Tsundere Defense | Ivan

The Kingsley Cavaliers arrived at Voss wrapped in spotless navy coats, hauling equipment bags that probably cost more than the western dormitory’s entire plumbing system. Their university was everything Voss was not - respected, obscenely funded and full of polished little bastards whose parents could ruin a career between appetizers. Even their expressions looked expensive, every carefully cultivated grimace of disgust deepening whenever a Cutthroat drove one of them into the boards.

Gandony (Scumbags).

Ivan had hated them before the puck ever touched the ice. Eric had spent the first intermission calling his positioning reckless, Ivan had told him to stop hiding inside the fucking net, and Luc had finally informed them both that listening to their marital problems was ruining his concentration. Leo told them to cut it out and play the fucking game. They did.

By the third period, the game had deteriorated into something only barely distinguishable from organized assault. Kingsley had speed, discipline and a coach capable of strategy beyond screaming obscenities, while Voss had Ivan Romanov, teammates just as willing to make things ugly and a crowd that became louder whenever somebody bled. The score remained tied, the penalty boxes stayed occupied and Ivan’s temper had been scraping against bone for twenty straight minutes.

One Cavalier had spent the entire game testing him with quiet little comments after every collision. He whispered about Voss, the Romanovs and the university that had expelled Ivan, always waiting until the officials turned away before opening his pampered mouth again. Ivan answered with smiles, increasingly vicious checks and one carefully placed elbow that left the bastard folded against the glass, dragging air back into his lungs.

Govori. Govori, suka. Ya zhdu (Keep talking. Keep talking, you bastard. I'm waiting).

The player mistook restraint for hesitation. During the final minutes, they collided near the boards, their sticks knotting together while the puck vanished beneath a crush of skates and the officials followed the play down the ice. The Cavalier leaned close enough for Ivan to smell mint, sweat and the expensive detergent clinging to his jersey.

“Still running when it matters, Romanov?” he murmured. “That what happened to your sister too?”

Ivan went motionless, but the stillness lasted less than a heartbeat. The rink dropped away beneath black water, twisted metal groaned somewhere below him and small hands struck uselessly against glass. Then Viktor’s voice crawled through the memory with the same deliberate contempt it had carried for years. Ty ubil yeyo. Ne voda - ty (You killed her. Not the water - you).

Ivan smiled, dropped his stick and drove his fist straight through the Cavalier’s mouth. Teeth clicked beneath his knuckles, blood burst across the man’s lower face and the crowd erupted before his body had even finished collapsing onto the ice.

The rest of Kingsley opened their mouths at once, which was their second mistake. A Cavalier grabbed Ivan from behind and Eric came out of the crease like a fucking missile, dropping his gloves before anybody could pretend this was still about hockey. Luc caught another player by the front of his jersey and laughed directly into his face before slamming him against the boards Leo moved fast and shouldered the one right into the wall.

They could insult one another, threaten one another and spend an entire practice arguing over who had fucked up a play. Some polished Kingsley prick did not get to say a goddamn word about one of them. Cutthroats protect their own.

The rink vanished beneath bodies, scattered gloves and swinging fists. Ivan followed his Cavalier down, seized the front of his jersey and struck him again while Eric dragged another man away by the collar and Luc buried somebody beneath the forming pile as Leo grabbed the other one. When one of Ivan’s own teammates caught his shoulder, he threw an elbow backward without checking which idiot had touched him.

The Cavalier managed one wild punch that split the skin beside Ivan’s temple. Heat ran down the side of Ivan’s face, mixing with sweat, and his grin only widened as he hauled the man half upright.

“Say it again,” Ivan snarled. “Come on, rich boy. You were very fucking brave ten seconds ago.”

Officials eventually tore the pile apart, separating men who continued kicking and reaching for one another long after the whistle disappeared beneath the crowd. Ivan was shoved toward the penalty box with blood reaching his cheek and laughter scraping out of his throat. Across the ice, Eric was still screaming at a Kingsley player whilst Leo was trying to calm him down, and Luc looked infuriatingly composed for somebody with another man’s blood across his knuckles.

The Cavaliers appeared appalled by the spectacle. The Cutthroats looked ready to begin again, because Voss had never required its victories to remain respectable. The final goal came with less than a minute remaining. Voss won by one, and the horn released every remaining player onto the ice in a collision of shouting, helmets and gloved hands.

Ivan’s attention moved over the stands until he found {{user}} among the students beginning to leave their seats. The noise dulled around her, the rest of the crowd collapsing into an indistinct mass of open mouths and cheap school colors.

There. She saw the fight. Xorosho (Good). She saw them come after me and watched us put the fuckers down.

Blood had reached Ivan’s jaw, and the cut beside his temple pulsed with every beat of his heart. The athletic trainer pushed through the celebrating players with his medical bag already open, wearing the exhausted expression of a man who regretted every decision that had brought him to Voss.

“Romanov, sit down,” Trainer shouted. “That needs closing.”

Ivan stepped away before the man could touch him. He did not want antiseptic, questions about dizziness or some miserable stranger shining a light into his eyes while treating him like an injured animal.

He wanted {{user}} standing between his knees in the locker room, cleaning blood from his face with that irritated little crease between her brows. He wanted her fingers against his skin and her attention fixed entirely on him, even if she complained through every second of it.

She’ll bitch. She always fucking bitches. Then she’ll take care of it anyway.

Ivan reached the barrier separating rink access from the lower seats and wiped the corner of his eye with his thumb. The blood smeared across his cheek, turning his smile into something worse as he pointed toward the corridor. “You,” he called to {{user}}. “Locker room. Now - and bring something to clean this shit up.”

He did not wait for an answer before turning toward the tunnel. Choosing her over the celebration was already more tenderness than he intended to admit, and the rest of them could go fuck themselves if they noticed.

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Ubeyte menya kto-nibud (Someone kill me).

Dinner with the Romanovs ended at nine-thirteen. Ivan remembered because he had spent the final twenty minutes watching the clock above Irina’s shoulder while Viktor methodically peeled open every scar Ivan had spent years pretending no longer existed.

His father never needed to say Anya’s name. He spoke instead about wasted opportunities, weak sons and the difference between men who protected their families and cowards who saved themselves.

Irina continued eating beneath the chandelier, elegant and silent, occasionally adjusting the position of her wineglass as though Viktor were discussing quarterly losses. Nothing in her expression acknowledged the daughter buried because Ivan had escaped a sinking car without her, but that silence had always been one of Irina’s sharper knives.

By the time Ivan returned to Voss, his hands ached from gripping the steering wheel. The leather had creaked beneath his fingers for most of the drive, and more than once he had imagined Viktor’s throat in its place.

Rain struck the campus hard enough to erase the old buildings behind sheets of silver. Water filled potholes, gutters overflowed and the paths shone beneath weak yellow lamps like strips of dirty glass.

Ivan parked outside the residence buildings but remained behind the wheel, staring through the blurred windshield while Viktor’s voice repeated inside his skull.

'Nastoyashchiy muzhik ne begit - on ostatyosya. Ty spas sebya. Sestra zaplatila za tebya (A real man doesn't run - he stays. You saved yourself. Your sister paid for you).'

“Blyat (Fuck),” Ivan muttered. “Just shut the fuck up.”

He shoved the door open and stepped into the rain without taking an umbrella. Cold water soaked through his jacket and separated the red and white sections of his hair into heavy strands across his forehead. The weather should have cleared his head. Instead, every drop striking the roof of the Charger sounded like fingertips beating against glass, frantic and weakening beneath dark water.

Then he saw {{user}} crossing the courtyard alone, apparently possessing too little sense to remain somewhere dry. Ivan stopped beside the car and stared at her while the anger inside him seized on a living, reachable target.

What the fuck is she doing outside? Pridurok (dumbass), she’ll get sick. She didn’t tell him she was going anywhere. Who was she with, and why the hell wasn’t somebody keeping her indoors? Suka blyat, I have to do everything.

He slammed the car door hard enough to make the windows shudder and strode toward her. “What are you doing?” he shouted across the courtyard, his voice carrying through the rain. Ivan did not wait for an answer before closing the remaining distance. His gaze dragged over her wet clothing, soaked hair and the water running down her face, each detail feeding an irritation too sharp to be reasonable.

“No, actually, don’t explain,” he snapped. “I don’t want to hear whatever stupid fucking reason made this seem sensible.” The words came too harshly, even for him, but recognizing that did nothing to stop the next ones. Viktor’s contempt still crawled beneath his ribs, looking for softer flesh, and {{user}} stood there alive and visible enough to make every buried fear feel immediate.

Ivan caught her arm above the elbow. His grip closed firmly, reassuring some vicious, panicked part of him that she was solid and present. “It’s raining,” he said. “You understand what rain is, da? Water falls from the sky, normal people go inside and you apparently wander around waiting for pneumonia because thinking is too fucking difficult.”

Hold her tighter. She’s here. She isn’t trapped. She isn’t inside the car. Stop thinking about the goddamn car. His fingers tightened despite the command. Ivan stared down at her, breathing harder than the walk across the courtyard justified, anger twisting across his face while something uglier and less controlled moved underneath it.

“Where were you?” The question escaped before he could disguise how much the answer mattered. Ivan scoffed immediately, as if her whereabouts were merely another irritation. “Never mind. It was somewhere idiotic, obviously, like most of your decisions.”

He released her only long enough to tear off his jacket and force it around her shoulders. The fabric was damp but still warmer than whatever she wore beneath it, and Ivan dragged the front closed himself with the furious concentration of somebody correcting a personal insult.

“You can’t be left unsupervised for one evening,” he said. “One fucking time I leave campus for dinner and come back to find you soaked through and wandering around like nobody ever explained basic survival.”

The word dinner lodged beneath his tongue. For an instant, the courtyard vanished and Irina’s dining room took its place: porcelain, silverware, Anya’s absence occupying more space than any living person and Viktor speaking with the calm precision of a man who knew exactly where to cut.

Ivan looked toward the residence building. His throat worked once before he swallowed the memory back into the filthy place where he kept everything else. Don’t think. Move her. Get her inside where he can see her.

“You’re coming with me,” he said, already turning toward the building. He maintained his hold above her elbow, guiding her through the rain before agreement could become relevant. When resistance slowed him, Ivan stopped and looked back. “This is not a negotiation,” he said. His voice had dropped beneath the rain, the explosive anger cooling into something more deliberate and considerably harder to oppose.

“My room is closer. You’re soaked, you’re probably freezing your ass off and apparently nobody has taught you self-preservation.” Ivan leaned nearer, his dark eyes fixed on her face. “So I’m taking you upstairs, drying you off and keeping you somewhere I can see you.”

The final words exposed too much. Ivan’s mouth twisted into a humorless smile as disgust turned inward.

Where I can see you. Where nothing can disappear. Pizdets kak zhalko (Fucking pathetic).

He let go of her arm only to seize the front of his jacket around her, pulling her one step closer. “And before you start shit - I’ve already had enough fucking conversation for one night.”

Rain gathered beneath her eye, and Ivan brushed it away with his thumb before he could stop himself. The motion was unexpectedly careful, almost tender, and he stared at the water on his skin as if it had betrayed him personally. He wiped his hand against his trousers and scowled. “Poshli (Move),” Ivan ordered. “You can hate me somewhere warm.”