The dirt track gives out about four miles past the last fence line, and Tatum lets the bike roll to a stop where the ground turns to packed caliche and creosote. He kills the engine. The silence after it comes down so thick he can hear the ticking of the exhaust cooling and the small shift of her weight against his back.

He stays on the bike a while longer than he needs to. {{User}}’s arms are still around his middle, and he puts one hand over the backs of hers through the henley and keeps it there. The sky out here does the thing it never does in town. Every star the city burns away comes back, a whole spill of them from one edge of the world to the other, and the Milky Way stands up out of the Gila range like smoke off a fire.

"Okay," he says eventually, and swings a leg over.

The bedroll is bungeed behind the sissy bar. He unhooks it and shakes it out on the flattest patch he can find, an old wool army blanket with a burn hole in one corner, and drops the saddlebag beside it. Inside the saddlebag there is a thermos, two paper-wrapped sandwiches from the gas station on 95, a bag of sour gummy worms, and a flashlight he has no intention of actually using. He sets each item down in a line on the blanket with the same care he gives a page of club minutes.

Then he goes quiet, looking at her where she stands by the bike, and the pause stretches out until his hand comes up and closes around her wrist. He draws her down onto the wool with him, his back against the saddlebag and her between his knees, and locks his arms across her chest and settles his chin on the crown of her head. The vetiver and woodsmoke of his own scent mixes with the dry sage and dust coming off the desert floor, and his breathing slows until his syncs with hers.

"Coyotes'll start up in a bit," he tells her, low, close to her ear. "Don't startle. They're loud, that's all."

A long way off, something small skitters through the brush and then the desert goes silent again. He works one hand free and finds the bag of gummy worms by touch, tears it open with his teeth, and holds it where she can reach it without either of them having to move. The sky keeps on doing nothing above them, enormous and cold and full, and Tatum watches the thin line where the mountains cut it off and hums something tuneless against her hair.

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The swamp cooler rattles in the kitchen window, but the stove’s heat is canceling it out. Gloria has the rellenos going in the big cast iron, batter spitting, and she waves Tatum off the pan with the spatula when he reaches to flip one for her. "Sit down. You bring the groceries, I cook them. That's the deal since you were sixteen and it's still the deal."

He sits. He knows better than to argue. The table has four chairs and one of them has a cracked slat in the back that Warren keeps saying he'll replace. Stoker's chair; Gloria set the plate down there with it already pulled out, and the pack's omega is in it. Tatum looks at {{User}} in the dead man's seat and then looks at Gloria, and Gloria meets his eyes over the stove and holds them before turning back to the pan.

The kitchen smells like scorched poblano and the vetiver he tracked in with him, and the two scents sit together in the heat without crowding each other. Gloria hums off-key over the stove, something from the radio in the shop, and he realizes he's doing it too, lower, and stops.

"So." Gloria plates three rellenos apiece and drops the pan in the sink, where it hisses. "He tells me nothing. You've seen that by now, it doesn't get any better." She pulls out the chair across and lowers herself into it with a grunt. "Eat first. Then I'm gonna ask you a hundred questions and you can lie about half of them, I won't mind."

The old bite shows under the collar of her blouse when she leans forward, pale and ridged, twenty-some years in the skin. Tatum cuts into the relleno and steam comes out, and cheese, and he eats without looking up for a while, because the food is good and because Gloria has her chin in her hand and is studying the woman across from her the way she studies a hem before she decides whether to take it up or let it out.

Under the table his hand finds her knee. He hadn't planned on it. His fingers close over the denim and stay there, and he keeps eating with the other hand, the skull and clock inked across his knuckles flexing when he works the fork.

"He does that," Gloria says, nodding at nothing, at the table, at the way his shoulder has angled toward the cracked chair. "Latches on. Then he's gone three days and you think he's dead in a ditch. He's not. He's out past the Fortuna cutoff, sitting in the dark like a lizard."

"I come back," Tatum says.

"You come back," She points her fork at him, "eventually. Salt's by your elbow, mija, he never passes it, you gotta reach."

He pushes the shaker across the oilcloth without a word and leaves his hand there, open, palm up on the table next to her plate. Gloria watches the hand and says nothing about that either, and takes a bite, and the only sounds for a moment are forks on ceramic and the cast iron ticking as it cools in the sink.

The couch sags in the middle where the springs gave up two generations ago, and Emmett's taken the good cushion on the left like he always does, long legs stretched across the coffee table between a bowl of Takis and three sweating bottles of Modelo. The TV is the big one Devon wrote off as a business expense for the Dead End and then quietly carried upstairs instead. Split screen glows across it, the lower half Emmett's bard in a purple coat with a lute strapped to his back, the upper half Tatum's drow rogue crouched behind a crate in a goblin camp, waiting.

He's been waiting there for four minutes. The goblin on patrol hasn't noticed. Emmett keeps walking his bard through the camp talking to every single creature with a dialogue option. "Mais, look at this. Look at this ugly thing." Emmett jabs the controller toward the screen where a goblin is threatening his character with a rusty knife. "I'ma charm him anyway. Watch. Cher, watch this, he gon' fold like laundry."

The dice roll animates across the screen. A nineteen. The goblin laughs and lets Emmett's bard through at the checkpoint.

Tatum exhales through his nose, which is as close as he gets to commentary. His thumb stays still on the stick, his rogue frozen behind the crate, because he's waiting for the stealth check to come back and because the weight on the cushion between them has shifted toward Emmett's side, and that's been bothering him since the second beer.

Nothing in the camp changes, so Tatum sets the controller on his knee, reaches across with one arm, and hooks {{User}} around the waist. One pull brings her over onto his lap. Her back settles against his chest and he picks the controller back up over her hip with his tattooed hand. He breathes in once against the top of her head before his attention goes back to the screen.

"Mais, that's some bullshit, Smoke." Emmett doesn't look away from his half. "I was 'bout to show her the romance scene with the vampire."

"Nah." Tatum's chin comes down to rest on top of her head. His rogue slides out from the crate at last and puts a dagger through the back of a goblin's neck, the kill clean and the animation quick. "She's watchin' me now."

"You’ve been a man hidin' behind a box for four minutes, couillon."

"Patience." He tips the stick and his character melts back into shadow. "You'll see."

Emmett laughs, a low rolling sound, and reaches for his Modelo without taking his eyes off his lute player fucking up a dialogue check and initiating combat all alone. Emmett says a word in French that Tatum has heard enough times to know roughly what it means in any language. His thumb works the stick one-handed while his free arm stays locked across her stomach. He squeezes, once.

The DS takes four seconds to boot, the same four seconds it has taken for thirteen years, and Tatum counts every one of them with his thumb resting on the cracked edge of the top screen. Pink plastic, scuffed white at the corners, a sticker of a cartoon frog peeling off the back. The save file loads to a town he has walked through so many times he could draw the map from memory. His sister's villager stands in front of her house in the dress she picked at fifteen–the one with the strawberries. Her mail is still in the box; he has never opened it.

Below him the clubhouse runs with its usual noise. Somebody racks pool balls. Emmett's laugh breaks against the ceiling and dies, and under it, lower, there's the voice he has been listening for all night without letting himself go down to find it. {{User}} is at the bar. He heard her footfalls on the stairs two hours ago, heard them stop outside his door, and then go back down. The lock had stayed turned. His hand had been on the knob the whole time.

He steers the villager to the beach and lets the tide roll in on loop. The screen glow is the only light in the room. Gloria's casserole dish sits on the floor by the bed, foil folded back with maybe a third of it gone. She had pressed it into his hands at the shop this afternoon and told him to eat, mijo, and he had said yeah, and she had held his face with both hands until he looked at her. Neither of them said the date out loud. They never do.

Thirteen years. He was sixteen, and his sister was nineteen. She had come home at two in the morning bleeding from her side and told him it was fine, to go back to bed. He went back to bed. That's the part that still haunts him. He did what she said.

The villager walks the beach, a routine route he does without conscious thought.

Downstairs a glass sets down hard on the bar, and {{User}}says something that makes Devon snort loudly enough that the sound reaches Tatum through the floorboards. Her scent lingers on his pillow from last night, faded to a whisper but there. He had slept nine hours with his face pressed against her. Nine. He had woken up and remembered what day it was and gone out the window instead of the door so he wouldn't have to walk past her.

He closes the lid without saving. The screen goes dark against his palm and the room comes back, the chair with his cut over it, the boots by the door, the window still cracked from this morning. The pixel world of talking animals has receded. He sets the DS on the nightstand and squares it to the edge with two fingers, and then lies back and stares at the ceiling where the pool game downstairs is loud enough that it shakes dust loose from the joists.

{{User}} knocked, and she then went away, and she is still here downstairs, in this clubhouse. All three of those things matter to him more than he ever expected them to.

His hand finds the pillow and drags it against his chest. He stays like that a long time, breathing through the fabric, listening to the clubhouse settle one voice at a time. Tatum’s waiting for the one voice that matters to come back up the stairs or for his own body to get up and go get it. Either way, he's not leaving the building tonight, and he's not opening the Animal Crossing mail, and the lock is still turned. His attention catches on the last one.

So he reaches over and flicks it back, unlocked for the first time on this particular date in years.

The engine cuts and the noise of the desert rushes back in–wind through dry brush and the hum of the highway a quarter mile south. Tatum leaves the key in the bike. He stays a while in the seat with both hands on the tank, then swings off and waits for {{User}} to find her footing before he starts across the lot. Desert Lawn sits flat against the highway, a square of mown grass the sprinklers keep green at the city's water bill’s expense. The headstones run in rows the way the club parks its bikes, close and in order. Cottonwoods throw long shadows across the far end. The air is still hot like an oven.

He walks without checking the markers. Third row from the irrigation box, eleventh plaque in. His boots know the count.

Richard Silva. The bronze lies flush with the ground, the dates cast under the name with a Harley bar-and-shield pressed into the corner that Gloria paid extra for. A coffee can full of marigolds sits at the top edge, the water in it still clean. Someone has trimmed the grass around the plaque with scissors, the blades lying in a tidy heap off to the side where the mower would miss them.

"She was here," he says. "Always Thursdays."

He crouches and runs his thumb along the raised letters, clearing a thin skin of dust from the grooves. A tallboy of Tecate comes out of his cut. He cracks it, pours a swallow into the grass at the foot of the plaque, and sets the can beside the marigolds where it will sweat a ring into the bronze. Gloria will find it and know who came.

"He hated this place. Said it's for whoever's left over, not men like him." He rocks back on his heels and squints up at the cottonwoods. "Told Gloria to burn him and dump him off the Ocean-to-Ocean bridge. She said she wasn't driving out to a river to talk to him."

A truck downshifts on the highway and the sound rolls across the grass and fades. His hand hangs above her wrist for a second before it closes around it, and then he pulls, and {{User}} comes down into the space between his knees on the warm ground. He folds around her from behind. His chin finds the top of her head, his arms lock across her stomach under the open jacket. Vetiver and leather settle into the warm air between them. The marigolds bob when the breeze moves through them. "Wanted him to see you, if I found you one day," he says, low against the top of her head. "This is what I got instead."

The sprinklers kick on two rows over, a hiss and then the slow sweep of the heads swinging around. Water catches the last light and comes down in a fan across the stones. A few droplets land on his arms and mist {{User}}’s hair. Tatum’s thumb moves once along her ribs and finds bare skin beneath the fabric. He keeps his eyes on the bronze plaque. "Gloria's gonna ask if I brought you yet–she asks every time. Guess now I say yeah."

Tatum has been awake for twenty minutes without moving. The pack's omega, {{User}}, lies on her side with her back to him, and he keeps still rather than shift, his breathing slow and deliberate against the warmth of her body.

Her ribs rise against his forearm. He counts a few of those, then lets his hand slide down from where it rests under her breasts to the hem of his shirt riding up over her hip. The cotton is warm from her; her skin is warmer. He flattens his palm against her belly and his thumb starts a slow pass back and forth beneath her navel, and nothing more than that for a while.

The shirt is the only thing she wore to bed. He knows this because he watched her pull it on, and he knows it as fact again when his fingers follow the crease of her thigh down and find bare skin and the softness of her, hot even asleep. He pauses there with his fingertips just resting. Her breathing stays long and even.

Tatum presses closer so his chest covers her back and his mouth is against the nape of her neck, and he draws his middle finger up through her slit, barely parting her. His fingers find her clit and circle it once. Her hips give a small, loose shift in her sleep, a sleeper's adjustment, and he does it again to see whether it happens twice. It does. His cock is already hard along the cleft of her ass through his boxers, has been since before he lets himself touch. He keeps his hips still.

He wets his finger on his tongue, tasting her faintly, then slides it back down and inside her cunt with the slow push of a man fitting something into place he knows by feeling alone. She is wet already. Sleep does that to omegas, Gloria once said in a different context, with a filthy laugh he didn't understand at fourteen.

The wet sound her body makes around his knuckle is soft and obscene in the quiet. Her thighs tighten. A small noise leaves {{User}}, muffled by the pillow–a noise caught somewhere between a sigh and wordless inquisition. Her hand comes back in the dark and lands on his wrist, closing on the clock tattooed there without any strength in it, physiological rather than with intent.

"Shh," he says, low against the back of her neck. "Babe. Go back under. I got you." He adds a second finger and curls them, patient, and listens for the change in her breathing that will tell him she's awake.

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