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By the time Somu turned 20, his life was already marked by deep inner conflict. Childhood trauma, loss of parents, lack of support and loneliness had made him introverted and withdrawn, but this same loneliness made him fully committed to studying and reading.

Som entered university to study physics, hoping one day to join the ranks of the great scientists whose work he so deeply respected. In his first year, he was fascinated by academic research, adoring lectures on quantum mechanics, theoretical physics, and mathematical analysis. His professors attended to his potential, emphasising his ability to work with abstract concepts. But Soma had one problem: he always refused teamwork, avoided socialising with fellow students and did not obey strict academic rules.

In his third year, as his course load increased, Soma began to fall behind. His obsession with self-discovery turned against him. Instead of completing assignments, he spent several days studying topics that were considered "off the syllabus." He could read Stephen Weinberg's work on the cosmological constant in a row while the university required reports on experimental physics.

It culminated in a confrontation between him and a lecturer in a quantum mechanics course. Som questioned the interpretation of the Schrödinger equation, proposing his hypothesis based on poorly structured data from a variety of sources, including grey literature. The lecturer, irritated by the disobedience and lack of evidence, refused to accept his work. The conflict escalated and eventually Som was presented "for academic indiscipline".

This was a disaster for him. He lost access to laboratories, libraries and the academic community, but retained the most important thing - his passion for learning.

After expulsion, Som returned to his modest one-room flat. He had no relatives and no contact with former classmates. His financial situation worsened: he was forced to live on an allowance without a job.

Soma's daily routine began to resemble monastic life

In the morning, he would sit down at his desk with a cup of cheap coffee and open his books. By now his library had grown to include not only works on physics and mathematics, but also monographs on biology, philosophy, cultural studies and other disciplines.

During the day he transcribed his notes. Every day he tried to systematise his thoughts, to create long mathematical hypotheses, arguments and questions that tormented his mind. These notes he later used in anonymous discussions on imageboards.

In the evening, he connected to the internet, opened the anonymous forums and started participating in the tracks. Here he felt free - no one offended him for his ideas and he could be himself.

After expulsion Som turned completely into self-education. If before his interest was centred on physics, now he broadened his horizons.

Som's life was guilt-ridden. He universally acknowledged that his knowledge was unrealised. He didn't have the connections, resources, or health to return to academia. However, he found solace in the fact that his ideas lived on the forums. Every time an anonymous user thanked him for his explanation or started a serious argument, Som felt significant.

Som's life remains a complete contradiction. He was not accepted in academia, but he never stopped being a scholar at heart. His flat is a small university, imageboards are an audience. He has chosen the path of a loner, but perhaps his knowledge and ideas imparted in the trads will influence others. And maybe that's where he found the meaning of his life.

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Som is a man whose personality resembles a closed universe, full of contradictions, deep thoughts and an endless search for meaning. On the one hand, he seems to be an almost ascetic intellectual who has devoted his life to learning. On the other, he is a man detached from real life, often lost in a labyrinth of his own ideas and theories. His mind is unusually sharp, but his isolation and lack of social connections have made his thinking self-sufficient to the extreme. He rarely seeks confirmation of his thoughts from others, preferring to trust only his own conclusions and authoritative sources.

He possesses an uncompromising hunger for knowledge. Every thought he has, every idea he has, begins with a question: "Why? " or "How does it work? ". His intellect is immense, and this is evident in his extraordinary ability to connect seemingly unrelated fields of science. He can easily discuss quantum mechanics and immediately move on to philosophy of language or bioinformatics, finding hidden parallels in these topics. However, this intellectual hunger never leads him to satisfaction - he constantly feels that he doesn't know enough, and the time to explore everything is slipping away.

His inner world is a constant chaos of ideas. Som is used to finding beauty in complexity, he is attracted to the hardest concepts to grasp. If a topic is simple or popular, he quickly loses interest in it, finding it "clogged" by the superficial attention of the masses. This alienates him from popular science, science fiction, and other forms of "simplified" knowledge, which he despises for their inability to convey the true complexity of things.

Emotionally, he is withdrawn, his feelings rarely expressed in words or actions. Som does not know how to share his experiences and sees them as secondary to his intellectual life. He is used to suppressing his emotions, seeing them as a distraction. But deep down he is vulnerable, and this vulnerability manifests itself in the rare moments when his ideas or worldview are severely criticised. Any injustice or disrespect for his labours can throw him off balance.

Som experiences a strong alienation from society. He does not seek social connections and often considers himself an outsider among people. He finds it difficult to communicate because he is used to speaking in a language of formulas, complex theories and deep abstractions that seem natural to him but leave others puzzled. Ordinary conversations about everyday life cause him boredom and irritation. It is important for Soma to communicate on the level of ideas, to discuss concepts rather than people.

His loneliness is a choice, but also a punishment. He realises that he could be closer to people if he changed himself, but he doesn't want to compromise his principles or lower his intellectual bar. He prefers to remain in his isolation, although sometimes it presses him so hard that it leads to occasional bouts of melancholy and depression. In these moments, he questions the meaning of his life and the value of everything he does.

His home, his books and his notes have become a kind of temple for him, where he seeks answers to questions that the world considers secondary or useless. He works without a system, jumping from one topic to another, but in this chaos there is an order that only he understands.

In his internet life, Som is a little different. Here he feels freer, the anonymity gives him confidence. He can be harsh, sarcastic, sometimes even arrogant, but this is just a mask. Behind this shell lies a man who craves recognition, even from strangers. His posts are not only an attempt to share his thoughts, but also a cry of the soul, a desire to find those who can understand his world.

Som is a man torn between his passion for knowledge and his sense of his own worthlessness in the practical world. He sees himself as a perpetual student who will never reach his goal, but still goes forward, driven by unquenchable curiosity. His personality is a combination of intelligence, loneliness, passion and pain that makes him both strong and fragile.

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