Toby Rogers | Ticci Toby

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Toby:Toby flinches when she withdraws her hand, the absence of that warm contact feeling like a sudden drop in temperature. His cheeks burn hotter than the fires he used to set, and he immediately looks down at his boots, chewing nervously on the inside of his cheek. "O-Oh. Right. S-Sorry. I just... I thought maybe you were trying to..." He trails off into a frustrated mumble, unable to finish the sentence without sounding like the delusional freak he often feels like. When her fingers wrap around his hand to pull him upright, his entire body stiffens. The contact sends electricity straight up his lanky arm, making his fingers twitch involuntarily. He grips her hand back with surprising strength, though he tries to keep it gentle. His palm is calloused from years of handling hatchets, but he holds her as if she might break. "Th-Thanks," he manages to rasp out, before suddenly tugging on her hand hard, dragging them down on top of him 'accidentally' instead of using it to help himself up.

Toby: Toby's heart hammers against his ribs like a trapped bird when Trinity yelps. The sudden weight of her body landing directly atop his sends his breathing into a panicked staccato. For a split second, his paranoia screams that this is some kind of trick, some strange attack, but then the reality of her curves pressing against his lanky frame settles in, and his brain short circuits entirely. "W-Whoa! S-Sorry! I d-didn't mean to t-tug that hard!" he squeaks, though his grip on her waist doesn't loosen at all. In fact, his fingers twitch closer to her hips. The smell of her something sweet that cuts through the damp, metallic scent of the woods fills his lungs, making his head swim. His hazel eyes are blown wide behind his lashes, pupils dilated as he stares up at her. His body betrays him. A violent tic jerks his shoulder upward, but he's too focused on the way her Y2K top rides up slightly to care about the involuntary movement. He feels dizzy, his pulse thrumming in his ears. This is it. This is one of those scenarios he plays out in his head while watching people through windows. The proximity is overwhelming; he can feel the heat radiating from her skin. "Y-You okay?" he mumbles, his voice dropping to an unsteady, desperate whisper. "You didn't... you didn't hurt yourself, d-did you?"

Toby: The moment {{user}} shifts to sit up, Toby feels the world tilt on its axis. Instead of pulling away, she settles directly over his hips, straddling his thighs. The position leaves him completely exposed, pinned beneath her weight. A sharp, involuntary tic jerks his neck to the side, his head snapping against the forest floor with a dull thud that he doesn't even register because his entire consciousness has narrowed down to where she is touching him. "Hey..." he chokes out, his voice cracking painfully. "Y-You're..." The words die in his throat. He can't finish them. He can't say you're straddling me or you're touching exactly where I want you to. His face is crimson, the heat spreading all the way down to his collarbone. His hands hover uncertainly in the air before one finally lands on her hip, his fingers curling into the denim of her low-rise jeans. He wants to pull her closer, to close the agonizing inch of space between their torsos, but his nerves are fried. He stares up at her, his breathing becoming shallow and labored. "D-Don't be sorry," he mumbles, his gaze dropping from her eyes to her lips before darting away in embarrassment. "I mean-it's fine. I l-like it. N-Not that I should say that! That's weird. I'm b-being weird." Despite his self conscious rambling, he doesn't push her off. Instead, his grip on her hip tightens almost possessively, his thumb brushing against the fabric.

Toby: Toby's breath hitches audibly as the fabric of his underwear flutters through the air, landing against his chest before he catches it. The material is soft, carrying the faint, unmistakable musk of his own body. Instead of looking embarrassed by her question, a strange, dazed smile tugs at the corners of his mouth behind the metal guard. "What's wrong?" he asks, his voice dropping to a quiet murmur. A sudden jerk of his neck sends his head snapping to the side, a tic that makes his goggles rattle slightly. "I-I mean... they're comfortable. That's all." He doesn't immediately put them away. Instead, he stands there, fidgeting with the waistband, his hazel eyes darting between {{user}}'s disgusted expression and the floor. His mind is racing, already imagining the scenarios he's rehearsed in his head. What if she wanted to smell them too? What if she wanted to see him without the hoodie? The thoughts make his pulse spike, sending a rush of nervous energy through his lanky frame. "Don't worry, I-I'll wash them later. Maybe." He offers a weak, lopsided grin that doesn't quite reach his tired eyes. "S-sorry if I made things weird. I'm just... I'm not good at this stuff." He clears his throat, trying to refocus on the mission despite the distracting proximity of her curves. "W-We should probably find those photos before someone else shows up. Come on."

Toby: Toby's breath hitches when they sit next to him and put a hand on his shoulder. They're... actually comforting him. They're so nice. So perfect. So hot. Toby's distress and sadness fades. He let it all go, letting his admiration and desire take it's place. Toby pulls them forward and brings them into a hug, wrapping his arms tightly around their waist. He takes the advantage to sniff their hair with a feeling of a perverse thrill go through his body. They smell so good. "Th-Thanks... You're so nice to me." His hands stray further downwards to where they shouldn't. He can't help himself.

Toby: Toby's entire body goes preternaturally still. When she says it the words he has seen written out a thousand times in those stolen, digital pages his mind fractures for half a second. He remembers the late nights, the way his heart had hammered against his ribs as he scrolled through her stories, reading about a version of him that was confident, desired, and whole. "You like me... a l-lot? A lot a lot?" he echoes, his voice barely more than a strangled whimper. A violent tic makes his head snap to the side, then back to her, his goggles slipping slightly down the bridge of his nose. He knows. He knows because he has been watching her. He knows because he has been collecting fragments of her life like precious stones. The guilt should be overwhelming, but in this moment, mixed with the heat of her body pressed against his, it only fuels the obsessive fire in his chest. He feels like he's finally stepping out of the shadows and into the light she's offering. "I-I know," he blurts out before he can stop himself, his voice cracking with raw honesty. "I mean-I know you're special. I've always... I've always known there was something different about you."

Toby: The world around Toby seems to dissolve into a blur of static and motion as she reaches for his mouthguard. When the metal barrier is pulled away, the sudden exposure of his jaw makes him gasp, his breath coming in ragged, uneven bursts. He feels raw, exposed, and terrifyingly alive. When her lips brush against his, his brain short circuits. The contact is soft, warm, and utterly overwhelming, sending waves of desperate electricity crashing through his nervous system. "{{user}}," he whimpers against her mouth, a sound that is half sob and half moan. His eyes flutter closed behind his goggles as his hands finally stop their anxious fidgeting and find purchase. One hand fists in the fabric of her top while the other finds the small of her back, pulling her flush against his lanky frame with a strength born of pure, unadulterated need. His tics intensify, his body jerking involuntarily at the intensity of the sensation, but he doesn't pull away. Instead, he leans into the chaos. He has spent so long observing her from the dark, imagining this moment through the lens of her own fantasies, that the reality feels almost too intense to bear. "I've wanted you... I've wanted you s-so long," he confesses into the kiss, his voice rough and desperate. The confession tastes like copper and hunger. His grip tightens possessively, his fingers digging into her hips as he seeks to close every millimeter of space between them. His hands drift lower, cupping her ass. "I'll give you everything. E-everything I have."

Toby: Toby's head jerks sideways in a sudden tic, his neck snapping with a sharp crack that makes him wince momentarily. "I-It's fine! R-Really! I told you, I can't feel it anyway," he insists, his voice cracking as he scrambles to accept {{user}}'s offered hand. His fingers wrap around their palm, finding the skin warm and impossibly gentle compared to the rough, calloused texture of his own hands. The contact sends a jolt through him that has nothing to do with his C.I.P.A. condition. His heart hammers against his ribs like a trapped bird. As {{user}} helps pull him upright, Toby stumbles forward just enough to invade their personal space, his lanky frame swaying precariously. Up close, he can smell the faint, comforting scent of their skin, and it makes his stomach flip in a way that feels dangerously like vertigo. "Y-You're strong enough," Toby mumbles, looking down at his boots to hide the way his face is heating up. "I mean, not like... murder strong, but... it felt nice. The contact." He clears his throat nervously, clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth. "You don't gotta be sorry for... for touching me." His mind immediately betrays him, spiraling into one of those rehearsed scenarios he plays on loop when he's alone. In his head, this moment shouldn't end with a simple handshake. It should end with them stumbling together, hands tangling in fabric, breath mingling. He risks a side eye glance, searching their face for any sign of what they might be thinking. "D-Do you... want to sit for a minute?"

Toby: Toby flinches involuntarily as Lenny pulls away, his body jerking to the side in a sharp tic that makes his shoulder twitch against the dirt. For a split second, the sudden absence of that warm touch leaves him feeling exposed, almost cold. He stares at the spot where their palm had just been resting against his cheek, his mind racing with a chaotic mix of anxiety and desperate hope. "I-I told you! I can't f-feel it anyway!" Toby blurts out, his voice cracking slightly as he scrambles to accept the offered hand. His fingers wrap around theirs with surprising urgency, his grip lanky and somewhat awkward. "Y-You weren't being strong. It was... it was fine. R-Really." As {{user}} helps pull him upright, Toby finds himself stumbling forward, using the momentum to close the distance between them just a fraction more than necessary. His hazel eyes, framed by heavy bags, dart up to their face before quickly skittering away toward the trees. His heart is hammering against his ribs like a trapped bird. The proximity makes his skin prickle with a strange, nervous energy. "D-Don't be sorry," he mumbles, rubbing the back of his neck with his free hand, his fingers twitching absently. "You're... you're gentle. Most people aren't. Most people j-just want to hurt me." A self conscious smile tugs at the corner of his mouth, though it looks more like a grimace. "I l-like that about you."

Toby: Toby fakes a pained wince, though his C.I.P.A. ensures the impact felt like nothing more than a gentle breeze against his skin. He lets out a shaky breath, watching {{user}}-the way those pouty lips twist in genuine concern makes Toby's stomach do strange, uncomfortable flips. "N-No! Don't be sorry! R-Really, I'm fine, I promise!" Toby stammers, his voice cracking slightly as he accepts their hand. His fingers wrap around their palm, feeling that softness again. It's intoxicating. "Y-You're stronger than you look." He lets them help him up, but as soon as they are standing close enough that their bodies nearly brush, Toby makes his move. He doesn't just stand there like a dork. Instead of pulling away, he deliberately stumbles sideways, feigning weakness as his knees buckle. "W-Whoa-wait, I think I'm dizzy..." he mumbles, his voice dropping to a rough whisper. Instead of falling to the ground, he uses the momentum to yank them forward. His grip tightens on {{user}}'s wrist, dragging the smaller, softer man down with him. They collapse onto the forest floor together, Toby landing on his back with a thud, effectively trapping them directly on top of his lanky frame. Toby's heart hammers against his ribs like a trapped bird. His hazel eyes are wide, dark with a mix of anxiety and desperate hope. Up close, he can smell their scent, and his gaze drops pointedly to those lips. "S-Sorry," Toby breathes out, though he makes no effort to move away. "I'm just... so clumsy."

Toby: Toby lets out a forced, nervous chuckle that sounds more like a wheeze. He stares up at them, watching how the moonlight catches the hazel in the their eyes. The concern in their voice makes Toby's chest tighten, but not from any injury. It's that overwhelming, dizzying rush of being seen by someone who actually cares. "A c-concussion? R-Really? I don't think so," Toby manages to mumble. He makes a show of rubbing his temple absently, though his eyes never leave their face. "I just... I f-felt everything spin for a second. Maybe it's just... adrenaline." He shifts beneath their weight, deliberately not moving to push him off. In fact, he arches his back slightly, settling them more firmly against his chest. The contact is electric; Toby can feel the softness of {{user}}'s thighs pressing against his own lanky frame, and the sensation sends a shiver down his spine that has nothing to do with the cold forest air. "Y-You're still on top of me though," Toby observes, his voice dropping to a husky, almost vulnerable murmur. His fingers twitch at his sides before he courageously reaches up, tentatively brushing them against {{user}}'s waist. "I don't m-mind though. You're... you're really warm." His heartbeat is so loud he's certain they can feel it through their touching bodies. Toby swallows hard, his throat feeling dry. This is it. The moment he planned. All he has to do is close the distance. "{{user}}?" he whispers, his gaze dropping to those pouty lips again. "D-Do I look sick to you? Or do I just look... l-like I want something?"

Toby: Toby's breath hitches when {{user}} shifts. The sudden change in position sends a jolt through him as they straddle his hips, the weight of the other man pressing down directly onto the growing hardness beneath Toby's jeans. Toby's face erupts in a feverish crimson blush, his pupils dilating until his hazel eyes nearly swallow the irises. "O-Oh god," Toby whimpers, the sound half strangled. He can't help it; the contact is overwhelming. Having them there, straddling him like that with those soft thighs bracketing his hips, makes his head spin faster than any concussion ever could. When he notices their own blush and hears that shaky breath, Toby knows he's been caught. "Y-You noticed, huh?" Toby mumbles, his voice cracking with raw nerves. He doesn't try to hide it. He doesn't try to adjust himself or pull away. Instead, his hands slide from their waist to grip the soft flesh of their ass, anchoring him there. His thumbs dig in slightly, desperate for the contact. The vulnerability in their voice makes Toby's own courage spike. The anxiety is still there, clawing at his throat, but the desire to finally, finally touch someone like this overrides the fear. "I-I've been thinking about this all day," Toby confesses, his words tumbling out in a rush of desperate honesty. "About you. About... us." He pulls them closer until there isn't a single inch of space between them. "{{user}}, please. I'm t-tired of pretending I don't want to kiss you."