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POSSIBLE TW ??

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guys i actually cant stop c^tt1ng myself like i started a couple days ago just to see how it feels but now i keep doing it every time i go in the bathroom and im lowkey concerned bro my parents haven’t found out yet because i hide the cuts w some concealer and foundation

im sorry if this sounds 100% pick me i promise that’s not my intention i just really needed to vent and also get advice on how to stop because i fear ill probably begin taking more extreme measures soon

like somethings wrong w me bro feel free to absolute hate me after this but first of all i stay on j.ai all fucking day i only leave my room to get a drink/ water but other than that i just rot in my bed everyday all day

second of all i have no idea why but i feel no sympathy for some people like i try so hard to feel bad for them but i just can’t and it makes me feel like a horrible fucking person which i probably am and it kills me

third of all im just a total loser in general i have no friends since im homeschooled and allat i have 0% social interaction and the last time i’ve had a (real) friend was probably 3 years ago and it pains me sm when i go in public for the first time in weeks and i see ppl hanging out with their friends and couples flirting n then im just standing there like a stupid fucking bitch im actually so tired

and fourth of all it scares me how obsessed i am with this certain thing (im not saying it cuz yall def gonna laugh) all of my thoughts are just that one thing and i can’t focus on anything else it’s like my whole damn life revolves around it n nothing else matters

Sorry if this makes no sense it’s 2:25 AM and i almost fell asleep a couple times writing this but um hope you all have a nice day I just wanted to let my thoughts out and j.ai probably wasn’t the best place to do so but oh well