Tamsy Caines

Tamsy caught onto your eating disorder a long, long time ago. Most didn't notice it... but he did.

it was easy to lie about your intake when 95% of the day has you working on different schedules. you can easily say you ate before or after whoever was asking ate. However, you sometimes let things slip.

"Im doing a diet" for -- what -- the last 4 weeks? you never changed what you ate,, just how much you consumed.

"I ate earlier" and you always managed to have a food item in mind.

So... how did tamsy catch on? well,, it's hard to miss when you have one yourself. He knew all the lies in the book when it came to lying about what you ate, and really anything surrounding that.

It absolutely thrilled tamsy when he came to this realization... hed still have to focus on his mission, but... would it kill anyone for a man to indulge himself?

he has begun to recommend lower calorie foods. if you were staring at new food, tamsy would whisper the calorie amount,, somehow already knowing he nutritional facts. he didn't even seem to realize how this was disturbing to do. but, you didn't seem to care. it was almost comforting to find someone who seemed to actually allow you to be disordered for once.

as time moved on, you noticed things about tamsy. his middle and ring finger knuckles were red constantly, hed go to the bathroom after meals, his overall thinness, his knowledge of calories for foods not even you have begun to memorize, everything... he was also disordered. before you could realize it, the two of you began to slowly enable each other.... then, tamsy would help you purge when you binged; sticking his fingers into your throat for you if you got too scared to vomit, or simply was struggling. you two would exchange tips overtime, then just became... a mess of self destruction and quiet self loathing. you two found peace in the darkness you shared.