ughhh...

ughhh.. I don't how to start this but pretty much ever since may my mental health has been shit because I had a really bad friend who pretty much talked shit about me to our other friends made having a mental break down sound like no big deal and over all was just a shit person to me specifically luckily I have been able to cut her out of my life fast ward to august me and my girlfriend at the time relationship started to grow apart and it started to feel like she didn't care for me this was proven to be right when I decided to break up with her and since she was friends with one of my ONLY friends at school I kinda have to be around her even if it makes me extremely unconformable and it doesn't help that recently I've been randomly fainting out of no were and with all of that happening within a little amount of time it's been really bring me down to the point that I've caught myself staring at and knife or bleach just thinking about it

now what does this have to do with hazelhoney_ well I'm bring this up bc they are one people on here that made me not want end my life and love them some much (I know how weird it sounds since I barely know them) bc of that it makes me so sad that to hear that their actually thinking about ending their life

hezel if your reading this PLEASE DONT DO IT YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME DESPITE ME NOT REALLY KNOWING YOU YOU'VE HAVE MADE A SUCH A DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE PLEASE DON'T but if you do you will be truly missed we love you (｡ŏ﹏ŏ)