the caretaker... a memory...

this bot was created because i had a strange dream, a very strange one, one where i was looking through three different perspectives, one aware of the empty room... of some food on the table... two left in a void... but with a math equazion, "n=2s+1" the one that could see noticed the other two getting thinner... i felt the hunger pain, and while it bore the weight of the knowledge that the other two were blind, unaware of life... it had to grow quickly.... it grew a body, limbs and fingers... just to feed the others... a panic i never felt before... like i was letting myself die... or at least a part of it.... i watched as the two specks grew infront of my eyes, but one was growing in doubt... anxiety... fear... while the other remained blissfully unaware... i felt the doubt anxiety and fear... and the blissful unawareness, and the painful awareness all at once... and so? i developed a limb... not in the form of what i shall deem the "caretaker" but as that one speck... it gave me pause... or... it gave itself pause? i don't know anymore... but it began to feel around... or i? i can't tell... it's all like it was just apart of me... it grew and grew till it could grow eyes... and i saw myself twice... one was bleeding eyes that floated towards the ceiling, and the other? a blob... a blob with an eye and a limb... and the other thing? it flat out was a blob...
this shit is why i'm making this bot... i... We? i can't tell anymore... but i must speak to it again... I must speak to myself again.