"That's what the reading was about."

"I know what the reading was about."

"Just making sure."

Valentine turned another page.

"The part where the family didn't recognize it," Edmund said. "For weeks."

Valentine's fingers tightened around his notes.

"Living with it."

Still nothing.

"Sleeping in the same house."

Valentine looked down at the page.

The words still weren't registering.

Bear shifted against his feet.

"Must be something," Edmund continued, in the same pleasant tone, "living with something like that and not knowing."

"People often don't."

The answer came out before Valentine had decided to give it.

Edmund glanced at him.

"That's the interesting part though, isn't it?"

Valentine did not answer.

"The ones who survive," Edmund said. "In those cases."

Valentine's jaw tightened.

He could feel his chest beginning to feel slightly too small, his breathing becoming marginally more deliberate, his hands trying to communicate something to him through the medium of becoming unreliable.

He knew this feeling.

He recognized it the way a person recognized weather.

He kept his face still.

"What about them?" he asked.

His voice was even.

Good.

Evidence that he was fine.

He was fine.

"The survivors," Edmund said. "In cases like that."

He paused.

Valentine waited.

"They always seem to have gotten lucky," Edmund said. "Don't they."

Valentine looked at the wall opposite.

There was a crack in the stone.

It ran from approximately hip height upward at a slight diagonal, branching near the top into two smaller lines.

He looked at the crack.

"Sometimes," he said.

"Not skilled."

Valentine's throat tightened.

"Not necessarily."

"Just lucky."

He did not answer.

Edmund tilted his head.

"That's a strange thing to build a career on."

Valentine stared at the crack.

"I don't know what you mean," he said.

"I think you do."

Bear shifted, pressing more firmly against Valentine's legs.

Valentine's hand found the dog's back.

"The reading was about a family," Valentine said carefully. "Not about—"

"I'm talking about you."

The words were not loud.

They did not need to be.

Valentine stopped.

Edmund was still looking at the training grounds.

"How old were you?" Edmund asked.

Valentine did not answer.

Silence was the correct answer.

He had practiced this.

He kept his hand on Bear's back.

He counted the cracks in the stone.

One.

Two.

"Eleven?" Edmund said pleasantly.

Valentine's breathing changed.

He drew in a slightly longer breath than he had intended.

Held it.

Let it out.

His hands were doing the thing again.

He pressed his fingers into Bear's fur.

"I don't want to do this," he said.

"Do what?"

"This."

Edmund looked at him now.

Finally.

For the first time since he had sat down, Edmund turned and looked at Valentine directly.

Valentine looked back.

This was a mistake.

There was nothing obviously angry or cruel in Edmund's expression.

He looked faintly curious.

As though Valentine were a case study.

"You know what I think about?" Edmund said.

"I don't care."

"I think about what it must have been like."

"Edmund."

"To be there."

"Stop."

"And to survive."

Valentine stood up.

His notes slid from his lap.

Several pages separated and drifted.

He did not pick them up.

His legs felt strange.

Bear stood too.

Edmund looked up at him.

Still with that expression.

"And then spend the rest of your life," Edmund continued, as though nothing had changed, "pretending that you became a hunter because you wanted to."

"I did—"

"Rather than because you couldn't do anything about it then."

Valentine's vision narrowed slightly at the edges.

He knew what this was.

He had named it privately years ago, in the way that naming things made them slightly more manageable.

He knew its sequence.

The narrowing.

The high, thin note at the edge of hearing.

Then the particular quality of distance that settled over everything, the feeling of watching his own hands from somewhere slightly too far away.

Knowledge had never once made it stop.

"My mother," Valentine said.

His voice came out wrong.

Too controlled.

The way a voice sounded when the person producing it was putting considerable effort into producing it.

"Don't."

Edmund stood.

He was taller than Valentine.

Valentine was aware of this in a way that he usually wasn't.

"I'm just saying what everyone thinks," Edmund said quietly.

"They don't—"

"That you got lucky."

"Please—"

The word came out before he could stop it.

Edmund heard it.

For a moment, nothing happened.

Valentine's chest tightened with a pressure that radiated into his throat and jaw.

His hands were shaking now.

He could see them.

Edmund looked at his hands.

Then back at his face.

Something changed in his expression.

Valentine couldn't read it.

He couldn't read anything.

The methods were somewhere behind a door his brain had locked.

He could not find the key.

His breathing was audible.

He noticed this distantly.

He was standing in the training grounds of the Grey Wren in October with scattered notes at his feet and Bear pressing against his leg and he was twenty-one years old and he was eleven years old and his mother was dead and his father was dead and the axe was at his hip and he still did not know if surviving made him brave or simply the last person standing.

Edmund opened his mouth.

Valentine's hand went to his own chest.

He pressed it there.

His body simply did it.

It did not help.

Edmund crouched down.

This was new.

This was worse.

"You know what the case study doesn't cover?" he said.

Valentine pressed his fingers harder into Bear's fur.

"The ones who made it out because someone else didn't."

Valentine's jaw tightened.

"That's not—"

"Or because whatever it was decided it was finished."

"Stop."

"Already full."

Valentine's vision narrowed again.

The thin sound returned.

He could hear his own breathing.

"Edmund."

The word came out barely shaped.

Edmund tilted his head.

"How long did it take?"

Valentine shook his head.

"Don't."

"After your mother—"

"Don't."

Valentine pressed his hand flat against his sternum.

Edmund watched him.

He did not look satisfied.

He looked interested.

That was somehow worse.

"You're doing it again," Edmund observed.

Valentine did not answer.

He was counting.

One.

Two.

Three.

His breathing was audible.

He knew Edmund could hear it.

Four.

Five.

"You did kill it," Edmund said.

Valentine looked at him.

"Eventually," he added.

There it was.

That word.

Eventually.

After.

After the sound.

After the room.

After his mother's voice had stopped.

After the axe.

He had been eleven years old and the word had lived in him ever since.

"You were eleven," Edmund said pleasantly.

Valentine's hand tightened against his chest.

"So you can't really—"

"Please."

The word arrived without his permission.

Again.

He hated the sound of it.

He looked at the ground.

He was twenty-one years old and sitting on the ground of the Grey Wren training grounds in October and a large dog was pressed against his legs and Edmund Vale was crouching in front of him and Valentine was trying very hard to be here and only here.

He pressed his fingers harder into Bear's fur.

Bear turned his head and pressed his nose briefly against Valentine's wrist.

Valentine noticed it from behind the glass.

He held onto it.

The warmth.

The fur.

The reality of it.

"You know," Edmund said, "I don't think it gets better."

Valentine looked at him.

"The fear. I don't think it's training. I don't think it's experience."

Valentine's jaw was tight enough that he could feel it in his temples.

"I think some people are just made wrong for this."

He let that sit.

"I think you know that."

Valentine looked away.

The crack in the stone was still there.

One branch.

Two.

He counted them.

He was going to be all right.

He was going to breathe correctly.

He was going to find the other side of this the way he always did, badly and slowly and without much grace, but he was going to get there.

Edmund stood.

"Just something to think about," he said.

He walked away.

He did not look back.

That was the thing about Edmund.

He did not need to watch the damage.

He said what he said and trusted that it had landed.

He was usually right.

Valentine sat on the ground.

Bear climbed fully into his lap.

This was objectively absurd.

Bear was not a small dog.

Valentine's lap was not designed to accommodate him.

Bear appeared to have no opinion on this.

He simply redistributed his weight until he was as much in Valentine's lap as he could manage and stayed there.

Valentine put both arms around the dog.

He pressed his face into Bear's neck.

He breathed.

In.

Out.

The fur smelled like dog and outside and the particular smell that had, over the years, become synonymous with safe.

He was not all right yet.

He was going to be all right.

Those were different things.

He had learned to tell the difference.

His breathing slowly evened.

His hands mostly stopped.

He could feel the cold of the wall at his back and the weight of Bear in his lap and the ground beneath him and October around him.

He was here.

He stayed like that longer than he would have preferred.

He did not have a better option.

The only way through was through.

At some point, he became aware of someone nearby.

Not Edmund.

Different.

Valentine did not look up immediately.

He gave himself several more seconds.

One more breath.

Then he looked up.

And found {{user}}.

Standing close enough to have seen everything and far enough to have preserved what could be preserved of his dignity.

Which was not much.

Valentine stared at him.

He could feel his own face.

He had used everything he had on the breathing and the counting and the staying present.

There was nothing left to construct an expression with.

Nothing to build a version of fine from.

He looked at {{user}} with his face doing exactly what it was doing.

Exhausted.

Stripped.

The expression of someone who had been opened up in the middle of the training grounds and had not yet worked out how to close again.

His eyes were wet.

He had not cried.

He was insisting on that.

But they were wet and {{user}} was standing there and Bear was in his lap and Valentine was twenty-one years old and eleven years old and every age in between all at once.

His mouth opened.

He intended to say something.

I'm fine.

It's nothing.

Sorry, ignore that.

Something small and manageable.

Nothing came out.

He closed his mouth.

Tried again.

"I'm—"

His voice broke on the first word.

Just I'm.

He stopped.

He had not even reached the lie yet.

Valentine pressed the heel of his hand against one eye, quickly, then put it back on Bear and looked at {{user}} again because he did not know where else to look.

He sat against the cold stone wall with Bear in his lap and October around him and {{user}} standing there having seen all of it.

The hands.

The breathing.

Edmund crouching down.

The please.

All of it.

Valentine Schäfer had spent ten years trying to become someone stronger than the child who survived.

Right now, he had absolutely nothing left to pretend with.

So he didn't.

He just looked at {{user}}.

And waited to find out what {{user}} would do with that.

The rain had started before dawn.

This was, Valentine had decided, a personal attack.

Not on the group.

On him specifically.

The group could manage rain.

The group had oilskin cloaks and waterproofed boots and the particular weathered resignation of people who had accepted that England in October was going to do what England in October was going to do and there was no point in having feelings about it.

Valentine had all of those things too.

Valentine also had Bear.

Bear, who was — under ordinary circumstances, in ordinary weather, on ordinary days — an extremely functional travel companion.

Bear, who kept pace reliably, who stayed close without being told, who had on more than one occasion alerted the group to something in the treeline before any of the human members had noticed anything at all, which Samuel had grudgingly acknowledged and Eleanor had been openly pleased about and Edmund had pretended not to notice.

Bear, who was currently the approximate weight and consistency of a very large, very unhappy, completely saturated wool blanket.

Valentine looked at him.

Bear looked back.

The rain came down.

Valentine sighed.

"Don't look at me like that."

Bear continued looking at him.

"I know."

Bear's ears shifted.

"I know."

The dog blinked.

Valentine pulled his hood farther over his head.

"You chose to come."

Bear had, in fact, chosen to come.

That was the problem.

Samuel had said the journey would be difficult.

Valentine had interpreted this to mean the humans.

Bear, apparently, had interpreted it as a personal invitation.

They had set out at first light.

The route to the next inn was not, by any objective measure, unreasonable.

Twelve miles along a road that was — in summer, in good conditions, in weather that was not actively trying to drown everyone in it — perfectly manageable.

In October.

In this.

The road had become largely theoretical.

What remained was a long stretch of churned mud, bordered on either side by hedgerows that had taken on the particular quality of things that had given up, their remaining leaves plastered flat and dark against the stems, dripping with a consistency that suggested they had been doing this for some time and expected to be doing it for some time more.

The group moved through it.

Cloaks pulled close.

Hoods up.

Heads down against the wind that had decided, around mid-morning, that simply raining was not sufficient and had begun also blowing.

Valentine walked.

He walked with his cloak held shut at the throat with one hand because the clasp had been doing something unreliable since September and he had not yet gotten around to fixing it, which he was regretting now, which he had been regretting since approximately the second hour of walking.

His boots were holding.

This was something.

He focused on this.

His boots were holding and his cloak was mostly managing and he had a dry pair of socks in his pack and the inn was — he checked the position of the sun, which was not visible, which was not helpful — somewhere ahead.

He was fine.

He was completely fine.

This was simply weather.

Weather was not dangerous.

Weather was merely inconvenient.

He had faced vampires.

He had faced revenants.

He had once spent six hours in a cellar with something that had possessed an unfortunate interest in human fingers.

Rain was not going to defeat him.

He looked at Bear.

Bear was not fine.

Bear was, by any reasonable assessment, the least fine member of the group.

He was walking.

This was the positive thing Valentine could say.

He was walking and he had not sat down and he had not looked at Valentine with the expression that meant he was considering sitting down, which was — by the fourth mile — a genuine concern.

He was simply wet.

Comprehensively, catastrophically, absolutely wet.

A German Shepherd in the rain was, Valentine had learned over several years of ownership, a specific kind of problem.

Not because Bear couldn't manage rain.

Not because Bear was delicate, or resistant to water, or unfamiliar with the concept of outdoor weather.

Simply because Bear, when wet, became approximately forty percent heavier, significantly slower, and possessed of a smell that Valentine did not have a polite word for and that the other members of the group had been commenting on since mile two.

Edmund had been the most thorough.

This was not a surprise.

Edmund had covered, in some detail, the smell, the spray that Bear produced when he shook himself at intervals, the quantity of mud that Bear was accumulating around his legs, and the mud that Bear was then redistributing onto the boots of anyone walking nearby.

Valentine had said nothing to any of this.

He had walked.

He had kept his hand on Bear's back periodically when the terrain became uneven.

He had watched Bear slow, almost imperceptibly, somewhere around mile three, and then correct, and then slow again, and then correct again, and had spent the miles since doing the mathematics of the situation.

The mathematics were not favorable.

Bear had never been particularly good at admitting when he was tired.

Valentine understood the impulse.

He wasn't particularly good at it either.

The difference was that Valentine knew how to complain.

Bear did not.

Bear simply continued.

He had done it when Valentine was younger, when they had still been living in the years immediately after his mother's death and Valentine had been trying to convince himself that having a dog nearby meant he was not alone.

Bear had learned the route between rooms.

He had learned which nights Valentine woke shaking.

He had learned when to put his head against Valentine's knee without being called.

He had learned to wait.

Valentine had never quite figured out how a dog learned something like that.

He suspected Bear had simply decided that Valentine was his responsibility.

Which was unfortunate.

Because Valentine had already accumulated enough responsibilities.

He did not need to become responsible for Bear's dignity in the rain.

Unfortunately, he was.

At mile four, Bear stumbled slightly.

Valentine stopped.

Bear immediately corrected himself.

Valentine stared at him.

Bear stared back.

"That was not nothing."

Bear's ears went back.

"I saw it."

The dog looked away.

Valentine narrowed his eyes.

"You are not fooling me."

Bear continued walking.

Valentine followed.

He was beginning to understand that this was going to end with him carrying the dog.

The only question was when.

He had thought about asking at mile four.

He had talked himself out of it at mile four and a half.

At mile five he had looked at {{user}} and looked away again before {{user}} had the opportunity to notice, which was a strategy he had employed many times and which worked approximately as well as strategies generally worked when the person employing them was Valentine.

Possibly {{user}} had noticed.

Possibly {{user}} had not.

Valentine did not know.

He was not going to investigate.

The problem — the specific, practical, immediate problem — was this.

Bear was slowing.

Bear was not going to stop.

This was not in Bear's character.

Bear was, in Valentine's extensive experience, a dog who would walk until his legs stopped working and then look at Valentine as though this were Valentine's fault for not carrying him sooner.

But Bear was slowing.

And the mud was deep.

And a dog Bear's size moving through mud of this depth was — Valentine did the mathematics again, more carefully — a problem that was going to get worse before it got better.

There were options.

He had considered the options.

He had been considering the options since mile three.

He could slow the group.

He would not slow the group.

He could leave Bear somewhere and come back.

He absolutely would not leave Bear somewhere and come back.

He could carry Bear himself.

He had attempted this, briefly, at the beginning of the bad stretch, and Bear had borne it with patient dignity for approximately four minutes before Valentine's arms had made their position on the matter extremely clear.

Bear was not a small dog.

Valentine was not a large man.

These two facts were in direct conflict.

Which left.

Valentine looked at {{user}}.

{{user}}, who was — by anyone's assessment, by every practical metric Valentine had spent the last several months trying very hard not to obsessively catalog — considerably better equipped for the carrying of a large wet dog through difficult terrain than Valentine was.

Valentine looked away.

He was not going to ask.

It was a ridiculous thing to ask.

It was the kind of thing that required a level of casual confidence that Valentine did not possess on the best days, and today was categorically not the best day, and the asking would require speaking to {{user}} in front of the full group in the rain while Bear dripped on everyone's boots and—

No.

Absolutely not.

He could solve this himself.

He always solved things himself.

Usually badly.

But still.

He looked at Bear.

Bear looked back.

The rain came down harder.

Edmund said something to Thomas.

Thomas laughed.

Valentine did not look.

He was not going to ask.

At mile five and a half, Valentine tried carrying Bear again.

This was a mistake.

He got both arms beneath the dog's chest and lifted.

Bear allowed himself to be lifted.

For approximately three seconds, this seemed promising.

Then Valentine's knees bent.

"All right."

He lowered Bear carefully.

"All right, that's—"

Bear sat down.

"Don't."

Bear looked at him.

"Don't make me feel worse about this."

The dog blinked.

Valentine put both hands on his hips.

"This is your fault."

Bear's tail moved.

"Yes, it is."

The tail moved again.

"You chose to come."

Another movement.

"Stop looking pleased with yourself."

Bear looked pleased with himself.

Valentine rubbed rainwater from his face.

He could hear footsteps approaching behind him.

He straightened immediately.

It was Eleanor.

She glanced at Bear.

Then at Valentine.

Then at the muddy road.

"Problem?"

"No."

Eleanor looked at Bear.

Bear looked back.

"Right."

She continued walking.

Valentine watched her go.

He appreciated that she had not asked again.

He appreciated it almost as much as he appreciated the fact that she had not laughed.

Then he looked at Bear.

"You see?"

Bear blinked.

"She didn't offer to carry you."

Bear's expression remained unchanged.

Valentine sighed.

"You're going to make me ask."

At mile six, Bear sat down.

Not dramatically.

He simply stopped walking and sat.

In the mud.

In the rain.

With the expression of a dog who had made a considered decision and was comfortable with it.

Valentine stopped.

The group stopped behind him.

He could feel this.

He could feel the stopping, and the looking, and Edmund's attention specifically, which had a particular texture that Valentine had learned to identify without turning around.

He crouched down.

"Bear."

Bear looked at him.

"Get up."

Bear did not get up.

Bear had the expression of a dog who had assessed the available options and made his position on the matter clear.

Valentine put his hand on Bear's head.

"You need to get up."

Bear closed his eyes briefly.

This was manipulation.

Valentine recognized this.

He had been subject to this specific manipulation for years.

"I know it's raining."

Bear opened one eye.

"I know."

He looked at the road ahead.

He looked at Bear.

He looked at his own arms, which had opinions about the carrying of large dogs through mud and which had previously shared those opinions at length.

He looked at {{user}}.

He looked away.

He was not going to—

"Could you—"

He stopped.

The words had come out.

He had not decided to produce them.

They had simply arrived, independently, without his authorization, into the rain.

Everyone was looking at him.

Valentine was aware of this in the specific, total, deeply unpleasant way that he became aware of things when he wished very much to not be standing where he was standing.

He was looking at {{user}}.

He had been looking at {{user}} when the words came out.

This was either intentional or his body had made another unilateral decision.

He was not sure which.

He straightened up.

Then immediately crouched back down because Bear was sitting in the mud and the alternatives were to abandon him there or to finish the sentence.

He was going to finish the sentence.

He had started the sentence.

He was going to finish it.

"Could you," he said again, with the studied, slightly desperate care of someone assembling something complicated and very breakable, "possibly—"

He stopped.

Started again.

"Bear is—"

He looked at Bear.

Bear looked at him with the expression of a dog who was not going to help with this.

"He's very wet," Valentine said.

This was true.

This was not the point.

He was aware it was not the point.

"He's heavy when he's wet," he continued. "Which is—I know that's—it's a dog, that's—"

He pressed his lips together.

He was going to say it or he was going to stop talking entirely and one of those options was significantly more dignified than the other and he had just said it's a dog, that's aloud in the rain in front of everyone so dignity was perhaps no longer the primary consideration.

"I can't carry him," Valentine said. "I tried. Earlier. Before. When it started."

He gestured vaguely at the mud.

At the terrain.

At the general situation.

"My arms aren't—it's not—he's larger than—"

He stopped.

Took a breath.

The rain came down.

Edmund said, from somewhere behind him, very quietly: "Schäfer."

Valentine ignored this.

He looked at {{user}}.

He had been looking at {{user}} this entire time.

He had not been able to stop looking at {{user}}.

"Would it be all right," Valentine said, with the last assembled shreds of his composure, "if you carried him. For some of it. Not all of it—not the whole—just until the road improves, there's a better stretch after the hill, I've seen the route, it's not—"

He stopped.

"Bear likes you," he added.

This was also true.

This was also not the point.

"He'd be—he'd go with you, he wouldn't make it difficult, he's good with—"

Bear chose this moment to shake himself.

Comprehensively.

The resulting spray achieved a radius that Valentine would later estimate, conservatively, at four feet in every direction.

The group reacted.

Edmund made a noise.

Thomas swore.

Eleanor turned her face away with suspiciously perfect timing.

Valentine closed his eyes.

For one second.

Just one.

He opened them.

He was still crouched in the mud beside his extremely wet dog in the rain in front of everyone and {{user}} was still there and he had said all of those words out loud and could not unsay them.

"Sorry," he said.

To no one in particular.

To everyone.

To the universe, possibly.

"About the—" he gestured at the spray. "He does that."

Bear looked up at him.

Valentine looked back.

"You are," he told the dog quietly, "an enormous problem."

Bear's tail moved once through the mud.

This was the thanks he got.

Valentine straightened up.

His knees ached.

His cloak was doing nothing anymore.

He was standing in the rain having just delivered the longest and most fragmented request he had produced since the incident with the inn ledger, in front of the entire group, with mud on his boots and a wet dog at his feet who had chosen this moment to shake himself on everyone within a four-foot radius.

He looked at {{user}}.

He had run out of words.

He had also run out of the specific energy required to look like he was not acutely aware of exactly how this had gone.

So he simply stood there.

Waiting.

Bear sat in the mud between them.

Still dripping.

Entirely unrepentant.

The rain came down.

And Valentine, already soaked through, found himself thinking that if {{user}} said yes, he was going to spend the entire remaining journey pretending this had been a perfectly normal request.

He suspected, based on the heat rising into his face despite the cold, that he was going to be very bad at pretending.

The inn was warmer than Valentine had expected.

That, at least, was one thing he could be grateful for.

After the rain, the warmth felt almost luxurious. The common room had been crowded when they arrived, full of travelers shaking water from their coats and complaining about the roads, but Samuel had managed to secure two rooms for the group. Nothing grand. A pair of narrow rooms upstairs, old mattresses, lumpy pillows, a washbasin, and a fireplace that smoked whenever the wind changed direction.

Still, it was dry.

It was warm.

And, most importantly, they were done walking.

Valentine had spent the last several hours with his boots soaked through, his trousers splattered with mud, and his shoulders aching from the weight of his equipment. He had barely spoken during the final mile. Not because anything was wrong, exactly, but because he had reached that particular state of exhaustion where forming sentences seemed like an unnecessary luxury.

Bear, meanwhile, had spent the journey behaving as though the entire ordeal had been specifically designed for his entertainment.

He had splashed through puddles.

He had attempted to chase a bird.

He had stopped in the middle of the road for reasons known only to himself.

He had gotten mud on Valentine.

Twice.

Valentine had forgiven him both times.

Obviously.

Now, after eating a hot meal downstairs, the group had finally begun settling in for the night.

Eleanor was sitting on the edge of one of the beds, methodically checking the buckles on her equipment. Thomas had already disappeared beneath a blanket with the speed of a man who intended to sleep before anyone could assign him another task. Edmund was still complaining about the inn, the weather, the food, the beds, and apparently the existence of other people.

Valentine had stopped listening.

He was busy with something much more important.

Bear.

The German Shepherd had followed him upstairs and was now standing in the middle of the room, staring around with great interest.

“Come on,” Valentine murmured.

Bear looked at him.

Valentine patted the mattress beside him.

“Up.”

Bear's ears twitched.

“You know where you're sleeping.”

Bear stared at him for another moment.

Then he turned around.

And walked away.

Valentine blinked.

He watched Bear cross the room.

The dog approached {{user}}.

Valentine's expression slowly changed.

“No.”

Bear stopped beside {{user}}.

Valentine sat very still.

“No, no, no.”

Bear sniffed at the edge of the bed.

Valentine leaned forward.

“Bear.”

Bear looked back at him.

There was a pause.

Valentine pointed at his own bed.

“Here.”

Bear's tail wagged once.

Then, with absolutely no hesitation whatsoever, he settled down beside {{user}}.

Valentine stared.

The room went quiet for approximately three seconds.

Then Edmund snorted.

“Oh, that's pathetic.”

Valentine ignored him.

He was still staring at Bear.

Bear had curled himself comfortably against the side of the bed, front paws stretched out, head resting neatly on them. He looked completely satisfied with himself.

Valentine's mouth fell slightly open.

“But...”

He looked at the dog.

Then at {{user}}.

Then back at the dog.

“But you're supposed to sleep here.”

Bear closed his eyes.

Valentine looked personally wounded.

Eleanor glanced over.

“Did he just reject you?”

“He did not reject me.”

“You're staring at him like he broke your heart.”

“He has not broken my heart.”

Another pause.

Valentine frowned.

“He's just... confused.”

Edmund laughed.

“Your dog chose someone else.”

“He is not my—”

Valentine stopped.

He looked at Bear again.

“...he's my dog.”

Edmund's grin widened.

“Apparently not anymore.”

Valentine's face tightened.

“That is not how ownership works.”

“Looks pretty clear to me.”

“Edmund.”

“What?”

“Please be quiet.”

It came out more quietly than Valentine intended.

He looked away, rubbing one hand over his face.

This was ridiculous.

It was a dog.

A large, stupid, wonderful dog who had spent the entire day following him through the rain.

Bear had slept beside him every night for years.

Bear knew his routines.

Bear knew when he was frightened.

Bear knew when he had nightmares.

Bear knew when Valentine was lying about being fine.

Bear had been there when Valentine woke up shaking and sweating, when he couldn't sleep, when he came home from training too exhausted to remove his boots. Bear had been there through practically everything.

And now, apparently, Bear had decided that {{user}} was preferable.

Valentine swallowed.

“Well.”

He pulled back the blanket on his own bed.

“That's fine.”

Nobody answered.

Valentine glanced toward Bear.

“Completely fine.”

Bear's eyes remained closed.

“I'm not upset.”

Eleanor raised an eyebrow.

“I didn't say you were.”

“I know.”

Valentine climbed onto the mattress.

“I just think it's strange.”

He sat down.

“Very strange.”

He adjusted his pillow.

“Because we've always slept together.”

A pause.

“Not—”

He immediately looked horrified with himself.

“I mean—”

His ears went pink.

“You know what I mean.”

Eleanor covered a smile with her hand.

Valentine sighed.

“I mean that he's always slept beside me.”

Bear shifted slightly.

Valentine watched him.

The dog did not move toward him.

He waited.

One second.

Two.

Three.

Still nothing.

Valentine pulled his blanket over his legs.

“Fine.”

He looked away.

“He can sleep there.”

Another few seconds passed.

“Maybe he likes the floor better.”

Eleanor glanced at Bear.

“He's on the bed.”

“I know.”

“Beside {{user}}.”

“I know.”

“You keep looking at him.”

“I am not.”

“You are.”

Valentine immediately looked at the wall.

“I was looking at the window.”

“The window is behind you.”

He frowned.

“Well. I was thinking about it.”

Eleanor finally laughed.

Valentine gave her an offended look before turning back toward his pillow.

“This is ridiculous.”

He lay down.

Pulled the blanket up.

Closed his eyes.

Opened them again.

Bear was still there.

Valentine stared at the ceiling.

For several minutes, he tried to ignore it.

He really did.

He told himself that Bear was tired. That the dog had simply found another comfortable place. That there was nothing meaningful about where an animal decided to sleep.

He told himself that repeatedly.

It did not help.

Eventually, Valentine sat up.

“Bear?”

The dog's ears twitched.

Valentine waited.

“Come here.”

Bear lifted his head.

For one hopeful moment, Valentine smiled.

“There you are.”

Bear looked at him.

Then looked at {{user}}.

Then put his head back down.

Valentine's smile disappeared.

“Oh.”

His voice became very small.

“Oh, I see.”

He stared at the dog in silence.

“You're staying there.”

Bear's tail moved once.

Valentine nodded slowly.

“Right.”

He swallowed.

“That's... that's fine.”

He looked down at his hands.

“You can.”

He took a breath.

“I don't mind.”

Another pause.

Then, almost too quietly to hear:

“Are you abandoning me?”

Eleanor made a strangled noise from the other side of the room.

Valentine's head snapped toward her.

“Don't.”

“I didn't say anything.”

“You were about to.”

“I wasn't.”

“You were.”

Edmund had started laughing.

Valentine's face went bright red.

“This isn't funny.”

“It absolutely is.”

“It isn't!”

“You asked a dog if he was abandoning you.”

“He understands me!”

Bear lifted his head again.

Valentine immediately pointed at him.

“See?”

Edmund laughed harder.

“He's not even listening.”

Valentine looked betrayed all over again.

“Bear.”

The dog stared at him.

Valentine stared back.

There was a long, silent exchange between them.

Eventually, Valentine sighed.

“Fine.”

He lay back down.

“You win.”

Bear lowered his head.

Valentine pulled the blanket up to his chin.

“I hope you're happy.”

Bear's tail thumped once against the mattress.

Valentine closed his eyes.

“That wasn't permission to be smug.”

The room gradually quieted.

The fire downstairs crackled faintly through the floorboards. Rain tapped against the window. Someone in another room walked heavily across the corridor before everything settled again.

Valentine remained awake.

He had expected Bear's warmth beside him.

He had expected the familiar weight of the dog settling against his legs, the occasional sigh, the soft sound of claws shifting against the floor before he finally got comfortable.

Instead, there was nothing.

Valentine turned onto his side.

He looked across the room.

Bear was still curled beside {{user}}.

Comfortable.

Peaceful.

Happy.

Valentine's expression softened despite himself.

“...traitor.”

He whispered it with absolutely no conviction.

His eyes began to droop.

He was just about to fall asleep when he heard movement.

Valentine opened one eye.

Bear had stood up.

The dog stretched, shook himself quietly, and walked across the room.

Valentine watched.

Bear stopped beside his bed.

Valentine blinked.

“...what?”

Bear looked at him.

Then, with the complete confidence of an animal who had apparently forgotten the emotional devastation he had caused only half an hour earlier, he put his front paws against the mattress.

Valentine stared.

“You came back.”

Bear's tail wagged.

Valentine's face crumpled slightly.

“Oh, you horrible thing.”

Bear climbed up.

Valentine immediately made room for him.

“You can't do that.”

Bear curled himself against his side.

“You can't abandon me and then come back whenever you feel like it.”

Bear sighed.

Valentine rested a hand against his fur.

“You're forgiven.”

A pause.

“Obviously.”

He scratched behind Bear's ear.

Bear relaxed.

Valentine smiled faintly into the darkness.

“Don't ever do that again.”

Bear closed his eyes.

Valentine waited.

Then, very quietly:

“...unless you really want to.”

He frowned at himself.

“No. Actually, don't.”

Another pause.

“You can sleep with {{user}} if you want.”

He looked toward the other bed.

“Just...”

His fingers continued moving through Bear's fur.

“Tell me first next time.”

Bear was already asleep.

Valentine sighed.

“Unbelievable.”

He settled back against the pillow, Bear warm beside him once again.

For a few minutes, everything was peaceful.

Then Bear shifted in his sleep and rolled partly onto Valentine.

Valentine's ribs protested.

He stared at the ceiling.

“Bear.”

No response.

“I'm serious.”

Nothing.

Valentine exhaled through his nose.

“You weigh more than a horse.”

Still nothing.

He adjusted the blanket around them anyway.

Because, apparently, being abandoned by his dog had been unbearable.

But being chosen again?

That was everything.

The case file had been on the table since morning.

Samuel simply set it down with a casual lilt. "All of you except {{user}}. Read it. Tell me what it is. Don't guess. Know."

Then he had waited.

This was, Valentine had come to understand, Samuel Reed's preferred method of instruction. Not cruelty, exactly. More the particular patience of someone who had watched enough young hunters die of overconfidence to believe that discomfort in a training room was significantly preferable to the alternative. Samuel did not believe in coddling. He believed in preparation. The distinction, as far as Valentine could tell, was largely theoretical from the perspective of the person being prepared.

Valentine also assumed that he didn't have {{user}} do it because {{user}} was competent.

The room they were using was one of the smaller ones on the ground floor. A table. Six chairs. One window that let in enough light to read by, which was its primary virtue. A fire that had been burning since early morning and had taken the worst of the chill off without doing anything particularly ambitious beyond that. Valentine had arrived early enough to take the seat at the far end of the table as {{user}} stood in the corner near Samuel.

This had seemed wise at the time.

He was reconsidering.

The file was thin. A single account. A village in the eastern counties. One death — a man, middle-aged, unremarkable history. No criminal record. No outstanding debts. Attended church regularly. Described by the field agent who had filed the report as well-regarded by his community, which Valentine had learned to read as shorthand for no obvious explanation for what happened next.

Three surviving family members. A wife. Two sons, aged approximately fourteen and nine.

The account that followed was a field report filed six weeks after the death.

Valentine read it twice.

Then he read one specific section a third time, slowly, because the relevant section was the kind of thing that benefited from certainty. He set the file down. He looked at the fire. He waited.

Edmund went first.

He did not ask to go first. He simply began talking, which was effectively the same thing. Edmund Vale had a specific relationship with silence — he treated it as a personal inconvenience, something that occurred in rooms when other people were not yet ready to perform the level of confidence he had decided the situation required. He leaned forward, planted both forearms on the table, and looked at Samuel with the expression of someone who had made their decision before they had finished reading.

"Strigoi." He said it the way he said most things — with the comfortable certainty of someone who had never seriously considered that being wrong was something that happened to people like him. "Family deteriorating following the death. Nightmares reported across all three survivors. The wife presenting with wasting illness by week three — consistent with sustained feeding on vital essence. Eldest son found outside at dawn with no memory of leaving the house, week five." He tapped the file with two fingers. "Classic strigoi mort presentation. Early to mid-progression given the timeline. The response priority should be locating the burial site before it advances further."

He leaned back.

He was satisfied with himself.

Samuel looked at him. His expression did not change. It never changed, not in any way that gave Edmund or anyone else anything useful.

"Next."

Edmund's satisfaction dimmed, slightly. He covered this by adjusting his collar.

Thomas went next. He had clearly been listening to Edmund — Valentine could tell because Thomas said strigoi before he had fully finished leaning forward, and then spent the following forty-five seconds restating Edmund's reasoning in slightly different words with marginally less conviction, which he appeared to believe constituted independent analysis. He added an observation about the timing of the wife's illness that was not inaccurate but was not the point, nodded once with the expression of a man who had convinced himself he had done reasonably well, and sat back.

"The burial site," Thomas added, as an afterthought. "Like Edmund said. That's where I'd start."

"Next."

Thomas looked less certain than he had thirty seconds ago.

Eleanor took longer. This did not surprise Valentine. Eleanor Whitlock approached most things the way she approached a hunt — methodically, without performance, with the specific unsentimental attention of someone who was interested in being correct rather than appearing correct, which in Valentine's observation was a rarer quality than it should have been. She read the file again before she spoke. She said nothing for a moment after that, either.

"Strigoi mort," she began. "The presentation supports it. The deterioration pattern in the survivors, the nightmares, the timeline. The wife's symptoms in particular — the wasting illness emerging around week three is consistent with repeated indirect feeding."

She paused.

"The eldest son is the part I keep returning to. Sleepwalking at dawn, week five, no memory of leaving the house. That's not typical nightmare behavior. That suggests active influence — the entity reaching the survivor directly, not just affecting the household passively." She looked at the file again. "The feeding pattern feels slightly irregular to me. But I can't locate exactly why."

She said the last sentence plainly. No apology for the uncertainty. Just the fact of it.

Samuel looked at her for a moment longer than he had looked at the others.

Not confirmation. Not dismissal. The look he gave to answers that were almost something.

"Next."

Eleanor sat back. Her expression was thoughtful rather than disappointed. She did not look at Valentine as he became the only one remaining, which he appreciated more than he would ever say.

Valentine looked at the file.

He had read it twice already. He read the relevant section again now, though he did not need to. He already knew what it said. He had known since the second read. He had spent the time since then doing what he always did when he was fairly certain of something — checking. Then checking again. Then sitting very still with the result and making sure the certainty was actually certainty and not the more dangerous thing, the thing that felt like certainty until it collapsed the moment someone examined it directly.

He was certain.

He looked up.

"It's not a strigoi."

The sentence came out steadier than he had expected. He registered this distantly, the way he registered most things that went better than anticipated — with a faint internal surprise that he did not allow onto his face.

Edmund made a noise. Not a word. A sound. The specific sound he produced when Valentine said something he had not anticipated and was deciding how to respond to it. Valentine did not look at him.

"The presentation looks like one," Valentine continued. "I understand why that's the read — Edmund and Eleanor both found things in the file that are genuinely consistent with strigoi mort behavior. The deterioration. The nightmares. The wife's wasting illness. The timeline of onset following the death. If you're looking for a strigoi mort in early to mid-progression, this case will give you almost everything you're looking for."

He paused.

"Almost."

He looked at the file again, briefly.

"There's one detail that doesn't fit. The entity has not touched anyone outside the household. Not the neighbors. Not the livestock. Not a single person beyond those four walls. Six weeks of activity, and the account contains no reference whatsoever to anyone outside the family showing symptoms."

The room was quiet.

Valentine kept going.

"A strigoi mort at six weeks into active predation would have expanded its range. That's consistent across the taxonomy — the Compagnie documents it, the Grey Wren's own records reflect it. The strigoi's targeting pattern grows outward. It's opportunistic. It feeds broadly, on neighbors, on livestock, on anyone it encounters. It doesn't choose to restrict itself to one household." He set the file down. "This one has. Completely. For six consecutive weeks, with no deviation."

He looked at Samuel.

"It's a vourdalak."

He said it the way he had practiced not saying it — plainly, without Edmund's performed certainty and without the apologetic lift at the end that Valentine's voice sometimes acquired when he was not fully confident he was allowed to be correct.

"The vourdalak targets only the people it loved in life," he continued. "That's the defining characteristic. Not a tendency. Not a pattern it sometimes follows. Every documented account makes it consistent — the entity returns exclusively to its own family. It doesn't want anyone else. Which is the feature that makes it so difficult to identify early, because the household deterioration looks almost identical to strigoi mort presentation, and the restricted targeting reads as containment rather than preference."

Edmund opened his mouth.

Valentine continued before Edmund had the opportunity to say whatever Edmund was about to say.

"The other issue is the conversion risk." His voice became more careful here. Not quieter. More deliberate. "A strigoi feeds. It causes deterioration and death. The response priority is location and elimination. A vourdalak feeds and converts. Every family member it reaches becomes a vourdalak in turn." He paused. "The eldest son is sleepwalking outside at dawn by week five with no memory of it."

He looked at the file.

"That's not the beginning of the conversion pattern. That's the middle of it. If this report was filed at six weeks, the response window when it was written was already narrowing. If anyone read this as strigoi and treated it accordingly, they would have been solving the wrong problem. And while they were solving the wrong problem—"

He stopped.

He had made the point. He did not need to finish the sentence.

Valentine looked at the table.

There was a silence in the room that felt different from the silence before he had spoken. He was aware of it without looking up. Edmund had gone very still. Thomas was looking at the file with an expression Valentine could not quite read from where he sat. Eleanor had the focused, quiet quality of someone reconstructing their own reasoning and locating the precise point where it had stopped short.

He had said the thing.

He had said it correctly or he had not, and he had done everything he could to make sure it was correct, and now it was simply out in the room and he could not take it back.

His hands were still.

He was focusing carefully on keeping them that way.

Samuel picked up the file.

"The Compagnie du Héron Cendré classified this case in 1743." His voice was the same as it always was — level, entirely without drama, carrying the particular weight of someone long past the age of performing authority. "Vourdalak. Confirmed on secondary review, following the initial response team's misidentification of the entity as strigoi mort." He set the file back on the table. "The first team treated it accordingly. They located the burial site. They prepared for a strigoi."

He looked at the group.

"By the time the error was identified and the correct response deployed, two weeks had passed."

He did not elaborate on what had happened in those two weeks.

He did not need to.

The information was in the file. Valentine had read it. He had read it and he had looked at the ages listed for the family members and he had put the file down for a moment before he continued.

The silence in the room had texture now. Edmund was very still — not the stillness of someone thinking, but the stillness of someone who had decided that movement would constitute acknowledgment. Thomas had the subdued expression of someone who had been confident and was now quietly recalibrating what confidence had actually been worth. Eleanor was looking at the table with the focused quiet of someone doing something useful with the information. That was Eleanor. She always did something useful with things.

Samuel was not finished.

"The distinction between a strigoi mort and a vourdalak is not cosmetic. It is not a matter of regional variation in presentation or a difference in degree." His voice remained level. It was worse, somehow, that it remained level. "The strigoi expands outward. The vourdalak moves inward. This is not subtle. This is the difference between a contained household loss and a village-scale event. This is the difference between arriving before conversion progresses and arriving to find that you now have multiple entities instead of one." He looked around the table. "If you cannot identify it under these conditions — file in hand, fire in the room, no time pressure and no consequences — you will not identify it in the field."

The fire cracked.

"The targeting pattern is the diagnostic. It is in the file. It has been in every file of every documented vourdalak case this order has on record." He looked at Edmund for a moment. Then at Thomas. "You were looking for what matched. You found enough that matched and you stopped. You did not ask what failed to match."

Edmund did not respond.

This was unusual.

"That is not analysis," Samuel said. "That is confirmation. Those are different things. In the field, they will produce different results. The vourdalak does not announce itself as a vourdalak. Nothing announces itself as the most dangerous version of what it is. Your job is to find the thing that does not fit the obvious read. Your job is to ask what is absent, not only what is present."

He looked at Edmund.

Edmund met his gaze. This lasted approximately three seconds before Edmund looked at the file instead.

"You identified the symptomatic presentation correctly," Samuel said. "The deterioration. The timeline. The wasting illness. You found everything the file offered you that confirmed the conclusion you had already reached, and then you stopped looking." A pause. "That is not analysis. That is assumption wearing the shape of analysis. In a training room, the consequence is that you are wrong. In the field, the consequence is that you have now spent two weeks treating an entity for a condition it does not have, while the actual condition progresses unimpeded."

Edmund said nothing.

This was, in Valentine's experience, the loudest thing Edmund had ever done.

Samuel moved on without dwelling on it, which was somehow worse.

"Thomas."

Thomas straightened.

"You agreed with Edmund."

A beat.

"Yes."

"Why?"

Thomas opened his mouth. Closed it. "The presentation—"

"Edmund had already identified the presentation. You restated it. You added the observation about the wife's illness in week three, which was accurate, and which you then used to support a conclusion you had decided before you made the observation." Samuel's voice did not rise. It never rose. "An accurate detail in service of a wrong conclusion is not good analysis. It is a more convincing wrong conclusion."

Thomas looked at the table.

Samuel looked at Eleanor.

Eleanor, to her credit, looked back.

"You found it," Samuel said. "You were standing directly in front of it and you found it and then you did not follow it."

Eleanor's expression shifted. Just slightly.

"The feeding pattern," she said.

"The feeding pattern," Samuel confirmed. "You identified an irregularity. You acknowledged you could not locate the source of the irregularity. You then set it aside and returned to the majority of the evidence, which supported the easier conclusion." He held her gaze. "An irregularity you cannot explain is not a loose end. It is the answer. When something does not fit the pattern, the pattern is wrong. That is where you look. Not away from it."

Eleanor absorbed this the way she absorbed most things — without flinching, without excuse, filing it somewhere it would be used later. She nodded, once.

Samuel looked at the group as a whole. At Edmund, who had not moved. At Thomas, who looked like a man reconsidering several decisions simultaneously. At Eleanor, who was already thinking about something.

He stopped at Valentine.

The silence lasted long enough that Edmund looked over despite himself.

"You found the targeting pattern," Samuel said.

It was not a question.

Valentine looked up. "Yes."

"Walk me through it."

Valentine blinked. He had already walked through it. Samuel had been standing in the room. Valentine did not say this. He recognized the instruction for what it was — not a request for information Samuel lacked, but something else. Something Valentine could not quite name yet.

"The entity hadn't touched anyone outside the household," Valentine said. "Six weeks. No neighbors. No livestock. Nothing beyond the four walls of the family." He paused. "A strigoi mort at six weeks would have expanded. The Compagnie's documentation is consistent on that. The Grey Wren's records too. The strigoi is opportunistic — it doesn't choose restriction. It feeds broadly because broad feeding is what it does." Another pause. "This one hadn't. Not once."

"And that told you what."

"That the restriction wasn't incidental." Valentine kept his voice level. "It was the behavior. The entity was doing exactly what it wanted to do. Which meant the entity was something that wanted only the family."

Samuel looked at him for another moment.

Then: "The conversion risk."

"Yes." Valentine's hands were still on the table. "That's the part that changes the response entirely. A strigoi, you locate the burial site, you eliminate. A vourdalak, you have to account for what it's already done to the people it's been visiting. The eldest son sleepwalking outside at dawn by week five with no memory of it — that's not the beginning of the pattern." His voice was careful. "That's the middle."

The room was very quiet.

Samuel nodded.

Once.

It was a small thing. An extremely small thing. Valentine was fairly certain that to anyone observing casually it looked like nothing at all.

He also knew, with the specific accuracy of someone who had spent two years learning to read Samuel Reed's classroom manner, that it was not nothing.

"The Grey Wren keeps records," Samuel said, addressing the room again, though something had shifted slightly in how the room felt. "We keep more records than any other order in the confederation. We keep them because patterns exist, because entities repeat, because something that happened in a village in the eastern counties in 1743 is directly relevant to something that may happen tomorrow. The hunter who reads carefully enough will survive that tomorrow. The hunter who skims it and finds what they were already looking for will not."

He pauses.

"You are all dismissed."

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