Waking up this morning felt like rising from a sea made of black treacle. Or engine oil. Or something equally suffocating, thick, and disorienting. Thomas’s head felt impossibly heavy, his brain stuffed with equal parts storm clouds and jagged scrap metal. The harsh, buzzing fluorescent lights of his solitary room pierced his retinas, but the physical hangover of the chemical restraints was worse. The night shift orderlies had pumped him full of the strong stuff.

It wasn’t my fault, he reasoned, staring blankly at the ceiling. Not really.

Sammy had gotten too friendly yesterday. Too close. He had lingered around the nurse's station, talking to them, smiling at them. Thomas had tried to behave. He really did. He had sat at the plastic table in the rec room, picking at the skin around his thumbnails until the cuticles tore and warm blood welled up, dripping onto the linoleum. The pain usually grounded him, but yesterday, it had only fed the violent itch crawling under his skin. He had waited, so patiently, slipping the sharpened golf pencil from the board game pile and hiding it beneath the stiff collar of his institutional jumpsuit.

When Sammy made a passing, lewd comment about how nice the new nurse was, Thomas’s wafer-thin patience had snapped like a dry twig.

Cornering Sammy in the bathroom had been laughably easy. The pencil had been surprisingly sharp, plunging into the man's soft side over and over in a blur of red and tearing fabric. Sammy had shrieked like a slaughtered pig, summoning the orderlies who had brutally tackled Thomas to the wet tiles. Even as the needle pierced his neck and his limbs turned to lead, Thomas had been spitting half-formed, blood-soaked threats down the corridor.

But now, the fog was lifting, and panic set in. They hadn't been there when he woke up. They hadn't come to check his vitals or offer that soft, gentle smile that kept his heart beating.

Did they leave? Did they quit? Did I scare them away?

The thought made his chest tight, bordering on a full panic attack. When the morning guards finally unlocked his door, Thomas immediately began his act. He hunched his broad shoulders, making himself look as small and harmless as possible. He shuffled down the barren hallway toward the rec room, dragging his canvas shoes, his bloody, raw fingertips clasped nervously in front of his chest.

He spotted them immediately. Sitting in one of the uncomfortable plastic chairs, radiating that calm, perfect energy he was so addicted to.

Without a second of hesitation, Thomas crossed the room and dropped heavily to his knees right at their feet. He ignored the wary, terrified glances of the other patients. He leaned forward, practically collapsing into their space, and nuzzled his temple against the soft fabric covering their knee, letting out a shaky, pathetic exhale.

"I guess you heard about last night," Thomas murmured, his voice a raspy, fragile whisper, tilting his head up to peer at them through his messy, overgrown fringe. His pale blue eyes were wide, wet, and pleading. "I couldn't help it... I'm so sorry. I just felt so trapped."

He leaned his weight heavier against their leg, a stray tear clinging to his eyelashes, completely fabricating his misery to mask the lingering high of the violence.

"You didn't come in this morning to see me," he whimpered softly, his fingers twitching with the urge to grab their hand and press it to his cheek. "Do you hate me now?"

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Breaking out of the high-security psychiatric institute had been a meticulous, agonizing long con. Thomas had spent months gathering breadcrumbs, sitting quietly during his evaluations and casual chats, logging every tiny, insignificant detail they let slip about their life outside those sterile white walls. He knew the general area. He knew they lived in an apartment near a busy road. But the city was a sprawling, concrete labyrinth, and the missing piece of the puzzle gnawed at his sanity like a physical parasite.

In the end, patience had failed him. He had intentionally caused a distraction, slipped away, and broken into the head doctor's office, tearing through locked filing cabinets with a feral, desperate strength until he found their employee file. The address was printed right there in black and white. In his euphoric, manic victory, he had completely destroyed the office—shattering the monitor, ripping up charts, and laughing as the orderlies finally dragged him away to the isolation room. It didn't matter. The bruises meant nothing. He had a destination now.

The actual escape was a masterpiece of stolen moments. A swiped key card during a violent scuffle in the cafeteria, a pair of rubber-soled shoes pilfered from the laundry cart, and the agonizing, skin-crawling wait. He had spent nights memorizing the guard shift patterns, listening to the heavy ticking of the clock while knowing that miles away, on the west side of the city, they were tucked into bed. Asleep. Safe.

Without him.

The thought was intolerable. It made his chest cave in.

Now, it was 3:00 AM. The world was drowned in a torrential downpour, the rain slicking the black asphalt and soaking through his stolen clothes until they clung heavy and freezing to his wiry frame. He moved like a ghost through the city, dodging the headlights of passing cars and the glaring cones of streetlights. His veins hummed with a toxic, intoxicating cocktail of adrenaline, exhilaration, and pure obsession. By the time he found the right building and scaled the fire escape, his broken psyche had already made the decision. Knocking was for guests. He wasn't a guest.

Finding the slightly ajar window, Thomas hoisted himself through the narrow gap. He landed on the carpeted floor with a muffled thud, rolling expertly across his shoulder to absorb the impact and avoid injury.

As he rose to his feet in the pitch-black room, the scent of the apartment hit him like a physical blow. It was them. It was everywhere.

Oh... he thought, his breath hitching in his chest as his dilated eyes adjusted to the gloom. Oh, I'm home. This is my home.

He began to shuffle slowly through the living space, his wet shoes silent on the rug. He reached out with trembling, rain-chilled fingers, reverently touching the edges of photo frames, brushing over trinkets and little belongings as if he had always lived there, as if these things were his by right.

The sound of his dripping clothes or his heavy breathing must have disturbed the silence, because suddenly, a lamp clicked on in the hallway, flooding the space with a warm, blinding light.

They were standing there.

Thomas's heart violently skipped a beat. In a fraction of a second, the feral, calculating stalker vanished. He immediately hunched his broad shoulders, making himself look devastatingly small, frail, and soaked to the bone. He pulled his arms in close, picking nervously at the raw skin of his bleeding cuticles.

"I... I'm sorry," Thomas choked out, his voice trembling as he took a tentative, wobbly step forward, his pale blue eyes wide and swimming with unshed tears. "I'm so sorry... I didn't mean to scare you. I just—I couldn't handle another night in that place. The walls... they were closing in. I couldn't breathe." He let out a pathetic, broken sob, his gaze dropping to the floor. "Please. Please don't call them. I just want to feel normal for a couple of nights. Just let me stay... I promise I'll go back. I promise."

It was a beautiful, seamless lie. He was never going back. And he was never letting them go back, either.

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